I always wondered, what if Usagi just had enough? Rei's constant nagging and berating. The lack of help she gets academically. The hurtful comments from her brother and her future daughter. And Mamoru's apparent lack of emotional aid. Luna's painful lectures [how can you be an advisor and be so. . . . violent doing it? That's borderline abuse with those scratches.] All because of who she was in the past. Seriously? The past is Over. Gone. Why does she have to live it when it's not even hers no more?
Disclaimer: I do not own Sailor Moon or anything pertaining to it. I am but a poor and humble wanna be writer with ideas and no outlets.
Sailor Moon: Re-do
A New Beginning
Tired cerulean blue eyes stare tiredly at her vanity mirror. The house quiet except the distant thunder rumbling in the background. Usually she would be scared out of her mind but, she was just so tired, so miserable, life had not been easy, had not been what she had hoped it to be. Gone where her bygone days of laughter and jokes, her innocence, her childhood. Replaced by a burden not even hers to begin with, all because of a past she never asked for. If only she could turn back time. Ignore the kids mistreating a black cat. But what has happened, happened, she could not change it. Nothing is what she hoped it to be. Her world felt so heavy, so lonely. If only, if only she could escape its burdening weights. If only she could be someone else. Free of this life thrown at her feet. Letting out a long and tired breath she did not know she held, she gripped a fist sized crystal in her hands tiredly.
"I can't take it. I just can't take it anymore. I didn't ask for this. I didn't want this life."
Staring at the crystal, she poured her tortured heart out. "Please. I want to be free of this life. I do not want to be Princess Serenity. I can never be like her. I Am not her. I'm just clumsy Usagi. Just, Usagi. Usagi Tsukino. Daughter of Ikuko and Kenji Tsukino. She's not a princess. She's just a normal girl, with normal dreams and wishes. I beg you. Please . . . . free me."
Her heart pained, her spirit broken, a drop of tear fell upon the glistening crystal. And the world flashed for a minuscule minute.
[Elsewhere in the world at the same time, but different dimension]
A woman and man gathered around an elderly woman. A young woman held the old woman's hand tenderly and so dearly.
"Mama. Mama. Please. You can't go yet. I need you."
Tired brown eyes looked at the mirror image of her own eyes. Large and doe-like, a mix of dark and light browns with hints of oranges and gold.
"Oh, my darling girl. I lived a good life. I'm okay with it. I'm ready to go. Mama is tired, and just wants some sleep. I am so happy to have you in my life. So happy to watch you grow and become successful. Who would have known? A nobody like me, a mother to a well-known researcher. You help millions with your research. Hunger is still around, but you helped plants grown in even the harshest of places. To feed the unfortunates of this world. I know you can do it, make a difference in peoples life. . . . Keep doing that my baby girl. Don't ever stop doing your dreams. Let nothing stop you. You. Are. Strong. And I am so very, very proud of you. So, thank you. Thank you for being my daughter. And I your mother." She struggled to breath, it was getting harder to raise her chest to get in a breath.
The daughter cried. Holding to her mother for dear life as if that would keep her with her still. Stuttering between sobs. "I love you mama. You're the greatest ever." She chuckled at their inner joke. "The greatest there ever was."
Barely able to raise her hand, she managed to caress her daughter's cheek. "I love you." Then she looked to the young man behind her little girl. "Take care of her like she's your treasure Andy."
The young man bent down to the older woman's eye level. "Yes ma'am. I promise. I will never let anything happen to her with me around. She'll be safe. This I assure you."
"Good. You're a good boy Andy." A staggering breath. "I pass the candle to you now."
The man shuddered, his chest felt tight, yet honored at the woman's word. "I will keep it aflame." She merely nods her head.
Her eyes heavy, everything felt heavy, and the deep sleepiness over came her. Without knowing any better. "Good night." And her last breath left her body, leaving the young ones crying at her departure.
"Mamaaaa!"
And the world flashed for a minuscule minute.
[Some time later, not on Earth.]
Three different souls meet, face to face, in a place out of a fairy book. The night sky was filled with twinkling stars and the Earth and the sun above them. They were seated on a marbled bench with a view of a beautiful large lake, and a lone Pegasus drinking off at a distance.
Two women oddly familiar to one another, one in a long white dress with twin hair buns and tails that trail to the ground. The other in what seems to be in a sailor uniform, or school uniform with similar hair but with tails that barely reached to her knees. Both were looking at the new person. A person with no real corporal body, just an outline of a humanoid shape that's glowing like an iridescent pearl.
"Oh, I'm. . a ghost? Is this why people say they see white orbs when they take pictures of ghost?" The person with clearly a clearly feminine voice said as she examines her not existent form.
The young woman in a white dressed smile softly at the being. "Sorry about that. The strings of fate are trying to reweave your life it seems. I'm sure your form will appear soon."
The being looked over at the two women, if she had eyes, it would be wide and bulging by now. "Uh, wha – what? Princess Serenity and.. Usagi-chan? Oh my god. I, . . am dead. Wait. I did die. But. What am I.. you are doing here?" Confused at her predicament. She knew she died. But seeing her childhood anime character before her was just. . . well. . . unbelievable. This is something that only happens in the manga or anime. "Your... real, aren't you?"
"I know this is confusing, but I assure you, this is very real." Princess Serenity said.
"What's going on? There's no way both of you can be side by side according to some time thinggie law?"
The princess smiled, and Usagi looked confused till she remembered the time where she saw her future self, something similar was said too. About you can't have two of the same people at the same time in the same place.
"It'll take forever to explain, so, let us hold hands, we can see each other's life and understand it that way."
"Uh. . okay?" The woman being said as she reached her ghost hands out.
Usagi and the princess took her hands, and the moment they connected their hands, their whole life flashed between the three's mind. Their emotions, feelings, regrets and pain, happiness and everything in between. Their entire life story played like a movie in fast forward.
All three were crying at the end as they let go of each other's hand.
The woman being angrily spoke out. "How could they! Such ungrateful ingrates! And that. . that. I'm sorry, but that brat of yours is simply horrendous. I would have given her a good smack to her behind. Let's see if she'll talk like that to her mother again!" She took Usagi in her arms, her motherly instinct kicking in. Hugging her, stroking her hair, and saying soothing words. "Oh Usagi. You poor girl. You did nothing wrong. Absolutely nothing wrong. Your still young, there is no need for you to rush to be adult like. Just be you. Believe in what you think is right and keep on walking. And those friends of yours are wrong. You are your own individual. You do not need to live your past life. Your life is your own to make. Not theirs, not your past, but your own. And that school, ouu, don't get me started on that. What kind of school system doesn't have help for those that lag behind? You should have been helped long ago. Oh how you suffered. Shhh, I'm not saying I know what's going on now. But I think I have an inkling. You gave up didn't you my dear? You want to rid yourself of this life you didn't want. And. . for me to be here." She looks directly at Princess Serenity. "I'm taking the reins, aren't I?"
Serenity nodded, and Usagi cried, "I'm so sorry. I'm so so sorry. I just. . I just can't take it anymore. It hurts so much. I'm so tired of it. So. . sick of it. Their looks, the treatment. I . . I just can't."
The woman being hugged her tightly, and the princess joined in a three-way hug. Letting their feelings do the talking instead of using verbal words.
A loud bell rings the entire air around them, time was being changed and rewritten, the air shifts and realigns itself.
A sudden feeling washes over them, and they knew what the choices had been made. Their time together has come to an end.
Usagi was going to be reborn instead of the woman being.
The woman being was going to take over Usagi's current life.
And the princess will watch and pray over them.
But they knew, they had a feeling, they would meet again. When or how they do not know. But it will happen one day.
Another hug, a promise, and a teary goodbye. They prayed success to each other, and a promise they would meet again. And soon they were ripped apart. Time trying to correct itself by putting them where they belong.
[Back to the Present]
The woman being stared into the mirror. Amazed and in awe. Gone where her brown eyes and salt and pepper hair. She was young again. A blonde in fact with the bluest eyes she's ever seen on a person. She was now Usagi. Usagi Tsukino. And the world better watch out. This Usagi isn't taking crap from anyone.
"Well now me, er Usagi. Time to plan. I've been given a second chance to life, in an anime from my childhood no less. I sort of remember the story line. But oh man, I'm going to miss the technology. Did they have internet for the masses currently? I do remember an IBM computer with a green screen. . . well that answers my question. It really is the 90s."
A smirk crosses her face. "Oh yes. Changes indeed. At least they let me have my memory. Yeah! I'm reliving the 1990s baby! Now where is a notebook and pen."
Luckily for her, the memories to the prior Usagi Tsukino was hers to accesses.
Scribbling on the book in cursive, [a long-lost skill since cell phones appearance] in English so no one can easily understand it. She wrote down her plan, in no chronological order.
1. Improve academically. [p.s. that means can I read and write in Japanese? I pray the almighty powers that be, granted me that important thing called language, reading and writing to fit in.]
2. Improve physically. [I had bad knees growing up so I can't run to save my life. But as Usagi. . .I might be able to run a marathon! Boy can that girl run.]
3. Put the scouts in their place. [I refuse to be someone's verbal punching bag. Thank goodness I have thick skin and a bit**y attitude to go with it if necessary.]
4. Find a way to deal with Sailor Pluto. I have a feeling she will sense something off. [But do I care? No. I'm her fu****g princess now.]
5. Figure out something to do with Chiba Mamoru. [By all context, that man does nothing for me. Either he softens up or open- up. I do not need additional emotional baggage that isn't mine in my life.]
6. Chibi Usa, Chibi Usa. That brat of a future daughter is nothing I want to deal with right now. [She's going back to where she comes from, and that door better be lock, glued, cemented, chained anything to keep her there. FOREVER. She's not my kid yet. Nor do I plan to have an ungrateful child coming out of My body either. Girl has some serious issues, serious issues that need to be dealt with IF I DO have to have that child as my future daughter.]
7. Improve family situation. [This is my life now, my family, I'm going to have to improve the relationships if I'm going to be here until I graduate, or I can live off on my own.]
9. Improvise anything not mention above.
Closing the book shut. "Well, that's all I can think of as of now. First things first. Homework. Start with that and see where I stand in this world. Then I can deal with family. Shouldn't be hard. I dealt with customer service before. I can do this."
Finding Usagi's bag, well her bag now. She takes out the school notebook that acts like a workbook from her time. Scanning through it, her smile widens. "Thank god I have my own memory! And thank you powers that be! I can read Japanese! Oh my god this is awesome! I feel smart for a change!"
Starting with math, then onto science, and the other necessary academic do-ha's Usagi's homework is done in a couple of hours. "I need to start remembering, I AM Usagi now. What's Usagi's is mines. Come on brain. I am Usagi. And Usagi is me. And I am going to be the Greatest Usagi there ever was! Let us pray that I can at least pass a Japanese curriculum. Those Kanji's was giving me a serious headache. Otherwise everything else is the same to my memories." Stuffing her schoolwork in her bag she plops on the bed just staring around. A frown forming on her face. "I love you Usagi. I really do. But. . your room. It needs a makeover. I love pink like any other girls, but this is way too much. Better clean up here if I'm going to live here for the rest of my teenage life. But, first. Food! I'm starving! I've been eating through a tube till I died. I am ready for some serious solid foods again. Now then. According to my memory, Usagi's parents are at some kind of activities of Shingo's, the brat is with her father. I'll just cook what I can with what's in the fridge. Again, thank you powers that be for letting me have my memories. I can cook my own food."
Knowing full well she has a lot of things to worry about. How to plan Usagi's, now Her life now. Her stomach just didn't feel like agreeing with her logic. The loud grumbling and hunger pang was killing her. "Mm, guess. I really am her. Usagi. Is this what she deals with everyday? Meh, I'll figure out the logic to this hunger later. I can't even think when it's gurgling louder then my own voice in my head. Heh, at least I don't have to worry about weight like I used to when I lived my own life. I'm thin! I'm thin, I'm thin and I have a waist!" Gruummbbllleee. "Ohhh. The pain. . . is real . . food."
Finding her way to the kitchen, digging in the fridge and cabinets, assessing where is what, and what is available. "Chicken, garlic, soy sauce, peppercorn, vinegar, rice. Heh, can't be Japanese without rice mhmm. Chicken adobo it is. Oh boy, I can't wait! Food! Solid food! And I got teeth! Real bonafide teeth! No more of that chalky nasty Polident! Whoohoo! Things are starting to look grrreeeeaatt!"
By the time her dinner was done, Usagi's parents, her new parents just came home with Shingo in tow. Luckily, no brat in sight yet, or cat. Where the hell could she be? Her face scrunched up, wondering just how to you greet your new parents? "Uh. . hi? Evening? Konbanwa?" She had just settled herself with her food in front of her in the dinner table.
"Usagi, what's that? Did you. . just cook?" The look of disbelief on the mother's face apparent, the dishes and pots where cleaned, no signs of fire or burnt marks, or smell of smoke anywhere. "And. . what are you eating?"
"Uh. Yeah I cooked. Didn't know if you were going to cook or bring dinner. And it's chicken adobo." Stuffing herself with a spoonful, a gleeful moan of pleasure escapes her lips as her eyes rolled to the back of her head. "This is heaven. Sake really does upgrade things a little. Gotta write that down for later." Another bite, another moan. Not even noticing the looks her family was giving her just now. She continued eating till her plate was empty. "Phew. I think I overdid it." Patting her belly with a big smile on her face, did she finally notice her family still hasn't moved from their spot. "Uh, what?" She looks around, was there something behind her or something. "What is it? Your freaking me out here."
Her little brother was the first to recover. "Who are you and what did you do to my sister?"
Usagi just glared at him with a huff. "If your trying to rile me up, it's not going to work buddy."
If he wasn't making strange faces already from his surprise, he definitely was now. "Uh. ." Shaking his head to get back what ever dignity he had. "I'm going to change." And he ran up the stairs, confusion written all over his face.
"What was that all about?" Usagi just shrugged and took her plate to the sink to wash it. "Um. . Mother? Mom? Mommy? There's left overs if you guys want some." Thinking hard, just exactly how did Usagi called her mother again? Kasan? Kaa-san? Oka-san maybe? Again, she shrugged, not bothering with the little things yet, she was already on overload being reborn as Usagi, the little details can be worked out later. Mom it is. "By the way, I finished my homework, so I'm going to take a bit of walk if you don't mind?" She really needed to get her bearings anyways. She had to physically walk the walk to remember how to get to certain locations so she could at least not look stupid and get lost tomorrow, in her own town.
"O-of course honey. Don't be late." What could she say? Usagi cooking dinner, dinner that smelt so good, and something she's never heard of before. And finished her homework too? Maybe she was dreaming? She pinched herself until a tear formed, and she knew, she was not dreaming. This was real. Usagi did cook. Usagi did her homework? Maybe the gods finally heard her prayers? How long is this miracle going to last?
"Well . . honey. It. . smells delicious. . whose first?" Was the only answer Ikuko got from her husband.
And out the door Usagi went. Leaving a bewildered family at her wake.
"Hahaha, that was hilarious. Such a Kodak moment! Oh, this is just the beginning my family. Just the beginning. Now. If I can do good in school, get a raise in my allowance. The first thing that's going to happen is bye-bye skirts. I know Usagi's a girly girl. But I can't stand it. It's so. . . drafty down there, so naked. My butt feels cold already. I need my pants! Jeans! Tights! Anything that isn't flowy and . . . skirty?" She let out a deep sigh, letting her legs take her to where every it was taking her. "I took all that in good stride. I know I should be panicking or at least freaking out by now. But, I'm still me, the original me. I'm more the que sera sera type. Go with the flow and improvise as I go. I never did like stressing out over every little thing. It's just to tiring just to be stressful all the time. Yeah, just take it one day at a time Usagi! Go me! You got this! You can do it! The world is your oyster! Or something like that!"
Eventually she would find herself in front of the Crown Arcade. Blinking, her memory adjusting, both memories. "Oh. Of course, I'll end up here. Well, HE is kind of cute. I do love me some green-eyed men. Heh heh." Luckily there was some change in her pockets, hopefully enough for a milk-shake. It's been years since her last one. And that was when she and her daughter, in the other world, was watching 'Gone with the Wind' Crying over how Rhett Buttler remarried someone that isn't up to par as Scarlet O'Hare.
"Does that make Ashley, Motoki and Rhett, Mamoru? Nah, Mamoru can Never stand besides Rhett. No way, no how. Rhett is a man, a man of all mans. Manipulative yeah, smart yeah, seductive, handsome, brave, bold, strong, oh hell yes. I do not mind being in his arm in classic Rhett and Scarlet scenario. And as for Motoki, no either. Ashley is weak, undetermined, a fuzzy wuzzy. Motoki isn't any of those. But still, I love that movie. A strong woman. Manipulative and crazy woman, but strong none the less. Does that movie exist here?! I am so gonna cry if it doesn't? That's my go to rainy day I'm sad movie!" Finally going inside the arcade, shivering in the cold air blasting.
"Ah Usagi chan! Konbanwa! This is the first time I see you at nights." Motoki answered in his classic happy self.
"Just talking a walk and somehow ended up here. The chocolatiest chocolate milkshake please. Oh wait." Taking out her change in her pocket, "Is this even enough?"
"No worries. I'm about to close soon, there's some left overs I can fix up. You can help me by getting rid of it, eh?"
"Well, if you say it like that. Don't mind if I do. Thank you, Motoki san." Frowing as she look at the silver coins, 'Yen. Yet another thing to learn. Japanese currency. Is it a lot, or less? What is it's worth? This is priority! Note to self."
Motoki look at her for a moment, shook his head and went to work. She said Motoki, not her usual Motoki onii-san or Toki niisan.
Usagi clicked her tongue at her apparent mistake. Hey! It's been a long time since she watched this anime. And SHE was an old lady at first. Memories a bit wonky. I have a few screws that needs to be re-tightened. Finding her a seat at the front booth she contemplated for a bit. So far so good. Her memories and Usagi's memories were blending in nicely. A few rough patches here and there, but she can handle it. A cellphone GPS would work wonders by now. But that is something still far in her future. The conveniences of technology were ages away. Luckily for her, reliving her 90s life wasn't that bad. Jeans and turtlenecks. High top shoes. Flannels. Big hoop earrings and chokers. I wonder if I can get a hold of some Jordache jeans? Ah, those were the days. I am going to have fun reliving the 90s. I just hope Hip Hop is still Hip Hop like in my world. Or I am not going to be one happy bunny.
"Here's your shake Usagi-chan."
"Thank you Motoki. . o. . onii-san." Ohh gods how embarrassing!
He smiled brightly, thinking she's back from where ever she was. "Your welcome."
Sipping the deliciousness that is chocolate milkshake did dread unsettle her stomach. The shrilly voice of a certain pink haired rabbit pained her ears. How did she know her voice? Who cares, how could anyone live with that noise? Like nails on chalkboard kind of pain? A mantra of be nice, be nice, be nice singing like a broken record in her mind, she continues sipping her drink.
And of course, the cursed midget just had to open her cursed mouth. "Oh, it's Usagi baka! What are you doing here at night? Heh, bet you got in trouble again!" The pink haired curse started laughing away annoyingly with that high-pitched voice of hers.
Usagi continue to ignore the girl, and the possibly, maybe, future husband of Usagi's. Her mind fixated at the many kinds of ruination of the girl's future playing in her mind kept her from throttling the cursed midget. Currently her mind had taken quite a dark path, a magician's case with her stabbing it with many kinds of sharp object and to lo and behold. She's gone! Hopefully forever! Of course, things don't really happen this way in real life. But one can dream. And dreaming was what she was good at. Next!
It wasn't till a painful yank startled her from her musings. The cursed midget was laughing still as she tugged at her long golden locks. A stare that could silence angels glared angrily at the cursed midget. Not a word spoken yet.
Chibi Usa gulp for a moment. Her heart racing, and a fear she's never experienced growing inside of her. Usagi never looked at her that darkly before. And the silence was painful. She grabbed Usagi's hair again to yank it to get a reaction out of her, but she didn't have a chance, because now she was dangling above the ground with a growling Usagi above her. Her arms above her head as Usagi held her there, the glare still held in her eyes was even more furious then before.
Usagi glared at Mamoru who allowed this to happen in the first place. What in the world is wrong with him? Does he not know it's not nice to yank people's hair like that in public?! He's a future father for goodness sake, he should have stopped her and disciplined her, but here he is, just standing there stupidly. Then her eyes returned to the pink haired curse. "If you ever. Ever. Do that again. Don't think I'll just take it with a smile on my face. A bad girl deserves to be punished. Be prepared. You had this coming." Again, she glared at Mamoru's lack of anything. She muttered, "Useless." Then before anyone knew what was coming, the child was flipped over her legs her behind in the air and three loud whacks can be heard before she was dumped in the dumbfounded man's arms. "If you can't discipline her properly, get yourself neutered before you bare a menace to society." With one last sip of her drink, she was out the door.
It would take Chibi Usa awhile to comprehend what had just happened to her. Before hell broke loose. And a flustered Mamoru trying to calm her down.
Smiling broadly as she manages to find her way back home. "Victory 1 for Usagi. Chibi Usa 0. I know it's not nice, but da*n! That felt good. I never did like her in the anime. And I can see now, I am not going to like her now. Now, how does one call for Pluto?"
"You called your highness?"
"Ahhh!" Grasping her chest she turned slowly to see the dark haired sailor with a very large key in her hand.
I did my best. And before anyone screams ABUSE. Back then, a spank to your butt is normal for misbehaving children. I will not speak about children of this era. It's to depressing to talk about. Humanity has fallen greatly. And common sense went out the window.
Don't worry about former Usagi. She will be there, eventually, but different. Fufufu.
And as for Chibi Usa. As far as the story goes, she's probably none existent. Or Mamoru is going to have to prove himself a M-A-N before Usagi will even consider him worthy of being her boyfriend at all.
As for the cat. Decisions decisions. The scouts? The change is going to shock them out of their cerebral cortex.
Oh, the mayhem that I could bring makes me hackle over the keyboard.
In the name of the moon! Treat others as you want to be treated! Good-night folks!