Author's Note: Hey Guys! Welcome to The First Fanfiction of Our Fav. Duo, I do hope I would be able to do justice to this amazing couple and how through the show the struggles they had to got through... but maybe with a little more of the aftermath of it all. Please do review and toss some Ops and POVs or Ideas or scenes you'd think would fit :) And Fav or Follow to keep up and Lets Go!

Italics are mostly flashbacks or past events that happened, More of the storyline will be revealed so Stay Tuned to See If SPASHLEY Make It! :)

Much Love - IzCale

1.1 Chapter - Before We Could

Spencer's POV

It's been too long... Since that day... That Day where I heard the sweetest sound of laughter from a certain brunette... the late night smiles as the moonlight would beam on her as we steal the night's innocent slumber...memories that remained faint in the back hidden cracks of my mind, to the wonderous times of our love... but sometimes, even if you're ready to give the world a chance for happiness it wasn't the same for us.

The day seemed all too familiar as I slowly glance around the room that was once my comfort and bliss soon became a sense of pain and regret, ever since we left Los Angeles we just simply drifted apart... Ashley and I had became from Strangers to Lovers to Strangers once again.

After the way events kept happening with our lives, I had realize that it had to be the best choice we both had to make, everyone around us thought that it would be the better solution for the both of us. The sense of loving someone whom you never thought that would be able to show you how the parts of you that you've kept under the wraps of your skin would be able to just simply look at you like the thin layers of glass that even a slight contact of touch would crack the walls you have made for yourself.

The thoughts of the possibility to love them as they are... as they see through the tiniest of flaws and imperfections make it feel like even the world couldn't go against you as long as your heart felt intertwine with each other.

I truly understood the situation that we had placed for the both of us, even with the tensions of our families and full responsibilities laid out for our lives... but there was no doubt in my mind. I truly loved and till this day love her... she was the only person who would occupy the vacancy of my mind but have the flames in which she would only be able to ignite once more.

The pressure of the young love... a Forbidden love through the eyes of others that showed nothing but disgust and angst.. our love was filled with much passion, purity and innocence with its own form, for the love that both Ashley and I shared was true bliss. The constant stares and glances that form into more then just a want... it was more then the uncontrollable lust.. it was the form of a stronger bond of love.

I could sit here all day telling you that between her beautiful chocolate orbs to my baby blues were something more... I promised you that I'll dream of those cherry red lips as those dark loose chocolate soft curls surrounded her face... those chocolate orbs who saw right through the charlatan of my acts and words.

She truly wasn't just another beautiful face but she was a genuine person that I recall as the day I knew she would be the only one to engrave her name into my heart... Her soul had more to the story then she truly gave herself to be told of... but don't let her smile and laugh fool you so easily..

Her name is Ashley Harper Davies... the person who not only stole my heart but took the very air that was given.. and when she held me close, it was close enough that would make your heart skip more beats then you'd imagine... the thought of her getting close to you, you'd know that trouble was the icing on the cake.

Funny how after all these years, she's clouds most of my mind and days... in honesty my heart..., it just feels like yesterday when the my cerulean eyes met the swirls of chocolate that would make me love for years on end. I could remember the day Ashley told me that she was leaving... leaving me and leaving to protect us, I didn't understand back then since well were done with high school then the moment Ashely got word that she was sent into the field to work, it broke me I honestly didn't know how to react or understand why she went through the decisions without a word though it did occur to me that I had other plans to settle down after or one in the terms of how the motions that took place when we were younger.. honestly it was too fact paced, which made us realized that both Ashley and I weren't truly ready... or as my younger sister had told me " The Right Person But At The Wrong Time"

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[ 4 years ago ]

"Spence... Baby.. I know I'll be gone for 2 weeks, I could always cancel and tell them that I came down to food poisoning or I was going to a straight rehab camp" as a chuckled escaped Ashley's lips she quickly shrugged of as she knew best to avoid my eyes to her as she shuffled restlessly in the spot she was sitting as not wanting to look into mine as a sign of defeat and concerned loving.

A shyly laugh escaped my lips before getting a playful smack on her arm as she slowly stood right before my eyes... God those beautiful amber eyes could kill me everyday of the week and yes she was indeed all I ever needed in my incontrollable and chaotic life... so to speak.

"Ash... as much as I want you to stay, we both know you have to go and it would be good for you too.. your my hero no matter what they said, they didn't know what kind of pain and hell you went through... I know that I don't really know the amounts of pain that was caused.. but you came back...Yes you came back to me ... Damaged... but you came back to me... Alive... that's all that truly matters"

That was all the words I could ever give to Ashley before she delicate hands slid behind my neck in a sense of begging me to kiss her as no words were truly said.

Soon her lips was placed against my own which caused fireworks throughout my body which I hardly deny, the things this women does.. can't say I'd complain... to have her hands glide along the sides of my skin as she was mapping out the very outline of me which she has solely done with countless of times before.. to feel the tenderness of her kiss marking out how every inch of me was only hers to keep, after the what felt like hours, it was time to let her go back to her home...

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Funny how the words slowly rolled off my tongue for the first time in years... Home... it truly has been years before I would set foot on the very place where it started...Los Angeles - City of Angels... the very thought of seeing my parents were close to none, since I hadn't spoken to my mother ever since the day she realized that her Eldest daughter was Gay and though there was my younger sister which was still hiding in the closet since she saw the results of my coming out which not only freaked her out in a sense but made sure our dearly mother had no clue at all.

As much as a lovable parent Paula Carlin had been, the realization of being gay wasn't set in the sights of our dear mother.. though it was enough to send one of her daughters out of their house but was brought back to her motherly senses due to our father Arthur Carlin, The only parent who without a doubt truly loved me as much as supported the relationship that Ashley & I share which wasn't a surprise since he was the one who decided to ask us while we were in the living room, He was truly amazing and I am thankful for having him as a father as much he was to me and to Ashley. Mind you the way my mother wasn't fond of finding out that my friendship with Ashley was not just a friendship, instead of being my support as much as my father had been, I honestly wasn't surprised at her reaction let alone her spoken tongue which had caused words that seemed to be unheard of flying through the air like daggers.

As I started to look through the around my empty apartment, the bottom drawer caught my eye while knowing the item that I had searched for was on the back on my mind.. soon my hand landed on the familiar book which still made me form a smile...

Like a whispered wish in the wind... Memories and words soon lingered into my mind as to the day which Ashley said the most important words to me as if she was still here holding me tightly in her loving arms:

"Spencer Octavia Carlin, I Love You Till Eternity Begs Me Not Too Love You Anymore..."

Soon as my fingers traced along the pages of scattered photos which were both the good and the bad... a photo that was in still there like it was just yesterday... the day Ashley said she couldn't fight her feelings for me anymore.. like gravity knew I was for her as much as she was to me. Slowly as my feet made it way over to my old bed while laying on the top layered soon sleep has taken over as I knew I'd be dreaming of those beautiful eyes again.

In the mist of the morning, sunlight had somehow slip through the cracks of my window making it impossible to not feel the warmth that kissed my skin.. how can the simple memories flow like it did... the images of last night plastered on my mind urge my body to get up and get ready to face it all. As I forced myself to drag body out of my bedroom door to finally make myself an heartfelt breakfast ( Good Old Cinnamon Toast Crunch ) in my almost bare apartment since this might be the last time I'd be in this place... this was once home.. our home.. together...

A light knock came from the front door bringing me out of my thoughts as a tear had soft danced it way down my cheek while trying to hold back the thoughts

"Spence.. Hey, its Madison... listen... we need to talk and I know it hasn't been easy but I need to see my bestfriend and see if she's alright ?" While waiting for any further excuses I made my way to the front of my door as turned the knob to see my Bestfriend Ms. Madison Duarte in the hallway with two pints of cotton candy ice-cream in her hands while a soft smile form on her face.

Madison has been my bestfriend since we were in diapers, She was 1 month older then me If I recall correctly since I mean now being the age of 22 and Maddie was 23 in the following month or so and I could still recall the one time in 5th Grade, a mean boy Jackson Dalton who was in 6th Grade decided to destroy the castle that we had both worked on for an hour, it was good to say that boy wouldn't be messing with us for a period of time. What had happened was Jackson was both pinned by the both of us telling him to apologize while putting some sand in his shorts which Maddie decided as part of the consequences, If you'd say we both knew that messing with tiny girls were dangerous you've got another thing coming.

While bringing myself back out of thought

"Hey Maddie, sorry I just... it felt like I needed to be away from everything... and I just... Its.. just..." tears flow before my words could get out and the next thing I knew Madison wrapped her arms around me like a safety blanket...I cried which felt like I am have cried for the longest time... while using one of my free hand I slowly wiped away the remaining tears that were flowing down my face as my bestfriend looked as if I was finally defeated with the battles I'd hidden so far.

"Sorry, you'd still think after all this time I'd be over crying".

She just gave me the look of " Girl You Know Your Cool " like some sort of retro chick but that's what you got to love about Madison, even those simple thoughts and acts she could get me out of limbo when it was truly needed.

After the while, chuckles and laughter escaped as it echoed through the room as She finally handed me my own pint and spoon while she was struggling to get a spoonful of ice-cream out of her pint

"Well, I'm your bestfriend so there's the exception of it besides I'll always be here to kick your ass or be your shield when you need me to be.. What are Best Friends for anyways ?" while looking at her with a confusion in the mist of it all. Wondering if now it would be easy to blur it out since the small Latina knew better then to piss me off or have her head be ripped off at the sudden moment of the name.

"Okay Mads, I Know you wanna say it so just go ahead and Spill" Shocked crept on her face as if somehow I was able to crack her wide open like a coconut which was indeed amusing to me.

"You know Spence... you might want to reach out to Carmen... I mean after all they are cousins and maybe have the closure or talk that both of you deserved for each other..?" Now she looked at me as if someone had just ripped my head off or as if I was a deer under headlights waiting on my own response. Suddenly it felt like a lump was lodged into my voice cords cause it almost felt like I couldn't even give her the response she was waiting for but as my heartbeat slowly paced itself thinking of how to let it just roll off my tongue.

"Mads, I'll think about it... I mean she lost her family and I thought I lost her too even though I really did Lost Her, The Only Person I've Ever Loved... and it just seemed like it was yesterday that I saw her and she was fine, I hugged her and kissed her before she went home... how did everything go so wrong ?"

She wanted to say something but somehow this time Madison didn't seem to have the words I was looking for, instead we just stayed in the silence till she decided it was time for me to get out from the apartment and get ready to head to the airport. Given how small Madison was compared to me the small Latina managed to pack a punch in ushering me to my room to change with her own fashion style might I add, you could never go out with her without the right sense of clothes.

As she yelled from my closed bedroom door, I stared at the clothes that was on my bed before deciding to go with a plain White V-Neck Shirt to pair with my Jet-black jacket and blue jeans to show off my new Dr. Marts I was able to get from last month as a gift from my co worker Jackie, Jackie was a two years younger then me but a good writer in terms of working with one of the biggest magazine line: DuPont Magazines and I have to say it was a fulfilling job as Chef Editor to know what hits the magazine itself.

"Spence! C'mon we got to go if we wanna make it to the airport before traffic hits and I will not be the reason why you aren't on that plane!"

Laughter left me as soon as I heard her, I swear that some days Madison acts more like a mother then my bestfriend.. Really

Grabbing my suitcase as well as my duffel which had most of my clothes and photo album which was much more valuable then life itself secured in that bag, walking through the door of my once known apartment a simple sigh left me as turning the knob to close as which like a simply flip of a page this chapter was done. I quickly returned my gaze to Madison who seemed more impatient then ever while pressing on the elevator door to be held open as she ushered to hurry, thus making our way to my her car which we soon found that the drive to the airport wasn't going to stop me from getting on to that plane.

Lights and Buildings passing us by in a flash while staring out through the window as I decided there was a much need of music to be filled in my ears, scrolling thru the endless list of my playlist my eyes finally landed on the song that seemed perfect - ( The Script: No Good In Goodbye ) for this closed chapter in my life and yet it somehow felt like this was going to be another chapter worth to be forgotten given how everything in my life has never turned out right... first my family... next was with Ashley and then again me going back to the place where I wished I didn't have to. I swear Life just loves giving a kick in the ass much more then expected and I just have to take it as it is.

Sounds of turbines and the smell of jet fuel only indicated that I would be on a plane in god knows how long it has been since my last flight let alone trying to set my nerves down since flying and my sense of fear of height never do mix well compared to the company of any alcohol in my system to allow me a decent sleep through the flight itself, unknown to most as Madison parked at one of main gates of the airport while helping out with unloading my luggage as well as hers which still surprised me at the thought that she would be coming along with for the whole drams which was about to unfold as so it seems. What felt like hours on ended with passing through the security and the gates that headed through the narrow path that slowly lead us to the mechanical machine that flew in the skies, every gut feeling in my bones had told me to quickly get out of my sit and just jump out as if the ground was the safe form of comfort that I would have ever known but then again, it was finally time to face my demons.. the same demons that had kept me awake as the nights became colder without the warmth of her.

Truth be told, the moment the taste of vodka had hit my lips within the flight I could not recall what happened all I knew was I awoke to the point of turbulence in the duration of the flight which to me simply meant that we were getting closer and closer to the last I truly wished to be in, while I glance over to Madison who seemed to not bother with how rough the flight had become she truly had this hardcore shell or not caring of turbulence which honestly which I could have at this point. Within the hour, our flight had landed safely to the solid ground which at this point I would be glad to kiss if I would never have to fly ever again but honestly doubt that since with Madison there is never a 'NO' in her response to trips and all out sales in different towns or states given.

( Welcome To Los Angeles )

Honestly I wouldn't need to be reminded of where we were but then again its like asking the airport to label themselves otherwise

I shrugged off the chills that run down my spine as if the whole time someone was watching me or as if the very land itself knew I was back. Boy, this is gonna be fun...

While struggling to get our bags off the conveyer belt a squeak came from a distance as at the moment only meant one of two things which a someone had dropped their expensive Starbucks on the floor or... that being my younger sister was behind... Can you guess ?

Yup.. Option 2

"Spence! Madison! You Guys it's so good to see you Maddie and you too big sis, Its good to finally see you home" looking at my little sister - Skylar Alexis Carlin to see her for the first time in years had me blocked for a moment, the last time I saw her she was just finishing up her 2nd year of High School and back then she was dating some girl name Evie which to be honest Sky had good taste in girls but honestly I don't go for those type since as you would expect I was still in the closet or in a sense with Ashley but hidden until my mother found out of course and thus till we were able to go to college and live out our life together like we originally plan.

Skylar had a charm about her which would explain the number of girls that I would find her with in our house that even my mom had gotten used to the different ladies and I got to say she would look like me though but with edge and mystery into the mix - with the same height and her raven hair with piercing grey with the hints of blue, Sky could easily break a girls heart without uttering a word and I would know because I had felt it before but only with a certain brunette instead.

"Spence..? Are you ready?" softly saying under her breath

I simply nod to let her know

She gave me a soft smile and a hug that had almost cause me to ball my eyes out in the airport which Maddie knew I would crack at the moment.

"C'mon Sis... Everyone is waiting.."

This is gonna be an interesting night isn't it ?...