Brown guilty eyes and little white lies
Yeah, I played dumb but I always knew
She watched him look at Rachel when he thought she wasn't looking. When he turned back to her, she looked away pretending she'd been watching the performance the whole time.
That you'd talk to her, maybe did even worse
I kept quiet so I could keep you
She knew that they were messaging. She'd seen it on his phone. Rachel's name would pop up and he'd quickly hide it. He didn't want her knowing. And that convinced her it was more than the friendship he claimed it was.
And ain't it funny
They'd split in New York and then quietly gotten back together, keeping it to themselves and even Rachel wouldn't have known unless he told her and she was pretty sure he hadn't.
How you ran to her
The second that we called it quits?
And then when they'd broken up Rachel and Sam had become Samchel and she was forced to watch them date and pretend to be happy. For Rachel's sake.
And ain't it funny
How you said you were friends?
Now it sure as hell don't look like it
She'd barely heard anything from him despite agreeing to be friends. She'd reached out more than once and got nothing back. He was avoiding her and frankly she was beginning to avoid him.
You betrayed me
And I know that you'll never feel sorry
And even though no one else knew she felt betrayed by the fact he'd moved on.
For the way I hurt, yeah
You'd talk to her
When we were together
She'd held him together those weeks when he'd told her he was struggling. She'd ignored the fact he seemed to be cheating because messages weren't cheating and Sam and Rachel were just friends.
Loved you at your worst
But that didn't matter
She had dealt with mood swings and drinking and Sam at his lowest. He'd done the same for her and now it was all over. Just like that as if she didn't know his secrets as if he didn't know hers.
It took you two weeks
To go off and date her
Two weeks after they'd split he and Rachel began dating. Two weeks. She was so unimportant to him that he didn't even need time to grieve the relationship.
Guess you didn't cheat
But you're still a traitor
And even though he hadn't cheated she never wanted to see his face again. He was a traitor. The man who'd discarded their relationship in favour of someone else. The man who almost cheated but not quite. How could she justify being mad at him? How could she not?
Now you bring her around
Just to shut me down
Show her off like she's a new trophy
And they were joined at the hip. Inseparable. It hurt seeing them together. Especially because she couldn't fault Rachel. Rachel had done nothing wrong. It was all on him. And so she continued to plaster on a smile and pretend she was totally fine.
And I know if you were true
There's no damn way that you
Could fall in love with somebody that quickly
Either she wasn't important to Sam or Sam had become emotionally attached to Rachel before they'd split. Either of those prospects hurt, but the latter felt so much worse.
Ain't it funny
All the twisted games
All the questions you used to avoid?
"Is there something going on?" She'd ask him. He'd deny it, telling her she was just paranoid. "I just want the truth." She'd tell him. He'd say there was no truth to tell her. She'd end up with tears in her eyes and he would promise they were just friends.
Ain't it funny?
Remember I brought her up
And you told me I was paranoid
"Please." She'd begged. "Just tell me if you like her?"
Sam had sighed. "Of course I like her, she's my friend. But only my friend, Cedes' nothing more. Nothing less. You don't need to worry."
You betrayed me
And I know that you'll never feel sorry
For the way I hurt, yeah
And now she was watching them perform a love song and stare into each others eyes. It made her feel sick. She wanted Rachel to be happy, of course she did, but Sam had made her promises. Promises he obviously didn't have any intention of keeping.
You'd talk to her
When we were together
Loved you at your worst
But that didn't matter
She would take a deep breath in when she saw Rachel's name appeared on his screen. She would ignore it. Swallow the lump. Because Sam would never cheat on her. He was Sam afterall.
It took you two weeks
To go off and date her
When Rachel had approached her about Sam she'd said go for it. What else could she say? Rachel was her friend. Someone she loved and Rachel didn't seem to know about them getting back together. Rachel deserved to be happy and Mercedes wasn't going to stand in the way.
Guess you didn't cheat
But you're still a traitor
And yet she still felt like he'd cheated on her. Because how could he move on so fast? How could he not have been involved with Rachel while they were still dating?
God, I wish that you had thought this through
Before I went and fell in love with you
(Ah-ah-ah)
The thing is she loved him. Even though he'd kind of cheated on her. He was Sam. Her first real boyfriend, her first love, the first guy who she'd dreamed about spending her life with. He was everything to her and she was clearly nothing to him.
When she's sleeping in the bed we made
Don't you dare forget about the way
And he'd admitted that she'd helped him learn what a healthy relationship looked like. That she'd taught him about being a boyfriend.
You betrayed me
'Cause I know that you'll never feel sorry
For the way I hurt, yeah
And Sam hadn't even come to her. He hadn't even tried to be apologetic. She'd found out though Rachel and at that point there was nothing she could do either way. So she'd told Rachel to go for it.
You'd talk to her
When we were together
And now she looked at him not as Sam, but as the person she completely resented. The person who had hurt her in a way that could never be undone.
You gave me your word
But that didn't matter
He was the man who broke his promises to her. That lied. That made her feel like crap.
It took you two weeks
To go off and date her
The man who moved on so fast that it said everything about how much he cared about her and their relationship. And clearly he didn't care much.
Guess you didn't cheat
But you're still
You're still a traitor (ah-ah-ah)
Yeah, you're still a traitor
He was the one who betrayed her and twisted the knife in deeper. He was nothing more than a traitor.
Ooh-ooh-ooh
God, I wish that you had thought this through
Before I went and fell in love with you
Olivia Rodriguez - Traitor
Hey, I've not been here for so long, but I am back to writing and have a few one shots to publish over today, as always let me know what you think.