Back to being roommates! The sentence was lodged in Shawn's mind like a bullet. What did that mean?! Was the kiss that terrible?! Did I make a mistake?! It felt like Eric was talking to me. Was he talking to me? Shawn was in crisis and despite his brother talking to him and him looking at Jack speaking, Shawn couldn't process anything that was being said. Finally after an eternity Jack too, declared he was going to his room and Shawn was alone again. His stomach churned though he didn't know if it was from the overwhelming sadness he suddenly felt or whatever ingredient he put in his late night snack.

"What the fuck did I just eat?"

The next morning when he woke up, Shawn had every intention of going to talk to Eric, but the closer he got to Eric's bedroom door the sicker he felt. He needed time to process the evening and he needed Angela's help.

"Shawn this is literally the girls bathroom!" Angela declared as Shawn dragged her inside the 3rd floor bathroom with only 10 minutes to go to home room. Shawn checked the stalls to make sure they were clear. Girls never used this bathroom in the mornings, which considering there wasn't a window and the only light in here was the brightest fluorescent light known to mankind. It cast a horrific shadow on anyone trying to fix whatever fly aways or smudges they may have gotten between home and school.

Of course Angela wouldn't know that because the girl looked like a goddess every moment of the damn day.

"Shawn what's going on, we're going to be late for class."

"I kissed Eric last night." Shawn blurted out. Shawn could see Angela processing this information as quickly as she could, but he had more to say and felt it would be easier to let it all out at once. "I told me that he really was in love with me and has been for years, then he started freaking out about everyone finding out so I kissed him." Shawn said. Angela remained speechless, mouth agape.

"I'm even sure if kissing him was what I meant to do, but I did it. Then I felt his boner underneath his pants, then he asked me to go back to his room, and of course I froze and couldn't respond. Then Jack walked in I made a horrible sandwich. Eric said let's all be roommates and went to bed. Then Jack went to bed and I finished the sandwich because I think I'm the type of person who eats his feelings now." Shawn began rubbing his chest. He was out of breath and felt like his chest was going to explode.

Angela continued to look at Shawn in shock. The first warning bell rang. This seemed to bring her out of her trance. Shawn began to panic. "Angela what do I do?!"

"Shawn we literally can't talk about this right now we have 5 minutes to get to Feeny's." Angela gave Shawn a quick hug and dragged him to class.

The rest of the day went like every other. Cory was moaning about his break up with Topanga, there was a pop quiz in Math in which Shawn didn't recognize any of the problems. Thankfully it was taco Tuesday and Shawn ate 4, then Cory's two. Six tacos in one sitting was an obvious sign on turmoil, but Cory didn't seem to pick on any of it.

Shawn couldn't really fault the guy though, Cory's heart was completely broken. It really hurt Shawn to see his best friend this way. It also made him angry at Topanga for just throwing away her relationship over one stupid kiss. Which then made Shawn even angrier at Eric for making a comment about just being roommates after declaring his love for Shawn.

Was the kiss that bad?! Another question to add to the list. Shawn couldn't take it and couldn't take that he couldn't get a moment alone with Angela to hear her thoughts on his god awful situation.

She had to have come up with some words of wisdom by now.

"Talk to him." Angela's face was expressionless. Her voice was as cool as the fall breeze that was slapping them in the face as they stood outside Chubbies. At first Shawn thought the wind was affecting his hearing.

"What?" He asked. Angela sighed deeply and repeated herself. Shawn just stared back.

"The two of you have been in this weird little dance for years. He glances at you in a weird way you freak out. You compliment his sweater and he stops talking to you for a month. Looking back it all makes sense, why the guy always looks like he wants to stab with a rusty spoon. He was jealous. But now that things are in the open between you it's time to stop worrying about what the other thinks and just have a conversation."

Shawn furrowed his eyebrows. He never really talked to Eric about anything. Other than that time in a moment of overwhelming love for him, he told Eric to stop being a bum. He couldn't imagine having a full blown conversation about his feelings with the guy.

"I can't do that." He declared.

"Shawn, do you think Eric is just sitting at home eating dry cereal from the box, chasing it down with a carton of milk, and watching cartoons or do you think he too is having a meltdown about everything that happened last night?"

Shawn thought for a minute. It wouldn't be unusual for Eric to eat cereal and chase it with milk. But he couldn't wrap his mind around Eric freaking out about anything. All though last night, prior to the kiss it did seem as if Eric was in total panic mode.

"I don't know." He replied.

"Exactly, you don't know because you haven't talked to him. He basically asked you to have sex and you froze on him. And the two of you haven't seen each other since. He's possibly thinking he scared you off."

"Me freezing had nothing to do with him. I mean I've never had sex before so yeah the idea is scary as hell, but I've fantasized about sleeping with Eric since I hit puberty." He confessed. "I freaked out because the moment was so insane I couldn't believe it was real."

"Okay so if, "let's be roommates" was a coded message for you and not reassuring Jack that everything was cool between them, then maybe he was signaling that he was cool with backing off, if you weren't ready."

"But I am ready."

"Then tell him that Shawn! He's never gonna know if you don't."

"Who's never gonna know what?" Cory walked up on the two talking with an eager look in his eyes. Shawn and Angela quickly tried to telepathically send each other a message, but it wasn't working.

"Jack Shawn said. But I couldn't think of anything else.

"Jack got a haircut and Shawn hates it." Angela finished. "You have a brother you know." Cory grimaced.

"No I really don't think about Eric's hair much." In a panic and desperate attempt to move on both Shawn and Angela started nervously laughing. Cory continued to stare.

"Well I have to go." Angela stated but Cory reached for her arm.

"How's Topanga?" He asked. Angela sighed her second sigh in 20 minutes and smiled.

"How are you?" She asked him.

"Terrible." Cory quickly replied. Angela nodded.

"Then you already know." She lightly caressed Cory's cheek and walked off.

The two friends watched as Angela casually walked toward the bus stop.

"I've got to get Topanga back." Cory declared.

"You will, Cory, just give it time. It will happen." Shawn offered.

"Hey what's up with you and Angela?" Cory asked.

"What do you mean?" Shawn replied as they walked down the stairs into the restaurant.

"I don't know, you guys seem off." Cory said. Shawn knew exactly what Cory was talking about. Before he confessed he's homosexuality to Angela he made it a point to be romantically physically with her. Shawn never missed an opportunity for PDA and in fact was often the aggressor. Thinking about it now kind of made him feel shitty.

He really did love Angela but he kind of realized how he had been constantly leading her on for well over a year. Even though she guessed it on her own, Angela must have been devastated to realize her boyfriend was basically using her to prove to others he wasn't gay. Shawn cringed at the thought.

"Well we know you and Topanga are having a hard time so we decided to cool off the PDA for a while." Shawn explained. Cory stopped at the bottom of the staircase and turned to face Shawn.

"Don't ever miss any opportunity to show the person you love, that you love them Shawn. You never know when it can all blow up in your face." Cory said sincerely. Shawn immediately thought about Eric. As the two friends continued into Chubbies Shawn made a promise to himself to talk to Eric.