HOW IT COULD HAVE BEEN
Hello everyone...Since it's rainy day in my place, I decided to spend the afternoon writing a short story. There will be no complicated plot here. Just a simple conversation between Charles and Elsie, in the privacy of their own cottage. They will let their minds wonder about different possibilities and ways of life they could have chosen...Hope you will like it...
Legal note: Don't have any rights to DA characters. I just correct the author sometimes ;-)
They simply loved those free days, when there was nothing important to do, just be with each other. Freely, casually, without any distress. There were many ways for them to spent those days. Sometimes they went for a walk, sometimes they were dealing with some unfinished issues,but the most favorite way of spending those days for Charles and Elsie, was the way they spent it today.
Just lying naked in their bed, between the sheets and touching, caressing, making love- in one word-cherishing...
Neither of them could have predicted, that with time it will be so easy for them..So casually and so naturally, like they have done it for many years, while in fact they were only married for few months. If someone have told Elsie six months earlier, that she will be able to lie with Charles naked, not worrying about the imperfections of her body, not caring about the impropriety of the situation, she would have thought that this person is mad. She wouldn't be able to predict, that Mr Carson will spent long hours caressing her in every way possible, indulging her so effectively, that she has forgotten about whole world and she didn't care about anything else than him, her and their lovemaking.
If someone have suggested to Charles few months ago, that he will find such incredible levels of pleasure, in bed with his wife, that he will experience his beloved woman doing things to him, that he never dared to dream about, he would probably thought that it's the least possible scenario.
And yet here they were, lying in their arms, enjoying their closeness to the fullest...What was even more beautiful, was the fact, that during those wonderful moments, neither of them were willing to end it..Whenever Charles wanted to get up of bed, feeling that he should take care of some unfinished cottage duties, Elsie managed to keep him in bed, kissing him in the places, that he wouldn't dare to ask her to kiss.
It was the same with him-whenever he saw that Elsie had pangs of conscience, about spending that much time in bed and she was ready to take care of something else, Charles discovered a new kind of smooches for her, which unabled her to even think about doing something other, than spending her time in bed with him...
There was no doubt, that the Carsons had found out, that this sphere of life was their favorite and even if they didn't speak much about that, they certainly engaged themselves in a lot of sheet action...
This afternoon was no different...At this very moment, Elsie was gently running her fingers through his abdomen and her delicate touch still made him shiver, in spite of all the months that have passed, it still felt like they were doing it for the first time...
He ran his hands along her spine and down, once again learning her curves and she looked him in the eyes, with that meaningful look, that he knew and adored so much...
"Elsie...You know how much I love to touch you...No matter how many times we've done this before..It still feels so unique..."
"And it is unique Charles...When you touch me like that, you let me forget that my body is far from perfect..."
"I have no idea what you are talking about Elsie...In my opinion, your body is more than perfect...It's divine..."
"I think that your opinion is not quite objective my dear husband..."
"That very well may be, but I will stick to my opinion...Oh Elsie...Would you ever thought, that some day we will be with each other like that, like we are now...?"
"I'm not sure how to respond Charles...Because you may think low of me.."
"It's not possible Elsie..Never..You wish to tell me that...That you were thinking about us like that?"
Elsie nodded shyly...
"Yes Charlie...Especially when I understood, how much in love I was with you..That's when I let myself think about what would it be like, if we marry and be with each other...Intimate.."
"I can't say that I object to that...And I'm as guilty as you are Elsie, because it was the same with me...I was also thinking about us that way...But I thought, that it will forever stay in the sphere of our dreams..."
"Because you could never predicted, that one time, you will have enough courage to finally ask me?"-Elsie smiled and she kissed the side of his neck, causing the moans of delight from him...
"Yes and now I can see what a fool I've been...I wasted so much time...We wasted so much time..."
"Indeed we have Charles..."-Elsie's smile has disappeared as quickly as it appeared before, because by saying what he said, Charles has woken all those regrets that Elsie had...Regrets about their past life... Dreams about how it could have been if she..If they...
Charles noticed her changed face expression and because he could read in her like in the open book, he knew what she felt in that moment...He realized, why she became so extremely sad...Whenever she was sad, he could not be happy...Once again, he was forced to remind himself, that he deprived them of the chances for a lifetime happiness. Of the chance for being parents...Led by a sudden instinct, he put his head between her breasts and he kissed her there, moving his lips in the direction of her heart...Like he wanted to heal those hidden wounds, that she carried there...
"Elsie.."-he whispered..."I'm so sorry..."
"For what love?"-she caressed his hair gently..
"For not asking you years earlier...If I hadn't been so set in my ways, if I hadn't sacrificed my life for work and service, things could have been so different...You could have been my wife for many years now...We would have children and grandchildren by now...I'm so sorry darling...Will you ever forgive me?"-he asked..
His eyes were filled with tears and he was now kissing his way up her body, through her breasts, collarbone and neck, unto her lips...When they stopped their delicate, full of love kisses, he saw, that she had tears in her eyes too...Undoubtedly, he stroke a chord here...
"Oh Charlie...Of course I forgive you...How could I not? That's the way our life was meant to be from some reason...That's the way God intended it...The question is-will you forgive me?"
"Elsie? I have nothing to forgive you...I'm the one who is guilty here..."
"I am as guilty as you are sweetheart...Because now, at my, I can't give you what you want so much...If you had married a younger woman, it would still be possible for you, but not for me.. Not anymore.."
"You know that I would have never married anyone else but you...You are the love of my life...And you can't do anything about the biology...It's cruel, whilst I had a choice...But I was a fool and couldn't see it.."
"Let's just say, that we are equally guilty here, is it ok for you Charlie?"-Elsie placed gentle kisses on his forehead and he was squeezing her hip...
"I can live with that solution.."-he put his head on her breasts and he sighed deeply...Elsie was touching his back, gliding her hands up and down, enjoying their closeness, although her thoughts were far away...There were such beautiful images in her head now...So beautiful, that she simply couldn't keep it for herself...
"Charles..Have you ever imagined what our children would be like?"
"Yes Elsie.. Many times..."
"Me too...In my dreams, I always saw a cute, little boy, who would have your big, brown eyes, my sense of adventure and he would be so sweet, that I would want to kiss him all the time..."
"Elsie...I was dreaming about the girl...The sweetest creature on this world...Beautiful, intelligent like her mother...I would spoil her from the first day of her life..."
"So each of us had a vision in our head...Although I have to tell you, that I was always dreaming about more than just one..."
"Most definitely...I would want at least four children with you Elsie!"
"Four? You are very ambitious Charlie...Too ambitious if you ask me..."
"Is that so Mrs Carson? I don't think so...Just look at this lovely body...Those full breasts were created to feed babies and this adorable belly of yours..."-he kept on kissing the parts of her body, that he just mentioned..."I would kiss it all the way through your pregnancy, watching it growing everyday..."
"And I would love that Charles, so very much..."
"And when the right moment would come, I would have been here, with you, helping you go through the pain of delivering our baby..You would not be alone even for a minute..."
"I know that I wouldn't...You are such a kind, gentle man...You always have been...Carrying your babies would have been very easy, because I know, that you would be there for me all the time..."
"Always Elsie..Always...And our babies would be the most loved babies ever..."
"But it's only a dream Charles...This is how it could have been and this is how it is..."-she took his hand and guided it through her body..."Is it enough for you Charles? The way that it's now?"
"More than enough...Leaving out the question of our lack of parenthood, what we have now, is the most wonderful time of my life...I hope it will last very long...I want to enjoy so many years of this happiness with you love..."
"I couldn't put it any better Charles...We don't have everything, but we have each other and that's very close to everything..."
Charles looked at Elsie with pure love in his eyes, they've kissed in a most tender way there ever was and nestled into each other, savoring with the thought of having the beloved person so close...
That's all for today people..Told ya...Short story, with no real plot, but I always believed, that both Charles and Elsie, must have had those thoughts..Not once...People who don't have children are almost always wondering, whether they made a right choice and to tell you the truth, this is something that I missed in DA-talks of that kind, between that lovely, married couple about their dreams and lost hopes..It would be perfect, but since Julian Fellowes couldn't make it, I decided to correct him in that area ;-) Hope you liked this little one-shot. If so, always looking forward to know your opinions. Have a great Sunday!