((AN: CW mentioned sexual assault/rape and also depression and Stockholm Syndrome. Also my beta did tell me this was depressing so warning about that too. Oh also Satine actually isn't in this but she's mentioned a lot so I included her in the tag since this website won't let me have the other characters tagged. I would have picked Ursa or Fenn or even Sabine over Satine. I'm sorry.))

Sabine was screaming when Bo-Katan went into Ursa's place. Screaming so loud that Bo-Katan didn't know how she hadn't heard it when she was outside. But now it was all she could hear. Ursa was sitting on her couch, which had seen better days, and was holding Sabine with one hand, but she seemed out of it. She was staring into space at nothing.

This wasn't uncommon. Ursa… she was having a hard time after having Sabine.

"Ursa!" Bo said as she hurried over to her friend and picked up Sabine. Sabine whimpered, but calmed down when Bo grabbed a bottle and offered it to Sabine who drank it hungrily. Bo looked back at Ursa whose eyes were red and had black circles over them. It looked like she hadn't slept in ages. "Are you okay?"

Ursa stared at her. "There's something wrong with me, Bo-Katan," Ursa said in almost a whisper. It was hard for Bo to even hear her friend, especially when Sabine making noise as she drank her bottle.

"There's…" Bo tried to say that Ursa was fine, but it was a lie. "I don't know, Ursa."

Maybe Ursa had that depression people sometimes got after they a baby. Bo didn't know that much about it, but Ursa was acting way different than Satine had after she had Korkie. Satine had been obsessed with Korkie. She adored him. Bo remembered how their mother had been worried that she would decide to keep Korkie after all and maybe even tell the Jedi, Obi-Wan or whatever his name was. Even though Bo was little, she could see the terror in her mother's eyes.

Satine had just adored Korkie so much. More than anyone and anything and Bo knew that her sister still did.

"Sabine… She doesn't even like me," Ursa said as she reached out as if she was going to touch Sabine's beautiful black hair. Instead, she let her hand fall to her side.

"Sabine loves you," Bo said, and she had to. Ursa was her mother and babies always loved their mother. Sabine was so sweet too. She was perfect in so many ways. Yes, she cried and fussed like all babies, but she was still amazing.

"She likes you more," Ursa said. "Look at how she looks at you."

Sabine's eyes were full of love, but Bo was sure that they were when she was around Ursa too. Bo wasn't even here that much. Actually that wasn't true… She was here a lot. Pretty much all the time when she wasn't on a mission or when Pre wanted her for….

Things.

"It's just because I'm feeding her," Bo said. She couldn't help but smile softly at little Sabine.

"No, it's not," Ursa said. "I wish… I wish I could take her to Alrich. She'd be better there and he'd be a better father than I would be a mother."

"I can talk to Pre," Bo said, looking off at the wall. Talking to Pre about this wouldn't be fun, but if anyone had a chance to convince him, it would be her. Sometimes Pre had moments of… not softness or kindness, but well… maybe acceptance. Bo wasn't sure. But he was more likely to listen to her than Ursa who he didn't like.

"Don't," Ursa said. Her eyes widening. "Don't talk to him. He'll want things from you. Things you can't give."

"He's already taken everything," Bo said, looking back at Sabine. She hoped that Sabine would always be so sweet and innocent, but she wouldn't. That was always stolen. But hopefully her life would be perfect for as long as possible.

"No, he hasn't, Bo-Katan," Ursa said.

"You're right. He hasn't killed my sister yet, but he will." Bo could now speak of Pre killing Satine without any emotion. It had been hard to learn to do that. So hard. But she had to act like a perfect warrior around Pre. She had to. Death Watch, Ursa, and Sabine were all she had.

And Pre.

And maybe if she could mention her sister dying, it wouldn't hurt as much when it happened. No… Bo knew that wouldn't be the case, even if Satine hated her. Bo would never want Satine to die no matter how much she pretended she did around Pre.

And despite that Pre would try and kill Satine, and he probably would succeed, Bo would try and save her sister. She had to because she loved Satine despite everything. It would be much easier to hate her. Pre always told her that Satine had to hate her, but Bo couldn't feel the same way about Satine.

So she would try and save her when the time came. She would try and sneak her out of Mandalore.

"Don't talk to him on my behalf," Ursa said. "Please. Don't. I don't want you to owe him anything."

"Sabine's more important," Bo said.

"She's—" Ursa didn't get a chance to reply because then the front door opened. Bo instantly knew who it was. It was almost as if she could feel when he was near. A darkness that left her feeling sick. That was encompassing.

Bo spun around and sure enough there he was. It was time to really act. Time to pretend to be the perfect member of Death Watch. Time to hide how she really felt.

"Pre," Bo said. "Do you—"

"Why are you here again?" Pre asked, even though he knew that she pretty much lived here. She technically had her own place, but she just had stopped going there completely when Pre had taken a… special… interest in her.

"I'm helping Ursa with Sabine," Bo said, hiding any emotion from her voice.

"Like you always are," Pre said, glaring at Ursa. "Since Wren can't take care of her own baby so instead she's having my woman do it."

Ursa stared at him and then she smirked. "Your woman? Bo's basically just a girl. I guess that doesn't stop you."

Anger flashed over Pre's eyes and Bo thought that he might hit Ursa. It wouldn't have surprised her, but then he did something much worse.

He grabbed Sabine from Bo. It happened so fast and Bo couldn't have done anything since it might have hurt Sabine. The bottle fell to the ground and Sabine let out a cry.

Shit! Dank Ferrik! She had to do something. Bo had to help Sabine. She couldn't even concentrate on hiding her emotions like she always did around Pre. Not now. Not when he had her precious little niece.

"Pre! Sabine didn't…" But she stopped as soon as he pulled out the Darksaber with one hand and pointed it at Bo.

Really Bo was mostly just relieved it wasn't at Sabine.

And right now there was a part of Bo that wished she had her slug throwers. Maybe, just maybe, she could kill Pre. So many nights after they… had sex… she would lay there considering killing him. She came up with so many ideas. She could steal his Darksaber and do him in with that. She could shoot him. She could even challenge him to a duel.

She'd probably lose but at least he'd probably kill her and she'd escape this nightmare.

Death would be better.

And what scared Bo-Katan more than anything were the times that she thought she actually did love Pre. She was sick. Sick in the head. And maybe she would get worse. Stockholm Syndrome or something.

So yes death would be like meeting a new friend. Not just a friend, but her savior. No one else could save her. Not Satine or Fenn or anyone.

And not Bo herself either.

"Give me back my baby!" Ursa screamed, standing up. She reached toward Sabine who stared at her mother. Seeing that Ursa was upset, Sabine started to cry. She reached toward Ursa and then Bo.

"I thought you finally grew up, Bo-Katan," Pre said, not even looking at Ursa. "I thought you stopped being so emotional."

Bo tried hard not to react. "Pre, she's just a baby. I know Ursa is aggravating, but Sabine's a baby."

Pre laughed. "What's this womp rat's name again?"

Great… Bo needed to find a way to get him away from this subject. But she doubted that he had forgotten. He had not been happy when he found out what Ursa had named Sabine. Bo loved Sabine's name, even if Satine hated her. Sabine's name reminded Bo so much of Satine. How could it not?

Sometimes thinking about Satine made Bo happy. Other times, it was depressing, especially when she thought about how Satine had to hate her, especially now that she knew about Bo and Pre. Still Bo would always treasure her memories she had with her sister.

"Oh yes, Sabine. So similar to Satine. That dar'manda bitch."

Bo didn't react. Pre had said much worse things about Satine. Horrible things. Things that Bo had never heard and wouldn't want to repeat. It used to upset her so much. She even yelled at Pre, but he had liked when she had reactions. It gave him excuses to punish her. And she thought that he might like that better than fucking her.

Now she didn't react no matter what he said about Satine. No matter how disgusting and horrible it was.

"Alrich named her and not Bo-Katan or even me," Ursa said. "He just liked the name. It has nothing to do with the duchess."

Pre rolled his eyes. "Yeah right." He smiled evilly at Sabine. "I don't even need the Darksaber to kill this one. I could just snap her neck."

"Pre!" Ursa cried. "Please! She hasn't done anything. If you hurt her then—"

"Ursa, shut up!" If she didn't stop talking, then she would make Pre more likely to hurt Sabine. Bo had to think. Pre might just be messing with them, but she couldn't take that chance. She had to get little Sabine away from him. She had to save her. "She's going to be in Death Watch. She'll be a little soldier like us. You don't want to hurt her." Bo paused but then reached out and touched Pre's cheek. "Please. It wouldn't benefit you if you hurt her."

"Yes… yes, in Death Watch," Ursa said as if her heart was breaking.

Pre scowled and looked at Sabine, but at least he turned off the Darksaber. Sabine looked at it and reached for it.

He laughed. "This toy is too much for you."

"Well, the Darksaber is only for Vizslas," Bo said, since she knew that it was the right answer. The one that Pre wanted. She could learn even if she had never been as smart as some people like Satine. "And so obviously Sabine will never have it. As if she could ever defeat you in combat anyway. No one could, Pre."

"Yes. You know there really isn't any point in killing Sabine Wren. Poor girl doesn't even have her mother's love. I see how she looks at her." And with that Pre threw Sabine toward Ursa. Ursa let out a cry and caught Sabine.

"You… You…" Ursa's eyes were lit up with anger. Really Bo wouldn't be surprised if she tried to kill Pre right here. Instead, she just held Sabine close to her chest. No way that Pre was going to get her now. Not easily.

"You look good with a baby, Bo-Katan," Pre said, now looking at Bo in the way that used to make her cringe. It still made her uncomfortable, but she could deal with it. "But it would be better if it was my baby."

Bo wanted to throw up. But she couldn't react. Don't react. Don't react. Don't react. He wanted that. Don't react.

He touched her stomach. "I'm surprised I haven't gotten one in you yet."

Ursa made a gagging noise, but for once didn't say anything. It was smart to stay quiet, but of course this was when Bo-Katan messed up.

"Maybe you're firing blanks," Bo spat out, regretting it right away. She was such a fool. Stupid. People were right that she wasn't as smart as Satine. She wasn't smart at all. Pre would be pissed. Sabine was still in here. She could be in danger if Bo didn't watch her mouth.

Pre's face darkened. "What did you say?"

"I… There's probably something wrong with me," Bo-Katan said. Really she was taking something to prevent herself from getting pregnant. She just couldn't have Pre's child. Even though if she had a child, it would love her. It would be the only one who loved Bo.

And Bo wanted love.

But she just couldn't be selfish and let Pre get her pregnant. She couldn't.

Pre grabbed her arm and pulled her toward him. It hurt, but really Pre could do a lot worse. He stared at her, trying to see if she was lying.

"I doubt that," Pre said.

"I don't know, Pre," Bo said. "I really don't know why it hasn't happened. Maybe the timing just hasn't been right."

He kept staring at her.

"It will happen." Bo was amazed her voice didn't break. She really was getting good at acting. She used to think Satine was so good at it, since she seemed so different as the duchess. Now Bo thought she might be even better than her sister.

Satine never had to lie to survive. At least not every day like Bo did.

"I'm sorry," Bo said.

"Oh, it better happen," Pre said.

"It will," Bo said.

"Why are you even here, Vizsla?" Ursa scowled, holding Sabine close to her. Sabine was whimpering, even she knew that something was still terribly wrong.

"I need Bo-Katan to do something for me." Pre let go of her arm and touched her face again. "Something special."

"Okay, what is it?" Bo asked. It didn't really matter. She would have to do it. She always did.

"You need to get something from the guardians," Pre said. "One in particular."

"Fine," Bo said.

"Want to know the one you're going to be stealing from?" Pre asked. His eyes were lit up. This wasn't going to be good. She had a feeling she knew what he was going to say.

"Sure, but it's not relevant," Bo said.

"She can't do that. They'll recognize her instantly," Ursa said.

"That's Bo-Katan's problem, and she can kill him if she has to. I'd like it if she did," he said, smiling.

"Yes, I'll do what I need to."

"So time to tell you who is it. The guardian is Fenn," Pre said.

Yep, there it was. No surprise. He obviously thought this would mess with her. But she would handle it. She could.

"I can do it," Ursa said. "I can do it instead and—"

"No, you're not going to do it. Bo-Katan will," Pre said. "I know you used to have a crush on Fenn Rau and I'm sure he wanted you. Back then you were all sweet and innocent and—"

"I've never been sweet," Bo said. Her mother sure hadn't thought so. But Bo did have some memories of cuddling with Satine when Bo had been really small. She remembered telling Satine how much she loved her and Satine kissing the top of her head and saying that she was the sweetest.

And that she loved her too. That she always would.

"Still, I'm sure he knows you're all mine now," Pre said, bringing her out of her daydream. He gave Ursa an evil look. "Thanks to someone."

Ursa had done something stupid after Bo and Pre first had sex. She had actually gone to Satine and tried to get Satine to take her back. It… Bo had been so angry when she found out about it. It would crush Satine to know that Pre and Bo-Katan were…. whatever they were.

And now she knew.

But that didn't mean the guardians did. Stars, she hoped Fenn didn't know about her and Pre, even though she shouldn't care now. It didn't seem like something Satine would tell people about.

If anything it probably made Satine want to pretend she never had Bo as a sister.

"Yes, all yours." Gross, but she kept a straight face. "And I promise I can handle it. I'll get what you need."

Pre smiled and pulled her close to him. "Of course, you will. You always do, my little Kryze weapon." He kissed her quickly, luckily, he didn't seem to care if she kissed back because he pulled away. "Maybe it's good Ursa told what I've done to you. I want Satine to know she can't even protect her own family. I want her to know what I've done to her little baby sister. I want her to suffer on many levels."

Bo didn't react. She never did.

Bo was a survivor for better or worse.

Often it felt like it was for worse.

((AN:Sorry about this being depressing. It's funny because I wrote a story that is at least supposed to be sweet after. I hope you all liked this story. I already have chapter 2 done and should post it in two or three days, depending if I finish an Omega one first or not.

Thank you all for reading. I appreciate all comments.))