Something Different
It all changed the day I became a vampire. I hadn't known how right I was.
I was never good enough for Edward. I had given up the one thing he had loved about me, my bloody. He was so cold once I awoke, he and Alice were off together all the time, and I do mean all the time. after about a week I called them both out, asking what was going on, why Edward had avoided me since I had woke up. why Alice doesn't even look at me any more. That between them they've said less than 6 words to me since I awoke to this life and now jasper's left and they just don't care. By the end of my rant the rest of the family had gathered round to check I wasn't going all newborn on them. When Alice gave Edward one of her looks saying "we have to tell them Edward, you've seen what happens if we don't". Something about the way she said we I didn't like and couldn't help but growl quietly. Edward stepped forward say "family once Bella was going through her change I.. I noticed that I had no feelings about Bella, her pain, anything to do with all of it for that matter. when it never bothered me to see her in that amount of pain. It confused me as hours before I would of laid my life down for her. It was slow at first, but by the second day any form of love that I had for Bella was gone. I needed someone to talk to, someone who could help me. so I went to Alice. She showed me in her mind what was meant to be. I wasn't in love with Bella. just her blood, she was always my singer. I, I should of drained her. but I was so proud of my control, that I changed her instead. It's why as soon as the change started the call of her blood left my mind, which is why I had no feelings left towards you Bella. You see the thing is I've always had these feeling's for Alice but because she had jasper I never voiced my feeling to anyone, well Alice knew of course and we've been having an affair for year's, but then Bella came along and I thought she was who I was meant to be with. Alice tried to tell me over and over that it wasn't meant to be, but I wouldn't listen. Bella fell in love with me and I though that's what I was feeling. I was wrong. So during Bella's change Alice and I went to jasper and told him everything that we've told you then he left. we're both sorry for the way things worked out. but we hope we can all get through this. Bella I'm so sorry this has happened to you and in time I know that you'll forgive us. Alice has seen it." I couldn't believe my ears I flew at both of them biting and ripping at anything and everything I could get my hands on. I could hear the family calling me, but as I looked back there was a blue wall blocking them from me I could hear talking as well but no lips were moving Alice telling Edward how she loved him that they would get through this. When my body went ridge and I could see something Alice Edward at an alter getting married, the family there, I was there with someone who s face I couldn't see. I was pulled out of the vision with Alice voice "see Bella it'll be ok in the end. I'm sorry, were sorry. we'll be family again one day please Bella". I stood up in one fluid motion leaving Alice to tend to Edwards wounds and went to the family they were all fussing saying how sorry they were and I shouldn't worry it would be fine. I excused myself to my room and ran up the stairs getting to my room grabbing a duffel bag and filling it with all I needed, I kept stopping to listen the commotion going on down stairs, seeing it as my opportunity I got my cash and cards my new passports just in case, then I was gone from my balcony window. I was flying through the forest I knew no one could catch me with newborn speed on my side also the fact that not only did I have a shield, but also Edward's and Alice's powers to help me along. I knew I'd never go back, never be a Cullen again. those day's were behind me, I would never be the weak little lamb again. No now I'll be Izzy Swan the deadliest predator. I'll be the lion for a change, I stopped in Oregon to call Jenkins the family lawyer and got him to set up my new accounts and transfer all the money from my Cullen account. I wanted new bank cards, credit cards and a passport to pick up with in 24hours here in Oregon, Wasco county, I had never heard of this place before, thank god Jenkins had and he promised to keep our transaction privet and done on time. I hadn't noticed the burn that was now rampant in my throat. I could smell multiple human's near me not wanting to kill animals no more or innocent humans, I decided to head towards the seedy part of town. I took to the roof-top's sniffing out which way to go. As I reached the warehouse districts, I tried to use one of my new ability's. I closed my eyes and sought out the most dangerous humans around me. Listening to the thoughts of each humans some wanting drugs others passing through town not realising where they were then there was the dealers praying on the weak then I hear it the though of one man about some vile things he had done. I sat and waited for him to leave tuning out every other thing around me he was my pray and no one would take him from me. He got up to leave around 2;30 in the morning swaying his way to the street I jumped down about a block away then started towards him swaying my self even tripping as I got close enough to an ally entrance when he approached me "he're sweetart lemme elp you" I smiled up trying to play coy "thanks I'm ok I've just go to go this way thanks though" hearing the sick things he wanted to do was to much for me, I yanked his arm pulling it from it's socket hearing him scream calling me all name "how fucking dear you your noting but scum here for me to feed on no shut up" I pulled his neck up to my lips biting harder than necessary gulping the warm blood down my throat. Feeling his body run dry I pushed him away in disgust needing more I picked the body up finding a bin to put him in till later then grab the next human who walked passed some drug dealer type I finished him just as quick as the first but his blood was amazing so clean and filling, god knows why I never chose this route first. Oh yea my undying love that got thrown back in my face again fucking cullens how dear they one day I'll, I'll I don't know yet but they will pay I can feel the burning in me to kill Edward and Alice so bad, give me time it'll happen vision of there wedding my ass. I set the second body in to the trash can along with body number 1 and set it alight, watching it burn from the rooftop seemed the most natural thing in the world. It was nearly dawn when the last of the fire burned out and I still had about 3hours to kill before Jenkins man turned up I went and found a cheap looking motel to freshen up in. the place had definitely seen better days and the owner looked older than dirt nice enough lady though. I stood in the shower for a good hour just letting the water wash away the blood and dirty smell of those men. I noticed that my body felt alive truly alive, full in place's I never knew that I could feel this way, I felt confident in myself since the first day of my change