I always wondered what went through Klaus's head as he transformed into a wolf for the his mother had, and all the events that happened afterward.

Well, here you go this is my attempt at writing what went through his head during all this.

(Klaus POV)

I don't know how long I ran for before I finally collapsed to the ground. I could feel my gums aching as my fangs came out and my hunger surged again.

'Something's wrong. The hungers God it's getting worse' My thought are so messed up I cant even think straight. All I know it the hunger, the overwhelming desire for one thing.

Blood.

I thought I could control it. I've been doing better than any of my siblings have. Since mother did her spell and turned up into….this, each of my sibling have given into their hunger and torn our town apart.

So much blood, so many lives taken. I've seen what it's done to them, how after the hinger subsided they've been overcome by guilt. I refused to be like that.

For the last few weeks, I've been to scared to leave our home, instead my sibling have gone out and hunted for me, bring me jugs of delicious blood.

Except tonight things felt different. Tonight, my sense seemed to be on overdrive, and I could smell the blood of the few people left in town. I could hear their hearts pumping the blood through their bodies and it's all I could concentrate on.

The hunger, the pain it was all too much, and I needed to get out of there. I was up and on my feet running through the woods before I knew it.

Suddenly I stopped…..there's something out there that smells so good. I know what it is, and I know I need to get away, but I can't make myself leave, the last few weeks I've been in control and resisting my urges. Tonight, it's too much and I can't control the hunger.

I run towards it, towards the smell of blood and the heart beating wildly, and I'm on it before I can think. Sinking my fangs into it's neck and swallowing down mouthfuls of blood. I can taste the blood and it taste like nothing I've ever had before, like an exotic fire has exploded in my mouth.

In the back of my mind, I realize the heartbeat that drew me in is getting weaker, before it finally stops. When the blood stops flowing, and the silence become overwhelming is when I finally come back to myself. The hunger is finally satisfied, and I can think straight again.

I pull back from its neck…. His neck. When I pull back I'm staring into the terrified face of Mr. Barnes. This nice old man who lives a few houses down from us with his wife and daughters, his family has already escaped to a nearby town. I know he had plans to join them as soon as he pack up their home, but now I guess that won't be happening.

I stagger back away from the lifeless body that I made. The guilt smacks me in the face and I feel myself heaving desperate to get rid of the blood I just consumed. Except my body wont let me. It's relishing in the warm sweet blood coursing through it.

Snap.

I whip my head towards the sound of a branch breaking. I can hear footsteps coming my way, and suddenly fear fills me. I took one life tonight; no way am I going to risk taking another.

For the second time that night I find myself running as full speed through the woods.

Then for the second time that night I find myself collapsing to the ground. Except this time, it's not from hunger but from a burning warmth I feel throughout my body, suddenly it feels like my insides are on fire.

Snap.

I let out a piercing yell as the bones in my shoulder snap out of place, with the bones in my knee quickly following. I don't know what's happening to me, but my body feels like it's breaking itself apart from the inside.

Snap. Snap. Snap.

I let out another yell as more bones continue to break, and I feel something inside me shifting. Like something is trying to break free, and it scares me. Whatever this is it scares me to death.

"Niklaus. Oh God Niklaus what's- father hurry somethings wrong we need to help him." Elijah says in a rush. Normally I'd be laughing as Elijah, the wise spoken one, continues to even put together a sentence.

Except the warmth has becomes a burning fire coursing towards my head. I can feel my jaw moving somehow almost shifting and whatever's happening to me, whatever's breaking free is doing it rapidly.

"What is happening to me. It hurts. Elijah. Father please help." I manage to choke out the words before I feel my jaw break as well. Through the pain I see father standing there staring at me like….

Like somehow everything makes sense. There's a look of realization on his face, suddenly I realize he knows what's happening to me, but I can ask him. My bones continue to break, and my body continues to shift….into what well I still don't know yet.

"No stop. Don't you see he's a beast, an abomination." I hear my father say, and I look up to see him holding Elijah back from coming over to help me. Pain this tine an emotional one courses through me.

You'd think after all these years I'd stop letting fathers words hurt me, and for the most part I have. Except he's my father and a part of me, no matter how much I deny it, still desires his love and approval.

I throw my head back and let our another scream. Except this time, it feels more like a roaring howl, and I swear I hear answering calls from far away.

In the last few moment before my transformation is complete I cant help but wonder how much it's going to mess my world up.

Then suddenly everything stops. No more pain or guilt, all that's left is peace.

I feel peaceful and free like a something's been unlocked inside of me, and a part of me I didn't know about is free.

My head snaps to the side when I hear a horrified gasp, and when I look I see father and Elijah staring at me. Father is anger and disgust, and Elijah in horrified surprised.

Suddenly I want to see myself. I want to see what I look like now, what exactly have I turned into.

So, I turn deeper into the woods and run. I run as hard and fast as I can until I find myself at a clearing I know. As I walk towards the water I realize I'm on all fours.

I bring my hand- no paw up and that's when I realize I'm covered in fur.

'No, it can't be' My thoughts are in a jumbled as I walk closer to the water. Desperate to look, but already knowing and fearing what I'll find.

'I'm one of them.' It's the only though in my head, as I see the wolf staring back at me. Except it's not a wolf it me, and I don't know how to explain what I'm seeing.

I don't know what to think as I realize what I'd been turning into was a…. werewolf. My mind isn't able to comprehend what it's seeing, and it just finally shuts down.

I feel free and I don't want to wallow in these feeling anymore.

So, I don't. I spend the night running through the woods, feeling the wind blow through my furn. Hunting down animals, and getting used to my new body.

The feeling of euphoric as I run through the woods is like nothing I've ever felt before.

(Mikael's POV)

For a minute we just stand there watching the wolf that's Niklaus run off into the woods, until we can't see or even hear him anymore.

"Wolves are born not created. It's something that's passed down from parent to child, being bitten won't change him" This being said from the Alpha of the local wolf pack.

A guy from down got drunk and wondered into the woods and he ran into a wolf during the full moon. He to yell for help and another town witch came to help. Later when he realized he'd been bitten and was worried he turn.

It was kind of funny obviously. All of us who'd been around the wolves for years knew that's not how it worked, but a new towns people all freaked out. They demanded we take to them to the wolves camp to question them.

Their Alpha Ansel was nice enough at first but even he eventually snapped at those idiots too. I remember how he seemed to be staring right at Esther, who kept shift nervously, but at the time I thought I imagined it. I saw no reason for him to be staring at her, and I was sure he must've been looking at someone else.

'How stupid can you be Mikael? He was staring right at her as he spoke. You ignored all the signs.' I hate myself for this though but it's true.

I feel like I've woken up from a daze. I'm no longer ignoring all the incidents where it was screaming at me in the face.

When mine and Esther's was still difficult, and I was still leaving home a lot. How Esther stopped trying to talk to me, or keep me home all the time. How sometimes I would come home, and Esther wasn't there, or how she seemed to be gone all the time. How even when we started taking again she seemed resistant to being intimate, then all of a sudden one day she came home and damn near attacked me with passion.

Then the next thing I know she's telling me she's pregnant. God I was so happy. After the loss of our darling girl this new baby was supposed to mend our broken family, and he did. I was so proud of my son.

Now I see it for what it really was. Nothing more than a trick my wife played on me to hide her infidelity.

My hands are clenching at my side and I can feel the veins on my face coming out as my rage surfaces. I've felt anger before but nothing like this, nothing this powerful.

The thought of her making love to another man almost kills me, but as hard as I try I cant get the image out of my head.

"Father I don't understand. How is this possible, Niklaus he turned into-"

I whip around interrupting Elijah. "What don't you understand. Your brother Henrik was killed by wolves, and turns out Klaus is one too. No wonder the wolves choose to go after Henrik when they separated to run. Wolves would never go after one of their own."

The words spew from my mouth without thought, but as soon as I say them I realize how true it is.

Wolves run in pack, and are fiercely protective of one another. Epically the ones who haven't tapped into their inner wolf and therefore not as strong as the other.

Even if Klaus had not activated his wolf until now he was still one of them. So, when he ran the one way thinking they'd follow him, and he'd keep Henrik safe. Even in their wolf form they'd be able to sense he was part of their pack and so they would leave him alone.

Henrik, my poor sweet innocent boy, on the other hand was fair game. They turned away from Niklaus and tore my baby apart.

I lost a second child because of them. Three really at this point Niklaus is not longer a son of mine, not that he ever really was apparently.

"Come on I think it's time we had a little talk with your mother. She's got some explaining to do." I tell Elijah.

I don't wait for his response. In a second I'm on the move, flashing towards home in seconds.

When I finally get home I just stand there. I can hear Esther inside with Rebekah, Kol, and Finn.

.Suddenly I'm afraid of what I'll learn. Now I understand why I did it, why I choose to ignore that voice in the back of my mind that wondered why Esther wanted to sleep with me so badly, how she got pregnant so quickly when it usually took us a few tries. Why people constantly joke that Niklaus must be adopted when they see him next to me, since there's no resemblance between us.

I never really though much of it. Some kids just don't look exactly like their parent. Except it just Klaus, all my other children look extremely like me, and it just me. He has some resemblance to Esther, but even then it's only slight.

Suddenly the face of ever man who's come near Esther run through my mind as I try to piece together who her lover is.

Except I realize I'm not thinking about the right group of people. No one in town can be his father, it has to be one of them, one of the wolves who live right by us.

HIS face pops into my mind as I think back to that day where the Alpha couldn't keep his eyes off my wife. Suddenly I'm picturing his face again and seeing how everything fits together. The color of Niklaus's eyes, the shape of his jaw, his high cheekbones. He got it all from HIM.

My anger surges again as I realize that filthy animal is the one who screwed my wife, and I stomped my way inside causing everyone inside to jump.

"Love. God you scared me. What happened did you find Niklaus-" Esther's words are cut off as I slap her hard across the face. In all my years as a husband I've never laid a hand on her, but I'm to angry right now to care about that.

Everything is silent. The children are staring at me in shock, and Esther looks to hurt to say anything. As for me I my anger is coursing through me so fast I cant manage to get out the words I'm dying to say to her. There's so much I need to say I don't know where to start.

Finally, Esther's the one to break the silence. "Mikael I don't… You…You hit me, how could you?" She has the audacity to look betrayed, as if this isn't all her fault. Seeing her face right now I lose it.

"Don't you dare look at me like that. Like I'm the one who betrayed you when you're the one who stabbed me in the back. I trusted you and God I cant even look at you I'm so mad." I say and I have to stop and take a breath my anger is making my head fuzzy.

For a moment there's this look in the back of her eyes, but it's gone so fast like I imagined it, and then she's back to looking sad. "Mikael I've never betrayed you in any way. I love you- No don't." She scream as I raise my hand to hit her again.

I can feel Finn and Elijah grabbing my arms, and holding me back from her and after a few minutes I manage to calm myself down.

My head fills like its in a fog overcome my the anger and pain. Everything feels like so intense since the change, what was supposed to save us is killing me inside.

I cant believe she just said that to me. I know what she's done. I know she betrayed me with another man and gave birth to his child, a child she said was mine and tricked me into raising for years.

Then again she still thinks I'm stupid, and don't know about her great shame. I guess it's time we change that.

I look her right in her eyes as I ask, "Was it worth it, was he? Was the time you spent with your lover worth the pain you've caused me? I know at the time I might not have been the best husband, but this is worse than anything I've done. You lied to me, to betrayed our marriage, and you made me raise another man child for years. The same man who's pack of wolves just killed our youngest child." When I'm don't talking I'm surprised to discover I feel better, not a wound up.

The look on her face it priceless. Her eyes widen in shock and her mouth hangs open, but I don't feel any satisfaction seeing her like this. It wont change what she did, or the pain she's caused me.

I take a moment to look at the children and I see their faces mirror their mothers. I know I should've confronted her about this in private, but why bother. They were bound to discover the truth eventually anyway.

Esther finally manages to get her compose together enough to speak. "I don't know what anyone has said to you, but I promise they're lying. Mikael you know I love you. Your are the only man I've been with please believe me."

"I know you're lying to me. I know the truth Esther. I know about your affair with the Alpha wolf and how he's Niklaus real father, Niklaus just confirmed your secret." I tell her.

"How could Niklaus confirm my secret if it was a secret he didn't know. See your mistaken, you're just saying this when you don't even know if it's true." Esther says. This little bitch had the audacity to look smug, like she's gotten herself out of any trouble.

"Well then, my oh so loving wife." I force myself to use the words wife, and I take satisfaction in seeing Esther flinch. Almost as if I've hit her again. I take a breath before continuing, "Maybe you can explain while I just watched YOUR son turn into a GODDAMN WEREWOLF."

Esther flinches back as I scream the last bit at her. Finally, when I look into her eyes I see it.

Fear. Even she cant talk her way out of this. She caught and she knows it.

"Mother is this true? Is Niklaus really a wolf." Rebekah ask. For the first time tonight, I take a minute to really look at my children and I see how affected by this revelation.

Rebekah looks like she's about to cry. Kol looks so confused, he keeps opening and closing his mouth, like he doesn't know what to say. Finn, well he's always been great at hiding his emotions, but I can see the stiffness in his shoulders. Elijah looks almost sick, and I bet he still has the image of his brother turning into one of those things in his mind.

Esther comes forward and puts her hands on my shoulder. It's a move that usually would be comforting, but right now makes my skin crawl. "Mikael, look you have to understand it wasn't as if I wanted to. He…..He forced me-"

I snap my myself from her grasp with another force I accidently knock her to the ground. Don't you dare. God you really have no sense of loyalty to either of us. You'd betray me with another man, then lie and say your lover raped you. I almost feel bad for this guy, he was probably stupid like I was, and believed you when you said you loved us. NOW TELL THE TRUTH." I scream.

For a moment Esther look scared and a little said, but when I start yelling at her I see her emotion shift rapidly.

Esther stares me in the eyes saying, "Fine. You want to know the truth well here it is. You were a shit husband. You were cruel and selfish, and blamed me for OUR daughters death. You yelled at me, refused to speak to me, were gone for day and weeks at a time. I was alone. I had no one but two child depending on me as I cried for my lost baby." She has tears in her eyes as she stops to breath for a second.

"Then we came here, and I though the new place would help our marriage. Except this were exactly the same. Until one day when a man came into town, and I learned he was the Alpha of the local werewolf pack. He needed a witch to heal one of his members, and I volunteered. I saw the kind way he was with his pack, how strong and yet loving he was. Instantly I was attracted to him, and my connection with him was something neither of us could deny. It wasn't long before I found myself in his arms loving him and making love to him. For months I had my own bit of happiness, but then I got pregnant, and things had to end. I knew you'd kill us both if you discovered the truth. So, there you go." Esther waves her hangs towards me after her little speech.

It's like she's saying 'Here you go. Do with it what you want'. Except I don't know what I want to do with it. This isn't how I thought this conversation would go. I assumed I would yell at her, she'd cry and beg for forgiveness, and then… well I didn't get that far.

I don't want to admit it to myself, but part of what she's saying is true. I remember those dark times when I was so filled with anger and grief. I hated everything and everyone and sadly that included my wife.

When she attacked me that day, and we were intimate for the first time in months I felt so complete. All of a sudden Esther and I were talking again, this time she was stubborn and refused to let me leave all the time. It wasn't perfect but things were getting better, and when she told me she was pregnant I was ecstatic.

I was more involved with this pregnancy. I held her hair as she was sick, rubbed her feet, and took great pride in watching her belly grow. When Niklaus was born I held him before she did, and when I did I felt some of the pain of Freya's loos disappear.

Now I've had to deal with the death of two of my children, and the fact that another was never really mine to begin with. He belonged to another man, and so did part of my wife's heart.

I let out a little sigh at that thought. "Well, I guess we both said out peace now huh. What now, what the hell are we supposed to do now. We cant come back from this, I cant forgive you for this. Oh, by the way if I cant use our daughters death as excuse to be cruel. Then you can't use how I acted as an excuse to be unfaithful. I loved you Esther even when I was upset at you I never strayed, and I had opportunities to. I just could never bring myself to betray you like that, but I guess you felt differently."

My heart is being pulled in two. Part if it wants me to hold her in my arms, but an even bigger part wants to hit her again; to cause her half the pain she caused me.

Suddenly another though pops in my mind. It something I wondered since I saw Niklaus change, and I'm scared to ask but I need to know. "Did….Did you love him, and does he know Niklaus is his child."

Esther goes stiff at my question, and for a second I'm sure she's going to ignore me. Finally, she speaks up, "Look Mikael you need to know something I never stopped loving you, not even for a second. Noe even as I began to love him too. I swear I never meant to love him, I tried to fight it, but me and him were fated to meet." She looks away and I see she's getting lost in memories. The ones she made with him.

I snap my fingers in her face. No way is she going to think about her love with another man while I stand right in front of her.

Finally, Esther continues, "As for you second question, Yes he knows Niklaus is his child. He wanted to be involved, but I couldn't risk you knowing the truth, so I forbid him. He watched him sometimes. I've seen him watching up my the hill, looking down on Niklaus playing, but he always stayed away." She kind of stops talking abruptly. Like she doesn't want to go into too much detail of her lover.

I feel my anger beginning to explode again at that.

Niklaus and I don't see eye to eyes all the time, but he's MY child. I am the one who raised him after all, and the thought of this man watching my son makes my rage boil.

I can imagine him watching Niklaus play, and wishing he was with him, Wishing he could hold him in his arms like any father would want to. I can imagine to the longing me must have felt towards Esther. She am amazing women one you love her; you can't ever stop.

With a sigh I head over to my chair in the corner. I come her because it's where I keep my weapons for polishing, molding or anything else I need. It's my comfort area I go to relax after being out hunting all day.

As I sink down in my chair I reach to the side where I keep my bottle of whiskey. Then I sit here just drinking away all my problems.

At least until I hear a series of wolves howling outside, and suddenly I remember something else I know about wolf pack. They run together on the full moon.

Niklaus is one of them, and tonight he instinctively go find his pack. My hands clench down hard sending shard of glass everywhere. No way is my child going to run around as one of them.

I jump up and head over towards Esther. "You…Your going to do something for me. Something to make up for you betrayal, and maybe I manage to forgive you." I say to her.

Esther looks hopeful, nodding towards me. "Anything love."

"I wont have Niklaus as one of them. Your going to help me go find him, and bind down his wolf." I say and for a second she looks hesitant before she nods again in agreement.

So what to you think about the story so far. Be sure to leave some comments.

As for the story next chapter will be Klaus as he's forced to have his werewolf side bound down, and as he comes to face with the fact that he's not Mikael's son.