HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADITYA SRIVASTAV SIR, our beloved Abhijeet
As promised we are here with the sequel of Will Never Be Same Again
Ismey sab kuch happy ho jayega aisa nahi...but life to aise jhat se nahi hota na sab thik
But a hope
A wish
And lot's of tries
Mujhe chalte jaana hai bas chalte jaana
Ek raah rukh gayi tho aur judh gayi
Main mura tho saath saath raha murgayi
Hawaon ke paron par mera ashiana
But we survive and keep on moving
Abhijeet was typing on laptop, sideways looking at the watch and the main door,when heard the well known sound of the car
His eyes once again travelled towards the watch
Its nearly 1am
He was about to close his laptop after saving the document when Daya came inside
Abhijeet immediately muted the music system, because he can see from Daya's body language that Daya is already stressed
Daya looked at music system then at Abhijeet then at the laptop and then said "tum ab taq soye nahi?"
Abhijeet shook his head "nahi...mtlb kuch kaam tha to pura..."
Both looked at each other and gave a similar sigh
Daya know well enough that Abhijeet was waiting for him and Abhijeet knew well enough that his lies got detected
Daya sat on the sofa there with "ho gaya?"
"Haan.."
"Fir so jao jaker...dinner ker liya na?"
Abhijeet nodded with "haan per tum khaoge nahi?"
"Mein...?haan...wo thori der mey kha lunga"
"Mein khana garam ker du?"
Daya was thinking something, looked up with
"haan...nahi nahi tum so jao..wo mujhe ek case pey kaam kerna hey..jaruri..waise sarr mey thora dard hey...mein bad mey kha lunga tum jao..."
"Koi complicated case hey kya?"
"Hmm"
Daya didn't paid attention but looked more disturbed than average complicated case so Abhijeet came forward with "tum thik ho?"
Daya nodded unmindfully
Abhijeet frowned and pressed his shoulder "sarr mey bahut dard hey kya?"
Daya looked up with a lost look "kya?...haannn..."
"Dawai loge?"
Daya nods with "hmm"
Abhijeet moved towards kitchen and came back with required meds and forwarded with "yea lo"
Daya turned to him and frowned "yea.. Kya hey..?"
Abhijeet looked confused "dawai...abhie to pucha.."
Daya looked as if not really getting anything
So Abhijeet continued softly "tumhara sarr dard ..dawai.."
Daya looked away
Abhijeet looked at him with narrowed eyes and called "Daya.."
Daya suddenly stood up and said harshly
"mein keh raha hu na tum ja k so jao..kyun bar bar ek baat krte jarahe ho..mein keh raha hu na thik hu...tum jao na..jaker so jao..please mein.." He took a deep breath and said bit calmly "mein thik hu...thik hu mein..tum jao"
He was about to move to his room,not meeting Abhijeet's eyes
When heard Abhijeet's voice as "thik to tum nahi ho..serf case ki hi pareshani hey yea.."
Daya turned and shouted badly
"kya karoge jan ker... Tumhe case ki mein bata nahi sakta.. kiun k tum case ki sun nahi sakte...haan case se nahi sab kuch se pareshan hu mein..jindegi se pareshan hu mein... kya karoge tum...tum mere sath pareshan ho loge to mere pareshani thik ho jayegi?"
He looked extremely annoyed and angry
"kyun bekar mey ek baat ko khiche jarahe ho khiche jarahe ho..mein achese keh raha hu to samajh nahi araha hey...ki mujhe akela chor do..jao..akela kerna hota hey na sab mujhe fir dikhawa kyun"
Abhijeet was looking at him with fixed glaze, Daya suddenly stopped
It seems as all his energy left him,he looked down without meeting Abhijeet's glaze, murmured
"sorry..sorry.. Wo mein kuch jyada...case ko leker kuch pareshan tha..mein thik hu.."
He tried to smile "boss..." The word seemed strange to both but daya continued "wo sarr mey thora dard tha aur case bhi..to..bas..tum jao so jao..mein kha lunga...garam ker k...fir so jaunga..jao..mein..mein thik.."
His eyes still didn't meet Abhijeet who was looking at him with fixed glaze
He moved inside his room, "tum so jao.."
He pushed the door closed
.
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Daya sat on the bed tiredly
He is now looking scared along with being tensed
He pulled out his phone and dialed a number
A sleepy hello was heard from other side
Daya started in one breath
"Adi..mujhse mujhse bahut bari blunder ho gayi..."
"Blunder? Rat ki ek der baje kaha kya blunder ker aye tum.."
"Meine Abhi pey chilla diya bina wajah..mujhe aisa nahi krna tha..wo to mere liye hi pareshan tha.. Mere liye jaga hua tha..pata nahi meds wagera bhi liya yea nahi..meine usper bin wajah chilla diya.. Usper gussa dikhaya...muje..muje...nahi...kerna cahiye tha"
Adi interrupted his rant "arey kya gussa dikhaya kya chillaya mujhe kuch samjh nahi araha..thik se bataoge?"
But Daya didn't paid heed but continued his ranting
"ager isse uski tabiyet aur bigar gayi to.. Mein koshish krta hu...ki usper koi burden na dalu, per mein khud...mein kyun jindegi bhar sab pey bojh banta hu..mein itna kamjor kyun.."
Adi's confused voice came as "kya hua Daya..Abhijeet ne kuch kaha?"
Daya still didn't answer continued his own babbling
"mein kahi pey kuch thik hi na ker sakta..na bureau mey kuch thik..sab garbar...duty criminals kuch kahi thik na ker pata..Gher mey aker bhi kuch na ker sakta.. Mujhse kahi kuch thik na ho sakta...mein ek bojh ek.."
A sob came out and daya kicked the side table "Dil kehta hey sab chor vag jau, per mein kaha jau Adi?"
And Daya started crying harshly
Adi was really not getting the head tail of anything and was really confused
"Daya..arey bolo to..tum ro kyun rahe ho..arey gussa hi to dikhaya..kya ho gaya..aise..arey Daya suno to.."
But Daya was crying with loud voice "mein kyun kyun nahi ker pata kuch thik.."
Daya sat down on the floor haphazardly and continued crying when felt someone taking the phone from his hand and a hand wrapping him and pulling him
Daya didn't protest and soon find himself buried in his well known shelter and a well known touch was on his head
He heard Abhijeet's voice as "Adi mein tumhe bad mey call kerta hu.."
Adi now really shouted, even Daya can hear from this side "kya bad mey...tumhara Bhai adhi raat ko call ker k kya bole jaraha tha..neend se uthaker...kyun ro raha hey.. Kya hua kuch samjh nahi araha...dara diya mujhe"
Abhijeet cut him firmly "meine kaha na bad mey...tum so jao..mein subha.."
"Kya subha haa..hua kya Daya ko?"
Abhijeet took a deep breath "kuch nahi wo bas case ko leker.."
"Aur kya keh raha tha..tumne dawai na ki, tabiyet Bigar gayi..."
Abhijeet cut him "sare dawai le liya, serf sleeping pills na liya..le lunga mein..Aur tabiyet bilkul thik hey"
Adi grumbled something like "tum dono mil ker pagal ker k rakh doge"
Yes, this days Adi was not confused that how to talk with Abhijeet, he avoided few topics but still they are quite at ease with one another while Daya was scared to open up
Adi talked about his patients, jobs, mood swings, even if he felt Abhijeet's behavior odd or off he directly addressed Abhijeet
But Daya, he was always in a shell in front of Abhijeet
Adi and Abhijeet discussed Daya and his behavior many times during this last 6 months
Daya had changed a lot, he didn't cry or smiled openly
He always agreed to whatever Abhijeet suggested in every small or big matter
Even when he gets leaves he doesn't visit mall or restro
For first two three months Abhijeet was really not attentive to this things
But slowly he got back on the old track
On professional basis he now write few books about aptitude & reasoning
Those books are needed for competitive exam and using his sharp mind he can easily solve and form questions
His specialty is the books for the govt job exams and during this last six months he had finished two books
Actually after first two months when he first tried to think of his future he really didn't get any idea
And Adi jokingly suggested "tum kitab likna start kr do"
That very day there's a ad in the paper asking about someone to write books on this matter
And Abhijeet tried and finished it within half time of the deadline
He tried to keep himself busy in every waking moment specially when Daya was in bureau
So obviously his book is finished so soon
The publisher was very happy and from there he got few more recommendations and finished another book
He is working on the third one, of NET level
Daya encouraged him to write these books, and if Abhijeet faces any doubt Daya was always fully attentive trying to help
But if Abhijeet tried to pay attention to Daya himself Daya ignored with "arey kya mujhe kya hoga..sab thik hey..bas case ki wajah se..."
Same old line is repeated always
Abhijeet has often found Daya's socks wet, showing him Daya had visited beach
Late night beach visits, early morning jogging, still smiles, dull eyes, and the tummy which Abhijeet was fond of making jokes had now vanished
Abhijeet generally avoided the newspaper except for sports page or the ad page because he can't really take any more crimes
But he sometimes glances at it once to find his brother's name in golden letters
Daya is succeeding as an ACP
Abhijeet knew in his heart that he can do it
But there's no joy of success on Daya's face
Adi too was tensed about Daya as daya lost all his charms with every passing day
Just a week before Adi had asked Abhijeet in bit hesitating way "Daya ab tumse khul k baat nahi kerta hey na?"
Abhijeet nodded
Adi said "pata nahi mujhe yea baat tumse kehna cahiye yea nahi..."
Abhijeet interrupted "bata do"
"Actually Daya.. Daya ko Dr manjula ne kaha tha, meine bhi kaha tha ki isse tum per koi acha asar na parne wala, per usne wo baat socha hi nahi dhyan hi nahi diya"
Abhijeet stopped him "wo bhi ek insan hey, kitna sochega...jyada sochker hi yea halat hey...tum log, mein, yea wo.. koi galat hey mujhe yea na kehna hey ; Dr Manjula ko choro per tum... Tum to jante ho na wo kitna sensitive hey..tumhe sayed yea nahi kehna tha ki usko bas mera sochna hey"
Adi made a face and informed Abhijeet that no one had told Daya to think about Abhijeet only but its Daya's instinct
Abhijeet well understood the matter but he too wants someone to blame as he is losing his brother
He can blame himself
But he know the situation was too much for him and he broke
He can blame Adi but he knows as a doctor Adi was correct and as friend he is trying to support Daya
He can blame Dr Manjula but she is his psychiatrist not Daya's
So only one left to blame is situation and Daya himself
Even when Daya was wrong on something Abhijeet can never blame him, his heart never permitted
So how can he blame Daya now when Daya is may be suffering most
So he blames the situation
He was waiting for the dam to break
He tried to instigate Daya many times but Daya always ignored and fend off his concerns as "sab thik hey"
And somewhere Abhijeet was scared in his mind
He often wonders if Daya's orphanage days made him this much tough was that experience was fuelling Daya to be this much strong
Is his breakdown was the last staw breaking his every right of 17long years
But he was waiting for one glimpse of old Daya
And ultimately here it is
When daya shouted on him, for a second he was really stunned
Because although he was waiting for the outcome, for the dam to break; at the back of his mind he was not ready
But when Daya entered inside his room Abhijeet followed
He was about to enter when heard daya calling Adi
He thought once again Daya was seeking solace near Aditya not him
To be truthful Abhijeet was bit jealous
Yes he is jealous of Aditya
After all Daya is his brother and he is possessive of him
So he waited at the door, because if Daya thinks opening his mind to Aditya is for best its okay for him
What's best for Daya is always okay for him
But then Daya started crying and Aditya was at loss
Aditya was never good at this emotional confrontation. And when Daya started crying Abhijeet can't control and stay far
So here he is
After cutting the call with Aditya he threw the phone on the bed
And hugged Daya properly "hey.. Aab taq ro raha hey?"
Daya looked up sobbing "sorry...mein.. Mein tum per, mein pareshan tha.. Isliye.. Per mein thik...ekdum thik"
Abhijeet rubbed his scalp "thik hey to ro kyun raha hey?"
Daya smiled through tears "tumhe to pata hey mein thora rondu hu ...case ka pressure hey to bas"
He tries to stand "mein muh dhoke ata hu fir dinner ker k sona bhi to hey, raat kaafi ho gayi.. Aur fir kal"
Abhijeet interrupted "kal tu kahi nahi jaraha hey"
Daya turned to Abhijeet hearing the authoritive tone
After so long heard the bold tone
Actually during last few months he was trying to protect Abhijeet so much, trying to wrap him in bubble wrap..trying to be so strong that even when Abhijeet tried to be like his old self daya didn't paid heed
Daya always thought no just let Abhijeet be fine
He never thought that if he himself is not okay then Abhijeet can never be in right state
Daya shook his head to show his confusion "kal nahi ja raha hu mtlb?bureau.. Kaam"
"Tu kal bureau nahi jaraha...rajat ko call ker.."
Daya hesitated "Rajat..kal karunga.."
"Kyun"
"Wo Rajat so gaya hoga"
"Kyun tu abhie aya to Rajat bhi to thori der pehle hi nikla hoga hey na?"
Daya immediately hide his eyes
Abhijeet sighed "beach gaya tha?"
"Mein beach...nahi to mein to bureau mey hi tha..actually bahut Sara kaam tha to baki sab ko gher vej diya sab complete krne k liye mein ruk.."
Abhijeet looked at Daya with fixed glaze "Daya sayed mein pehle ki tarah..counselling dawai..sayed mein ab sharp na raha..dimag bhi sayed thora kharab hey.."
Daya opened his mouth but Abhijeet stopped and continued "per meine jaise pehle bhi kaha tha firse keh raha hu, tu mere dimag mey nahi rehta"
Daya now interrupted "kya bol rahe ho mujhe kuch samjh.."
Abhijeet sat down on the bed and patted his side "baith"
Daya sat down beside him
Abhijeet continued in calm tone "case kya hey mujhe nahi pata, mein tujhse puchunga bhi nahi.."
"Nahi boss mein sach mey case...wo ek high profile case hey aur bahut pressure bhi to bas isliye..."
"Kitne din se chal raha yea case"
"Ek...der hafte maximum"
"Aur usse pehle kis baat ko leke pareshan tha?"
"Usse pehle..."
Abhijeet nodded "do hafte pehle mein rat ko utha tha tu tab Chat pey baitha tha..jaga hua..tab bhi koi complicated case.."
Daya looked down, Abhijeet pulled up his head "mujhe pata hey tu mujhe case ka nahi bata sakta, per apni pareshani to bata hi sakta hey aur ager kabhie dil kare to case ka bhi bata dena.."
Daya immediately protested "nahi Abhi.."
He himself heard his scared tone so amended as "wo mein keh raha tha.."
Abhijeet stopped him "mein janta hu tum kya keh rahe ho..case ki bareme sun mujhe fir se anxiety na ho.."
He smiled a bit "per tujhe pata hey mujhe sabse jyada pareshani kis bat se hoti hey.."
Daya didn't answer
Abhijeet continued "is baat se ki mera bhai mujhse khota ja raha hey"
Daya tried in smily tone "kaha kho raha hu..mein to yeahi..."
"Acha? Tu last kab hasa?"
Daya looked away "mein yaad rakhu kya!"
Abhijeet continued "shopping kyun nahi Jana cahta.. Movie bas animation.. Tumhe action movie pasand tha na..."
"Pasand badal bhi to sakta hey na?"
"Haa ab to tere dost ki pasand bhi badal gaya hey na?sari baatein Adi se krta hey na?"
Abhijeet looked at Daya for some reaction
Daya looked away "nahi bas..."
Abhijeet smiled "dekha tu kitna badal gaya..pehle jab tujhe leker mein possessive hota tha tu kitna majaq krta tha..enjoy krta tha..mera majaq bhi urata...aur ab.."
Abhijeet took a deep breath "sayed mein tujh pey itna bojh ban gaya ki.."
"Abhi.."
Abhijeet looked at Daya calmly
Daya sighed "mujhe...mujhe bahut darr lagta hey..Tumhare hospitalization ki bad.. Do mahine ki bad Dr. Manjula ne kaha ki tum kaafie thik ho..fir kuch haftey bad adi ne bhi kaha..wo tumse normal batein krta tha, majaq krta tha..per mujhse nahi hota tha..kyuki meine dekha hey tum thik na they..nahi ho"
He looked at the floor "tum humesha kaam mey dube rehte ho..jor se gana yea Tv chala ke rakhte ho.."
He continued without letting Abhijeet interrupt
"Rat ko ab bhi tumhe nightmares atey hey,dawai ki bina sone jao to rat var so na patey ho- action films crime ki khbre avoid krte ho"
Daya took a deep breath "sab kehte hey tum thik ho gaye ho per jab bhi team mey se koi tumse milta hey tum uneasy feel krte ho; mein yea sab dekhta hu- notice krta hu, Adi ki tarah in sab baat ko andekha na ker sakta..mein doctor to hu nahi ki pata ho kaunsi chez normal hey kaun sa nahi..kaunsi chez undekha krni hey! Mujhe bas dikhta hey ki tum pehle ki tarah nahi ho..mein therha sentimental fool, koi baat suru karu to kitna kehker ruk jana hey…ye nahi pata hota mujhe. 17 saal se jisse gussa hu Jo ho tumper aker gussa dikha deta hu, cahe tumhari galti ho yea na ho sunaya meine tumhe…..mall Jana restro Jana mujhe kyun pasand tha pata hey?kyuki tum chirte they in sab se..per ab.."
He stopped looking lost
Abhijeet was still now silently studying Daya now said "per ab tumhe darr lagta hey,hey na?"
Daya nodded "lagta hey ager firse..jab tum hospital mey they tumne mujhse thik se baat nahi ki, tumne Marne ki baat taq ker li..ager sach mey..mujhe kuch interest ata hi nahi..sach kahu to pata hi na chala kab se meine har baat map tol k kerna suru kr diya, ab wohi adat ho gayi"
Abhijeet sighed then grabbed Daya's hand "tujhe pata hey mera dil hi na krta tha kisise baat krne ki, khana peena kuch bhi..kisise milna..fir achanaq ekdum se ek din meine ek sapna dekha"
Daya gave a questioning glance
Abhijeet nodded "hmm..sapne mey ACP sir they..ma khari bula rahi thi mujhe apne pass"
Daya's voice seemed scared "mtlb tum..Abhi.."
Abhijeet gave him a soft smile and pressed his hand assuringly
"ACP sir ne pucha ki Abhijeet tum sab chor k Jo Jana cahte ho achi baat hey per yeaha tumhara ek sabse keemti rishta hey yeaha usko chor tum Jane ko raji ho?"
Abhijeet looked directly at Daya "tab mujhe kheyal aya ki mein jindegi mey sab chor sakta hu- apni job, apni pehchan, apni farz, apni yaadein, sapna pyar sab chor k bhi mein firse jindegi mey agey bar paunga, koi dost koi Sahara nahi cahiye hoga"
Daya averted his gaze but Abhijeet continued in firm tone "siwaye ek ristey ki..mein usko chor k aram se marr bhi na sakta"
Daya looked at Abhijeet tearily
Abhijeet nodded "sach"
Daya looked down
Abhijeet pulled up his face "mujhe pata hey tu ACP banne ko taiyar na tha, tujhe bahut taqleef bhi hoti hey…per tujhmey wo kabilati hey..kyun usko zaya karega,aur humare team hey na tera sath nibhayenge wo log"
He looked down "aur tune khud hi soch liya ki tujhe Abhi ko kuch na batana hey, dil mey baat ho,kisise gussa aye, koi uljhan koi shikayet kuch nahi kehna hey tujhe Abhi ko..meine kaha? Per tu ne..haan sahi hey ki mein ab pehle ki tarah.."
He said in earnest tone "per mein tere liye kuch bhi ker sakta hu.."
"Nahi abhi mere liye tum..mein nahi cahta ki bas mere liye.. Boss tum.."
"Mein bhi to nahi cahta..ki tu khud ko badal dey...tere sabse dardnaq yaadon ki bich fir se kho jaye"
Daya looked at him with a small smile
"Woha itne sare bache, woha raghuvendra sir sab ka kheyal rakhtey hey, wo kehte they dil ki koi bhi baat hum unhe keh saktey hey,per mein na ker pata kabhie...kyun bekar mey pareshan karu"
He shook his head unmindfully "mujhe bachpan se bahut attention cahiye tha...koi bas mujh per concentrate kare...per aisa hona mere liye kaha possible tha..fir tum..aur sare khwaish puri ho gayi.."
Abhijeet seeing him stop asked "fir?"
"Abhi wo to ek swarthi khwaish hey na? Haa tum kahoge itni saal yea samjh na aya..sayed meine samjhne ki koshish hi na ki..mein khud k liye attention cahu,bas khud ko leke sochu..ab mein bacha thori hu..samjhna cahiye tha,der se hi sahi per"
Abhijeet stopped him firmly "tune kabhie yea socha yea samjha ki tu apne baremey soch k mere bareme sabse jyada soch raha tha..."
Daya looked at him in amazement
Abhijeet bit his lips "tumhe pata hey mein ab sannate se kyun darta hu"
Daya gave him a questioning glance with "kyun?"
"Aab sannate mein mujhe Rohit yaad na ata, sir bhi nahi..mein tujhko lekar darta hun"
"Mujhe?"
"ACP banne se end taq sir kitni bar problem mey phase hey.."
Daya looked confused "ha bahut bar..kyun"
"Tu bhi to ab ACP hey aur upar se problem magnet bhi hey"
Daya looked away
Abhijeet continued "jab bhi sab chup hota hey, mere dil mey yea kheyal ata hey ki pata nahi kaha hoga tu, koi problem mey hua to..kahi phas gaya to..kidnap ho sakta hey, injury asakti..team mey se kisi per khtra aye aur use bacha te hue tujhe kuch ho jaye"
He hurriedly explained "yea baat nahi hey ki team se kisiko kuch ho to koi farq nahi parta..per mere liye to tu sabse jyada important hey na..meine news mey dekha hey is bich purvi ko line of fire se hatate hue tune kya kiya tha..tujhe ek second ki bhi deri ho jati to..wo bullet sidhe tere neck pey lagti"
Daya looked down "per tum to ajkal news follow nahi krte"
"Tere news follow kiye bina mujhe chain milega tujhe lagta hey?"
Daya rubbed his neck "mujhe pata nahi tha"
Abhijeet gave a narrowed look "pata hota to nahi krta kya?"
"Nahi mtlb mein...kuch nahi"
Abhijeet shook his head disappointedly
"mujhe humesha darr laga rehta hey..mein nahi hu..ager tujhe kuch hua bhi,sayed mujhe khbr bahut der se mile...kya pata tujhe sayed hospital le jayenge sab, per unhe lagega ki Abhijeet sir to pehle ki tarah...pehle dekh le,ager koi aas ki baat sunaye doctor tab bata denge Abhijeet sir ko..per in sab ki bich ager bahut der ho Jaye to.."
Daya snorted "kya boss kya kya soch lete ho tum.. Mein thik hi hu"
Abhijeet nodded "ha mujhe pata hey tum thik ho.."
Hearing the bit cold tone Daya turned to him
Abhijeet leaned back on his hands "mein ne tab kaha na nightmares atey hey, usper Sir ki Rohit ki cehra nahi dikhta hey bas tum kahi musibat mey..aur kabhie kabhie Sir bas atey hey sawal krte hue ki mein to tum per bharosa kr k gaya, jab bhi mein Daya ko daant ta tha tum rok lete they ki sir waqt hey wo sambhal jayega per tumne use waqt na diya..ab na sambhal paye to kasur kiska.."
Daya immediately stopped him "arey boss aisa kuch hota bhi to ismey tumhare kya kasoor hey..tumhare hote hue bhi ho sakta tha na"
Abhijeet nodded "bilkul..per meine to tujhe akela chor diya hey na.. Jis baat k liye sir ne mujhe danta tha..jab us pani mey chor k aya mein..jab bomb ki sath akela chor aya.. Sir ne mujhe daanta tha, tab mujhe lagta tha sir aise kaise soch sakte hey ki mein jan bujh k tujhe akela chor sakta hu? Per dekh sir hi sahi they..meine itna akela ker diya ki tu khol k mujhse baat nahi ker pata"
Daya looked down "mein koshish karunga Abhi.. Asal mey Abhi is mey tumhari galti nahi hey, mein khud itna darr gaya tha ki..mein koshish karunga"
Abhijeet sighed
Daya now looked up "mein sach mey.."
Abhijeet nodded "ha mujhe pata hey..acha tu ja ke thora naha ley.. Garam pani se nahana"
"Garam pani se?"
"Hmm..tu beach se aya hey na..sare hath payer sarr sab mey ret hi ret hey"
He touches Daya's back "laita raha tha kya beach mey"
Daya nodded with a embarrassed smile
"Acha lagta hey,andhere bich mey so ke lagta hey jaise ma ki goud"
He stopped and looked elsewhere
Abhijeet nodded "tujhe rat var jab neend nahi ati, tujhe lagta hey mujhe aram se neend ati hogi..kitni bar adhi rat ko tu nikal jata gher se mujhe pata nahi chalta?"
"Per tum to dawai leker"
Abhijeet just gave a small smile "tu na ab bhi bacha hey...chal ja naha dho ke thora acha bacha ban k aja..mein khana garam krta hu"
Daya shook his head in no "uhun tum so jao..Adi ko tab keh rahe they tumne sleeping pills liye nahi- der bajne ko hey itni rat ko loge to kab soyoge aur kab Uthoge...Aur fir subha uth nahi paoge, waise bhi tum subha jaldi nahi uthte to chir hota hey..tum jao mein kha lunga"
Hearing a strict "Daya" unknowingly a small smile came over Daya's lips
Abhijeet took a deep breath with "acha Daya ek baat..wo kal mujhe doctor se milne Jana hey,tum chaloge mere sath"
Daya's expression turned extra alert "doctor.. Kyun doctor ki pass skyun jana hey..kya hua..aur tumne bataya kyun nahi...acha Adi ko bataya? Ruko mein Adi ko call.."
He was about to take the phone but Abhijeet grabbed his hand with "abbey..Mujhe doctor se yea kehna hey ki mujhe ab sleeping pills chorna hey, to janna hey ek bar mey chorna hey yea dhire dhire chorna hey.. Kaise discontinue krna hey"
"Per tumhe chorna kyun hey?"
"Meri marji"
"Kyun"
Abhijeet sighed "arey kya yaar doctor ne to kaha tha ki jindegi var yea nahi chalana hey..to bas"
"Per..."
"Mein WO anti depressetive kha raha hu na..to"
"Per.."
"Arey kitni per..."
"Nahi boss ager isse kharab effect hua to"
"Arey isliye to doctor se baat ker k fir"
"Per ager doctor ne kaha ki continue krna hey to.."
Abhijeet looked at daya tiredly "fir mein continue karunga..thik hey?"
Daya nodded not looking impressed
Abhijeet teasingly said "aur puch kyun per..."
Daya shook his head "nahi thik hey.." Then moved towards washroom with "mein naha k ata hu"
"Hmm"
Abhijeet sat on the bed and felt a small vibration in his pocket
He pulled out his phone found Adi's message as 'sulah ho gayi'
He smiled a bit and then moved towards kitchen while dialling Adi
Adi received the call "ha sulah ho gayi?"
"Hum dono mey larai nahi hui thi Adi"
"Ha larai nahi hui thi per itni din mahine se Jo pareshani thi ki Daya kab normal behavior start krega to meine socha aise ro para to"
"Nahi adi..mujhe sayed aur pehle hi khud se use confront krna cahiye tha.."
"Kyun usne kuch kaha nahi"
"Nahi..kaha per uski ander bahut darr baith gaya..mujhe smjh nahi araha mein kya..meine itni der ker di..mein kya karu Adi?"
"Kuch nahi"
Abhijeet chewed "tum.." He shook his head..
Adi continued in serious voice "Abhijeet tum bhi jante ho ki tum ab bhi...mtlb tum kabhie bhi un baaton ko Daya ki dil dimag se nikal nahi sakte..aur tum ab bhi puri tarah se fit na ho..socho jara aj Daya ager aker tumhe aker case ki sab details kehne lage tum le paoge?do din news mey koi violence vare case dekh lo to anti-anxiety meds lena parta hey...Daya ko bhale hi na pata ho in sab ki bareme per mujhe pata hey... "
Abhijeet chewed with "aur Daya ko pata chalna bhi nahi cahiye.."
"Nahi pata chalega..mujhe pata hey uski pata chalne per kya hoga...tumhare anxiety ki ilaj to hey is duniya mey per tumhare us Bhai ka koi ilaj nahi hey..per Abhijeet Daya ki darr puri tarah se galat bhi nahi hey"
Abhijeet sighed "Adi mein koshish krta hu..bar bar koshish krta hu per..(his tone turned to utter disappointment) mujhse nahi hota, jaise hi news mey wo sab dikhta hu mujhe lagta hey kahi firse koi begunah bin wajah kahi pey mara jaraha hey.. Yea kisiko choti si galti ki itni sajah mil rahi- kahi koi firse badle ki aag mey jalte hue.."
"Abhijeet..."
"Adi tumhe pata hey jab jab CID ki koi case ata hey news mey to darr lagta hey ki Daya pey khtra ajaye to? Daya jab jab gher se bahar rehta hey na tab koi phone baje to us cl ko receive krne mey darr lagta hey.. Dil kehta hey yea cl ager yea batane ko kisine kiya ho ki daya ko kuch ho gaya hey..daya hospital.. Kidnapping yea mil na raha...mein to kuch nahi ker paunga"
"Abhijeet meine pehle bhi kaha tha ki.."
"Kya Adi yeahi ki yea sab nahi sochna hey..per Adi mujhe bahut afsos hota hey kabhie kabhie k mein ne retire kyun le liya..ager aj khbr aye bhi to mein kuch na ker paunga, mere pass koi authority na hoga...kuch nahi hoga..mujhe baithe baithe bas intejar krna hoga ki kab koi ek news dey mere Bhai ki bareme..mein bureau mey jaker sabse puchu bhi to sab bas dilasa denge ki ha sir kaam chal raha hey, mein nahi ja paunga un logo ki sath..Adi tum kehte ho nahi sochna hey per yea kheyal jab jab ata hey na mera dil baitha jata hey...mujhe lagta hey har taraf se andhera mujhe nigal raha hey..kabhie kabhie pata hey yea lagta ki..."
He stopped
Adi asked "kya lagta"
"Ager Daya ki baat mane retire ki jagah mein resign krta to ab taq join ker chuka hota"
Adi said in sarcastic tone "sach... Jarur jarur kyun nahi"
Abhijeet bit his lips "mujhe pata hey Adi mein ab bhi fit na hu..per jab kheyal ata hey to bas dil kehta hey ki baki sab choro bas yea chalta hey ki mera Bhai woha akela hey..aur ager sach mey.."
"Tum kya kya ho sakta wo scenario sochna chor ker Jo ho raha usper concentrate karoge"
"Kya concentrate karu? Itna kuch samjha ne ki bad Daya ki yea kehna hey ki wo koshish krega mujhse baat krne ki"
Hearing Adi's sigh Abhijeet continued
"Tumhe yaad hey lagvag 16 saal pehle jab meine usse kaha tha ki sab ki samne Jo tum bhaa ker k ro dete ho, WO bandh kro aur apni dil ki baat thora arranged way mey bolo..kal ko aur senior post milega tab aise bha bha karoge to log hasenge"
Adi smiled within his tone "usne kaha tha uski pass koi aisa dost hey hi nahi jisse WO sab khul k bol sake"
Abhijeet nodded "ha meine pucha kyun mein hu na, merese kya galti ho gayi.. To WO bahut sharma k kaha tha ki koshish krega"
Both sighed
Abhijeet carried on "fir 16 saal se wo sab batata aya..mein ager kabhie kahu tu chup ho na yea nahi sunna hey usko batana hey to bas batana hey.. Uski baato pey bura laga gussa aya per kabhie regret na hua"
Adi said in soft tone "Daya ko bahut afsos hey ki tum uski wajah se hi agey nahi bare.. Apne pyar ko man na diya"
"Per mujhe afsos nahi hey... Sayed hona cahiye..sayed isse samjh ata hey ki mein ek acha insan hu hi nahi per.."
"Nahi Abhijeet isse yea samjh ata hey ki tum ek normal insan ho jismey faults hey,tumhare liye ek rishtey ki ahmiyet sabse jyada hey isliye tumne baki rishto ka utna socha hi nahi"
"Ho sakta hey.. Per meine khud ko pyar krne ki ijajat nahi diya tha, sab ko pata tha ki mein pasand krta hu.. Per meine khul k kabhie kehne ko ready na tha.. Kyuki uski bad mein piche nahi asakta tha..aur is idiot ko akela chorna mujhe gawarah tha nahi"
"Mujhe to pata hey Abhijeet.. Sab k liye tum galat they per meine aisa to socha nahi tha"
"Per kya fayda Adi, meine to use akela hi ker diya...16 saal bad yea keh raha ki baat krne ki koshish krega"
Adi said in bit stern tone "wo koshish to krne ki baat ker raha hey na? Tum bhi koshish karo"
"Mein kya..."
"Arey kya yaar..usse baat ugalne ki koshish karo.." Adi continued in confident way
"Ab uski ander ka darr kaun nikalega? Bhut?"
"Nahi mein WO na keh raha..per Adi ager sach mey mtlb ager usko kisi tarah samjh aye ki mujhe ab bhi anxiety ki prob hey to wo ...wo ekdam se"
Adi gave a hmm then said "ek kaam karo tum Dr. Manjula se baat karo, unhone kaha tha na bad mey bhi jarurat parne per...tum call kerlo"
"Haan dekhta hu...acha Adi ek baat krni thi..kal call krta mein.."
"Tumhare Bhai ne meri neend ura hi diya bol do ab"
"Wo mein sleeping pills chorna cahta hu"
"Ha thik hey waise bhi neend ki dawai jyada din ek sath continue nahi kerna cahiye..waise bhi tumhare Bp ki prob ki wajah se low dose dawai diya gaya tha per fir bhi.."
"Haa kal doctor se mil k chor dunga jarurat parne per hospital mey dikha ker hi chorunga"
"Per Abhijeet tum to kehte ho tumhe neend nahi ati aise"
"Wo actually bas Daya ajkal roj der se ata hey..bas call krta hey ki dawai le lo mein nikal raha hu.. Mein dawai lene ki bad jyada der jag k nahi reh pata..aur kab ata WO pata nahi, ek din accidentally neend khul gayi thi to dekha ki chat pey hey... Aj jab aya pata chala beach pey let ker astronomy class ker k aya"
He heard a giggle but continued
"Ek baje aya adha viga hua pata nahi har roj kab ata hey kaha se ata hey.. Rat ko sota bhi hey yea na"
"Haa tumse kehna na ho paya parso use kaafie late beach pey dekha tha"
"Tum itni rat ko beach pey kyun mandra rahe they.."
"Mein bhut hu kya Jo mandraunga..mein beach ki pass Jo sea view apartment hey woha mera ek patient hey, (his voice turned naughty) kaafie ameer hey tin guna fees dekeer bulaya tha to Jana to tha,laut te waqt dekha Daya beach pey laita hua hey..sach kahu to dur se dekh ker darr hi gaya laga ki behosh ho ker gir gaya..pas gaya fir bhi ankh na khola, darr ker bulaya tab irritated ho ker kaha kya hey..tab mere Jan mey Jan ayi"
"Tumne pucha nahi kuch?"
"Uska kehna tha use to pata taq nahi ki ma ki goud kaisa hota hey per sayed aisa hi hota hey.. Pehle to Abhi ki pass jata tha per ab use pareshan kyun karu.."
"Use kis gyani ne kaha ki mein pareshan hota hu"
"Meine pucha ki usne tumhe inform kiya ki nahi...to kaha WO so raha hoga..mein jab laut ta hu WO so raha hota..meine kaha bhi kyun itni der se ja raha hey gher.. To usne na ek ajeeb sa smile de ker kaha ki kam ki bad thora relax ker raha hu..ACP sir kehte they bureau ki pressure gher taq nahi le jate.. Mujhe samjh na aya ki kya karu kya bolu"
Abhijeet sighed "Ab samjh rahe ho kyun chorna cahta hu pills.."
"Hmm...smjh to raha hu ek baat kahu"
"Bolo"
"Tumhara us idiot ne abhie taq kuch khaya nahi na?"
"Nahi..uska hi khana garam ker raha hu"
Adi hesitated a bit then said "pehle ki tarha behave karo uski sath mtlb pehle jab wo der se aye khana na khaye to samne baith k khilana..WO sab.."
Abhijeet nodded "mein to cahta hu Adi per.."
"Tum daya ki baat kab se mane lage? Haa yea sahi hey ki tumhare liye bhi rest jaruri hey doctors ka kehna hey...per mein tumhe ache se janta hu...dawai neend cahe sarir ko aram dey jab taq dil dimag se rest na ho 12 ghante ki rest bhikoi kam ki nahi.."
Abhijeet hmmed
Adi said in but understanding tone "jab taq tumhare us idiot ko leke tum nischint na ho tumhe sakoon na Milne wala..mind fresh na hoga tumhara"
Abhijeet sighed "per mein jab bhi koshish karu to WO mujhe khud se dur krta hey"
"Mein fir wohi puchunga tum uski baat manne lage..kabhie achi baat to mane nahi"
Abhijeet sighed Adi continued "aur kaam ka pressure kam lo..deadline ki adheh waqt mey kam khtm kerna..aur haan khul k baat karo Dr manjula se..kyuki dekho tumhara Bure kheyal bebuniyad na hey,tum logo ki jitna bar hospital chaqaar hota hey na"
Abhijeet laughs "haa yaad hey mujhe tumhe nurse jaker boli ki ek patient apko dhund raha hey tum conclusion ker liya ki hum meyse koi hey..yea nahi ki Dr Aditya ki koi purana patient bhi ho sakta hey..."
"Ha to? Galat to na tha na..tum hi to chaqaar kat rahe they"
"Ab to tumhara ek patient kam ho gaya na?"
"Haa yaar kamai kam ho gayi"
Abhijeet shook his head "acha chalo ab so jao tum, khana ho gaya ready..."
"Kya so jau..neend mey cl receive kiya...bak bak..fir Rona suru.. Neend kya chain ura diya tumhare Bhai ney.. Samjh hi na araha tha"
"Mein fir bhi khushi hu, akhir kisise to keh raha tha dil ki baat warna ghutta rehta"
Adi asked with naughtiness evident in tone "khush ho yea jealous?"
"Mein phone rakhta hu tum vago.."
Adi laughed out loud and said "acha good night chalo bye"
Cutting the call Abhijeet moved to Daya's room with the dinner, found Daya sitting on the bed with wet hairs,water dripping from tired
Abhijeet kept the tray aside and took the towel from the bed corner with "mur idher"
Daya came out of his funk "nahi mein ker lunga do tum.."
Abhijeet glared so daya turned silent
Finishing the towel drying Abhijeet forwarded the dinner tray with "kha ley"
Daya looked at the tray "meine subha to dal aur chawal hi bas banaya tha..yea sab kya hey"
Abhijeet nodded "yea chicken hey"
"Chicken kaha as aya"
Abhijeet smirks "urr k kitchen ko aya tha meine pakar liya.."
Daya glared
Abhijeet sighed "arey dukan se aya"
"Dukan mtlb?"
"Dukan mtlb shop"
Daya now straight tone asked "tum shop Gaye..kyun?"
"Arey roj dal chawal- dal roti pichle kahi mahine se chal raha hey yea..doctor ne sab restriction ura diya per tum.. Na kuch aur banate ho na mujhe banane dete ho..ajkal to kitchen mey ghusne bhi na dete ho; Mein kitchen mey ghusne jau to aise react krta jaise kitchen nahi war zone mey ja raha hu...tujhe dal chawl aur khichri ki alawa kuch banana nahi ata, pehle ek mahine serf khichri khilayi, fir roti aur pata nahi kya sabji..ek hi sabji roj roj fir dal chawl start hua..jaise ek ek phase!"
Daya made a face "jab tum bimar they tab meine soup bhi banayi, toast kiye, ande ubale pishpash bhi banaya...daliya bhi aur ekdin biriyani bhi.. "
Abhijeet sighed and shook his head "jitne nam liye na biriyani ko chor sab bimaro wala khana hey ; aur gher mey bhi kuch acha khasa nahi hai isliye dukan chala gaya"
Daya protested vehmently "tumhe aise akele dukan nahi jana chahiye tha.. mujhe to keh.."
Abhijeet was looking at Daya with fixed glaze so Daya stopped
Abhijeet said in very calm mood "doctor ne permission de diya, adi ne dr Manjula ne tumse bhi kaha ki mein itna fit to hu.."
Daya gave a sad smile "ha pata hey sabka permission mil gaya"
Abhijeet immediately ammended his sentence "uhun sab ka kaha, mujhe to apne bhai ki hi permission hi na mila..per meine socha ek bar ager dikha du ki mein thik hu fir tu bhi thora assured ho jayega, sayed usse mera bhai mujhe jaldi jaldi permission de dey"
Daya didn't replied, he was busy eating when Abhijeet said "tere permission ki bina to mein kahi bhi nahi ja sakta hey na?"
Daya looked at Abhijeet with "ab to kha raha hu, ab to jaker so jao"
"Nahi tu complete kr ley fir"
Daya took two more bites and was about to stand up "mera ho gaya mein yea rakh k.."
Abhijeet said in stern tone "complete krne ka matlab yea nahi ki do niwale mey khatam ho jaye"
Seeing Daya not saying anything he continued "diet ka bhoot sarr se nikal dey pura khtm kr"
Hearing the serious tone daya now said "mein kha lunga tum jaker so.."
Abhijeet said in bit agressive tone "yea roj kha lo dawai lo so jao ki alawa aur kuch nahi kehte tum... kabhie kabhie lagta hey mein jindagi var ke liye so jau to..tujhe sayed mukti mil jaye"
He was about to move out when Daya grabbed his wrist
"Abhi mera wo matlab nahi tha..mein to bas.. tum baitho (he gulped) mein tumhare samne hi khata hu na..tum gussa mat ho na..."
Abhijeet sat down and Daya concentrated on eating after finishing the whole he got up
"mein rakh k ata hu"
As Daya moved out Abhijeet started making the bed properly
Daya came back, he didn't notice the bed but after brushing the teeth came back with "ho gaya sab ab to tum.."
But stopped with Abhijeet's ordering tone "leto"
Daya looked at the bed, it was properly made, during last few months he just removed the pillow from one end to other end and lied down
But today .
Seeing the nicely made bed Daya without any arguments lied down and closed his eyes, his mind supplied as if Abhijeet sees him lying down he will be satisfied and will move back to his room.
But felt the bed dip then a touch on his forehead
"Koshish karega na?"
Daya opened his eyes with "kya?"
Abhijeet rubbed his head "mujhe mere purane pehle wale Daya lautane ki?"
Daya nodded
Abhijeet continued "mein usko bahut miss krta hu, tu bhi apne Abhi ko miss krta hey na?"
Data shook his head in no "nahi, tum to yeahi ho"
Abhijeet smiled sadly "mujhe pata hey Daya, tu uss Abhi ko miss krta hey jisse tu sab demand kr sakta hey, jise sab kuch hey sakta hey, jiski samne tu kamjor par sakta tha..."
Daya looked at Abhijeet for few seconds then said "mein sabse jyada miss krta hu uss Abhijeet ko jo bahut khush rehta tha, tum wo lauta sakte ho?"
Abhijeet nodded "bilkul, jis din mujhe mera bhai mujhe mil jayega usdin wo wala Abhijeet bhi wapas ajayega"
Daya gave a sweet cute look and closed his eyes nudging Abhijeet's hand
Abhijeet started pressing his head softly
Then after assuring himself of Daya's sleep moved to his own room
He stood in front of his mother's photo
"Ma aapko yaad hey jis din Daya ko quarter mila yea wala aur hum yeaha shift hue.. Daya ne mujhse pucha tha kaunsa kamra loge..! Us kamre ki sath balcony hey….. Aur mujhe to pata hey ki use subha subha balcony baith k chai lena kitna pasand hey..east facing bhi to hey yea balcony. Meine tab yea kamre ki kaha, to Daya ne apne hathon se yea kamra saja di, apki photo, mere pasandida books music per koi shields trophies kuch nahi..yeaha taq humare official event mey liye gaye koi photo bhi nahi..! Mujhe tab taq yea sab kuch dhyan bhi na aya..aur jab khbr hui to notice kiya ki gher ki hall mey kamre ki kahi team ki photo bhi nahi hey, bas humare casual kuch photos hey..per Daya ki trophies wagera bhi nahi hey, Adi se pucha to pata chala ki usne sab packing kerwa k rakh diya"
He smiled sadly
"Meine sab nikal ke jab sab sajaye tab mujhe laga tha wo khush hoga, per uska cehra aur utar gaya! Mujhe to samjhna cahiye tha na k…. Aap dekhogi na ma?"
He lied down on his bed without sedatives
He decided to sleep on his own; from today onwards he will try to be independent may be then he will get back his Daya
The Daya who was strong for all outsiders but has his weakness reserved for only Abhijeet and effortlessly cried smiled quarrelled joked demanded in front of him
Who at times cursed him at times blessed him
At times beaten him at times was beaten by him
Who used to give a list of demands to him
Who used to fulfill all his demands also
May be he had gone far away
Because Abhijeet was not strong enough to fulfill all the demands of those relations
He have to grow strong or else may be this relationship will get lost
And without this relation without this bond he will have nothing left
When he lost his memory everyone said he is senior inspector Abhijeet when he retired his that identity got finished
Every one said she is her mother but with her dying his birth relation got finished
Only thing that was left is Daya
Daya, his brother, his friend, his philosopher, his guide, his teacher
Yes teacher who tought him to live again
And may be somehow he gave birth to a new Abhijeet
So he will fight for that relation
He have to fight the darkness within , fight the demons of the past
He have to fight his own scar and he will succeed
If he can move ahead with an unknown identity of himself then he can move ahead with the strength of thr relation he posses
Because losing is not an option
Yesterday is not ours to recover, but tomorrow is ours to win or lose.
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