AN: I am not a new writer to fanfiction but I am a new writer to Twilight fiction. I write under a different name for a different fandom, or at least I did. I loved writing and sharing my stories with people but I developed a painful tremor condition which unfortunately also affects my hands and writing became too hard. I recently started new medication which will hopefully allow me to split the difference. Long fics are still out of the question but one shots are reachable now. So here is my first ever Twilight one shot.
Motherhood
Bella POV
These have been the longest 8 months of my entire life and I was quickly running out of time and names. I had two left before all hope was lost.
You see, almost 3 months after the Cullens left me I let myself be pressured by the people around me to go to a party. They were trying to help bring me out of a depression but they went about it the wrong way, broken hearts and spirits take time to heal and 3 months was in no way long enough for me.
So I went to this stupid party I didn't want to be at and sat at Angela and Ben's sides all evening. I admit I liked the dull feeling the alcohol I was drinking gave me. I didn't have to feel and that was a welcome relief after my recent history.
However I began to feel dizzy, nauseous and faint so I decided to get some air outside while Ang and Ben danced. I remember sitting under a tree and then nothing until the next morning when I woke up under that tree with my clothes open and in disarray.
I knew as a cop's daughter what all that and the soreness meant so I went straight to my dad and then the hospital where it was confirmed I had been raped. They started to give me a pill to stop any pregnancy but I wasn't comfortable taking it and refused. Charlie is still upset with me about that particular decision but I had to do what I felt was right for me and my conscience just as millions of women before me had to choose for themselves.
Unfortunately 6 weeks later I began getting sick and my period was late so we went to the doctor and confirmed I was pregnant.
I must say, for all he was upset about me not taking that pill Charlie has been a lifeline for me. We've grown so much closer than I ever could have hoped for when I moved here and even closer than my mom and me.
After I considered all the options open to me I made the decision to adopt the baby out. I even knew the perfect couple that I wanted to be my baby's parents. They were young, wealthy enough to more than provide for him or her, and most importantly of all they would love this baby more than anyone on earth could. They'd wanted to be parents for so many agonizing years and it was just not possible for them.
I had no way to find them though. All the numbers I had always led to a disconnect message. Emails were not answered either so I knew they weren't going through.
My last option was doctor directories around the world. I knew I could eliminate any sunny, warm areas of the world but that still left an insurmountable search ahead of me but I wasn't going to give up because they are, they have to be by baby's mommy and daddy. They are the only ones I trust.
I had steadily worked my way around first the United States and then Canada to no avail. You would be shocked at the number of Doctor Cullens listed in medical directories and I even called the aliases I knew he used.
Now eight months later and running seriously out of time I dialed the second to last number. It was a private doctor's office in some small village in England. I wasn't getting my hopes up though as this has not worked so many times.
However to my surprise when the phone was answered I knew that voice. "Carlisle!" I yelled.
"I'm sorry, who is calling? And which doctor do you need?" Carlisle answered my crazy greeting.
"Carlisle it's Bella, please, please, please don't hang up. I have been searching for you for 8 months now and I need your help desperately." I begged him.
"Bella, honey, what is going on?" He asked reluctantly.
"I don't have time for long discussions at this point so I am going to be blunt. Sorry. Eight months ago I was raped, and ended up pregnant. I am one month from my due date and I want to adopt the baby out. I wanted more than anything in this world for this baby to have a mommy who would cherish and love it. A daddy who is playful and isn't afraid of looking a fool while being an idiot for the child to laugh. In other words, I need you to contact Rosalie and Emmett. I am hoping beyond all hope that they will be my baby's mommy and daddy." I rushed out.
"Oh Bella, I am so very sorry this has happened. How about I call them and we can all meet somewhere? We can fly over in a few days time and either meet or if you're not up to going out we can come to your home. Let us all discuss the choices and we'll go from there."
"Thank God I found you, Charlie is ready to kill me for the phone bills calling around the world for the last eight months." I laughed, feeling so much relief.
He promised to call when they got to town and hung up. I went to eat a snack and drink my milk before laying down on the couch for a much needed nap now that I could finally relax.
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Carlisle POV
After I had sat and let out the emotions Bella's call had stirred up I picked up my phone to call Emmett and Rose.
"Hello Carlisle," Rose answered.
"Hello sweetheart. Listen, can you and Emmett meet me at the park in town? I need to speak to you away from the family about a call I just received." Carlisle asked.
"Sure, who called?" Rose asked him.
"I would rather wait and give you all the details in person. It starts as a painful story but there may be an enormous blessing coming to you if you choose to accept it." Carlisle answered mysteriously.
"Alright…" Rose answered confusedly. "We will be there in half an hour."
They hung up and Carlisle made his excuses to take off early and cancel his appointments once the receptionist returned from her break.
He drove to a local park and walked for a bit until he reached a small pond with ducks, geese, and two swans. One of the swans was fussing with the geese while the ducks ignored it all.
He'd only been there for a few minutes when Rose and Emmett showed up and after hugs and greetings they sat down to talk.
"Em, this will be painful to hear but Rose especially will need your support. I promise the ending isn't sad, it's rather amazing so keep it together, okay?" Carlisle warned knowing that any hurt to Bella would affect him more than anyone. The depth of love he held for that girl is the only way he was able to leave.
"I got a call from Bella." He began and waited for the initial reactions of shock to wear off.
"I do not have all the details, I'm hoping maybe she will share them when we meet her," He began but was cut off by Rose.
"What do you mean when we meet her? I thought we were going to leave the poor girl alone so she can live her life Carlisle!" Rose was more than a little hot, she always believed Bella should live a human life.
"Let me finish please Rose!" He huffed. "This is very difficult so please just let me get the story out. Eight months ago Bella was raped. She ended up pregnant and has decided that she wants to adopt the baby out. She wants the two of you to be the child's parents." He rushed out.
Rosalie gasped with venom tears in her eyes while Emmett got to his feet and walked deep into the trees. The sound of breaking trees soon followed.
Carlisle and Rose sat in emotion filled silence as they waited for Emmett to release some rage. Rose was trying already not to get her hopes up too high but it was so hard to do. She wanted nothing more than to be a mommy.
Emmett returned after a while a bit calmer but also sobbing. Rose wrapped her arms around him and held him as he worked through his grief. She knew he had felt guilty for leaving from the very beginning. "Shhh, this isn't your fault honey. Bad things happen and you being there may not have prevented it. Let's finish hearing Carlisle out and then we'll decide." She whispered as she ran her fingers through his curls.
Once he was calm they agreed to go back to Forks with Carlisle and meet with Bella, Rose in such shock that after all she had done and said to Bella she would still want to give them such a gift as this.
The next couple days were busy preparing to go and promising the family to let them know how she was, luckily Edward was still living with the Volturi in Italy serving his 100 years there to free Bella of any punishment, securing her human life. He wouldn't take this news so well.
Two days later Carlisle, Esme, Emmett, Rose, Jasper, and Alice boarded a jet to make their way back. The other three were going to remain at the hotel in Seattle while the initial meeting with Bella happened. They didn't want to overwhelm her at this first visit.
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When they got to Seattle and checked in the hotel Carlisle called Bella. It had been decided that since she had reached out to him that for now he should remain the contact person until they could meet.
"Hello" a tired voice answered.
"Hello Bella honey. It's Carlisle again. We are in Seattle and settled in the hotel so when would you like to meet?" He asked her.
"Well time is really of the essence, braxton hicks have started and I'm due in 3 weeks. So how about now? I will split the difference with you and we can meet at the pier in Port Angeles, does that sound alright?" Bella suggested.
"I don't know if you being this pregnant and driving your truck that far is such a wise decision." Carlisle said gently, knowing how she always defended her truck to others.
"Well Charlie thought the same way so when we found out I was pregnant and I decided to have the baby he bought me a new car. It's a brand new Ford Edge so it's plenty reliable. I will head out now and see you in a bit." Bella explained then hung up.
Carlisle returned to the living area of the suite and said that she was on her way and where to meet and the three headed out nervous about the next few hours.
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Bella was the first to arrive not having as far a drive and she found a bench to watch the water and the people pass by. She was only there maybe 10 minutes when she heard Emmett yell her name excitedly.
She smiled the biggest smile she had in a year as she snuggled into his arms and started sobbing. "I missed you so much."
"I missed you more Bells." Emmett whispered in her ear as the brother and sister of the heart held each other.
After stepping back from Emmett she then hugged Rose and Carlisle.
"Thank you all for dropping everything and rushing back here but time really is running out. There is also a mountain of paperwork that needs filling out and that takes forever too." Bella started after they helped her sit back down again.
"Bella I have no words to tell you how sorry I am that this has happened to you. I know how it feels as that was how I entered this eternal life. I would never want anything like that to happen to you." Rose said while hugging her from the side on the bench.
"I'm sorry for you too Rose. I wish I had more details for you about the father but I never saw him and he hasn't been caught yet." Bella said sadly. "Did Carlisle tell you why I wanted to see you?"
"Yes and I have no words to describe how incredibly thankful and in awe of you we are for this gift. All I ever wanted was to be a wife and mother and that isn't possible for us." She said.
"Honestly Rose, Emmett, as soon as I found out I was pregnant and nowhere near ready to be a mom I just knew I was carrying your child and I had to find you. It wasn't easy, Charlie grumbled about the phone bill constantly but I couldn't trust anyone else with our baby." Bella answered.
"Let me explain what happened and what I was hoping for and then you can decide, is that alright?" She asked the couple.
Emmett reached out and held her hand knowing it probably wasn't very easy to talk about. He received a smile in return from his Bells.
"Well about 3 months after you all left there was a party, a big one, and my friends and Charlie kept pushing me to go hoping it would help me out of the depression I had been in." She sighed and just held tight to Emmetts hand as Carlisle and Rose both began rubbing soothing circles on her back.
"I went to shut them up. I've never been a party kind of girl which is probably part of how I ended up in this position. I was drinking that night like everyone else and I just can't remember who all handed me drinks. I know I started feeling sick and dizzy and wanted fresh air so I decided to go outside for a few minutes. I remember sitting under a tree and then nothing. I woke up and immediately knew what had happened due to my clothes and some soreness."
"I went straight to Charlie who took me straight to the Emergency Room and now here we are. I have been in counseling since it happened for the rape and the pregnancy and I'm doing pretty good at healing." She finished that part of her story and decided to plough on with the rest and get it over with finally.
"Like I said I knew absolutely that this is your son or daughter, I chose to have it be a surprise so we don't know yet. I don't want to not know my child and I would like to visit and such and maybe get pictures and letters from you as they grow. I just want to be godmother/Auntie and have that kind of connection, this will be your baby not mine. You will be mommy and daddy, I am not ready for parenthood especially under these conditions. I would like to go to school, have a career and meet the next love of my life and be married before parenthood." Bella hoped they would be open to this.
She finally looked at Rose and Emmett to see if she could read their feelings on her story.
Rose had to stop and start 3 times to be able to speak. "Bella, if I could cry tears would be flowing that you would give us a gift such as this. Em and I already knew we wanted to adopt your baby and I love the arrangement you've thought of because it also means we get to keep you in our lives as well no matter where we are."
Bella let out a relieved cry and leaned into Carlisle as she sobbed. She had been so stressed and so scared she wouldn't find them in time and then what would she do, she didn't want to be a mom yet, she wasn't ready. She'd been getting worried that she'd have to find a different solution that felt wrong.
The next hour was spent talking about how the pregnancy had progressed so far and she gave them every ultrasound picture so they could see the baby as it grew. When Bella got sleepy Rose drove her home in Bella's car as Emmett and Carlisle followed and then made plans to start the paperwork the next day.
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Two months later Bella stood outside after saying goodbye to Emmett, Rose and little Lily Belle Cullen. They made the cutest and happiest little family and Bella knew with her whole heart she'd done the right thing for herself, her child, and brother and sister. They were with her for the final doctor visits and they held her hand as she gave birth.
After all the legal stuff was done they were now free to return home to England but Bella already had her plane ticket for her first official visit so she could stay in Lily's life.
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AN: So, just to touch a few details. This isn't a story about Bella/Edward so I didn't include any canon because this was always about Bella's relationship with her unborn child and Rose and Emmett.
I am planning for this to become a series of one shots that will then at least tell more of this story of motherhood. With that said however, new one shots are on no timeline, it's all about when I can write due to my health. This one shot took over a week to write due to the tremors in my hands. So be patient and know eventually there will be more stories.
Also, as a rape survivor myself, I struggle with trigger warnings because I know how grateful I am when I am forewarned and can skip the part of a story that could hurt me mentally. I didn't add a trigger warning because I hoped I skimmed over what happened gently enough to not harm anyone. If however it has triggered someone's PTSD please let me know and I will add it.