Summary: Hiei has to tell his sister the truth before he die. He is torn between sadness and regret. Could he see Yukina before it is too late? Songfic
Disclaimer: I don't own Yu Yu Hakusho or the song '' Say something''
Note: This is my very first fanfic so if anyone ever read it please be nice and review. And sorry for grammar mistakes.
Hope you enjoy my story.
Hiei POV
I see darkness. Darkness is surronding me right now. I want to light it up. But how? All I can do is wait, wait for my time. I want to light up this darkness that follows me everywhere I go. I want to see her face again. I want to hold her in my arms. I want her to light up the darkness around me. My sunshine. She's my sunshine. I want to hear her soft voice again, before I give my ghost up.
Say something. I'm giving up on you.
Sorry sister. If only I have told you. But if you had known, would you have accepted me? You know, I'm not the perfect brother. I knew you would never be happy with me. So I stayed away from you, watching you from a tree, letting you live your own life. But if you're ready to let me hold you, I'm ready to try to be the perfect brother you love. I'm going but I'll ever keep an eye on you.
I want to know now, if you want a brother like me. I want to hear your soft voice saying: '' Yes, I love you brother.'' So I can rest in peace because you love me as I love you.
Say something. I'm giving up on you.
I'll be the one if you want me too.
Anywhere I would've followed you.
Something is moving outside the cave. Something or... someone instead. And that person is calling for me. With soft voice, like hers.
'' Hiei, where are you? Please, answer me! ''
It's her... How? No one knows this place, not even Mukuro. I hear a gasp and I open my tired eyes. And I see... It's her, standing in front of me, hands over her mouth, horrified by my pitiful state.
'' Hiei! '' She starts to cry. Her tears are rolling down her cheeks and forming precious stones that hit the ground. She runs to me and hugs me. Then she put her hands on my injuries to heal them. I can't believe it. She's there and she cries for me, she's begging the life to save mine. I want to return her love, to cry for her. But I'm afraid.
And I am feeling so small.
It was over my head, I know nothing at all.
And I will stumble and fall.
I'm still learning to love, just starting to crawl.
If only she knew. I start to cough.
'' Hiei! Hold on, I'll save you.'' More coughs. '' Hiei, please stay with me!'' If only she knew. '' Please! You're the only one I care as family. Please hold on! ''
Her tears are streaming and the ground is covered by hiruiseki stones. '' Pleas-''
'' No! I state, although that I'm really tired. No more tears.'' I wipe away her cheeks with my finger. I wish I had told her. Another cough.
'' Hiei, '' she continues to press her hands against my injuries, using her healing power to save a liar like me. '' Don't worry, I'll save you. '' I cough again.
She's there, she's trying to hold my life. The life of a murderer. She's so innocent, so pure and perfect. And I'm so guilty, so tainted and horrible. I want to tell her, she deserves to know.
'' Yukina, '' I cough again. She raises her red eyes that meet mine. Another cough. '' Listen to me. I need to tell you something.''
'' No Hiei. You have to get some rest. You'll tell me everything when you'll recover.''
''I can't, it's important so listen carefully.'' More coughs. '' I know we can't hold my life any longer. So I must tell you before I go.''
''Don't say that! You will be alright!'' She cries even more.
'' I'm sorry, Yukina. I'll go sooner. I want to stay with you forever, but it's impossible.''
Say something. I'm giving up on you.
I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you.
Anywhere I would've followed you.
I take her hands in mine. She won't stop crying. '' Don't cry for me, I don't deserve your tears. You know, I'm a murderer, a thief, a hustler. I was hated all my life. I hate the world because of that. But though, I still love someone. That person always loves me. She didn't care who I was... According to you, would she mind if she discovered my real identity? ''
She thinks for a moment. '' It depends on the person. Who is she? '' She looks at me.
'' You'' I say. She's shocked.''Me? W... Why?''
'' Because... I'm your brother. ''
And I will swallow my pride
You're the one that I love
And I'm saying goodbye.
I close my eyes. I don't want to see her reaction. I'm sure that sadness is filling her eyes right now. For once, I don't want to hear her soft voice. She will cry that I'm a liar and she hates me. I start to cough again. My head is spinning around. I have a terrible headache. My injuries are burning me down. I want her to hug me, to touch me. Maybe it would abate the pain. Suddenly, a cold hand touches my right cheek. It's cold and it freezes the burning pain. I open my eyes. I see... her smile! She's smiling to me!
'' Onisan''(big brother) A tear's rolling down her cheek and forming a precious stone. '' I knew. I knew you were my brother, my family. ''
She's crying happy tears, and I can see it on her face.
'' Yukina'' I hug her in my shaking arms.
''Onisan, I'm so happy you decided to finally tell me the truth. Don't worry, I don't hate you. ''
More coughs. She hugs me tight and it's abating my pain. More coughs. I feel that I am loosing my energy. I want to hear her soft voice again. I want her to return my love.
'' Farewell, sis-''
'' Onisan, no! Onisan, I love you. ''
She said it. I close my eyes and smile at her one last time. I'm going to quite her. Goodbye my sunshine. It's time for farewell.
Say something. I'm giving up on you.
And I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you.
And anywhere I would've followed you.
Say something.
'' Yes, it's time for farewell. Goodbye my hero, Onisan.''
Say something. I'm giving up on you.
~OWARI~