TW: This is an AU type story that plays into Kitty's Sexual Assult so please feel free to skip if you find Sexual
"And I'd give up forever to touch you,
Cause I know that you feel me somehow."
She took his hand quietly, tears glistening in her eyes as she led him onto the dance floor, knowing full well this would be the last dance they'd have together possible forever.
"You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be,"
She made sure breathe his scent in. It was intoxicating. Always was, always had been. It was her heaven. He was her heaven.
"And I don't want to go home right now."
She knew before long she'd have to go and it was the last thing she wanted as he rested his chin on her head and pulled her closer.
"And all I can taste is this moment,
And all I can breathe is your life,"
And he leaned down for a kiss which she returned, tears now streaming because this was it. Tomorrow she would be gone. Forced away. And there was nothing she could do about it.
"And sooner or later it's over,
I just don't want to miss you tonight."
"If I could I'd stop them." He informed her, as they continued to dance. She nodded because she knew he would, but the best she could do was negotiate prom night and then she promised she'd go quietly.
"And I don't want the world to see me,
Cause I don't think that they'd understand."
And it pained her that honesty with her parents had cost her so much. She revealed a sexual assult to them and they had informed her she was a compulsive liar. When she'd insisted it was true they'd found a facility for her. Sort of a teenage rehab.
"When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am."
She'd heard horrible things about it, but there was nothing she could do. She had tried to run, but Ryder's well meaning mom had called hers to ensure her she was safe and there was nothing Kitty could do after that. Her parents had insisted on following her. Ensuring that she couldn't escape.
"And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming,"
She was sobbing now. Fully sobbing as she tried to enjoy these last moments and she knew her glee club friends were watching their faces etched with sorrow.
"Or the moment of the truth in your lies.
When everything feels like the movies,
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive."
This didn't feel like it was happening to her. It felt like it was happening to someone else. Because this couldn't be reality. It just couldn't.
"And I don't want the world to seeme,
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand."
And no matter who she tried to talk too, no matter how hard she tried she could only make one person understand the depth of her feelings. Ryder. Ryder who she was about to be torn away from.
"When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am."
And he knew it all. How it felt. How it had shaped her. How much it hurt having her parents accusing her of lying. How much she wanted to feel normal.
"And I don't want the world to see me,
Cause I don't think that they'd understand."
She kept her head on his shoulder as they continued to dance and she knew he was hurting as much as she was. And in the strangest way that brought her a little comfort.
"When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am."
"I believe you." He whispered, it was the phrase he'd reassured her with hundreds of times. Her friends didn't know. She'd only told Ryder and her parents and the latter had gone so wrong she swore never to tell again. Having him believe her was a huge comfort to her.
"And I don't want the world to see me,
Cause I don't think that they'd understand."
"I love you." He whispered into her hair as they continued to dance. "And I'm so proud of you for your honesty." He added. "And I'm sorry it's come to this." He added. And she gulped back tears. "I'm sorry I encouraged you to tell."
"When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am."
"I love you too." She spoke through tears looking up at him. "And this isn't anyone's fault but my parents. They could have chosen to belive me, but they didn't." Her sobs intensified as she spoke those words. "They could have cared enough." And he pulled her in closer because what else could he do?
"I just want you to know who I am."
She soaked up those last few moments, gulping back tears as the song wound down.
"I just want you to know who I am."
She took the opportunity for one last kiss. Griping his shirt and taking in that smell. That familiar and wonderful Ryder Lynn smell.
"I just want you to know who I am."
And as the chords came to an end, she leaned in one last time before walking away with teary eyes.
Goo Goo Dolls - Iris