Author's Note: I don't own any of the characters from Law and Order SVU or the plotlines they follow. All credit goes to the creators Dick Wolf and NBC. This is just a work of fiction inspired by the canon of SVU. This story may contain mentions of suicide, drug use, overdose, abuse, mental health, and sexual content.

Chapter One

For the first time in almost two years Alex Cabot walks through the doors of the special Victims Unit squad room. She notices the small changes of the time period she's been gone and takes a deep breath then slowly lets it out. She makes her way to now captain Olivia Besson's office. She leans against the doorway silently watching Olivia holding a picture. She raises her hand to knock on the door softly. Olivia snaps her head up to look at her intruder, her face morphs into one of confusion.

"Alex?" she breathes out.

Alex comes into the room and shuts the door behind her, she sits in the chair in front of Olivia's desk.

"Hi liv" Alex gives a half hearted smile.

"What are you doing here?" Olivia counters wiping the tears from her eyes.

"A concerned friend called and wanted me to come check on you" Alex responds hesitantly.

Olivia scoffed.

"Let me guess fin?" She says shaking her head.

"He's just worried liv" Alex defended

"Don't you think i know that?" Olivia snipped

Alex raised her hands in surrender. She opened her mouth to talk but Olivia beat her to it.

"I'm sorry, it's just a rough day." Olivia sighed, shaking her head. "If I'm being honest it's been a hard year"

Alex just nodded her head.

Olivia stood up and went to stand in front of Alex and leaned on her desk, arms crossed.

"What are you doing here, really Alex" Olivia asked

Alex leaned back against the chair legs crossed hands on each arm rest in perfect regal posture raising an eyebrow.

"I told you fin called so I came to check on you" alex shrugged

" so I'm supposed to believe you dropped everything you were doing just to run to New York and come see me?" Olivia questioned in disbelief

" would that be so hard to believe?" Alex questioned leaning a bit forward trying to get a read on Olivia's face.

"You're such a lawyer " Olivia huffed out.

This caused Alex to have a small smile graced her lips. Alex stood up leaving very little space between the two of them, then put her hands on the desk on each side of Olivia leaning in close to Olivia's ear. She was so close to Olivia she could feel her breath next to her ear while Alex could see Olivia's breathing hitch.

"Well I'm just your type then , huh" Alex teased.

"Alex" Olivia breathed out upset with herself. Alex still has this affect on her.

"Hmmm" Alex drew out, leaning back giving Olivia some space.

"You can't keep doing this. We can't keep doing this" Olivia said, gesturing between them.

Alex cupped Olivia's cheeks with both hands having them make eye contact. Alex sees how tired and worn down the woman in front of her is and sighed.

"Sweetheart, that's not why I'm here. I'm here because I'm worried about you liv. When Fin called me it was a complete shock to hear from him and then he told me tucker passed away. He was worried about you enough to call me, and you didn't" Alex explained in the softest voice she's ever had.

Olivia placed her hands lightly on Alex's wrists but did not move Alex's hands.

" what was I supposed to call and say Alex? Hey, I know we haven't seen each other in a couple years but my ex boyfriend committed suicide after helping me make a case can you come help me not fall apart? I couldn't do that to you, I didn't even know what part of the world you were in , I couldn't expect you to drop everything on a whim for me" Olivia shrugged defeated.

"Liv.." Alex voice strangled with emotion

Kat chose that moment to open Olivia's door, suddenly stopping seeing the intimate embrace her boss was in with this unknown blonde. The two stepped apart at the sound of the door opening. Olivia cleared her throat

" something I can help you with, officer?" Olivia asked

"Oh , I was just letting you know my 5's are done and I'm heading home if you don't need anything else?" Kat answered looking between the two women intrigued.

"No, I'm good, get home safe" Olivia waved her off.

"Right" Kat paused looking at the blonde next to her boss then back to Olivia. " Goodnight boss" Kat said leaving the room.

An awkward silence wafted over the two women. Alex cleared her throat trying to stop the emotion from coming back.

"New hire?" Alex questioned head tilting towards the door.

"Transfer from vice" Olivia replied quietly

After a beat Olivia said

" I should get home to Noah and you should get back to whatever it was you were doing"

Alex couldn't keep the hurt off her face.

"Right, it's late you should get home but liv I meant it when I said I'm here because I'm worried about you" Alex sternly said

" you don't need to, you're not a part of this life anymore Alex. I have people that care for me , Fin shouldn't have called you" Olivia replied without emotion.

Olivia grabbed her things and headed to the door leaving a hurt Alex in her office.