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"Tell me you don't want to leave. Say I'm enough to make you stay. I know it's not true, but please just say it."
Returning from a gruelling Quidditch practise, face ruddy from the biting October wind, James clambers through the portrait hole. The warmth hits him at once as he approaches his three best friends, bent over a table near the fireplace of the Gryffindor common room.
Remus spots him first, tipping his head in greeting as James reaches them "evening lads, what-" he's cut off almost instantly when Sirius grabs him by the shoulder, pulling him down to sit in the vacant seat beside him.
"We're strategizing, it's going to do the biggest, the best, Halloween prank ever!"
"Once we figure out what to do, that is…" Remus interjects.
A hand disappearing to the back of his neck, James eyes them curiously "look… I… I told Lily I would reign it in, Head boy can't be…"
Sirius wears a face splitting grin, "Red sanctioned it actually, gave us a free pass" his charcoal eyes wide with excitement.
James looks to Peter, who nods enthusiastically and Remus arching a sly brow confirms that Lily has, in fact, offered them one prank where she will look the other way, ignoring Head Girl responsibilities.
"What? Why?... Where is she anyway?" his eyes casting around the room, he knows she's not there, he'd have noticed her when he entered, he always notices her.
Letting out a small laugh, Peter tells him, "We made a trade, it was too easy really".
He's missing something — that much is clear — what aren't they telling him… Frustration mounting he looks from Sirius to Remus, hoping he'll get a straight answer, "Break it down for me, will you, where is Lily? What could you possibly have that she wanted badly enough to let us loose on a Halloween prank?"
Picking at the frayed edge of his jumper cuff, Remus opens his mouth and closes it again, his cheeks turning an interesting shade of pink.
"You should see your face right now, it's quite the picture…" taking a ribbing isn't new, it's how they communicate most of the time, taking a ribbing about Lily Evans isn't new either, the only one of his friends to be so enamoured with one girl he hardly notices others.
James decides to change tactics, if they won't explain maybe Lily will, "The map, who has it?"
"For the love of Godric!" Sirius exclaims, "She wanted… a guarantee, two hours left alone and as a trade, she would ignore one prank, without any repercussions".
"So long as we're not caught" Peter adds.
It doesn't make sense, "Why two hours? What is she doing?" unease bubbling in his stomach.
Sirius smirks now, eyes dancing with mischief "We'll tell you, but first… You want to help plan this, right? Tell me you don't want to leave…"
A chuckle from Peter draws his head away from Sirius, "Prongs… Say I'm enough to make you stay, we're enough… I know it's not true, but please just say it."
Why does he feel like the butt of their joke, annoyance tightening his shoulders, he lets out a sigh "Fucking tell me where she is?"
Remus is the one to crack, "She's waiting for you… in our dorm, the clock starts when you arrive, so she hasn't lost any of her two hours, don't worry".
As if someone has cast Incendio inside him his temperature rises, he takes the steps two at a time, ignoring their laughter, hearing calls of 'So we're not enough, figures' and 'don't forget the silencing charm'.
Taking a moment to catch his breath before he enters, a surge of nervous energy fires through him, he counts to five, tamping down his libidinous imaginings.
The handle cool against his sweaty palm he pushes the door open, silent but for the sound of his ragged breathing.
"Took you long enough" Lily's green eyes travel over him, her lip drawn between her teeth.
She's here in his dorm, "You're on my bed", she nods.
"You've never been on my bed before…" she shakes her head; she knows this of course.
"The lads said… I thought… They're going to be planning something big…"
The look on her face shows not an ounce of concern over the mayhem that his dormmates are concocting.
"James" the sound of his name falling from her mouth is still so new it sends a torrent of desire flooding through his body,
"I…" she shifts on the bed, her skirt riding up, revealing not her usual nylon tights that keep her modesty intact, but stockings that halt mid-thigh, the sight triggering an electric current straight to his core.
Her smile coy, surely aware of her effects on him, "I thought we could pick up where we left off… If you fancy?"
"If I fancy..." eyes still locked on the black lace pulled firmly across her milky thigh.
Reclining now, propped on her elbows, his eyes drawn up her body, following the curves he's spent hours, days... years... obsessing over.
"Do you want to go plan a jolly with your mates, or do you want to come over here and make the most of the next one hundred and sixteen minutes?"
He turns to the door and for a second, Lily holds her breath, a flicker of doubt that she's been too bold. Pulling out his wand her mutters a locking spell, a silencing spell, and something that sounds distinctly like a contraceptive spell.
Her breath releases shakily, her mind racing, and when he turns the lustful look he gives her sends sparks everywhere, sensations that a look alone should not cause, but that she knows well enough to know what comes next.
Her, twice most likely, and then him.
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