Lisbon, is everything okay? I'm getting worried. Jane spoke really touched, but did not break into the bathroom where his wife put out all the breakfast she had eat so adidly.
- I'm much better now, just wiping my face. Jane heard his wife's muffled voice. Teresa Lisbon was now his wife. It was still wonderfully scary to think of her that way. And to top it off, now they'd have a son. When he found out,on his wedding day, it was like an injection of spirit into his life. It was terrifying to bring another life into the world, but it was also all he needed and didn't even know he needed it. Your wife came out of the bathroom and he admired her. She was beautiful. The belly of almost 37 weeks was vibrant and round. And the weekend was for her to relax and put her work aside. They would return to Austin tomorrow and then from next week the baby would come at the time he understood. - My God, Jane, shouldn't the sickness phase have been in the past? Lisbon said angry. She had some nausea in the first few months of pregnancy, very few. But in recent times very little has been in her stomach. - According to your doctor, the less healthy you eat, the fewer gastric problems you will have. And what did you do? He ate at least six pancakes, which I toldhim. He spoke delicately. - If you and the doctor knew how hungry I was, they wouldn't say that. Nothing is enough. I'm evenhungry. - I figured, so I brought you some apples and some loaves of bread. They're here next to the orangejuice. - That's why I love you, you know?
And Jane saw Lisbon sit and eat with the best mouth in the world, barely looking like the woman who had just vomited breakfast. It was beautiful to see, he recognized it. His pregnant wife, hungry and the most curious of this whole adventure : Teresa, once grumpy and angry, became an emotional, romantic and highly affectionate pregnant woman. He could never have imagined that his angry partner would be the woman who now cried almost every time they made love and who snug on him at all times. And to think that soon they would have a baby in their arms! Even in the face of so many expectations, both had chosen not to know the sex. Lisbon said she wanted to be surprised and Jane said she didn't want to feel more anxious than she already was. And because of his anxiety and her emotion at this point, they were enjoying Allambra. It was a wonderful resort that Jane had tried to take Teresa, but Agent Michele Vega had been hit and unfortunately left, cutting the mood of that moment and bursting the bubble of love that Patrick and Teresa lived in. After that he almost broke himself for fear of losing her, but God knows the patience teresa lisbon has in her and she waited for him. They were also there because Jane had painted the hut where they now lived and he did not want Teresa to be exposed to the smell of paint. Tomorrow morning they would return to Austin and Lisbon would still have this week of work at the FBI before leaving for their maternity leave. Jane had already talked to Cho, even against Teresa's recommendation, so that she would be more on the inside job in recent months. Even with the face of bored and little emotional, the new chief of Lisbon accepted the consideration of Jane and said he understood. And he really smiled at his friend who now didn't work at the FBl, not regularly. - My last week at the FBI before the baby s air. God, I'm really tired of this huge belly. Teresa said far from feeling a bad mood. She and Jane were resting in a hammock overlooking the mountains, away from the noisy guests who cown into the pool in search of recreation lessons. Unlike them, Jane and Lisbon enjoyed the calm of the place and enjoyed these moments to disconnect from the world. - You look beautiful, Teresa. Jane spoke out to really say this, although Lisbon often doubted and believed that he would say those words only to encourage her. - Imagine how beautiful I look, Jane. Almost 10 pounds fatter at that time than it's ever been so much, I can barely see my feet lately, a sensibility that makes me cry in a baseball league finals commercial. And of course, giant twill on the face. She smiled at him.
- In addition to the swollen feet. But I confess that these emotions the flower of the skin and its interesting state awakens my libido, Lisbon. Jane made a joke, but it wastrue. Their sexual activity during pregnancy was something that surprised them both. Despite the fun, Jane was very careful with her wife's belly and had the custom, after they both enjoyed, to strobe her bare belly and talk to the baby. - It gets to be indecent how my hormones behaved towards you in this pregnancy, Jane. Lisbon laughed remembering the initial shyness of telling Jane that her hard-on was growing as their son grew, but strangely this seemed to make her husband even more willing.
Libido was a gracefully resolved issue, Teresa learned to be sincere and direct and realized that Jane reacted instantly to what she said she wanted in bed, with him, at any time. It was another subject that had been worrying Lisbon over and over again.
- We haven t talked seriously about the names. Lisbon spoke delicately, but determined to resolve this matter with her husband, no matter how much it bothered him.
- No. Jane didn't like to talk about names. Lisbon believed that even not knowing the sex of the baby came from this fear that he channeled. Her pregnancy gave Jane a different sense of responsibility, something she never saw in him. Jane struggled to make a makeover of the cabin to turn it into a cozy house, Jane also gave up most cases at the FBI and only sometimes, if Cho insisted, he helped. Only on occasions did he consider anyonea danger toLisbon.
He took care of her as a woman as well, as a pregnant woman. And even if she had fights, Jane tried not to let them extend beyond what was necessary. - Is it still hard for you? Lisbon was direct, she knew the subject was sensitive to him. - Yes, I m sorry.
- What's bothering you about that, Jane?
- The fear of a new life about my responsibility, of course. I have many doubts if I will be a good father.
- Men without half their past have that same question, you know. - I know, I've been through this before. But it's different now, I don't wantto fail, I can't fail again. Jane spoke sober ly and Lisbon felt the seriousness of the statement, but not the weight. Jane gradually came, improving and making peace with her past.
- And what does a name have to do with it? Lisbon resumed the course of the conversation because she did not want to let her husband sink into guilt. He didn't fail before, but it was still a subject that hurt him. - A name is the first act of love from parents to their children. I want it to be perfect, that he, or she, love thename. - Charlote wasn't a good choice? Teresa knew jane told her past to bill her drops. And she understood, talking about Angela and Charlote aroused in Jane feelings difficult to administer. She also knew how difficult it was to relive moments with her parents, it was never so simple. - A beautiful name, I always thought. It was Angela's grandmother'sname, they were circus royalty. They took care of everything's toys in the Midwest. They raised her and she loved them. Her grandmother wanted a great-grandson man, for her,women did not have great powers in the world we lived.
- Was she upset about the tribute?
- No, she loved the tribute. She visited us and enjoyed the great-granddaughter a lot.
Lisbon didn't have to say anything, she saw Jane get emotional and knew he needed to keeptalking.
- She's the one who took me to Sophie's in the Psychiatric Hospital. I screamed and said I'd let her down too. And she could comfort me, stimulate me, saying that I would continue tolive. That I needed to believe. She was the only visitor I ever got at that hospital. She said she had an obligation to rebuild me and that she should dream of having A. to call herson. When I left the hospital, I looked for her, but a heart attack had led her. Lisbon was really moved by the story, but it was firm, because the moment was asking. - You didn't let her down. Youknow, don't you? Teresa spoke for a while.
And Jane, really, didn't know. Revenge was complete, but some sins he knew were still his. And he was decinging to talk about them with his wife, but at times like this, when the fear of choosing a simple name for his baby arose, he knew he needed to put out his anguish. It relieved him and allowed him to be playful at the end of the matter. - Yes, Teresa. But I just want to have a healthy baby in my arms, even if it's called Polygon.
And Lisbon laughed, snutering in it, offering support. Jane talked sometimes about her past, telling some stories, perhaps making up. And Lisbon just listened and wondered how much suffering he had to endure in order to be able to continue living. - Let's not call our baby an ugly butterfly name like that. But he, or she, will have a name to be proud of, I assure you.
And Lisbon touched Jane's hair, stroking and offering comfort. She understood that expectation was more cruel to her husband than to her. All Teresa felt was happiness for a baby of theirs, she did not have in herself the fear of loss, she did not have the experience that Jane lived and marked him. - I'd like to be offering you experience and security right now, Teresa. Don't beafraid. I don't know how you understand and you still holdme. Jane spoke by inversing their position and putting her head on her legs. - But you do, Jane. You support me and protect me. I know you talked to Cho several times, in the cases we were investigating, so I wouldn't be exposed. Besides, I'm the surviving daughter of a widowed father. When my mom left, my dad couldn't move on. Unlike you, he gave himself up and we were greatly penalized forit. I'm very glad you didn't follow the samepath.
- Is that why you took me to the CBl? Jane asked already knowing the answer. That distant day he did not understand why Agent Teresa Lisbon offered him an opportunity for work and revenge, but living with her, knowing her story, he realized that she was afraid that Jane would succumb, like her father. - I think so, I think seeing you there weakened somehow reminded me of my father. Our life would have been so much easier if my father had found someone to help him express his emotions. I couldn't handle it, unfortunately.
- But you did it with your brothers. And with me. God knows what I would have done without your guiding presence, Teresa. You saved me, you know that? - You saved me too, Jane. I would have been a professional in a cast if you hadn't taken me seriously so manytimes.
- Oh, if you where more plastered Bosco wouldn't have resisted. Jane joked remembering the agent killed by Red John's follower. Sam Bosco was in love with Teresa. It was the first time Jane looked at Lisbon with a man's eyes at a woman, checking what Bosco saw in his partner. He didn't let the admiration move on at that time.
- Please, Jane. The man is dead. Lisbon replied, remembering his good friend.
- And died loving you completely. And back then I couldn't steal from anyone. - You didn't like me. Not like this. - I don't know how far that's true, Lisbon. And you like to think I've loved you since I crossed the door of the CBl. But I needed my revenge, I couldn't rebuild myself if I didn't. - I know, I know.
- I know you know. And Jane kissed her, because that's what mattered in their relationship. Both knew that they were survivors of family tragedies, she, in a much more fragile moment, a child who loses his mother and father can not move on. Him, a man who loses his wife and daughter. Both were survivors and believed they would never be able to surrender to a feeling. But life is a beautiful and unpredictable thing also for good, because they both fell in love and were able to allow themselves to be happy.
They should not, at this time of Teresa's pregnancy, venture into sexual games, but it was difficult to resist. And Jane found herself taking her wife to her room, very gently. Teresa let herself be driven because all she wanted was to join her husband, even if the position became more and more complicated for her. But Jane struggled, was creative and didn't mind often just kiss her entirely until she reached orgasm. It was a healthy and fun joke for both of us. And it brought them together more and more. And the subject of the name was suspended once again. -
Teresa's last week of work went by fast. She managed to get the paperwork all forwarded to Cho. And he fulfilled his promise to Jane, not letting her go to the country any time in the last fewdays.
It was only up to Teresa to go to HR to surrender her license, they had already called twice. She took the way from the second floor while via Wilie and Cho reunited and Jane had not yet arrived. He would come to seek her, as he did in recent times, worried that at some point she would feel bad in traffic. - Teresa, my God, that baby's almost there, huh? And how's that beautiful blonde in perfect curls? Lucy, the friendly HR manager spoke by stroking Lisbon's belly. She was one of the most enthusiastic when Teresa handed over the marriage certificate, saying she had caught the most beautiful man in the entire FBI. Lisbon was about to answer her, tell her that Jane was well and happy renovating the house. Teresa recalled that Lucy didn't understand anything when Jane turned her resignation and said she would come to the FBl only as a visitor, although Cho did not allow him to be away for a long time. But before she could say anything, someone called her. - Teresa ?
Lisbon was on her back and when she turned around she was surprised, it was Marcus Pike. He was possibly scared because he took a deep breath when he noticed the size of his ex-girlfriend's belly.
- Hello Marcus.
- Hey, I m sorry. Wow, and didn't know you. Marcus Pike didn't finish the sentence, he was really surprised.
- And soon. Today is my last day here. Lisbon smiled at her ex-boyfriend. - You look beautiful, Teresa. Pike spoke looking at her, almost thrilled. They had a brief, very intense relationship for him. But in a way he always suspected that the woman question me did not belong to him but to his longtime partner. He wouldn't want to admit that seeing her still mess with him and wish he hadn't done the compliment, but he couldn't help himself.
- I think so too. Jane said announcing himself. Perhaps wanting to impose himself, because he saw from afar the admiring look of his wife's ex-boyfriend. And even if he hated to admit it, it still bothered him.
Pike was not embarrassed, but Lisbon felt Jane's jealousy. What was something she would never understand, the jealousy her husband felt about her was something sometimes welcome, sometimes surprising. However, as a good faker she was, Jane disguised her jealousy and had conversations with Lucy and Pike, counting expectations.
The negotiations took half an hour, so Pike said he'd have to go, or he'd miss the flight. He wished for happiness and health and said goodbye. Jane even joked with Lucy, telling her to take advantage because from now on he would only have time for diapers and crying from early morning drinks.
Then he and Teresa returned to say goodbye to their friends, but were surprised to find everyone with diaper packs in their hands, as well as balloons adorning the floor and wishing much health to the younger Jane who would arrive in the world soon. -
- It was very kind of the boys to surprise us. Lisbon spoke later at his house. Her swollen feet rested on the chair while her husband kept the diaper packs they got from friends.
- And your ex-fianc even made a point of attending. Jane spoke wanting to provoke her, not by evil, but it was still difficult to disguise jealousy. Even more so, when Marcus Pike heard about the diaper tea, he ran to the nearest pharmacy and bought a souvenir package, along with a sprup.
- Jane, I m sorry. Lisbon scolded, not falling into the provocation and not understanding how the husband still bothered with a relationship that ended precisely because he declared himself. - Teresa, please, the guy doesn't miss the opportunity to show how cool and perfect he is. Jane responded and approached her wife, wanting to do a foot massage so she would feel more comfortable. He knew that in the last few days it was heavy for Lisbon to carry all the belly, beyond the expectations and fears of both. Lisbon ended up smiling her husband's silly, almost childish phrase. And he willingly accepted the massage he was doing to him now, closing his eyes and enjoying the moment. - Jane, Pike should be jealous of you. But to him it seems quite overcome.
- I'm not jealous of him, it's just precaution. You know, he was a much better guy than me.
- As if that were true.
- It's true, Teresa. Pike wouldn't have half my fears, he'd offer you the support I often fail.
-I never regretted getting off that plane,Jane. - And I never regretted invain it.
It was supposed to be just a tender kiss from good night. Teresa was tired of the day at work and Jane didn't want to pressure her. But it really was very erotic to hear from your wife that all that running and stupidity to break into a plane wasn't in vain. She did not regret choosing him and had to celebrate every moment.
Lisbon deepened the kiss and Jane felt her body react, wanting to forget everything and sink into his wife, loving her without fear. - God, I love you, Teresa. Jane spoke of feeling his wife playing with his penis, encouraging him to move on and not think about anything. - Being a Christian now, Jane? Lisbon joked as she tried to remove her own clothes, but felt her husband help. Time was needed right now at this point. They were both naked in the spacious bed they shared and all they both wanted was in front of each other. - Oh oh. Jane said noting that something was different in his wife's lubrication. He was going to warn you when he heard it.
- Jane, I don't think we're going to be able to goon.
- Yes, you are very wet and ... Jane spoke, but Lisbon interrupted him.
- I feel a very different contraction from the previous ones... And... think it's time... And Jane looked at her partner's sweaty face.
He managed to put on his own outfit in record time and throw over Lisbon a dress wide enough not to have to think about anything else. Awkwardly Jane managed to find the suitcase they had begun to prepare and rushed to Austin Memorial Hospital. -
A few hours later ...
Despite the pain swells of the contractions, Teresa Lisbon seemed happy. Perhaps to contrast with the complete panic that was invading Patrick Jane at that moment. He sweated cold, even if he tried to disguise or use his well-known bravado in the face of situations, trying to lower his heartbeat. Nothing worked and Patrick Jane's tears went down his face, his hands were shaking and he felt palpitations. Still, he didn't let go of his wife's hand. With each decrease in the interval of contractions he breathed counting the time along with her. - It's time, Teresa. Let's make this baby come into the world. Dr. Anderson, the obstetrician who accompanied Lisbon's pregnancy spoke sweet. Happy with the evolution of her client's dilation and aware of her husband's complete despair. Dr. Anderson knew, Lisbon had already told, about Jane's past and how much this moment meant to him. So she had compassion to see the complete despair he seemed to feel at this moment. She asked her helpers to take her patient's stretcher to the delivery room and she gently touched Patrick Jane's shoulder: - It's going to be all right, Patrick. Come on, let's see this baby arrive.
Jane couldn't answer, he just followed the doctor where they took Teresa. The next moments, if Jane and Lisbon could recount, would be intense blurs. Lisbon would possibly remember to push and feel excruciating but unique pain. And then feel a happiness invade when a child's cry reached his ears.
Jane, on the other hand, could only remember to see her wife howl away in pain and sweat a lot when she saw a totally bloody being appear in front of her.
- Congratulations, dads, you're a beautiful boy - 42 cm, 3.9kg.
Jane just didn't faint because some of Dr. Anderson's sidekick held him by the arms and sat him in a chair. Lisbon's tears covered his face and his too.
He had to take a deep breath while the doctor cleaned his son and adjusted his wife.
Only then did he approach Lisbon and felt it when Dr. Anderson put the little baby on her. It was the first time Jane actually looked at the child.
Your son. A beautiful boy who had already stopped crying and seemed to recognize the smell of his tired mother. She cried as she spoke to him, welcoming him, and Jane joined them, touching her son and feeling a shiver as she felt the child's warm body in her hands. The little ribs were warm and he no longer cried, perhaps happy to have his mother caressing and calming the moment. - He's beautiful. That's what Jane was able to tell Lisbon, crying along with her and kissing her sweat-soaked forehead she still had. He hugged Teresa and her son, carefully, only to feel their hearts beating next to theirs. - Charles. Teresa whispered, next to Jane as she felt her son warm in her lap. - How's that? Jane answered him, still astonished at the whole situation. - I want his name to be Charles.
- I do, too. Jane admitted, really trying to say that. He asked Ms. Charlote, little Charlote, his eternally beloved daughter, for a mental permission, so that this Charles could live long and be very happy. That they'd protect him.
And so, Charles Lisbon Jane was baptized, Charlie. The baby who brought joy and stability to the lives of his parents. In addition to responsibilities and all fears and expectations, Charles was loved and safe.
And nothing was more important to your parents.
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* In my fic Flamboyant Red there's more Charlie.