I felt horrible. I woke up with this sickening feeling in the pit of my stomach and that is exactly what I went back to bed with. There was nothing wrong with my life if you didn't consider the fact that I was in love with the devil. And the best part was that by 'the devil' I didn't mean a guy who is horrible for me but the actual devil. The very devil that has always been portrayed as the source of all evil since the beginning of time. I was in love with that guy. Turns out he doesn't have pointy horns, a tail, or even wings – he got rid of them apparently. But he does come with eyes that seem to have this mesmerizing fire within them. His skin should be repulsive because there wasn't an inch of it that was not covered in scars and burns. And right now I was on my way to meet him at his penthouse.

It felt as if the entire universe was playing a joke on me. I know the actual devil and I can't stay away from him because I love him. It has been hard to try to cope up with these feelings. I even tried to send him back to hell. But I couldn't go through with it. I love him and I can't hurt him. Trust me when I say that I have tried. I just can't go through with it. That is why for the last few days I have been trying extremely hard to make things go back to normal before I knew who he was. If I could pretend that everything was back to normal then maybe all of this will just go away. My feelings will go away, they certainly did for Dan and this time shouldn't be any different. I just needed some time. This plan should work.

I shrugged off these thoughts when the elevator announced that I was at Lucifer's penthouse.

"Lucifer" I called out loud.

"Out here, Detective" He called back from his balcony and I followed his voice.

He didn't sound so good and I hated the fact that I cared or that I knew just from his voice that he was sad.

"Are you okay?" I asked when I reached him. He didn't have his usual glass of scotch with him which for some reason made me feel uneasy

"I'm fine, Detective. I just have a few questions for you" He said turning towards me

"Oh okay. What is it?"

"You know that I have always been honest with you"

He waited until I nodded and continued

"I wish you would do the same for me right now"

How did he know? Did he even know?

I mechanically nodded already having a clue regarding what his next question would be for me.

"You wouldn't hurt me, would you?" He asked with pain lacing every single inch of his beautiful face

It took me a few more seconds than it should have to answer his question.

"No, Lucifer. I won't. I can't ever hurt you" This was the truth and I knew it from the very fiber of my being

"Oh is that true, Detective? I just asked you not to lie to me" The pain was now replaced with something more sinister and hurt than before

"I wouldn't hurt you, Lucifer. I will never hurt you" I said with more conviction in my voice

"I won't play games with you, Detective. Your little priest came and told me all about your plan. Now, I don't usually trust creatures with those collars because we have never mixed. So, why don't you come clean, Detective? Is it true? Were you so horrified of me that you were trying to send me back in hell?"

I couldn't look at him. It felt impossible but my heart physically hurt.

"Tell me" his voice sounded awfully strained

"It was only for a moment. I swear I didn't really want to do it. I was just so confused"

"Huh. It is true"

"Please try to understand. After I learned about you, I was so confused"

"Confused? Confused regarding what? How could you do that to me?" He was angry now along with being hurt

"I don't know" I could feel tears flowing freely now

"Why don't I make your work easier, Detective?"

I looked up and he had that vile with him. It didn't take long to understand what he intended to do with it.

I snapped into action when he brought the vile closer to his mouth.

"NO! Don't!" I screamed trying to knock the vile out of Lucifer's hands.

"Why? Why do you care? This is what you wanted, didn't you? You want me gone from your life, don't you?" He asked while I kept my hands on his hand trying to cover the vile

"I don't want you gone!"

"WHY?"

"I love you" this made him drop the vile and I quickly caught it and placed it inside my pocket.

"You love me?" His voice broke my heart

"I love you, Lucifer. And that is what scares me. I-I thought that it was just fear of who you are. But it is not. It is not and I stopped the second I realized that. I'm scared, Lucifer. I'm terrified of what this means"

"How can you love me? Have you not seen who I'm?" It was hard trying to focus on his face with the constant stream of tears and I was tired of trying so hard constantly. All I felt was broken

How will I ever deal with all this? I have already screwed any chances of us going back to normal. There was no way he would stay now.

I sunk to the ground feeling an overwhelming amount of pressure on my body

"You can't love me" If it was possible, his voice sounded more broken and hurt than it did before

He sat on the floor next to me.

"I don't know. I don't know" It was hard to form sentences right now. It was all too much. I felt his arms circle around me. And for the first time in weeks, I felt as if I could breathe.

"I can't stay anymore. I have to go back" He mumbled from where his head was resting on the top of my head

The second those words left his mouth, it felt as if the entire world was coming crashing down on me. How can all of this be so hard? One second I was scared of loving him. The next I was terrified of losing him. I wanted all of this pain to go away. I felt the pain doubling over in the pit of my stomach and I felt I would double over if it didn't stop anytime soon.

"Darling, you can't love me. Please" I felt him move back and pull my face upwards to him.

"I can't help it. Please-" I couldn't continue further. I just didn't want him to leave. He can't leave me. Not now. I will find a way to deal with everything later. I just wanted him now.

"Please what, Chloe?" He asked in the softest voice I have ever heard come out of him when I didn't continue and kept looking at his neck to avoid his eyes

"Don't - Don't leave me. You can't leave me now, Lucifer" It felt horrible to beg him to stay and at the same time, it was like an incredible burden has been lifted off of me

I felt the pain subside and I brought my eyes up to his.

"I'll deal with all this. I just need you around. Please. Don't go right now. I need time, Lucifer"

His face further twisted in pain and confusion

"There is nothing you can do about any of this, Detective. It is complicated but you don't have a choice in any of this. He is making you feel all this. It is a part of his plan to further hurt me"

"He as in your father is making me feel all this?" I was confused by this change of direction

"Yes, Detective. It is Him. I can't explain it fully but he put you in my path. He only wanted to hurt the only part of my being that he has never been able to reach. He is manipulating you into loving me. You have to see that."

"So, there is no free will?"

"Of course there is. All humans are born with free will"

"So, how can he control what I feel?"

That seems to shut him up.

"I'm not good enough for you, Detective. You have to at least see that"

He was obviously trying to grasp at straws so that he could push me away from him.

"I understand"

Misery flashed across his face for a fraction of a second before he got up from the floor and gave me his hand to get up. I took his hand and rose off of the floor.

"Your father doesn't decide how I feel, Lucifer. I understand that this is not what you want. You have a very different lifestyle from mine. Trust me when I say that I have tried everything to stop how I feel. To change how I feel. But everything that I have tried has just pushed me more towards you. And I get it that this isn't something you would want. There will be too many complications-"

Before I could finish, he turned towards me and came unbearingly close to my body.

"Do you think that you are the only one who feels this? Do you have any idea how difficult it is for me to have the woman I love tell me that she loves me and still tell her all the reasons she should not? You are not the only one who cares, Chloe" The second he said those words. I felt a shudder go through my entire body

He moved in closer and it felt as if we were the only two people in the entire world. I could feel his eyes drop to my lips and move back to my eyes again. He moved closer still and I felt my eyelids fall.

We have kissed before this but when his lips met mine, I felt this comfort shot through me along with the electricity that I expected. I felt his arms circle around my waist and I brought mine to his face. I pressed myself closer to him and I felt his entire body shudder. It was very powerful and satisfactory to know that I could produce such changes in him. One of my hands tangled in his hair while the other went to the back of his neck. His hands followed a similar path to my face. I felt breathless but I didn't want to stop. For the first time in months, I have felt truly alive and safe. I didn't want to stop just now even if it was to take a breath.

With that thought in mind, I pressed my body still closer to his. We both gasped at the more intimate contact and I felt his tongue enter my mouth. I stroked his tongue with mine before slowly nibbling at his lower lip. He growled with that and pressed his body harder against me. I felt an involuntary moan escape my mouth and felt him move backward, trying to put some space between us.

He didn't let go of me and rested his forehead against mine.

"Darling, you have no idea what all of this entails"

"You are right, Lucifer. I don't. But I'll rather learn that then let go of you"

I saw his eyes shine for a second before he closed the space between us as his lips came crashing down on me once again.