p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; caret-color: #222222; color: #222222;" data-p-id="870dc99b094360eb84a20e979532d91e"em style="box-sizing: border-box;"Trigger warning: Themes such as self harm, depression, and other strong themes will be presented throughout this. I am in no way, shape or form condoning or attempting to romanticize self harm. This is a topic incredibly close to heart for me, and writing these is sorta a coping mechanism. I hope you enjoy:)/em/p
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