"All I want, is nothing more,"

She felt the warmth of her hand run through his fingers as theirs intertwined, the warmth of her own spreading into the coldness of veins that just barely carried the blood enough to heat his extremities, his eyes, a mystifying blue like an endless sky, eyes glazed with a thick, clouded mist; no longer could the endless skies be seen, just the clouds that seemed to coat them like icebergs on the ocean, so beautiful and yet obscuring from seeing the danger underneath - the true pain that was inflicted having slowly been washed away as the iceberg slowly formed over time, growing in size like an abyss ready to slowly engulf the beautiful being that lay underneath it. His features, lax of all the vibrant colours that had since been washed over his face, drained of them like a being that was slowly losing its own soul over time, a beautiful rose that was turning into nothing but ash as the petals wilted far too early, features adorning the darkness of exhaustion that was not deserved, cold lips that were almost blue like a sheet of ice, cracks all along them as if it was pure, untampered snow that had since been ran through by a group of excited children - no care to stop and observe the beauty that it had been.

"To hear you knocking, at my door..."

His smile - so faint, one that used to glisten. The sparkling flame of joy that had warmed her heart - now dying down to less than an ember, turned into a monument sculpted of ice, slowly melting into nothing at all as every day neared closer to the moment where she'd never have any semblance of that smile left at all. A smile that had been so gentle, so caring when holding her close, one that made her feel so safe and loved, now one that she could only feel an emptiness at, a twisting inside of her knowing the pain that hid behind those cracked, painted lips, like a porcelain doll - on its stand, never ceasing a smile that didn't ever truly meet those vacant eyes. It had been long since that she had seen it truly make her smile - one there only to provide a remnance of comfort to those around him, to try and ease her sorrow in any way that he could, no matter how much he could barely even focus on the fact that she was beside him - she would always be beside him, till the very moment that the iceberg of which he had become no longer had any coldness to bathe in, till that block of ice melted into the ocean and she truly would lose him forever. The memories they shared, a distant memory that she couldn't help but feel like she had been sliced through her chest with, a pain far worse than anything physical that could have been inflicted on her.

"Cause if I could see your face once more,"

It was like she was looking at a photograph of him. What had once been the warm memories now were just a coldness that filled her chest with the pain of being dragged under the ice, forced to face a reality that she couldn't bear herself to face despite the harsh, cruel reality that she had to understand was the truth despite how much she wished her sun would once again shine. Being so enraptured by such a loving gaze, such warmth in those eyes, gently cradled in those arms as she was promised that he would never leave her side - he would never allow her sun to be clouded by the coldness of the rainclouds that had once enveloped her like a storm of pain and isolation in such an uncaring vice. He promised her. He promised her with such a gentle, soothing voice - one full of the warmth and life that she so dearly prayed for to return each and every night. One that she just wished she could hear one more time - one more time, even if it was one that spit hatred which he had never once shown her - or anyone else - in his entire life. He was her sun, her warmth, and he had been dragged down so deep into the ocean that every bit of that flame had died, leaving nothing but the embers that so desperately tried and failed to survive, slowly being snuffed out as they were forced down by the chains of the deep that dragged him further into the ice.

"I could die a happy man, I'm sure..."

She had dreamed of it every night that she could allow herself to slumber - the pain some nights was too great, and all she could do was allow the tears to fall as she felt the coldness of no longer being wrapped in the warmth of the embrace of the love of her life - no longer able to be by his side every night. His loving arms around her as she lay there in a bed that felt far too empty to be her own. The nights that he would hold her in his arms, whispering to her and just making her feel like she had a place in this world - that she was loved, the nights they would spend just embracing eachother, warmth blanketing them and keeping them safe from all the bad things in the world - those things hadn't needed to exist, and yet, she felt as if she was going to die right now - as if she was going to disappear, or as if he would slip from her fingers like the fine specs of gold that he truly was. Her entire sunlight, now completely being overthrown by the clouds that engulfed him as he doused his flames from the inside out, leaving her to only be able to feel the pain as she stared at the shell that was the man whom she loved, the man who had loved her more than anything in his life.

"When you said your last goodbye,"

Her fingers ever so slowly detached from his skin, her words barely even able to be uttered from her dry lips as she looked at the one thing she cherished more than anything in her life. It was time to leave, and she couldn't stand how she had to whisper a goodbye - a goodbye to her sun, to her only joy in this life. She couldn't lose him - not the warmth that she loved more than anything, not the man who had held her from being consumed by the tides of acedia - who had held her above its murky abyss and kept her afloat, guiding her into the warm light that she bathed in with him and him alone. She felt weak as she rose from the chair that she had been stoic in like a statuette for oh so long, guided out by the nurse as she couldn't help but give one last look to the love of her life. A final goodbye, a goodbye that she wasn't prepared to give him - wasn't ever prepared to give to anyone. To lose her sun, to lose her light - to lose the love of her life. The only good thing she had left in the world, all in one moment tonight.

"I died a little bit inside..."

To walk down those hallways alone - the stark contrast to every day she had walked with his arm around her and the warmth radiating from him as he made her smile, as he reminded her that he would always be by her side - it made something inside of her break like a shattered vase, unable to handle the pressure being exerted onto it any longer. Every step just seemed to echo, as if he was by her side, trying to grasp onto her yet missing her as she averted her eyes, as if she was abandoning him - condemning him to be alone, without even the smallest ember of warmth by his side. She was leaving him - she was leaving her sun to be completely extinguished of its light, left to die out like the final embers of a flame being extinguished by the deep abyss that slowly pulled his mind deeper and deeper into the ocean, trapping it deeper and deeper below the iceberg that had originally encased him. She had left him, and this - this was her final goodbye to the songbird that sang the sweetness into her life.

"I lay in tears, in bed all night..."

Her fingers a ghost on his hands as the numbness spread up to the very tips, extinguishing what warmth she had provided him - what love she had kept something inside of him ever so dimly aflame with. It felt like something inside of him finally left as he heard those words leave her lips. The skies that clouded his exhausted eyes may have kept him from seeing her, but it didn't prevent him from hearing the only sound he wished to hear for the rest of his life. If she was saying goodbye - if she was leaving his life, then, and only then, was he going to allow those chains to finally drag him down, drag his mind under and engulf him completely, his exhaustion finally causing his dry eyelids to meet as he closed his eyes, a slowed and pained breath escaping from his chest for one final time as he let his mind sink further into the abyss, finally giving into it all. He'd see her. He'd hold her close and watch her from the other side - to embrace her one last time was all he had wanted to do for so long, and if he could not do it here, he would wait until he could meet her again on the other side of this all, waiting on his own in a void of darkness until then. He didn't feel warmth - he didn't feel a 'light' as he felt his body give way. He just felt cold. He felt coldness, an emptiness without her there by his side as he passed on, finally ending the chapter called 'life'.

"Alone, without you by my side..."