Disclaimer: Of course I don't own CSI or these characters- just love them. This is just some of Grissom's thoughts whilst waiting for the coloured bees to return from the forest in the Finale. Every time I watch it, I hope that he plucks up the courage and says something but he never does.
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She was right there; right next to me. We were waiting for the bees and were totally alone. The silence was so very loud but neither of us were saying anything.
She hadn't seemed happy to see me. I guess I should never have expected her to be but I had been hoping for at least one smile; that beautiful smile.
I honestly never thought I'd see her again. I had sent the divorce papers with no note; no explanation. I didn't have the words. How could I tell her that she deserved better than an old, deaf man who no longer even held a title. Not that "Lab Director" was a title that meant I deserved someone like her but it was, at least, something.
She had everything going for her; young, beautiful, smart and ambitious. She could be whoever she wanted in life and more importantly WITH whoever she wanted and I was sure that she would soon realise that she didn't want someone like me.
How did I explain that letting her go was the best thing for her…
Well I didn't and couldn't so I just sent the papers.
Heather had always told me to speak my mind but it was something that never came easy. Sitting here, waiting for the bees, I'm sure Sara didn't want to hear me say "god, you're beautiful" or "I'm going to miss you for the rest of my life". My one slip up already today, telling her that 'seeing her had made me little speechless' hadn't exactly been welcomed. Again there was no smile, just a look of frustration. Was it worth trying again? Could I say something to tell her what I was feeling? Did I want to?
I took a deep breath, watching her for any sign that she wanted me to say something.
'Here goes nothing.' I thought to myself.
Just as I opened my mouth to say her name…
"Hey, green is back!"
The bees.
Had they rescued me or ruined me? I wasn't sure.