Chapter 1: Origin

"He's alive! He's alive! He's alive!"

Those were the words that the man who saved me kept repeatedly saying. He's holding me tightly in his arms like he was afraid I would slip away if he ever let go, at the state I'm in, I'm inclined that it may actually happen.

Surrounded by flames so burning hot that even my sweat would evaporate within seconds, my legs long gave up after trying to walk away from this hell, my body won't respond to what I think due to sheer exhaustion, I've just been lying here in the smoldering ground waiting to die but then this man came and saved me from this god forsaken hellscape.

Why? Why did I get saved? Why? Why did you save me? There were others who worth more saving than me! There was a mother and her child in that hell! There were a bunch of families I walked away from! Siblings, friends, neighbors, heck even a dog would have been worth saving than me, so why….
why out of all those people, why did I get saved? I, who covered my ears trying to pretend I didn't hear their cries for help or the curses they spat to me for not trying not to help them, I, who only kept looking forward ignoring the desperate faces around me, trying to reach for my hand as a sign of needing help.
why… why… why why why WHY WHY WHY WH-

"Thank you, thank you for staying alive"

ah.

thankful? He was thankful that I stayed alive? And that smile he has while he's thanking me… It's filled with so much happiness that I think I might get blinded by his smile, how? How was he able to smile like that?

'I want to smile like that too.'

Those were the last thoughts I had before losing conciousness.

? PoV

I can't believe it, there was someone still alive! I nearly gave up hope of ever finding someone still living in this literal hell on earth…. The hell that I unintentionally created after hunting down that maniac priest.
I knew he had a dead man's switch, he's the sort of person I know would have one, he was taunting me to kill him, I was confident that I could prevent or at the very least escape the damage he would do to me but what I didn't expect was that his dead man's switch wasn't meant for me, it was meant for the hundreds of lives living in Fuyuki City but it was already too late, the moment my bullet made contact on his head was also the moment I heard a large explosion in the middle of Fuyuki city, my trigger finger became the downfall of many innocent lives and that damn priest just kept laughing until he died.
I shot his head six times. Three on the head and three on the heart.

after that ordeal, I ran to the affected area of the city hoping that there were still people that can be saved but everywhere I looked, only dead bodies were around or I was too late to save them. This kept repeating over and over, me running around trying to find someone, anyone who is still alive and can be saved and only find a corpse or soon-to-be-corpse, it kept breaking my heart over and over, soon I was at my breaking point and was about to give up but then I saw this boy, his hand reaching out for something, his body littered with injuries, legs and arms bruised due to extreme exhaustion, burn marks all over his body, all these injuries yet he's still alive.

and that was it.

He's alive! he's alive! I managed to save at least one life after making the biggest blunder of my career. I kept thanking the boy that he was alive. I knew that if I hadn't found even a single life in this place that I would break completely.

after calming down and composing myself, there was another thought that came to my mind, this boy needs a hospital, his injuries may turn fatal if not treated soon so I quickly but gently carried the boy and rushed to the nearest hospital.
after delivering the boy to the doctors of the hospital, I sat at the waiting area with only one thought in mind

'please stay alive.'

those words kept looping in my mind, hoping the life I saved stay alive and as if someone heard my pleas, a nurse came and informed me that the boy is stable. Hearing those words, I released the breath I didn't realize I was holding and almost shed tears of joy until the nurse informed me of another problem regarding the boy.

the boy lost his memories, everything except his name: Shiro.

that information made me bite my lip in frustration drawing blood. I did this to him, the boy lost almost everything, his family, home, friends, neighbors, memories, everything except his name…
it gave me no end of a heartache. I… I have to fix this, I'm responsible to what happened to this boy so I must make this right.

Preview:

"Hello Shiro, I'm…."

"I'll give you a ….."

"I am a …."

Hi! Hello! and welcome!
to my very first fanfic.

the story of why I made this fanfic is that I was really frustrated that no one has yet thought of a FSN x Nisekoi fanfic where Shirou is involved more with the Fujimura Yakuza group and get to know the Nisekoi cast.

forgive my english if you all noticed some grammatical errors, I might ask someone to Beta my writings but I have trust issues so... yeah...

some answers to what I might think you will all ask:

in this FSN crossover magecraft doesn't exist.

NO I will not make Shirou get a harem, too troublesome to handle for a beginner like me.

also NO, I will not be telling who Shirou will get paired up with, you'll just have to guess later on the story.

Don't rely on me updating this on a regular basis, I get writer's block easily, have short attention span, have a life to live and frankly, I'm a lazy good-for-nothing scum.

If I ever drop this fanfic, then I will give it for adoption.

thank you for reading and have a good day!