All Characters owned by Ally Carter! I know that this story is probably crap. All mistakes are mine and I will continue to make sure the story gets better. This is my first fanfiction and I am excited to see it come to life after having this idea in my head for many years. This story is not completely written so updates will most likely be irregular. If you have any idea's, please send them my way. Happy Reading!

Chapter one:

I am sitting in the dark in Zack's Apartment, waiting for him to get home. I have been here for hours and still don't know what I am going to say. It's been five years since he's seen me. The front door opens slowly. He knows someone is here. He closes the door and turns on the light. I try to simile at him, but it is so fake. He freezes at the door like he's seen a ghost.

"I'm Sorry. I want you to know how sorry I am," said Cammie. "I tried my best, but it was going to be her or me and well I choose me." Zack was just looked at me like I was crazy. I cannot tell him anymore, but God do I want to. He is the only one who has every really seen me. Think one look, he knows what I am feeling and thinking. If I tell him, if I correct his knowledge then I risk mom, Joe and the girls finding out.

"About what Gallagher Girl? Sorry that you..." questioned Zack as he walks towards me. His phone starts ringing.

"You better answer that, Zack." I wasn't supposed to be here for this. I wasn't supposed to be alive for the fallout, but I am. As he answers the phone, he just stares at me. I can't look at him anymore, so I look down and walk around him towards the door.

"Thank you, for notifying me," Zack says into the phone. He ends the calls and puts the phone in to pocket. I am still facing the front door.

It's so quiet. I can hear the traffic outside and our breaths. I don't know what I am supposed to. How do you comfort your ex-fling losing his crazy mother, when I was the one who killed her?

I cannot look at him. I don't want him to see that there is no guilt. The only guilt that I do have is the fact that he lost his mother. Not that I actually killed her.

"Turn around Cammie" Zach ordered. Crap! I turn slowly around; I can't read his face. I can't look into his eyes, so I look right past him. I do not know what to do and I always knows what to do. "Why are you sorry?" Zack Questioned me again.

"I'm sorry for your loss…" I want to say more, but that opens the opportunity for more questions and that can't happen.

Zack looked down at his phone and then back up to me. He opens his mouth and then closes it. He was never one for a lot of words.

"I wanted you to know that I am so very sorry for your loss. I tried everything, to make sure that this wasn't the outcome" I pause. "I need you to know that it is okay to mourn. No matter what else she was, she was your mom." There I said it. He's still looking at me with those gorgeous green eyes, without moving.

His phone rings once again. This time it is an automatic text message sent to all agents. I know this because I was the one to write the message. It doesn't seem like he even registers that it's going off. He won't let me look away. I cannot look away and I want to go hug him. I know that I cannot because I would never be able to leave him again. And I have leave again for my safety and the safety of my family.

I should leave right now, but I can't. I need to ask him, or I will regret it for the rest of my life. And I do not regret many things. I got into this mess at the age of 6 because of who my father was. Ever since then, I have followed the orders given to me. My life was not my own. Now at the age of 21, I am going to do the thing that I have wanted to do at 16.

"I know that you probably have questions, but I cannot explain here. I must leave. I don't have a game plan other than to find out who I am without …. I know that you offered to leave with me before and I turned you down, but I would really like you to join me now" I don't have a lot of time, the girls are going to be coming to Zack once they read the message and I cannot let them see me.

He is not responding. I give him one last look and start to walk to the door. As I open the front door, Zack screams "Stop!" I pause and look back at him. "Why should I go with you?"

I don't have an answer. I look at him and I think back to when we were both at Gallagher. "Because we never got a real chance," I said as looked at him. He looks back at me trying to read me, but he can't anymore.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have asked. Please do not tell anyone that I was here. There reactions need to be real. You all will be watched for some time, and it needs to be believable." He looks confused and he will be until he reads that message. As I walk out his front door, I need to remind him, "Please be careful, Catherine's protection is gone. They will come for you with a kill shot."

As I get into my car, I see Bex, Liz and Macey walking up to the front door. All of them are crying. I give one last look up to Zack's window and wish things could be different.

Zack watches the door closed and finally looks at the text message. "FBI's most wanted Catherine Goode is deceased and the Chameleon has officially been reported KIA." Zack stared at the screen, until he heard pounding at his door.