*sigh*
hey
My parents are gonna be divorced so I decided to write about a situation like mine to make me feel better.
So Tess' parents are getting a divorce
this takes place in summer
Booker and the girls are 16 and Levi is 14
here we go
"Does it get easier?"
Tess' pov
I feel numb. This doesn't make any sense. How could they be getting a divorce? Their perfect for each other! Well they don't think that anymore.
I remember when I was little, we used to do everything together. We would cook together. Go skateboarding on sundays. Have lunch with the Baxter-Carter-Graysons on Saturdays.
I guess I should've known things had slowly been falling apart, and they had been growing more distant. But i guess I didn't wanna accept it. I just thought we be a happy little family forever. But that was stupid and childish to think. So I'm just gonna suck it up and live with it until it disappears. Yeah that's what I'm gonna do.
2 weeks later
In Tess' room
Tess' pov
Well that's it,the divorce is final. Since my dad is a truck driver I will be seeing him every other weekend.
I didn't know this would hurt so much. Is there really nothing i could've done to stop this? But there is a good side to this, I don't have to move away from Chicago, thank goodness.
At the Baxter home
Nia's pov
"Tess won't talk to me, guys."
"She won't talk to us either and she's been hiding out in her room all week." Booker said as he gestured between him and Levi.
"I wish we could talk to her, I mean we of all people know how hard divorce is!"
"Exactly Levi but I don't know what to do. She hasn't talked to anyone, not even her parents! She hasn't been eating as much as she used to, and if she's not really eating you know its bad." I exclaimed.
"Look guys, it's been a couple weeks and this is not healthy, she's been couped up in her room getting no sunlight, barely eating, and she hasn't touched a basketball in forever, I know we said we'd give her space but we need to talk to her...at least to just let her know that were here." Booker reasoned.
"Your right, c'mon guys let's go."
In Tess' room
Tess' pov
"Tess?" I heard Nia's voice say along with a knock on the door. "Dam it." I muttered. Their gonna see my face! Well maybe I don't look that bad? I looked in the mirror and dang it I look like a corpse. I lost at least 5 pounds, I haven't taken a shower in 2 days, and my hair is just bad.
"Um Tess isn't here!" I yelled even though I knew that wouldn't work. I flipped my hair upside down and shook it out, in hopes that maybe it would look less like a birds nest. As I stand up straight I hear the door open behind me. I didn't look back but I could see them in the reflection in my mirror.
"Really Tess? You had to know that would never work." Booker said as he looked at me. I laughed.
"Yeah I did. You guys are relentless."
"So Tess how are you?" Levi asked cautiously.
"I'm fine and I don't wanna talk about it." I looked at them pointedly.
"You don't look fine Tess."
"Booker!" Nia exclaimed. He held his hands up in defense.
"Anyways, we don't have to talk about it, we just wanted to let you know we're here. Our parents are divorced too so if you ever need to talk just call or come next door. Alright?"
"Alright mom." She looked at me sternly.
"Fine I promise." She grinned.
"Great now c'mon we're taking you out, your mom told us to get you outta here."
"Nooo, I like it here." I protested.
"Nope that's not gonna work." Levi said as him and Nia pulled me up from the floor.
"But i..."
"'I' what Tess?" Booker questioned me.
"Um th-the front door is so far! Yea yea that's it." My voice trailed off and I knew it was a weak excuse but I had no excuse. I don't really know why I didn't want to go, I just didn't.
"Fine you don't have to go." I sighed in relief.
"Thank you."
"We'll meet you in the car." Nia said to Book as she and Levi walked out. Dammit, why did I fall for sh*t.
"You know I have to do this right?"
"Yeah I know."
"You goin in that?"
"What's wrong with this?" I looked down at my led zepplin t-shirt and shorts.
"Nothing, I guess I'm just used to Nia always having to change before we go out, it's annoying."
"You know I'm not one of those girls, Booker." He chuckled.
"Yeah, your not." He grabbed my keys from my dresser and slipped them in his black jeans pocket. "Bring a jacket tho." He continued.
"Why?"
"Cause I know you Tess, you get cold and then your gonna ask for my jacket or in today's case my flannel, and cause my momma raised a gentleman, I give you it. So why don't you just bring a jacket and avoid being cold?" I snickered.
"Cause I like yours better." I shrugged.
"Everytime?"
"Yes everytime." he laughed.
"c'mon." He threw me over his shoulder and walked out my apartment. He dropped me at the door and I locked it.
"See the front door isn't that far."
"Screw you." I replied.
"Right back atcha." I stuck my tounge out at him.
"C'mon." He pulled me down the stairs and out the building toward the car.
In the car
Levi's pov
We just finished eating and I think maybe we should go to the park to look at the sunset. It's very calming and I figure it will be good for Tess, whenever something is on my mind I go there.
"Hey guys, maybe we could go to the park on Madison and watch the sunset?"
"That would be awesome!"
"I'm down." We looked at Tess, and yes, she was wearing Booker's flannel which is not surprising.
"Yeah why not." Yes!
At the park
Booker's pov
We arrived at the park 10 minutes ago and now we're just sitting on a blanket in the grass, looking at the sky. I have to admit it's really nice out here, we should come here more often. We sat in silence for about 20 minutes then Tess asked a question that caused me to think.
"Does it get easier?"
"Of course it does!" Nia side hugged her.
"Yeah trust me it will, now cheer up." Levi completed. I looked up at the darkening sky, I know they mean well but the always be happy attitude is not what Tess needed right now. She needs to know that it's normal to have these feelings so she could let it out. And that's exactly what I told her.
Tess' pov
"It hurts like hell." We all turned toward Booker. "And you just don't understand how two people so perfect for each other could just split."
"Booker don't tell her-"
"Nia she needs to hear this." She nodded. He sighed. "How could they just stop loving each other like that? And you'll think it's your fault but it's not."
"But-"
"No there's nothing you could do to stop this Tess, nothing." He looked at me pointedly. "They're just trying to be happy and you want them to be happy right?"
"Yeah but I want them to be happy together." A single tear escaped my eye and I wiped it off, hoping they wouldn't notice. But of course they did. Nia hugged me tighter.
"I know trust me I do, but sometimes thats not what's best. And that's OK, and you know what's also ok?" I shook my head.
"Crying." I couldn't help it I was holding all this in for so long, it was like a dam broke inside, and it felt so good. They all engulfed me in a hug and I relished in their comfort. This was what I needed. So much. I sniffled and turned when Nia held my hand as she started softly singing.
"When the silence isn't quiet and it's getting to breathe."
"And I know you feel like dying, but I promise we'll take the world to its feet." Booker completed. Then Levi and I joined in.
"And move mountains
We gonna walk it out
And move mountains
And I'll rise up
I'll rise like a day
I'll rise up
I'll rise unafraid
I'll rise up
And I'll do it a thousand times again
For you
For you
For you
For you." We probably looked so ridiculous but I didn't care.
"I love you guys, so much."
And that is a wrap
I didn't say this before so let me say it now I am not affiliated nor know anyone affiliated with Raven's Home and I do not own the song Rise Up those rights go to Andra Day
I found this in my drafts its from like 2 months ago when my parents got divorced and I added that song in there cause it really helped during that time
And a special thank u to my friend Andrew who's parents are also divorced and the one who helped me so much during that hard time Ilysm!
anyways thanks for reading :)
I love y'all!
-S