(apologies up front for the main paragraph before this story begins. it is not ment to cause harm or distress in any way so please do forgive it. thanks in advance.)

(Mental Illness? How does one classify this? can it really be classifed? After all there are so many types of deppression and or anxiey that diagnosing can be an issue as can treatment. Can such illness be cured? The answer to this is no it can't be cured. It can only be managed by the person or person who have the illness. Though it depends on each person with regards to it some learn to cope and manage their depression and anxiety partly because they come to realize its possible. Others take more drastic measures with regards to this becuase no matter what the do they can't cope or manage the devouring emptyness thats eating them from within. Those drastic measures can unfortunately lead to suicide whether its an ordinary person or a celebrity. it just depends of the person and how they are affected by it. if there is anyone that suffers from this please seek the appropriate help and don't suffer in silence or alone.)

Now let me tell you a little story

(This is the story of a Shawol who recieves a surprise and unexpected yet welcome visitation from Jonghyun of shinee.)

Place of origin: Brazil

Time Early Evening

Takes Place: Within the confines of the shawol's bedroom at home.

Occupation: Teaching Assistant. (which can at times be a stressful job)

Religious beliefs: Christian

Mental Illness: one who suffers from anxiety and depression but manages and copes with it via her religious belief in god. One of the few people who is able to manage this and live aa normal life as possible. Takes measures to ensure that her anxiety and depression does not! take over her life.

The house was empty of habitation. It's occupant was currently are her place of work so held no knowledge of what was currently happening within the confines of her home.

Her name is Pati. Pati is a 34 year old woman of average height and a physique that is slim to slender. She's Raven haired with soulful chocolate brown eyes, and works as a teachers assistant. Pati is know as a shawol for her love of music by the kpop band Shinee and those who know her know that she carries a love of the bands members not just their music. Pati is a young woman that suffers from the mental illness of znxiety and depression but uses her christian religeous beliefs to manage this so that she can go about her daily life.

Inside Pati's home:

The room lit up with a soft glow as a form appeared within the confines of the emtpy room. Jonghyun floated softly around the room and throughout the rest of the house while its occupant was not at home so he had some slight knowledge of her when he would visit again when she was home. The walls he noted were bare and empty, the dressing table held a mirror and its top was cluttered with all the recqusites women and girls used in their daily lives such as make up ect. Jnghyun knew that the young woman he was going to be visiting later was a fan of his hyungs and himself even though he was no longer in the living world.

He was what his shawols called a Bias, where bands were concerned when one idol stood out above others to certain people within a fandom. Apparantly he was hers and he had to admit that he was happy about that. Jonghyun though gone from the physical world paid close attention to it especially his hyungs and how they were doing but also to the fans who once screamed his name at their concerts while he was alive. With a sigh he gave a quick look around the rest of the house before he faded from view the heavenly glow receeding into nothingness though he didn't actually leave he remained there unseen waiting with eternal love and patience until the occupant returned home.

Outside Pati's workplace:

Pati was exhausted as she made her way home for the night now that work was finished for the day. Pati made her way home exhaustion beating at her very being all the way. As much as she loved her work there were times that she could she admitted do without the constant stress which made her demenor low enough that her anxiety levels rose which could bring about a wave of depression if she was carless and didn't monitor things. Pati kept rigourous control of this aspect of her nature especially since she would come to encounter others with the same mental illness on a regular basis and who had no coping mechanism to help them manage enough to live a semblence of a normal life like she had. Pati's religious belief system aided her constantly in her management of her own. It was to all intents a small recovery though it was always there just below the surface waiting.

At home:

Pati arrived home that evening and took out her keys as she walked up to her front door and put the key into the lock and turned it. The click of the lock indicated that she could now enter. This she did so and closed and re locked the door behind her. The first thing she did was slip out of her shoes and put her slippers on. Then she took off and hung up her coat after she placed her bag down upon the floor. With a sigh she rubbed her tired eyes and walked through and into the living room. It was the weekend so she was glad that shse didn't have to be up for work the following day. Putting on a lamp that was on the nearby table to give the area some illumination she headed towards her bedroom. Unseen by her her visitor took note of her entrence in silence though if one cared to pay close attention to any reflective surface they would have seen his beautiful and handsome features that held a smile upon his lips and love in his eyes.

Upon entering her bedroom she switched on the light to illuminate the room and headed over to her music center, turning it on and immediately shinee's music filled the room. With a smile she picked up her nightware and headed for the bathroom closing the door behind her but not fully so that the sound of shinee could still be heard. Aflicker of movement filled the room and jonghyuns form filled the rooms mirror with a small amount of illumination. silently his lips turned upwards into a smile as he heard the sound of his own voice and those of his hyungs singing. His lips seemed to move in time to t he song that was playing.

movement caught his attention and he turned his eyes towards the opposite room and faded unseen but still there as the door opened and Pati stepped out closing the door firmly behind her now in her nightware and she settled onto the bed and curled up listening to shinee. In the mirror Jonghun was visible once more his angelic glow only reflected in the mirror but blending in with the rooms light so it went unnoticed. Jonghyun was waiting for an opportunity to make his presence felt so that she would take notice.

An opportunity came with the next song which ws one of jonghyuns solo's The song just happened to be the song Y Si Fueran Ella. JJonghyuns form slftly exited the mirror and into the room his heavenly glow brightening slowly as he took over singing the song without music which stopped suddenly. Pati blinked an sat up as she took notice and her eyes widened and her mouth dropped open as she stared at her bias and idol's form. She scrambled into a sitting position.

'Jonghyun?'

she breathed out his name in a sigh of shocked wonder. He nodded his head as he stopped singing the unfinished redition of the song and came to settle beside her.

'Hello Pati'

he replied though his lips never moved she still heard his angelic voice clearly.

'I never dreamed that i would see my longtime bias who captured my heart so long ago. I always wanted to meet you and your hyungs but was never able to and then you were not here anymore.'

she said softly holding back the tears that wanted to fall.

'I am sorry Pati, i know how you suffer with the same affliction i had but you are able to manage and survive where i couldn't. There are many out there that are in the same situation some more bad than most. Thats why i chose you to visit with. I would ask a favour of you to do me something. can you?'

jonghyun reached out a hand and ran it across the top of her head the peace and warmth settled within her from his touch as he waited for her answer. Pati nodded her head.

'Ask hyung ask anything.'

tears formed and rolled down her cheeks. Jonghyun brushed them away as be answered.

'Fistly don't grieve for me. I'm happy and at peace and free from all my suffering. secondly i hope that you manage to never suffer the same as i did with being devoured by this illness. Now my favour is this. Help them. Others out there with the same illness especially those that cane manage and are being consumed by it. Dont let them take the same action i did. '

he smiled a glint of tears in his angelic eyes. Pati caught the barest glimpse of wings.

'I will I promise to try and do my best'

she said in return and he nodded it was all he needed to hear for he knew that's all she could do.

'Thank you for supporting and loving shinee noona and for loving me as your bias all this time. I love all shawols across the world for their love and support of us all this time. Even when i wondered how it was that we could recieve such a gift unmeasured.'

jonghyun reached behind him his hand capturing a loose feather from one of his wings and he held it out in front of him.

'Heavens things are not meant to be in the hands of others noona but there is something i can do with this'

he spoke of the feather and reached for her hand exposing her bare arm turning it so that the wrist was upwards brushing his fingertips over it. he helped her to her feet and guided her over to her mirror.

'you will remember my visit and our talk. and you will remeber that i am always here for shawols across the world even though its unseen. wherever you see a reflective surface and your thoughts turn to me you will see this feather reflected for your eyes only. This will tell you that i know and am aware of you playing my songs or those of my hyungs or that your remember me as i was and not for what i did.'

he touched the mirror with the feather and it disappeared but the glass held a golden etched feather outline in its center. jonghyun guided her back to her former position and stepped back light and peaceful warmth filling the space between them.

'remember me noona with love and dont dwell any longer on my leaving the world behind. i took the action that i knew was right for me. remember to help those who have the same affliction of devouring emptyness that i had and you survive with. do this for me please.'

jonghyun was fading slowly though he would still be there unseen watching over his shineeworld family across the world as well as his brothers.

'its time for me to go but i'll be right here unseen watching over everyone.'

he tapped his heart to remind her of her own.

'goodbye noona remember me fondly one day when your time comes to leave this world behind i'll be waiting to greet you as i will my hyungs onew, minho, key and taemin.'

jonghyuns form disappeared though the room still held his peaceful warm sense of peace. Pati lay down and and cried herself to sleep vowing to fufil his favour as best she could for the rest of her life. unseen jonghyun left the room and walked to the window as the dawns rays begun to form through the window. it lit up his presence and as the rays faded from view so did he the faint sound of his singing echoing into silence.