Naruto's pov

It wasn't Supposed to be like this

And to be precise I wasn't supposed to fall in love with him in the first Place

No I wasn't supposed to fall in love with kakashi hatake

And I sure as hell wasn't supposed to be leaning over the toilet bowl vomiting bloody flowers

'What kind of joke is this?''Why does everything have to be difficult for me ?''What did I do to deserve this ?''Is this what I get for loving someone who I know would never love me back ?''it hurts it hurts so much I want to cryhow can something so beautiful be so painful ? '

These where the thoughts that were going through my mind as I stood over the toilet

Looking down I recognized the flowers that I was coughing up just a minute ago...

Red carnations 'I miss you'

'Huh how fitting' I thought as tears were welling up in my eyes

I went through a whole darn war fought gods and had people try to assassinate me only to die because I love someone I knew was never to love me back

'somehow its ironic and oh so fitting at the same time '

I felt a lump in my throat and tears streaming down my face I bit back a sob and I felt my legs give out as I fell down the bathroom floor

And that's it

I started crying my eyes out ,I couldn't take it anymore everything was hurting but the thing that hurt most was heart

I've always had a bad luck but tell me who thought that the person I love the most would be the death of me

I picked myself up as best as I could and looked at the mirror

'What a mess I've become' I chuckled sadly

My eyes were puffy my hair was messed up and my face was red

'I wish you were here , I wish you were here and that you loved me back, and that I could kiss you,and see you smile and make you happy but you're not and all this is just a plain distant dream that could never be true and it hurts ' I thought

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That night I went to bed and I never slept

I just looked at the ceiling and tried to force myself imagine a life with no you in it,

The feeling I got -yeah it was pretty soul-crushing