I couldn't sleep. It's been two hours of tossing and turning, if anything I've just gotten farther away from sleep. The words I've said to Bash haunted me.
It was a mistake.
All his life people have to Bash he was a mistake, and now I'm no better. My chest tightened as I remembered the pained look on his face as I spoke those dreadful words. Disgust engulfed me, how could I be so heartless? Bash has never been anything but kind and generous to me. Our kiss was sweet and gentle, just like him.
Sighing, I threw the covers off of me and sat up. I need to make this right. I stepped into my slippers and than made my way out of my door. The gaurd posted outside my door was shocked to see me, but than again it was after midnight. He opened his mouth to speak but I stopped him.
"I'm just going to get a glass of milk to help me sleep." I gave him a small, innocent smile but he still locked skeptical. He reluctantly nodded before bowing to me. I walked silently down the hall and into the next, the one where Bash's room is. Luckily, Bash didn't have a gaurd outside his room, so I just walked in. I didn't think about the consequences if I was caught in here, I didn't care at this moment.
"Sebastian." I whispered and slowly walked further into the room. A small candle was burning on the table beside his bead, giving him light to read the book in his hands. He lounged on the bed, above his blankets, with his back propt against the headboard. When he heard my voice his head snapped up and I saw his surprised face.
"Mary? Is everything all right?" Concern laced his voice, he closed the book and set it upon the bedside table. I nodded and walked closer to his bed. He must've noticed my growing amount of nerves because he shifted to the side and made room for me to sit down. Even after what I said he still looked after me. I took my seat next to him, he looked at me expectingly with an amused smirk on his mouth.
"I'm sorry." I say in a small voice. Sebastian's face grew cold and hard.
"You all ready said that." I shook my head and took his hand, which was rough from the caulouses of his past adventures.
"No, not about the kiss, about what I said. It wasn't a mistake, I never should've said that, I feel horrible!" There was note of urgency in my voice, as if Sebastian knowing how I felt was the most important thing in the world. His hand tightened around mine and his other reached up to cup my face. His blue eyes cut through me like a razor, they filled with understanding and adoration.
"No, you're right. I was out if line to kiss you, you deserved better." Sebastian's voice filled with emotion, his eyes fierce.
"I want you to know I don't regret it," I gaze up at him, my voice was just above a whisper, but he was so close that he heard it anyway. "Actually, I find that I quite enjoyed it." I smile shyly and Sebastian chuckled, his smirk back in full force.
"I aime to please, my lady." He pulled our joined hands up to his lips, he paused for a second and gazed up at me with hooded eyes. My breath hitched and my pulse sped up. I swear, time slowed as his lips descended upon my hand. My skin was ablaze with fire as his lips pressed down on my hand. He held the back of my hand against his lips for what felt like minutes, I could tell he was savouring it, just like I am.
I took my other hand and grazed it down his cheek. His eyes are magnetic, I couldn't look away, not even if I wanted to. Bash's breath caught in his throat. He swore silently.
"If you're not careful, we may do something you actually will regret." His voice was rough and smooth at the same time. I heard his words, but in this moment they didn't make sense, how could anything with this man be a mistake?
I slowly brought my lips to his. The sensation was all too much. Everything was amplified, his smell, his touch; it was overwhelming. My nerves were in full force, but I ignored them, I ignored everything that wasn't Sebastian. There was something about this kiss, it was gentle, yet more urgent than before. His hands slipped across my night dress, I hadn't realized it was sleeveless until now, and down to the curve of my hips. My arms found there way behind his neck, pressing us closer together. A sudden burst of confidence spawned through me and I got the courage to sit up and straddle him. A growl escaped his chest and I felt it all through my body. I knew exactly what to do, exactly what Bash wants me to do, I acted on instinct. Sebastian's hold on me tighten and he flipped us over so I was on my back. I gasped as he kissed down my neck, playfully nibbling on my pulse point. He used his nose to trace a line on my chest, right where the edge of my night dress met skin. Something hard pressed against my thigh, it took me a moment before realizing what it was.
"Sebastian," I start in a breathy voice. "I-I think that we should slow down." Sebastian chuckled at my reluctance but nodded anyway, respecting my wishes.
"I must say, this was a most favorable turn of events," A smile, not a smirk, grace his face and I was taken aback by the loving tone. A blush overtook my face and I dug my face in the crook of his neck. His intoxicating scent filled my lungs. "You shouldn't be embarrassed. I can assure you, it was most enjoyable." Bash teased and I giggled. Pure bliss, that must be what this feeling is. Sebastian wrapped his arms around me and pulled the covers over us. We talked for hours, I don't remember anything we talked about, but I remember laughing and feeling completely whole. That tiny missing peice inside of me was finally filled. I've never slept better than that night, in the arms of somebody who loves me.

Authors Note
Hello! I hope you all liked the first chapter of this story and will review, hint hint(; I'm almost done with the second chapter of my other story which all of you should go read, like right now! :P I also hope all of you are having a good weekend!
-Caitlin