This story will alternate from the report to the actual events, it will also change from first and third person.
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This is a journal left behind by a Soldier of the island known as Paradis, supposedly his name was Julian Diaz and this journal described his journey and hardships whilst fighting his enemiEs, but we only know of his time after the fall of Maria and Shiganshina, I can suspect that he had suffered a tragedy and that's likely the driving force of his actions, I came to that conclusion due to the entries of his journal. All of these events possibly occurred close to 90 years ago.
Wall Maria, Wall Rose, and Wall Sina, these three 50 meter walls were the physical barriers between the remaining humans and the Titans, huge humanoids that vary in height from as little as 2 meters to as large as 15 meters, these things only ate humans and nothing else. There were three military regiments, The Military Police, they keep the peace within the districts, The Garrison, they are the main defense of the walls and maintain them, and finally The Scouts, they go out to titan infested lands to explore the outside world and eventually retake those lands.
Shiganshina district July 17th, Year 845, 7:30 AM
Sitting on their bed was a 13-year-old boy. He had brown skin, black hair with his bangs pointed downwards, and had a pair of black eyes. He's 4ft11, which is fairly small for someone his age. He looked out his window and took a deep breath. He wanted to travel the district by himself, he then heard a female voice call out to him.
"Julian! Breakfast is ready."
Julian's POV
"Coming mom!" I called back. I leapt off my bed and looked at the nearby drawer, I smiled a bit as I open the door and headed downstairs, the houses in the outer district aka outside of the inner wall, were shoddy, to say the least, sure they're fine, but even I know that these stairs might buckle if too much weight was on it, but that didn't matter as it was just me, my mom and my father, I carefully but swiftly walked down the stairs as I'm greeted by the same plain smell of stew, it was nothing special, but something about it when my mom cooks it makes the taste so good.
"Food's right there my little bear." My face heats up from this.
"Mom." I complained, "I'm 13 years old and you should drop that." I get that she's calling me this because I had a stuffed bear and I always had it in my infant days, but now it's embarrassing to hear.
"Then who will I call my little bear?" My mom countered. I shrugged at this.
"I don't know dad?" My dad gives a snort as my mom laughs.
"No no, your father is a large and mean bear, not a small and cute one like you." She says in a joking tone as my father lets out an annoyed sigh.
"Really honey, I'm mean?" He clearly didn't get the joke.
"I mean, you look pretty angry all the time dad soo." I chime in with a smug look on my face. My dad pinches the bridge of his nose.
"What am I gonna do with you two?" My mom hugs him which slightly startled him.
"I don't know, but you have to admit." She begins as she looks at me, I tilt my head "he does look a lot like you." My dad turns to face me, we both look at each other and he slightly chuckles, my dad was never one to show his emotions all that much, so seeing him laugh(even if it was a chuckle.) was always pleasant to see because at the very minimum he found it amusing.
"And he has your personality." My dad adds. My mom pinches his cheeks in a playful manner.
"I wonder if he'll get a girlfriend soon eh?" In response, my dad gently swats it away.
"Stop that! What are you? An adolescent?!" My dad says in a way that most would find insulting, but to us it's his way of a joking tone.
"Nope." My mom responds "but you were immature when we first met, remember?" My dad's shoulders drop a bit.
"Don't you EVER mention that time period again!" He says with a mixture of anger and embarrassment? I took this as a chance to say.
"Weeeelll, I'm going." My mother's playful/childish demeanor swiftly changes to more of a stern, almost protective one.
"Going where?" She asks, she probably knew what I meant, but wanted to make sure, my dad's normal poker face is replaced by one of worry.
"Kid." He began "you're not thinking of-" I cut him off.
"Mom, Dad, I'm 13 years old, I've lived in this district my entire life and from the shopping trips with mom, I know this district like the back of my hand. The only reason I wanted to do this is because, simply put, I want to go outside of home. Alone and explore the district without being held back you know?" My parents look at each other, I'm actually expecting them to say no, which is understandable, I'm their only child and I'm not particularly the strongest, but I do have one advantage, I'm fast, so if things go south I can just run.
My mom takes a deep breath "promise you'll be back around lunchtime or earlier?" I widen my eyes out of sheer excitement as I immediately hug her.
"I-I will, I promise alright." I smile so widely that I felt like my head would split in half from this.
"Just be careful okay?" My mom says in a worried tone, but I shrug it off.
"Don't worry, I will, okay?" I say as I began to run out of my home, it was at the far left away from the gate and is close to the small reservoir of water. I turn right as I continue running.
"Hey, Julian!" A man at a small stand calls out, he's 58 years old, has brown, messy hair, fair skin and hazel eyes, and wrinkles that show his age.
" !" I called back.
"So." began "they finally let their little cub out eh?" was a family friend and was kinda like an uncle figure to me.
"Yep." I excitedly responded "but don't worry I'll be fine, promise!" pats my head.
"I know you will, you got your father's looks so, you might scare off a few bullies." I laugh at this.
"Good one ." I continue my run as waves me off. I ran in a straight line for a couple more seconds before stopping, I turned my head to the left and saw the gate, excitement filled my body as I went from a simple jog to a full-blown sprint. I run past a few drunken Garrison troops on the way as I'm greeted by the Main Street of Shiganshina, I run to my right then to my left to where there's a small ledge. I take in the sight of the district itself, my eyes bright as the sun, I slide down the small ledge, I run past residents of the district and continue my run through the streets, stands everywhere, the people all look really friendly, though the only downside is the temperature, in the middle of these thoughts, however, I run (more like bump) into a group of kids.
"The heck do you want punk?" One says, he had white hair and blue eyes, I nervously laugh as I apologize.
"S-s-sorry, I didn't mean to an-" I got cut off by a chubby kid who had light brown hair and brown eyes.
"Why does your skin look like poop?" The others smile in a menacing way as a blonde then says.
"I don't know, but we hate poop soo." He suddenly pulls his arm back and attempts to punch me, but I dodge with little to no effort. I'm confused as to why they wanted to hurt me.
"Why did you do that?" I ask in an innocent tone. The chubby kid answers.
"Simple, we hate poop and you look like poop." I raise an eyebrow, seriously? Is that their reason for wanting to hurt me?
"Really?" I retorted "simply because I'm poop? That's pretty dumb actually." I let out a small giggle as the white-haired boy grits his teeth.
"That's it!" He tries punching me and like with the blonde I dodge it, this is actually getting kinda fun.
I shuffle my feet in a playful manner "catch me if you can." I say as I begin to run. The bullies give chase, but they can't really keep up, this is super fun in all honesty, they thought they were getting in a fight, but instead, they got into a race. I gracefully weave my way through passing people apologizing to them of course, all the while I had a smile on my face due to how much fun I'm having. But I find myself at a dead end.
"Crud." I say out loud as the three boys catch up and I greet them with a smile and wave "looks like I won." I say with a small chuckle as I scratch the back of my head.
"Nowhere to run, eh runt?" The chubby one says.
"That's not really a nice thing to say." I respond, once again in an innocent tone.
"What are you gonna do? Cry to your mommy?" The blonde imitates me crying? I'm more concerned of their reaction more than me crying to them, like how would my dad deal with this, as stone-cold he is, he has a huge soft spot for me, and if I ever got hurt oh boy would he be angry, but before I could say or even do anything there was another boy's voice.
"Found you!" I see the boy and he looks to be my age, has dark brown hair, green eyes, he has a brown jacket, a tan shirt, and brown pants, he looked to be slightly taller than me, probably 5ft?
"Ohh look it's lame Jaeger." The white-haired boy says, then a girl who looked to be a similar height as the boy, with black hair, grey eyes, a white dress, and a red scarf on her neck appeared behind the boy.
"Crap it's Mikasa!" All of the boys run away from the two as the green-eyed boy says.
"Yeah, you better run!"
"Eren." The girl, who I assumed to be Mikasa says "you do know we left-"
"Wait!" Another boy's voice comes up. I see that he has blonde hair, blue eyes, a blue jacket, a white shirt, and black pants and is visibly shorter than both the brown-haired boy and the girl with the red scarf, heck even me.
"Armin." The girl says as she walks up and checks on him, "you okay!" He nods.
"Yeah." He says out of breath, he's clearly been running for a while. They all turn to my direction, I smile awkwardly.
"Hi." The trio looks at each other, the blonde asks.
"Soo, who are you?"
"I'm Julian."
The green-eyed boy then introduced himself.
"I'm Eren Jaeger." He then turns to the other two "the girl is Mikasa Ackerman and the blonde is Armin Arlet." I really didn't know how to thank them, let alone talk to them.
"You okay?" Mikasa asked, but she sounded…...cold, unlike with Armin where her tone was slightly softer, it was like she wasn't a kid.
"Y-yeah, it's just you sounded kinda cold." I bluntly answer. Mikasa tilts her head, not really getting what I meant.
"E-either way." Eren began "I'm kinda glad we caught up to those punks." Mikasa snorts.
"Eren, what you did was pretty dumb in all honesty." Armin says, in response, Eren shoots back.
"They took your bread and I wasn't gonna let that slide." I snicker a bit, they seem a little annoying, but they are also pretty funny. They all look at me.
"Sorry." I apologize whilst laughing "it's just you three act like a family it seems." Eren raises an eyebrow, Armin chuckles, and Mikasa….blushed?
"Yeah right." Eren mutters in an annoyed fashion, causing Armin to laugh.
"Well both me and Mikasa always have to drag you out of these situations." Eren's eye twitches.
"It's only because Mikasa sees me as a snot-nosed toddler who needs to be looked over while in reality, it's not the case."
Third-person POV
Julian watched as he saw Eren, Mikasa and Armin argue about this, it was entertaining seeing them fight over something so petty. Julian clears his throat.
"So um." He says before pausing for a bit, unsure on how to say it "can I be your friend?" To him, it was a really childish if not stupid thing to ask mere moments after he was saved by the trio, he doesn't know why it is, but it just felt flat out stupid to ask that. Maybe it's due to his lack of social skills that he believed that to be the case. Eren simply looked at the brown-skinned boy, Julian on the other hand, was yelling at himself, things like "that was super stupid." Or "dang it, I blew it, there goes any chance in making friends." But to his surprise, Eren smiled in a cheerful way, not like the bullies' more malice smile.
"Sure!" Was Eren's response, followed by Armin saying.
"I'll be your friend, erm, Jiul"
"Julian." Julian corrected. As for Mikasa, well she just nodded, but that didn't matter as the brown-skinned boy made his first-ever friends, Julian, smiles as he says "thanks."
"No problem." Eren says. The four of them get out of the dead-end and walk around Shiganshina district, but Julian could've sworn he saw someone with something at the corner of his right eye, the person had a black jacket, tan shirt, black pants, green eyes that looks to have little to no light in them and brown hair, the other thing was all dark blue, and its eyes were light blue, it's body was also translucent.
"Hey, guys." He says as he points at where those figures were. All Julian could mutter was a simple "huh?" He was confused, they disappeared. He SAW those two things, he blinks a bit "never mind, I'm likely seeing things." He mutters, but he knows that what he saw was real, but he doesn't focus too much afterward as he learns more about the district, the various alleys, and markets.
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As far as I can tell from entries in his diary, Julian met these three prior to the fall of Shiganshina, and from the looks of things, they would've become permanent friends, had it not been for Warriors attacking.
10:00 AM
Julian's POV
I look at the sun's positioning, I widen my eyes a bit.
"Guys I have to go, I need to head back home." I wave goodbye to them and sprint back to my home and in 5 minutes I'm back home. "I'm home." I project in a somewhat loud fashion. No response, guess they're not home yet, they are likely out getting food for lunch, so I retreated to my room.
In my room, if you were to enter, my bed was on the far left and could barely fit two people, in the middle was a singular square window and to the right is a small drawer that could act as a desk considering how close it was to the bed. I open the bottom right drawer and see a book, or to be more specific my diary, I flip through the 40 or so pages I filled out, not just with notes of my day, but also drawings….. horrible drawings. I place the journal on my lap and begin to write what occurred today.
Today was interesting, to say the least, I was able to go out on my own. That was certainly fun until I met a trio of bullies and I ran for a while, only for me to be trapped at a dead end. But it wasn't all doom and gloom as another trio saved me, Eren Jaeger, Mikasa Ackerman, and Armin Arlet. They were nice to me and I decided to become friends with them. I hope I get to see them again, I likely will. On another note, I did catch a glimpse of something or someone, two things or people to be exact. Who they are, I don't know, but what I do know is that what I saw was real. Looking back at it, the man with the brown hair and green eyes looked like Eren as an adult, maybe it's due to him being the only person I know who has those features, but a part of me feels like I'm correct, then again, my mind could be playing tricks, but I have a hard time believing that. Today was interesting, I hope to experience these types of days again.
And I ended the entry there, at least for the day. I then hear the door to the house opening. I get out of my room and greet my parents.
"Hi mom, hi dad." They're both surprised to see me home early, but regardless they smile.
"Well, I got a few fruits to spice up lunch and dinner." My mom says and this got me excited.
"Really?! Awesome, not only did I make new friends, but I'm also gonna get a really good lunch heh heh." My dad pats the top of my head.
"You're certainly happy, did something good happen?" I'm momentarily taken aback, did he not hear me? Either way, I told them what I said before.
"I made 3 new friends!" My mom claps both of her hands.
"That's wonderful to hear my little bear! Did you also have fun?" I can assume she didn't see any injuries on my body and that's why she's not worried, though if I told them about the bullying situation, that would swiftly change, so I had to improvise a story, easy enough.
"Yeah! Then again I went into a bit of trouble." The moment my parents heard trouble they narrowed their eyes.
"What kind of trouble Julian Diaz?" My mom looked super scary, she said my full name, but I continued.
"I hit a dead end." My parents' expressions slightly falter, maybe relieved it was that. "That's when I encountered my three new friends, Eren Jaeger, Mikasa Ackerman, and Armin Arlet." I described each one as best as I can, like how bratty Eren seems, but overall is fun to be around, Mikasa being antisocial and super protective of both Armin and Eren, finally Armin, someone who looks weak, but is wickedly smart and is super friendly.
"Well." My mom started "you made new friends eh? That's really nice."
"Thanks." There was an awkward silence, maybe my parents were still processing this information, I don't know, before long we all finished our lunch. My dad headed off to his afternoon shift, my dad worked as a bartender. Leaving only my mom and me alone, she headed to her room and I headed to my own room. Once there, I just collapsed onto my bed and fell into a deep sleep.
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I was hearing something, I slowly opened my eyes and I was in a log cabin? In front of me was a table, sitting there was a blonde girl wearing an eyepatch and was in a blue dress? And sitting parallel to her was a light blond-haired boy with green eyes and a light blue shirt and black pants? I walked towards them and they couldn't see me? I should be visible at least at the corner of their eyes. The blonde girl says something,
"The three of you saved this world, but the only thing we can show is HIS broken state, your missing left arm, and her death. She then turns her head to her right, she's staring at me, but she's not reacting much, she looks empty, I turn around and shocked by what I see, it's a black hair boy, he's wearing similar clothing to the light blonde-haired boy, but his shirt is darker, but he was missing his right arm, he was on a wheelchair and holding three swords with the crook of his left arm, one was as red as blood, another was as dark as the night sky and the third one shined brightly as blue ice. But his expression, for a lack of a better term, was…..dead looking.
The scene suddenly stops and distorts.
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I'm in another weird place, I'm way above the clouds, then I hear a voice.
"Is this REALLY what you wanted?" Their voice was deep and raspy, almost like an old man. I turned to the general direction of it and the voice continued as the scene distorted again. "No matter what you do, this cycle of hated will ALWAYS continue, there's no stopping it, and I ask again e-"
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I'm in a black void. Nothing was around me, odd. Then I hear a voice, one that sounds like an older version of me(?)
"Look, I'm just gonna leave for a bit, then I'll come back, this is goodbye, for now at least, keep being you, okay K-" I hear another voice.
"Why do we protect humans, Marbas?" This one sounded calm, then a voice similar to the one speaking now responds.
"They are our creators, of course, we have to protect them."
More voices started to project.
"We are….gonna….be…..partners….for…as long….as…possible….right?" A soft female voice says.
"Yeah, I promise." That same older version of me(?) whispers.
Another one projects. This one is more….sadistic.
"I can't wait to cause more of this, heh heh."
I cover my ears so as to not hear anything, but it doesn't work as I hear more voices, but they all merged together…I want this to…stop…..
"Armin!" An older sounding me said "w-wheres…Mina and the others?" There's silence before he simply says "no."
"Hey, you okay?" Called out a female voice. I slowly lift my head. I'm in another weird place and it's the middle of the night it seems, but I recognized it in books, the cadets boot camp, the wooden barracks, and a huge circle in the middle.
I hear an older version of myself.
"What do you want?" I sounded irritated like I didn't want to talk to anyone, that was completely out of character, I turned around and I saw three people, my older self, a girl with pigtails and gray eyes and a boy with white hair and bluish-grey eyes.
"We wanted to ask you some questions." The girl calmly asked, I see my older self visibly get angry, but for a brief second I saw a pendant, it was mostly silver and had a green gem in the middle, if this was the future, then my parents must've gotten me that prior to it, as it was something I wanted for a while.
"If this is about-" my older self gets cut off as the scene distorts.
"Hey, kid." I hear my father's voice as I shoot my eyes wide open and in my immediate peripheral vision is my dad, who has a worried expression. "You okay kid?." I slowly sat up and made eye contact with him.
Julian's Father's POV
I stared at my son in the eyes, the only thing I saw….was fear. My wife, Mayan is currently sleeping, and waking her up might bother her, even though she might be more capable of calming Julian down.
"Son." I began, I didn't know how to approach this, my son's fearful eyes made me want to at the very minimum know what's bothering him. "Is something wrong?" I see my son silently nod.
"Yeah." He silently mutters. I gently patted him on the back, he probably had a really bad dream.
"It's okay, what happened wasn't real." I said in an attempt to calm him down. He shudders.
"But, it felt so real." My son's voice begins to crack as he begins to cry. "I saw, so many things, I-I-I couldn't make any s-sense of them!" He buries his face onto his hands, I don't know how to make him stop crying, usually, Mayan is the one who calms Julian so how should I, someone who doesn't interact with his own son sometimes, calm him down?
Then I remember a time I was talking to Con about this and his response.
"Look Jose, you have to show some kind of affection to the little guy, give him a hug or something when he's feeling down and say everything will be alright, at least that's how I see it, as I've never had children."
With that small advice in mind, I wrap my arms around Julian's smaller in comparison body and I gently stroke the back of his head.
"Dad?"
"It's okay." I said in the most gentle way my voice could really muster "I'm here, and so is your mother, we're both okay, what happened in your dream never happened and will never happen, I promise." I feel my son's arms wrap around my own body as he stops crying.
"Thank you…..father….thank you." I smiled ever so slightly as I responded.
"You're welcome, my little bear."
We both stayed like that for a few more minutes, then Julian fell asleep. I tucked him in his bed and left the room, after closing the door. I am greeted by Mayan I jump back almost immediately.
"Oh god! You scared the crap out of me." I take a deep breath and look at her light brown eyes.
"How long did you listen?" I asked, Mayan silently giggled.
"Long enough to know that you're actually a really nice bear." I pinch the bridge of my nose as Mayan switches to more of a thanking and serious tone "but no seriously I'm glad you helped Julian out, I can't imagine his state if we were both asleep, so thanks, honey." I smiled a bit as I kissed her on the forehead.
"I'm glad I could help." She places her hand on my cheek.
"My my, we're both getting old." Mayan muttered, I silently chuckled.
"Is that so?" I responded, "we saw Julian grow up so quickly, he's going to reach your height soon." I was half-joking. Recently Julian has been growing rapidly, I wouldn't be surprised if he grew to be 5ft2 by the end of the year, Mayan is 5ft4 and I'm 5ft8.
"But we still have time, we're in our late thirties." She says rather optimistically, I smile a little more.
"Yeah." but seeing Julian grow and seeing how he is, I'm happy for him, I do hope I'll show my happiness towards him, one day.
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There was little information regarding Julian's parents in his journal, we can tell that they meant a lot to the future soldier. I also caught mentions of "Mr,Con" though unfortunately, unlike the parents, we do not have anything regarding this mysterious person, all I know is that he played some role in his life.
Mayan's POV
3 days later
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I could faintly hear screams, large footsteps, and my son's voice and yet I couldn't see anything.
"I'll kill you! You damned armored beast!" it was a far cry from the soft-spoken Julian I knew, he sounded enraged. In an instant, it was over and I woke up. I looked to see that Jose was still asleep, I looked out the only window that was in our room, it looked to be 6-7 in the morning. I quietly got up and left the room, I doubt both Jose or Julian will be awake any time soon. So I decided to pay someone a visit. Con, he never really had a last name from what he told me, and he was someone I could turn to in case my husband wasn't around to help. Once I arrived at the house I knocked on the door. I half expected it to go unanswered, but to my surprise, he opened the door, he smiled, and greeted me with open arms.
"Mayan, fancy seeing you here!." He says in a welcoming tone, he then sees my slightly disturbed face and he switches to a more worried almost father-like tone "did something happen?" He asked and I nodded slightly.
"Somewhat it's just something weird happened and Jose is still asleep so I'm wondering if you could hear me ramble?" Con, accepted as he lets me in.
"Sure, I'll make some tea okay?" He says.
"Thank you." Con prepared the tea and I told him about the weird and yet real dream that I had, no visuals, just sounds. After I was done explaining it, Con had nothing to say. If anything he was clueless, I expected it, but I don't know what to make of it, a premonition or something?
"I don't know what to really say Mayan, this is something even I can't really answer, sorry." I held up my hand.
"It's okay Con, I just wanted to say something I guess." I look down at my cup, I see my reflection, my short light brown hair, fair skin, and small eyes. I feel like I'm going to die today, I don't know why, but in the middle of my thoughts, however, I hear Con make a loud ahem.
"I was meaning to give this Julian on his birthday next month, but since you're here, I want you to give it to him." he left to go to his room, leaving me alone…..I'm going to die soon. Julian will be upset, he's gonna cry, I know it, every time I got hurt in the past, I see his face tear up just a little bit. I can imagine the pain he'll be in, will be unimaginable. I close my eyes holding in my own tears, then I see a faint outline of a girl looking to be 15-16 years old,hair tied in pigtails, this is likely another permintion, maybe of the person who will be beside Julian and mend his future wounds. If that's the case, if someone will be there for him, then I accept my death. I hear footsteps coming towards me.
"Found it." Con said, it was a small box, I widened my eyes.
"You actually-" I get interrupted
"It took me a long time to find it, and I feel it would be appropriate to give it to the little guy." I opened it and it was a pendant, the shape of the object was a fairly large oval, mostly silver on the edge and the rest was dark green gem. It was something Julian wanted when he was about 6, and when Con heard about it, he almost instantly tried finding one that fit exactly how Julian described it. I wanted to buy one for him as well, but we didn't have a lot of money and over time Julian gave up on the idea of having one.
"How can I repay you?" I asked, this must've cost him so much that I have to do something at least.
"Tell him that it's from you." is all he said.
"Why?" I was confused, why didn't he want Julian to know that he bought it? Con chuckles a bit.
"You're the parent, so to me I find it fitting that the parent should give something that the child wanted badly." again I was confused, but an idea sparked up.
"How about I say it's from me, you and Jose." Con widens his eyes in surprise but smiles gently like the river near the house.
"Okay fine." I looked down at the small box for a little while longer, my thumb glided over the top of the box. I got off the chair and looked at Con.
"Thank you for letting me vent about this." Con looks at me and nods ever so slightly.
"No problem." and with that, I left his house and I looked down at the box that held the pendant. A small smile emerged on my face as I slowly made my way back home.
10 minutes later
When I arrived and headed up the stairs, I noticed something standing close to Julian's door. Two things actually, I saw a silhouette of a young man and the other I couldn't make sense of. I almost immediately ran towards them to either drag them out of his room or punch them directly, because I'm not going to let anything hurt him, not if I have to do something about it. As I ran towards them, I saw the man turn around and face me, I immediately balled up my fists and raised them close to my face.
"Get away from my son's door." I asked calmly, but it was clear from my voice that I was hostile. I heard a voice that wasn't from the man.
"Shit, I thought she wasn't gonna come until a little later." It sounded like an old man, but his voice was extremely raspy. I looked at the man in the eyes and was shocked by his eyes .…they had no life within them, my motherly instincts almost took over to see if he was alright, to see if anything was wrong. The man opened his mouth.
"So….you were his mother….I'm sorry." I was confused, then my motherly instincts fully took over as I slowly walked towards him.
"A-are you okay? You seem hurt." I asked in a tone I would ask Julian if he was hurt. The man slightly widened his eyes, he looked like he was gonna cry. "Are you okay?" I asked again. Then I heard that old man's voice again as the weirdly shaped being moved.
"He's fine." As it slowly moved towards the man, it slowly changed to more of a humanoid look, I took a step back at how similar that human was to Julian, hairstyle and all, the one thing that gave away was that it was an older Julian was the pendant. "We have to go, me and him have so many more places to go." The voice was different, it sounded like an older version of Julian would sound. And just like that, they both disappeared. I gulped as I approached my son's door and opened it ever so slightly and was relieved to see he was still in his bed.
Third Person POV
Standing outside of the house were two figures, a man with brown hair and a dark blue mist, the mist spoke first.
"I knew what you wanted to do, alter the timeline more than expected." its voice sounded ancient like the walls that were protecting the Elidans. The man with brown hair slowly nodded.
"Yes, I wanted to change everyone's fate right then and-" the voice interrupted him.
"Look, we and when I mean we, I mean the others, and I have already done a significant amount of damage to this timeline and by definition, this specific universe and it will cause more glitches. while yes switching a few names might not seem much in the short term." The voice stops for a bit and forms a finger and holds it up as it continues. "It will significantly change things in the long term." The man looks down, understanding what the mist was saying.
"I know.'' The mist places its hand on the man's shoulder, slightly reassuring him, even though It didn't want to reassure the man.
"Let us head to another section shall we?" it asked. The man nodded his head as both figures disappeared.
8:30 AM
Julian's POV
I woke up with a strange feeling of emptiness and sadness. I had a dream, but I don't remember it. I rubbed my eyes and got off my bed, I approached my door and I felt off, it's as if someone or something was here. I slowly opened it and…...nothing, it was odd, to say the least. I slowly walked out of my room and when I approached the start of the stairs, however, that odd feeling was gone. When heading down the stairs I see my mom in the kitchen. It's normal to see her there, but something felt off with the atmosphere like she knew or saw something that didn't belong. My mom welcomed me.
"Good morning Julian." it was off, her tone seemed a little shaky. I yawn a bit.
"Morning mom." I responded as I took note of the small black box in the middle of the table, I pointed at it "what's that?" I asked passively. My mom fumbles.
"O-oh that…well erm I uh." She tries to formulate a response but fails, she takes the box and opens it. She takes out what was inside and I widen my eyes in utter shock. It was the pendant I wanted, silver on the outer edges and a green gem in the middle. I suddenly beamed with happiness.
"Mom!" I Suddenly say "you actually-" I get interrupted by her.
"Con, your father and I bought this together." I feel my eyes start to water up "I was gonna give it to you on your birthday, but you caught me red-handed so might as well give it to you three days early." I immediately hugged my mom and began to thank her.
"You're the best, mom…t-thank you!" She hugs me back.
"You're welcome, my little bear." all of my suspicions seem to have completely washed away as she releases me. I put on the pendant and look at the green gem. I look at mom and tell.
"I'll be going to the inner part of the district, bye." I wave her off and my mom responds.
"Be Careful okay?" I laugh a little.
"Okay mom, I'll be extra careful." I continue running until I encounter a certain trio.
"Eren! Armin! Mikasa!" I begin to increase my pace as I stop in front of them. Eren greets me with a simple smile and Armin smiles as well, as for Mikasa, she doesn't emote, but I can see a faint glimpse of a smile. Eren speaks up first.
"Hey Julian." he stops for a bit "wanna hang out with us?" I smiled as widely as I possibly could as I responded cheerfully.
"Yeah!"
"So where should we go?" Armin asked. I instantly thought of a place we should go.
"I know a place, but you have to follow me." I lead them to 's shop, once there he greeted me.
"Julian! nice to see you again!" he pets me on the head which causes me to burn up out of embarrassment, he stops and apologizes "sorry." I held up my hand.
"It's okay." looks at the trio behind me and smiles a bit.
"It's on the house." I raise an eyebrow.
"What?" he chuckles in response, I get slightly irritated, really liked tricking me.
"it's free." I widen my mouth and smile as he gives the four of us the bread. As I take a bite, it was extra soft today, which means it was freshly made. smiles a bit and asks.
"May I can be your chaperone for the time being?" I immediately nod as Armin laughs.
"That'll be great, Eren won't get into too much trouble if you're around." Eren scoffs at this as he crosses his arms
"I can take care of myself." raises his eyebrows.
"really? from what Julian told me and how Armin acted, it seems to me that you can't." Eren's eye twitches.
"F-fine, he can come along," he says reluctantly. closed his shop and watches us over as we head back into the district.
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in his entries, it was stated that this was his greatest regret and mistake, something he will never forget.
7:20 PM
Con separated from us, he said was heading north of the district and left the for of us alone. I looked at the small lake that was heading deeper into the walls. then I hear Armin's voice.
"Hey, Julian, have you wonder what's beyond the wall?" I shake my head in response Eren widens his eyes a bit as Armin explains further.
"My grandparents had a book that described the world beyond the walls, flaming water, large rocks that would take days to walk to the very top, frozen lakes and finally." he looks at the small lake "the sea." I tilt my head slightly.
"the what?" I ask in a questioning way, the sea, huh, it sounded really nice.
"the sea." Armin repeated. "it's a body of water so large that merchants spend their entire lives working there catching all sorts of life, but not coming close to catching everything nor getting all the salt out." my curiosity skyrocketed as my mouth was fully agape. then Eren says.
"Me and Armin tried making a balloon to get over the wall." I look at the green-eyed boy.
"What happened to it?" I innocently asked Eren scratched the back of his head.
"well-" then a loud BOOM! echos throughout the district. we all got slightly launched by the sound alone. when we got up, we all started running towards the middle of the town. we look around and nothing, then we see a person point up. we all look at where the man was looking, there was steam, then a large hand, I felt a small shiver go down my spine, as to all of our collective horror, a large head peeks over the wall. it was a Titan, over 50 meters tall, I gulped in fear of the thing and its look, it looked like all of its skin was peeled off and that there was, was red skin. then we hear another BOOM! but this time we see something, debris, lots of it from the entrance of the wall, I knew was there and likely died there. the debris comes crashing down, crushing anyone unlucky to get caught in it. Eren steps forward in fear.
"Our house was there, mom was there, MOM!" he immediately starts running towards where his house is. my feet are glued to the ground as I see the terrifying sight of the Titans, which got me back into reality as I turn around and start running at full speed, I trip at the first rock and see blood. I get back up and the various amounts of crushed bodies, I shut my eyes close as I continue running, only for me to trip again, this time I get knocked out. I wake up after maybe five minutes or so? it didn't matter as I begin running again, I was soo close to the gate, soo close to being safe with mom and dad. I see two familiar figures. I increase my running speed, but I trip again. I hear two pairs of footsteps approaching me, I look and my eyes weren't deceiving me.
"Mom! Dad!" I yell, my mom grabs my hand and we all run.
"Where's Con?!" my dad asked, I close my eyes and shake my head. I can feel my dad's sadness as we all continue running.
"I-it'll be okay I promise." my mom assured, but I knew even she was afraid.
Mayan's POV
this is where I die, where me and Jose die, I shake my head as I grip my son's hand tighter. No, I'm going to live, we're all going to live through this! I'll make sure of it, if not, I rather have my son and husband live while I die, we all make it past the gate and we increase our speed, we need to make it to a boat and we'll live and-
"CLOSE THE GATE HURRY!" it felt like time was slowing down as we hear rapid footsteps, it was heading towards the gate, I Pull my son with all my strength and run with all the stamina I have left, my legs feel numb, but I have to push through to make sure Julian, my own son to survive this peaceful place turned hellhole. we then hear a loud BOOM, we all stop and turn to see a giant rock heading straight towards us. me and Jose push Julian with all of our strength as Julian looked at me and all I could is give him one last smile.
Julian's POV
all I saw was my mother smiling at me before the boulder crushes them, I get knocked out again, this...this was all my-
"KID WAKE UP!" I open my eyes and it's a female garrison trooper she takes my hand and lifts me up as I look at the boulder.
"Mom? Dad?" I reach my hand out as the solider lifts me over her shoulder, I couldn't cry, couldn't scream, all I did was reach out towards the boulder and repeated their actual names "Mayan, Jose" this continued until I saw a large armored titan, I made eye contact with it was I grit my teeth in anger,
"I'll kill you, you dammed ARMORED BEAST!" I ball my hand into a fist as the soldier continued to run until we reached a boat, she sat me down and says.
"I'll be back I promise." she runs off, I assume to help others, but all I could is reach out to her, the boat begins to move as I sit in a fetal position, I couldn't say anything or cry, I then hear Eren say something.
"I'll kill you, I'll KILL each and every one of you." then it hit me, had I not left the house, my parents would be alive, would be alive, their deaths weren't the fault of one thing, it was two, that titan and me...I caused their deaths, I killed them, I killed my entire family. as I thought this, tears started forming as I looked down at my hand, as one tear falls onto it, I grit my teeth as I silently cried into the night.
You have read the entire first chapter of Solider's Dairy, congrats! hears a cookie, but no seriously, I hope you enjoyed this chapter as this took a while to write along with another fic I was doing, speaking of said fic, GLITCHES, keep that in mind okay(to those who is currently reading that fic) and look back at the beginning of the chapter you might find something. that's all I got to say, overall I had tons of fun doing this first chapter and let's say it was COMPLETLY different when I first thought up this story, ooo boy, but either way, see you in the next chapter
title: Refuge And Guilt