hi everyone! I started writing this a while ago, when Invincible first came out, and Superherotiger and I COULDN'T stop talking about an Irondad AU of THAT scene in episode 8 👀 Title is from the song in the last episode We Are Infinite by The Lighthouse and the Whaler
HUGE FREAKING THANK YOU TO TIGER!💖 She encouraged and supported this AND drew SEVEN amazing pictures depicting the scenes, so please go show her all the love and support in the world, ily gorgeous: her tumblr is SuperHeroTiger!
If you haven't watched Invincible, highly recommended but be warned, for the show AND this fic: TW/ violence, blood, guilt-tripping. there's a huge fight between Tony and Peter using their powers where Tony is pretty ruthless, like Omni Man, but there's a more hopeful ending instead of Omni Man just flying away!
Have fun and stay safe ❤️️ 💛💚💙💜
The Hope Outweighs All My Sorrow
Peter's consciousness drifts in and out. Through his torn mask, he can taste the salt water filling his lungs, but he doesn't have the energy to move. To breathe. To fight. And he's not even sure he has the heart to after it's been ripped out like this. Instead, he feels his body bounce uselessly off the seafloor and float as he feels the blood seep from his split lip.
Then, everything is forced back into motion when an arm wraps around his chest and rapidly wrenches him towards the surface. Under any other circumstances he'd be grateful, if it weren't the same person who just forced him to the bottom of the ocean. As soon as they breach the surface, the dimmed sound of familiar repulsors reach his clogged ears. It's little consolation as they're flown through something with a crash, but he still can't get his muscles to move. If he could just move, fight back and at least get out of his grip one more time, then he could-
Suddenly, he's hurled through the air, limbs flailing and heart pounding through his ears. Panic finally graces him with its presence and he manages to choke in a breath, but it's too little, too late. His ears ring sharply with the brutal, ice-cold impact that slams into his side without remorse. Blood splatters in stark contrast to the pale snow that does nothing to cushion his fall. Helplessness starts to sink in when the snow beneath him invades the broken, metal circuits of his Spider suit.
The exhaustion renders his body worthless as Superior Iron Man, Tony, his dad, lands beside him, rolls him onto his back, and punches his chest so violently that the ground around him cracks. There's no hesitation, only the sound of his suit shattering as his dad's fist collides with the emblem. The deep crimson of his blood blends in with the scarlet fabric, air violently being forced from his lungs as his body jerks before going motionless again. He can't hear much else after that, but feels the mountain rumble when the avalanche blankets him in a harsh, unforgiving cold.
Everything blurs together once he's lifted into the air again by his arm. Blood drips from his lips, his nose, his chest, and he can barely open his swollen eyes to look at the man who raised him. A man he wanted to be proud of him, someone whose footsteps he sought to chase after. His hero. Now, all he's met with is a glare of contempt and an impatient huff.
"Had enough yet?" Tony's question is ruthless, holding Peter up like expendable garbage to be abandoned...or destroyed. However, Peter's resolve never wavers despite the hate in those glowing, electric blue eyes that once brought him comfort.
"I'm not going to take over a company that kills people. I'll stop you," he wheezes out past his bloodied lips. Without so much as a flinch, the frown on Tony's face deepens.
"I'm ready when you are," is all the warning he gets before another punch sends him careening into the adjacent mountainside.
This impact sends a jolt of pain throughout his entire body, nerves alight with fiery agony as they fight in vain to catch up. He lies in the crater, gasping while his chest scrapes against the jagged rocks. His father hovers behind him, silver endo-sym armor still painted in blood from all the people he...
"You're doing this for nothing," Tony berates, beating his point into the ground almost as much as he is Peter. "Being a part of our empire will make Earth better than it ever was." Regardless of his father's efforts to convince him that he's the one in the right, Peter forces his trembling muscles to push himself up. He looks over his shoulder at his dad, blood coating one of his eyes, his vision hazy.
"And what if they resist?" he demands as forcefully as he can in a voice garbled by blood.
"That's why we're here," Tony accentuates as if talking to a toddler, even more anger oozing into his voice. "To keep them from resisting. To show them how wrong they are, how pointless it is...That they can be a part of something bigger." There's a brief pause as he lands with a menacing, metallic clunk. "Or die." Peter's eyes widen minutely. No. No. That's not going to happen, he won't let it. So, he stands on unworthy legs and lifts his shaking fists.
"I won't let you," he grits out. "You'll have to kill me, 'cause I won't just stand by 'n watch." At that, Tony falters. He's witnessed that determined look on Peter's face too many times over seventeen years; when he was resolute on learning to ride a bike, steadfast in playing chess, persistently studying for exams. Yet here Peter is, fists raised and that familiar look pinned on him. Tony's face softens imperceptibly at the sight of his son, clenching his hands so hard the metal groans in his grip.
"I did it for you." With that, his fist rockets towards Peter's face once again, and this time the teen hears the crunch as much as he feels it. That's all it takes for the last of his adrenaline to deteriorate, leaving him like a marionette without its strings as he crumples to the ground in a pained heap. "I raised you too soft. You're a Stark in blood only!" The restraint from earlier is gone as another blow comes crashing towards Peter's face. An eruption of pain engulfs his already battered head, but apparently it's not enough.
"You won't join me? You want to die for these people?"
Punch.
"Fine."
Punch.
"What's seventeen more years?"
Punch.
"I can always start again."
Punch.
"Make another kid." That sentence alone hurts more than any punch his dad could ever give. The thought that he's something so easily replaceable by someone he'd live and die for. In all his years of Spider-Manning, he's never felt such pure, unbridled, indescribable pain. And it's all coming from his dad.
Punch.
" Build another," Tony amends. "One that doesn't talk back or retaliate or-"
"Or love you?" Peter rasps out, eyes completely swollen shut and breathing ragged. His face is so coated in blood that bare skin is hardly visible. Tony's already-wound fist freezes, crazed eyes staring down at the kid...his kid, in pain because of him. The baby boy he raised. And he wonders if it was all actually fake, or if he was lying to himself the whole time, too.
The memory his mind latches onto is a science fair from a decade ago. Of all the times to second-guess his motives, to be nostalgic of all horrible things, it had to be now.
"What are you doing," a voice calls as Tony broods in the corner of the bumbling room. Pepper walks up to him, her heels clacking against the linoleum floor, with a slight frown.
"If I have to sit here and watch this...competition," he says with distaste, "I'd have a better view looking down on them." Only one of them knows he doesn't mean from the air.
"You know you can't do that. It's bad enough you're standing over here like an outcast. Come sit down and wait for the judges," Pepper urges with a soft smile, guiding him towards Peter's table set-up. Their son is standing in front of his science project, grinning with a recently-lost-tooth in his smile and a blazer that's slightly too big for him.
"This is a waste of everyone's time. There's so much more I could be doing in the workshop right now," Tony continues to heatedly complain, but his eyes slightly soften upon seeing how happy Peter is.
"Go stand by your project, Peter! Oh! They're coming!" Pepper cheers when the judges round the corner of the tables. In contrast, Tony's expression hardens again.
"We already know he's smarter, why do we have to prove it?" The exasperation is so all-encompassing in his tone that Pepper sighs.
"Look at Peter," she nods towards their kid. "You and I, we chose him. He's ours. When he feels joy, we feel joy. See that look on his face? How can you see that and not feel the same way? As we get older, it's harder to feel that. The weight of the world, it bogs us down. Nice one, baby!" She pauses to cheer on Peter. "But our children remind us of the joys in life. It brings us back, shows us what life is all about. This is humanity." Tony stares at the bouncing, brown head of curls as Pepper speaks, his feelings bleeding into his now-relaxed posture. The judges hand Peter a ribbon, who then runs full speed at Tony with his arms open.
"Look! I did it!" Peter shouts, jittering in excitement, before leaping into his father's hold.
"Good job!" Pepper praises as she ruffles his hair. The boy laughs, then looks up at Tony with those doe eyes.
"Did you see, Dad? Did you see?" Peter questions with such enthusiasm that his eyes practically sparkle. Tony's smile mirrors his, and pulls his kid to his chest.
"Yeah...I sure did, kiddo." He holds Peter tighter. "I'm so proud of you."
The memory fades and he's left looking at his seventeen-year-old kid...beaten, broken, and all done by his hands. Peter draws in slow breath after breath, air passing through with painful wheezes as blood drips off his chin. Both his chin and the bridge of his nose are split open, his cheek is broken and swelling, and even his teeth are aching from the nonstop blows. Even though he can blearily see past his blood-encrusted eyelids, his dad towers over him with a bloody fist lifted. Tony holds it midair, clenching even harder, but can't bring himself to bring it down again. He just can't.
"Dammit!" he yells in frustration. The weight of what he's done makes him crash to the ground beside Peter. They both lay in the crater, the teen on his back as his chest rattles and his father breathing heavily. The billionaire lets his head drop to the side, watching as Peter's chest barely rises and falls. Then, the rage floods his system. "Why did I do this?" he whispers to himself with a cracked, wavering voice.
He can't let the guilt in, otherwise he knows he'll never be able to go back. There's no room in his life for such things. He's too far gone. Instead, he replaces it with rage, desperately trying to get his son to understand.
"We're so far above their intellect!" he screams, getting to his hands and knees. "Why do you want to help the little guys? What's the point?! What did they ever do for you?!" Despite the anger, he can't manage to open his eyes, let alone look at Peter's face. He screws his eyes shut tighter. "You're fighting so you can watch everyone around you die! Think, Peter!" He points to his head to accentuate his words. "We're gods! You'll outlast all these insignificant beings, watch them crumble to dust and blow away! Everyone and everything you know will be gone!"
Through the yelling, Peter doesn't do more than breathe, albeit barely. He breathes out thin wisps of blood that fly past his lips. There isn't even enough strength to open his eyes, not that he could. Everything aches no matter how little he moves, yet nothing compares to the heartbreak. God, he just wants to sleep.
"What are you going to have when everything else burns away?!" Tony's scream yanks Peter back to the painful awareness of everything and he's forced to consider the question demanded of him. He says the first thing that comes to mind.
"You, Dad..." he answers truthfully, missing the way Tony's expression slowly falls with regret. "I'd still have you..." His father's bloodied hands suddenly retract and the overwhelming warmth, whether it was comforting or ominous, disappears. "...Dad?" Peter chokes out, the thought of Tony leaving after all that utterly unbearable. He's already endured so much. Lost so much.
Tony's eyes widen in a brutal, soul-crushing realization of what he's put his kid through, what he's done with his own hands. The waves of guilt he forced back before now crash over him in a violent tidal wave of anguish. He lifts his trembling hands to stare in abject horror at the red enveloping his hands.
This is his fault.
It's all his fault.
He crashes to his knees as the weight of his sins become too much to bear. Collapsing into the crater next to Peter, he can't help the guilt filling in his eyes and falling down his cheeks. He runs his fingers gently through the sweaty, blood-matted curls of his boy, holding back sobs.
"Oh god, I'm, I'm so fucking sorry, Jesus, fuck." His voice breaks from the thickness of the emotions wrapping around his throat like a vice. Peter tries to speak, hearing the warbled voice of his dad, but any words get lost in the merciless hacking his lungs force him to endure. The hold on him loosens to allow him a deeper breath, even though it does little to help the grinding and shifting of fractured ribs.
"S okay...I, I s-still love you," he barely manages to get out through red-stained teeth. Seeing his son so fragile, in pain from his black eyes to his broken toes, Tony's hate is suddenly directed at himself.
"That makes one of us, kiddo," Tony grinds out with newfound anger. Anger at what he's created as he became someone who would go to such lengths to do this to his own child, and it bubbles over into a rage.
He's given himself enough rope to hang himself.
With his free hand, he wrenches the endo-sym armor from his body. The collar of the suit slowly pries away from him like tar, stubbornly trying to stick to him no matter how much he wants to purge it from existence entirely. Something about the way the suit clings to him for dear life, almost ripping the clothes underneath at the seams, makes him wonder how long he let the suit control him instead of the other way around. With one last final tug, he sends the silver encrusted suit flying with all his strength, as far away from them as he can manage.
Then, he faces what he's wrought.
Tears well in his eyes as his son merely lays in the crater of his own making. Peter makes no move to run or fight back, not anymore, not that he can at this point.
Instead, Tony lays down next to his kid and wraps him in a protective hold as if he wasn't the cause. He tucks Peter's strengthless head under his chin and pulls the teen as close as possible, his own son's blood soaking into his clothes. A tremor-ridden hand lifts and, as gently as he can manage, Tony cups Peter's face. His thumb carefully ghosts over his cheek, almost as if his delicate touch can hold enough regret to take it all back.
It can't.
It never will.
But he can lie to himself and say that it's a start.
I felt SO mean doing this but my gosh it was super fun time doing some hardcore whump both physically and emotionally :') I hope this makes up for my absence!
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