Dipper's POV:

I open up the Journal that Bill got me for my birthday, and pick up my pen and just start out as usual.

'February 2nd,

Dear Journal,

Hey again. I know I haven't written in a while... Well, today I just have a lot on my mind. I was actually thinking about Mabel... I know I shouldn't... but I miss her.

However, I've also been thinking about all the things she did wrong, that Bill's been helping point out. For one, she was the family's favorite and got all of the attention. She always got presents and everyone always forgot our birthday was mine too. She... she's ostracized me since day one.

She blamed me for mom and dad's car crash even though it didn't have anything to do with me... I wasn't even there!

-Flashback-

'I remember Stan and Ford just made the bus driver let Mabel bring Waddles. She and Waddles sat beside me for some reason and I slept most of the ride. When I woke up, she was asleep leaning half on me half on waddles. A note was on the floor that said 'see you next summer' signed by 'our' friends.

I say our like that because it was apparently secretly just for her. And just when I thought I'd finally made some friends too! So I crumpled up the note and put it in my pocket so I could burn it later. I just felt so betrayed because I thought that they were different. I sat there uncomfortably for about another hour and then we were there. I shook Mabel to wake her and grabbed my things, her following behind me.

Mom and Dad were waiting for us at the bus stop smiling brightly until they saw Waddles. They actually told Mabel that she couldn't have something for once! Never had I ever felt so much satisfaction until that moment! But then Mabel got her way anyways after causing a scene. We were driven home and I was ignored as usual. We put our things away and even ate dinner.

Dad actually asked me for once if I wanted to go to the store with him. I didn't want to go though, because I was really tired and it was about 8 PM and we had school the next day. So I declined. Mom went with him instead and I went up to bed.

Next day I woke up because Mabel slapped me and then started screaming. I was in so much shock. She even said she would have killed me in a heartbeat if she knew that they were going to die. Kept screaming about how it was my fault. That I should have gone with dad so she could at least have had a mother. She left after screaming some more and slammed my door shut so hard the hinges shook. Snapped me out of my shock.

So I stood up, locked the door and just curled up in a ball and started crying. Because she wasn't the only one that missed them. I overheard the police later, telling Ford, who moved down here to be our guardian, about how apparently they were headed back from the store when a car in the wrong lane came speeding towards their car. The crash killed all of the passengers in both vehicles.

Even though I didn't get much and my parents always forgot that our birthday was mine too, I still missed them. Never had I felt more alone in that moment.'

End Flashback-

I snap out of my flashback and realize that I'm crying. I try to stop the tears but they keep coming. So I just cry.

Someone hugs me from behind and I know it's Bill. I turn towards him and grab his shirt and let it all out. Boys can cry too and sometimes you just need a good cry to be okay again.

He just holds me close and doesn't say anything until I'm done. I hiccup a few times and just sit there. Bill hands me a glass of water and I drink all of it, feeling a lot better.

After a moment, he breaks the silence,"Pinetree."

I look up.

He says," Pinetree it wasn't your fault. I've told you."

I mumble something incoherent.

He chuckles," Well if you knew, then you'd stop beating yourself up over it."

"True. I just hurts so much Bill. I miss Mabel even though I really shouldn't and I just..." I say.

Bill pulls me closer.

"Hey believe me. I understand. I can read your thoughts remember?" He adds the last bit in a teasing tone.

I slightly smile.

He starts tickling my sides.

"B-buh-Bill! Pl-l-l-l-ease st-t-t-op!" I say while laughing.

He shakes his head.

"No can do Pinetree."

He smirks.

He tickles me till I see stars start to dance in my vision.

Then he finally stops, what seems like an eternity later, so I can catch my breath.

When I do I play an uno reverse card on him.

I kiss him leaving him dazed for a split second and push him onto the bed.

"You realize this means war right?" I ask.

He actually has the decency to look scared.

I smirk and tickle him to his doom like the legit tickle monster.

-Time Skip-

A little while later, I walk out to the small garden in the back that Bill helped me plant recently.

I sit in a chair in the center of it and pick up where I left off in my journal entry.

'Anyways, Mabel made it her goal to torment me from then on. She became the most popular girl in school and she had her friends brothers shove me into lockers and beat me up almost everyday, until I found good hiding spots. She would laugh and jeer when she was around though.

One day she threw a latte into the faces of a newly gay couple and told them how they were going to go to hell and that they needed to get over their phase immediately and "choose straight again."

A whole crowd built around them and I stepped in, saved them and got them the heck out of there. No one did anything about it but me. I convinced the lovely couple Jared and Leo to go to this inexpensive boarding school that I was going to apply to, before I decided to move here to Gravity Falls.

We actually still keep in touch and they tell me how they love it there. Sometimes over video chat they both start crying and thanking me profusely for getting them out of that toxic environment. I tell them each time it happens, which is few and far between now, that I'm glad to have helped and of course.

But yeah the bullying got so bad for me. I couldn't even go to class without people telling me how much of a "fag" I was. It got so bad that Ford finally noticed! But he just told me that I was being a disappointment. So I started writing my stories after finding that it was a good way to vent my emotions. My seven book series about a secret teen vampire is actually a huge hit and I get pretty decent money under my penname P.D Manson.

The 'P' stands for Pinetree because funnily enough at the time I just couldn't get the nickname from one insane Bill, out of my head. I tell everyone that comes to book signings that it stands for Porter though. 'D' is for Dipper, but I tell everyone that it's Dean. And Manson is just my last name misspelt.

I recently told Bill about my books and he's really proud of me and wanted to read them all. Paz had the same reaction. Writing just feels so good though! I can channel my emotions into the latest chapter and just zone out. It's like my own therapy hehe.

Bill's helping me too though. Well we're helping each other. I'm convincing him that he will find Will and he's helping me with all of my baggage. He's really the best boyfriend!.

Well I'm going to go now journal because I'm pretty sure I smell something cooking hehe.

See ya next time? Lol.

-Dipper'

I shut my journal and put it in my pocket because old habits really do die hard .

I walk back inside and head to the kitchen, leaning against the doorway.

I see Bill decked out in a pink "kiss the cook" apron, just finishing making chili.

I can't help but laugh slightly.

He looks up.

"What?" He asks.

"You look hot."

He blushes.

I walk to him and kiss him.

When I pull back, I say,"Thank you for making dinner ~."

He nods.

He says,"Of course Pinetree~" and pulls me in for another kiss.

Then we just eat dinner and watch a movie.

I fall asleep leaning against his chest.