AUTHER'S NOTE
2015 CGI Series Cartoon Universe of ALVINNN and the chipmunks.
This story will be very different and the first chapter will be very dark to read, but the rest of it will be better and much, much lighter. Because of the nature of the story, I will have to post it as a M rating story. If you don't like it, then don't read it. Alvin and Theodore, Brittany and Eleanor will be bisexual to each other later, but that's latter when they want to have kids.
I have to give thanks to:
TheNaturalLlama3, beta and co-writer
chapter ONE
-Flash back-
"W...w-what d...d-did I..I..I do to d...d-deserve... P...p-please s...s-stop…" Alvin began crying. "Theo, p-please d...d-don't d...d-do t...t-this to mmee" Alvin stammered, fearfully crying.
"Bend over NOW cry baby! I'm doing this because of what you put me and Simon through the past years..."
"Y...y-your h...h-hurting mmmm…!"
"I don't care ALVIN!"
"P...p-please d...d-on't m...m-make m-me do m-m-more of t...t-his... I, I beg y...y-you..." Alvin pleaded with bawling his eyes out after his pleas fell on deaf ears.
"The great Alvin Seville is nothing but a stupid...lying...worthless...cry baby! Now shut up and give me more of what I want! Or else I will do what I have told you!"
-Flashback Ends-
My eyes snapped open as I shot out of bed. I was panting heavily as sweat dripped down my body. It had all been a bad dream. Again. Just another damn nightmare. I was sitting at four A.M. in the morning because of the same nightmare that I keep getting over, and over, and over again. The same damn one that keeps repeating itself and I know why I was getting it. I had forced my big brother to mingle and have sex with me. I was dominant over him. I forced my brother to... to be mated for life, but it's all wrong. We're forced mates and I don't want it that way. I now realized the magnitude of the pain, the suffering, the humiliation that I had inflicted on that day. I hurt my big brother and I forcible violation on him and I should go to hell for it. I forced him to have sex with me that night, again, and again, and again, and again. For three or four hours straight!
Me and Alvin have been sharing our room together for more than four years and it had been great. Some say it looks like Christmas all year long because of the red and green colors that we like. We we're no longer tried in the morning and we both woke up before the alarm even went off! No more arguments in the middle of the night or being woken up by our bespectacled brother because he wanted to read a book or work on his stuff. We do sometimes wake each other up to talk, play or even to have a midnight snack and both of us convinced Dave its better this way. But for who? Me or Alvin?
And because of my mistake, I can't get his scared crying look of pain out of my mind now. To make matters worse, Dave forced Alvin to quite all of his sports activities. And now, he has to come straight home all because of him getting F's in school. He used to get C's before with Simon's help but Simon quit helping him for an unknown reason. My big brother isn't allowed to play afterschool anymore and when Alvin comes home, he has to go straight to our bedroom and stay there until called. I broke my brother and it's all my fault that he's a mess right now.
As l look over at him sleeping in his own bed, I can see he's having the same nightmare of what we did a few weeks ago. I could bet that much. I see him shake and cry in his sleep. I swear he's mumbling 'please Theodore stop' in his sleep sometimes. He says he's fine, but I know better. I scared him to his breaking point and I sorta remember some of what I had said. I told him he has to be my boyfriend and be my mate for life. Make love to me and have closeness. I understand now that's not real love. But I can't help it because I still love him as mate and I want nothing more than to make my mate happy. I even have noticed Eleanor and Brittany having problems, almost like the same problem that I have with my oldest brother. I have to find a way to fix things and make it better, even if it means that I have to let him go and be the high-spirited free birdie that he has always been, and with me out in the picture.
"Oh Alviena..." I spoke in a quiet voice, looking down at my brother. "I'm so, soo sorry for what I did to you on that day. I know there's nothing in the world that can change what I did to you. Or anything to make it right again." I thought about why I did something so cruel to my brother. I of everyone. 'I guess we all have our breaking points and I found mine that day. I can't fully remember what got to me that day or even why.' I sighed and mumbled to myself "Since I'm up now, I might as well do the paper route and get it done."
Although it was a bit too early to do the paper route, I still decided it was best just to do it myself. I've been doing it for the last few weeks myself because Alvin can't. That and because I've been letting him sleep. After all I owe him too much. I looked at the clock and saw it was still early. In fact it was so early that the sun hasn't even come up yet! But I figured it might help me get back to sleep afterwards. As I got up, I gave my brother a kiss on one of his soft cute little fuzzy cheeks, missing one of the wirers for his Orthodontic headgear that's for his braces at night. One that keep his smile straight.
Unfortunately I have the same rare tooth disease as my brother so I know the process that goes with having braces. I got lucky when learning because I had a good teacher that was always around to teach me. He showed me the ropes and different techniques on how to eat food better. My brother has had his braces for the last six years now. Now that I think about it, I can't even remember ever seeing him smile without showing his braces. Sure we have lots and lots of pictures of all six of us together at some point, but there aren't very many pictures of him that I know of, of him smiling without braces. All while growing up, Alvin never did smile with showing his teeth, he only smiled with a smile. Then after a two to three months of getting his braces, he then started to smile with showing his teeth all the time. I guess he was proud because he then had a nice beautiful smile with all of his teeth straight.
To Dave's surprise and the rest of us, Alvin never ever complained about having to get them or keep them. Alvin likes his braces and he doesn't mind having them. After removing my headgear, I went downstairs in my PJ's as quietly as I could, so I didn't disturb anyone. That's when I heard Eleanor talking to herself outside on the porch while crying. As I got closer to the front door, I could hear her better. I heard her say, "I should've never done that to my big sister! What I did was horrible and beyond and I..."
"Eleanor?" I spoke in a caring voice.
"Theodore what are you..." She had stopped and quickly wiped her face with her sleeve. My guess is so I couldn't see that she had been crying.
"Eleanor are you all right? Cuz you sound a little..."
"Theodore please I... I had a bad dream is all." I suspect the last part wasn't the full truth, but I figured that she didn't wanna talk about it. It reminded me of my own troubles.
"You to, huh? Cuz, I've been getting the same one again for the last few weeks myself and its my own...fault." I said the last part sad and slow. She looked at me curiously. She knew that me and Alvin did the paper route together, so I decided to try and explain my case. "It's normally me and Alvin that do the paper route together every day, but since… our fallout... he's... he's just going through a tough time and I'm getting worried for him. Like...he eats because he has to. He only talks when he has to, and that's not like him. He's always seemed to have a zipadee mouth and now he doesn't. Plus he's getting to a point that he just don't care anymore and when you look in his eyes, there's no spark, nothing. His eyes are no longer bright and shinny. His mood has changed in the last few days. All you see is, is flatness, grayness and darkness. I hate seeing him like this. Now I just wanna see him happy like he used to be and all." Eleanor looked down as I spoke. I just continued. "Because he's been like this, I've decided it was best that I do the hole paper route alone, and let him sleep for the past few weeks." 'I've been keeping a very, VERY close eye on my brother lately because I'm afraid he might do something really stupid.' I thought to myself.
Eleanor had on a bittersweet smile. "I'd be lying if I said Brittany isn't going through something similar, because she is. She used to always wanna talk on her phone, shop, and lots of other things that she used to want to do. Now? She just...doesn't. I just wish I knew how I could help her through...whatever she's going through. Kind of like you with Alvin."
I smiled at her. That's when I thought of something that might help us both. "Well wanna help me with the paper route since your up and all?" I asked trying to, hopefully make her feel better.
"Well...I don't know if..." I cut her off before she could even finish.
"Well it might help you sleep better afterwards. And it's a good way to think and sort out things. After all it is always quiet outside, so there's no one who can bother you. Including MR. Crab Apple himself."
She took a minute to think about it. "But I'm still in my pajamas and... Ok Theodore, you're right. F.Y.I. don't you mean Mr. OLD Crabble who don't like us for anything and the walk could do me some good after all. So do you wanna talk about something different while I help you?" Ask Eleanor.
"Sure, lets talk about last summer when me and Alvin got stuck in every one's body before getting back our own body's back. Heh, and how my brother got me roped in to the paper route with him last year."
She giggled some about the thought when Alvin and I finally got our body's back saying 'yippee, yippee we got our body's back.' "You know Theo, that was a summer to remember. The five of us learned a lot about what it was really like to be in each others shoes. It's safe to say that everyone was happy when they got there body's back. Plus I've always wondered how your brother got, or more likely conned you into helping with the paper route. Another thing that I have wondered about is what is it really like having braces all the time. I kind of understand, but I don't at the same time. Me and Brittany only got stuck in yours and Alvin's body just for a short time and is it true that you and Alvin can't ever get rid of them?"
"Unfortunately it's all true Ellie. Unlike other kids at school, we have to keep ours for the rest of our lives. It sucks having them sometimes. Like, when we go through the airport security and we set off the all the metal detectors. But sometime it's not too bad." Thinking about it now, "it's kind of fun having them."
"Wait a minute, how come you can't get rid of them again? And, how can having braces be fun?" Eleanor had one eyebrow crooked with a questionable look at her best friend.
"Let me explain this better Ellie, me and my brother have a rare tooth disease called Tres-Tria-disease that we apparently inherited from mom. Alvin knew he would need braces since he was real little because mom told him so. As for my teeth, mind didn't show it until two years ago. The disease basically means that our teeth won't stay straight for us. Even after getting them straight, they'd go back to being crooked. The fun part is around Christmas time and the other holidays, along with dressing up in different costumes, we get to choose what color bands we want around our braces. Sometimes will even play the banjo in our mouths with the rubber bands thats for our braces for fun and... um never mind cuz we'll show you some other time Ellie. But you should consider yourself lucky that you don't have that disease that we have."
"Now I'm jealous of both of you, cuz now I really want to have them. You both get to have fun like that around Christmas and other holidays like that. Plus playing or making music with them sounds like even more fun. Not to mention the fact that I too love dressing up in costumes and maybe I could join you guys when it comes to costumes because I'd like to? And Ted, maybe, just maybe I will get lucky enough that I can have them and the dentist will tell me tomorrow on my checkup."
"Of course you can and If you say so Ellie. Come on Ellie, let's go cuz I have over a hundred papers to deliver and I promise to tell you how I ended up helping with the paper," I said with a giggle
"Oh right, sorry about that Ted."
=I=I=
It was almost eight pm when Dave spotted Alvin and Simon coming down the street, who'd been waiting on the front porch for a while. He'd been there for a few hours with a little worry because the boys hadn't texted him to let him know how and where they were. The last time he'd received a text was when they were having Pizza and that was at six P.M. When Dave spotted them down the road, he felt better. He knew Simon would have a good explanation why they didn't let him know that they were on there way home. When both boys got to the front porch, they were covered in mud from head to toe plus they had a slight foul smell to both of them. Simon was still mad at his brother because what he made him do and Alvin couldn't be happier at the time. It had been a while since he got to play outside. So Alvin took full advantage of it and both Simon and Alvin had pizza at the park. Dave figured that they might stay late, so he just called up the Pizza King and had it delivered. Before Alvin and Simon even entered the house to go to there separate bedrooms to get cleaned up, Dave wanted to have a talk with them in private.
"Well I'm glad the two of you had some fun and now it's time to get ready for bedtime. I will call everyone down for dessert in a bit. So Simon, can you please wait outside and maybe find the garden hose to sorta wash yourself off. I wanna have a chat with Alvin in the kitchen before he gets all cleaned up. It will only be a few minutes before I will talk with you. And no buts about it" Dave said.
"I understand and I still don't understand why I..." Before he could finish, Simon got a warning glare form Dave and he knew he had to wait and find out latter.
"Come on Alvin and try not to move too much. Or, on second thought, wait here on the porch and I will find a big towel first so you can wrap yourself up in it." 'I don't wanna know why you are covered in mud and what on earth did you did you role in because you smell horrible. It's a known fact that all chipmunks have better sense of smell than us humans. So if I can smell it, its way worse for you little guys.'
"Okay Dave, I'll wait here for yah," said Alvin in a cheerful voice.
It only took a few minutes before Dave came back with two big white towels. One of them is for Alvin and the other is for his brother. Dave put the other towel outside so Simon could wrap himself in it. "There you go all wrapped up. First of all, is all your homework finished?" Alvin nodded confidently. "So if I take a look at it while you get yourself cleaned up in the shower, it'll all be done right?."
Alvin fidgeted a little. "Well Dave," Alvin replied nervously. "Simon did help me finish most of it, just not my home economics. So no it's not all finished." Dave watched Alvin lower his muddy ears when he said the next part. "And it maybe be mostly in his hand writing. But you can check the rest of it if you still wanna look at it" Alvin said in a nervous voice.
"I will and I will ask Simon why, but I'm not going to get into that right now. Just promise me that you will redo it in your handwriting before you turn it in." Dave got a simple nod in understanding before continuing. "So how was it at the park? Did you teach Simon how to ride a skateboard yet?" Dave questioned, giving Alvin a knowing look. "Oh, and don't tell me how you got soo muddy because I don't want to know." he cut in.
"It was great! I did …" Alvin began, retelling everything he and Simon did, leaving the part about how they got muddy out. He told it in his zipadee mouth that he seemed to always have when he's happy. But this time he said it much faster because of how excited he was and said it all in one breath of air. "IhadsomuchfunandImadeSimondolotsofthingswithmeatthesametime! Justaskhimandhewilltellyoueverythingthatwedid! Oh, and Dave? Thank you for letting me play outside today cuz it...it really helped me a ton. And now I'm sorta tired right now cuz I think I might have overdone it a little" Alvin had said, with a yawn showing how exhausted he was. "But I promise that I will I redo my homework in my own handwriting before I turn it in."
Dave had some trouble trying to keep up and about wanted to say something to Alvin at first, but decide not to because it didn't bother him this time. In fact he was glad to see how happy Alvin was. Dave has always known how fast chipmunks can talk when they are happy and excited and he developed the skills to understand them over time when others had to say slow down. After all it takes a special person to be able to raise chipmunks.
"I know you will and I'm glad you had lots of fun. And Alvin? Just remember I'm always here whenever you wanna talk. That's when you're ready yourself." Dave replied softly. "Also I'm sorry for putting such a restriction on you like I did for the past few weeks. Cuz a certain little birdie that we know told me that you need to vent your own way. So you really should thank him for convincing me to let you play outside and burn off your frustrations." He continued, hinting at a certain green-clad chipmunk.
'I can't believe Theo did this for me…. But why would he... he said if he did, I have to...' Alvin thought in silent horror. "I...I will Dave, and….I'm not really READY to talk about it yet. But still thank you for letting me play outside like I did today. It was fun, so thank so very much" Alvin said in an uncharacteristically meaningful way.
"You're...you're welcome Alvin and I'll make sorta a little deal with you…" Dave replied a little stunned at first. "The deal is if you can get your grades up again like they were before, you can go back to doing all of your sport activities and such. But still no phone, no video games and no T.V. unless I say otherwise or until your grades come up again. And I will make sure that Simon keeps helping you and your brother for now on," Alvin smiled gratefully and nodded. "If Simon happens to take you and Theo to the park with your homework, that's fine too. But this time try to be home a little sooner." Alvin's eyes widened in excitement.
"You mean I get to do this EVERYDAY, at the park?! even right after SCHOOL?! I thought it was a one day deal and, and..." Dave cut off his son with a simple reply.
"Its alright Alvin, it's alright. Now go on and get yourself cleaned up, ok?" Dave got a simple nod before Alvin went upstairs, leaving a small trail of mud to his bedroom.
Dave spotted me as I got out from my hiding place from the den. I had been listening to everything that went on because I was getting worried for Alvin. He had gotten to a point that he might have tried to end it all together and I wanted to re-thank Dave again for doing what I asked.
"Dave?" I asked. "Thanks for doing what I ask for Alvin."
"Theo did,... were you,... never mind, just don't make this a continuing habit, ok?" I gave an innocent smile. "And, this is the happiest I've seen Alvin in a while. Even though I did have trouble understanding everything he had to say this time. And Theo, if and when, can the two of you tell me what has been on your minds? I'm starting to get really worried out of the four of you." A pang of fear shot through me at the thought of telling him what I did. "That's when the two of you are ready to talk. Like you said Theo, a happy chipmunk does better, sings better than an unhappy chipmunk. Witch is true because four out of six of you little guys sound terrible and cant keep a toon." A breath of relief shot through me. I nodded to show I understood. "Last thing before you go, I wanna thank you for giving me some advice on Alvin. He's been distant from everyone." Dave noted quietly. Guilt shot through me in hot waves.
"Your welcome Dave and I can help Alvin with his home work for home economics latter tonight. Right now I'm going to help Alvin with his shower and get ready for bed myself." Dave nodded, turning his attention to Simon who'd been waiting on the porch with a towel wrapped around him. I left to head upstairs.
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"Ok Simon, did Alvin really tell you all the answers that you apparently wrote down for him and did you have some fun today. Simon why did you stop, um nevermind cuz I don't wanna know. You will and are going to keep helping both of your brothers everyday after school and this is non-negotiable." 'I wasn't too happy when Theo came to me about Simon quit helping his brothers.'
"But why do I," I got that Dave glare that Alvin has always told me about before, but never believed him. "Yes he told me all of his answers." I said the next part in a low soft voice hoping that Dave wouldn't hear me say. "Even though some of his answers are wrong and his grammar needs fixing."
"Trust me Simon. When you get older and have kids of your own, you'd do the same thing that I'm telling you, cuz my parents told me when I was your age."
I then got a mental image and a bit of a shiver down my back when I'm older. Telling my smart-ass smart youngest son the same thing that Dave told me. "You may have a point and why on earth do I... um nevermind. I like science and engineering plus I like making things that I can use. My brothers, um mostly Alvin, they always BORROW things with out my knowledge and..."
"Do you really want me to get into that right now?
"Yes," I mentally facepalm myself saying you idiot.
"Ok fine," Dave began. "How about for starters like the time you made a black hole, or the time you magnetize the three of you together for a week. Then the that plant that wanted to eat Theodore. Or the time you switched your brothers and the girls body's around because the machine went hay wire that zapped everyone. Remember the five of them got stuck in different body's for the hole summer cuz of summer camp kelp happing again and again."
Dave continued. "Alvin didn't even get to do any thing he wanted throughout the summer. First it was Brittany for fashion camp. Then Jeanette for science camp and they even put a ban on her because of what happened. Then came Theodore's for Talking teddy camp and poor Theo, he had to go to skateboarding camp for Alvin cuz he was stuck in his body. Then came Eleanor's turn for cheerleading camp that was for three weeks.
It wasn't until the last two weeks of summer before everyone got back to normal. Then came the cat. Do you realize how freaked out I was when I saw our cat TALKING and Simon mowing like a cat. Or how about when you made Theozilla, then you made the Pizza Drone that kept delivering pizza's to my house and now I have three freezers full of nothing but frozen pizza..." This continued on for five minutes before Dave got the list down. "So that's why you will keep helping both of your brothers there homework until, until … they graduate from college."
"But, but we just started middle school and...," I finally got that infamous Dave Alvin yell, but only is was my name instead. "What I mean is I'd love to help BOTH of my brothers with there homework for now on and I get it now. I now understand why they wanted there own bedroom with out me. So my inventions don't always work right the first few times and I guess I need to find something different to do with my brothers." 'I now understand why Alvin hates getting a lectures from Dave and he gave me the ultimate punishment of a life time. I have to help my brothers until we graduate from college.'
"Look Simon I know Alvin had a helping hand in some to most of those things, but all I'm saying is that you need to spend some time with you brothers doing other stuff then using them as guinea pigs... In fact every one else knows how to ride skateboards, roller skates plus more. They do other stuff out side like rock climbing and other things like that and you can..."
"I'd, I'd never thought to try that before you brought it up. The part that I learned is, having a chipmunk in a can all the time is NOT good for Alvin. Do you realize he took me down the sewers cuz he thought it would be fun to go roller skating in them and not to mention he's like the energizer bunny. He just keep going and going and GOING. I got exhausted in trying to keep up with him and please don't tell me that I have to do that everyday with him cuz I don't think I can... handle it again. But I do have to admit that it was a little fun before we went down the sewers and got lost in them. When we were down there, I lost my phone so that's why I didn't text you sooner."
'Now I know why both of them smelled.' "He took you down the SWERERS!" Dave broke down laughing at the thoughts of the two getting lost and saying 'which way do we go now.' "Sorry Simon for laughing like that but I think Alvin wont be that active tomorrow after school any more. He, he really believed he only had today to have fun so he took the most of it."
"Dave it's not that funny and I get the feeling that I have to keep taking both of them to the park every day for now on, don't I."
"Yes you do, but just be home around 4:30 to 5. That way Alvin and Theo can have most of there homework finished and it still gives you time to do stuff that you want to do. So do we have a understanding and an agreement here?"
"Yes we do Dave!"
"Ok off you go then." With Dave telling me that, I went to my bedroom to have a nice LONG hot shower.
=I=I=
As soon as Alvin entered our bedroom, I looked at him happy and he was happier than he'd been for the last few weeks.
"Come on Alviena, let me get you all cleaned up in the shower together. After all I need mine and I think we can take one together at the same time" I said, excited to be close to my mate or brother again. Approaching him, I realized how rancid he smelled. 'Oh god Alvin! What on earth did you roll in?! CUZ you really reek! And I mean, R-E-E-K, REEK. I can barely stand being in the same room, let alone next to you right now!' I thought with disgust.
"OK T...t-theo...d-dore…" Alvin said in a small quiet stammering voice. "a...a-and I k...k-know what I m...m-must," Alvin gulped, choking on tears. "...do for you in r...r-return after the s...s-shower because of what you did for me. I owe you big on this" I could see him fighting tears.
"Look Alvin, I wanna talk about that, but not right now...I have lots to say to you first. But now I just want to get you all cleaned up and ready for bed ok?" I said firmly, but gently.
"But you said I..." He was cut off and he was a little surprised by his brother reply.
"Alviena,... can you please go to the shower and let me help get you cleaned up? I really mean it, we need to talk first and nothing more than that," I said hiding my sadness.
Alvin remained quiet, but began making his way to the bathroom.
I took all of my clothing off and started the water for the long shower that was about to happen between us. Alvin thought it was best to undress in the shower because of all the mud that was caked on him still and didn't want to get our bedroom too dirty. I stepped in first, then Alvin. I could tell he was more than a little nerves in the shower with me. I helped him undress, being very careful in a loving way in removing everything off of him. I made sure to take it nice and slow for him, and not to make him more nervous than he already was.
"Ok Alviena" I started. "I want you to copy everything I do to you. So what I do to you, you do to me, ok?" Alvin barely glanced back at me, but gave me a slow nod in return. I decided to try and cheer him up. "Ok, so let's start with your adorable ears that you have and Alvin, I've always thought they were cute like Dumbo to me. Even thought you have big ears, I still love the way that they are. Cuz your ears what makes you so special and apart from everyone else." I talked. As I did, I lathered up my hands and took longer with his ears because of all the mud that had dried. I rubbed them and played with them in a very loving way, nice and slow.
'Theo really likes my Dumbo size ears, and the way he's doing it feels good really good and very loving. It don't hurt like before. Mom has always told me that my ears were special and were a gift from her, I just never realized what she meant back then.'
Next came his face, hair, his front and his back. While I rubbed and washed him down, I noticed that he was tense and trembling. Trembling with fear. I understood why and made sure to take it nice and slow. But while I rubbed him down, I also couldn't help to love the feeling when I felt feeling him all over. 'Wow Alvin, you really are fit cuz I can feel all of your muscles when I rub on you.'
Too lost in admiration, I hadn't realized how close I came to his manhood and especially his rear end. Alvin flinched and even made I high pitch squeal sound with fear that escaped his lips. Alvin's trembling turned to shaking and his breathing had changed, I then realized I need to take this even slower. I want my brother to feel the love I had for him.
'Please don't do me there, Please don't do me there, Please don't do me there... I don't want to have to wear diapers again….' thought Alvin.
I moved away from his but cheeks and got closer to his bits, Alvin started to relax a little more. 'Oh my gosh Theo, what are you doing to me? That...that feels...so good' . I saw how Alvin was starting to feel pleasure and decided to take the time to say what I wanted to say. "Alviena? I promise I won't do any funny business to you unless you're ok with it. But...let me do the other part that I have always liked. I've always thought that you've have a cute butt that came with a cute bushy tail." 'I really love that cute butt of his and his bushy tail,' I thought seductively.
"...promise?" Alvin asked quietly, blushing hard. 'You really think I have a cute butt and a bushy tail?'
"I promise" I said, giving my word and crossing my heart. That's when I started cleaning his bits and the rest of him. This includes his tail, legs, and feet. I had a passing though about trying to make him laugh by tickling his feet, but decided to try it another time.
'OH shit Teddy don't stop there, keep on doing whatever you are doing with my bits! Or my tail or what ever it is you are doing!' Alvin thought blindly. His breathing began picking up.
'Oh my god Alvin don't stop, keep on doing what you are doing to me and ... I love it and it feels so good' I thought in pleasure.
Sadly, we were only cleaning each other, so it had to end. Once we finished, I turned off the water and then stepped out of the shower. While Alvin got out, I snatched his red and yellow towel and got my green one. "There all finished Alviena, now we're all squeaky clean" I told him quietly, trying to give him the message I wasn't always going to hurt him. 'Yes I wanted more, but I'd like to do this properly from here on out. I want to earn it from my mate and love. The love of my life that I have so many feelings for. I hope I can... I wonder if we can do this every night in the shower. It felt nice and pleasurable' I thought in a loving daze. I snapped out of it as quick as I went in.
"Here you go Alviena, a nice clean towel for you. And don't worry about the mess in the bathroom cuz I will clean it tomorrow after school" I told him, wrapping him in his towel. I looked at him, but he wouldn't meet my eyes yet. "Alviena, I really meant what I said. We need to talk and I'd like to go first," he was still quiet. Wrapping my towel around me, I led us back to our room and sat him across from me. "Alvin, I...I love you more than a brother should. Yes I know we're related, but it's true. I love you as a mate, as a mate for life. I love your ears, your bushy tail, your cute butt, your cute cheeks, when you smile showing off your braces, and so much more about you. I know you must be wondering why I did it and why I ask Dave to unground you in the first place. I... what I mean is I'd like you to call me Teddy or Ted from now on. So no more first name for me like I told you before unless it's importin for you to do so. I also want you to be happy at the same time. So let's restart at the beginning. I know what I did and it was very wrong on so many levels. I know there's nothing in the world that I can do to make it up to you, not enough sorry's, not enough promises, nothing at all. If I could go back in time, I'd punch me in the face so hard, I'd knock me out. I'd beat myself up and tell me just how stupid I was. I have to live with what I did for the rest of my life and, and... you need to be set free and be the high-spirited free birdie that you've always been. I want you to be happy." I couldn't stop the tears that fell. My guilt had overwhelmed me, all the nightmares I had, all the pain he's expressed. I really hated myself for what I did. Plus it also hurt that I was forcing myself to let go of my brother that I love so much.
I stared at my little brother for a few minutes with my mouth open. I was staring to look like a codfish before I snapped out of my daze. "You ... you really love me that much? Me?" Alvin said quietly. He huffed in disbelief while I mustered the courage to look at him. "What ... what about you and Eleanor? The two of you are like inseparable and such and … and ….Teddy, please stop crying! Cuz I, I can't ... that's ... that's the one thing I can't stand seeing. If you want... site here next to me and will just keep talking." He rushed, trying to get me to stop.
My heart melted at his compassion. "T...Thanks, Alviena, but I think I should stay where I'm at. As for me and Eleanor, I do love her, but I love her as a best friend, and like a brother and sister. Nothing more beyond then that. In fact, this morning, neither of us could sleep. Eleanor was up for her own reasons. So she helped me with the paper and the subject somehow got brought up and we love each other just as best friends. I'm ok with it and she's ok with it" I explained. Wiping a few tears from my eyes, I sighed. "I know it was my fault that you're more than a little messed up right now and I scared you so much that I broke you. Because of what I did, I, I can't … I can't ... get your horrified look out of my mind. I crossed the line."
There was a bit of silence first before Alvin started talking again. "Teddy … I won't lie, yes you messed up and I've been in your shoes more than once before because of all the things I've done that went wrong . It's a horrible feeling to feel, so I understand what you're going through. Yes, you did scare me. You'd told me if I ever said anything what you did to anyone, you'd...(sigh)… You told me that I wouldn't be able to ever talk again because you would have had a vet fix my voice to where all I could do was just squeak noises and... and get my manhood fixed. I had to stay away from all the girls in school including all the Chipettes at school and home. You made me promise to be your boyfriend and be your mate for life and all that stuff that goes with it. You'd threatened to tell everyone in school what my real name is, the same name that MOM gave me before I was born. And you even threaten to cook Rosie, my pet snake that Dave doesn't know about! You told me that I would have to eat her. So yes it did traumatize me, it traumatize me so much that I couldn't even stay focus in school anymore. Then Simon stopped helping me, then I got grounded because of my grades falling, and I had no way to vent my feelings. So I finally gave up and...and I...I didn't care if I lived at all. I did what I was told to do. Only a few things that really kept me going. Rosie was one and singing was another…" Alvin went on. I was more and more horrified the more he spoke.
"On the day when you did me in, you hurt me. You grabbed me by my ears and yanked with such force, you forced me onto your bed with you and you…" Alvin started. He went on to tell me what I did in terrifying detail. "... It really hurt Teddy. The pain was so bad I felt I was being torn in half. I was humiliated. You humiliated me and it really traumatized me beyond belief. I was betrayed that you did that to me. You took the rest of your anger out on me. Theodore, you, you weren't yourself that day. You were someone else that was very dark, cold, and terrifying" Alvin's sobbing could barely be seen as he spoke to me. He told me how he felt and I couldn't cry. I didn't deserve to cry.
"I'm sorry, I'm so, so sorry, I...I didn't know I had said and did all of that...and I know, no, sorry's not good enough. I feel...I feel so disgusting for what I did, and I still can't figure out what made me snap like that" I whispered. Tears were there, but I wouldn't let them fall. "A...A-All I know is I felt funny when Derek poured some orange, sticky concoction on me and Eleanor in biology that morning and he was laughing at us after words because of it. Then the rest of that day was sorta a blur. When I came home I know I did that to you, cuz I could somewhat remember that I didn't care how you felt. When I woke up in the morning, I was sick with a high fever and every thing kept spinning," I told him in a quiet voice. I knew what I did cuz I could just barely remember doing it.
"You really don't remember a thing of what you and Ellie did that day, do you?" I asked in disbelief.
I shook my head in shame. "No I don't Alvin. Please tell me what we did. I really have to know what I did that day and maybe it will help me figure this out," I pleaded.
Alvin blinked, and looked to the side in his thinking face. Which I might add was really cute for me to see. That's when he retold the story of everything of what went on that day. "Because of what the two of you did, both of you got suspended from school for a day or two with two Saturdays school days. Derek got suspended for two weeks because of what he did and afterword's. Derek and his goons from then on left all of us little guys alone and has avoided all chipmunks kind all together. Say, maybe it was the chemicals that did something to the two of you on that day!" Alvin spoke in realization. Yes! It makes perfect sense now!
"Me and Ellie shredded up all of Derek and his friends clothing, and even threatened to build a nest inside them and more! That's not either of us at all" A part of me calmed down and I felt happy that I found out what I did. But, it doesn't excuse what I did to Alvin. "Alvin. I know...(sigh)… I'm glad we had this talk because... because I know what I did was wrong and unforgivable. Dave has always said we need to take responsibility for our actions and I wanna start. I still want to try and make it up to you somehow. I will never stop trying and the best way I know how is to try and keep you happy. So that's why I convinced Dave to unground you and let you play outside. And why I've been doing the paper for the last few weeks and letting you sleep in. I owed you too much."
"Come here Theodora..." Alvin said with opening his arms and leaning in for a hug. I just about blushed when I heard my real name, but I stopped him.
"Alvin I don't deserve..." I started. But I stopped, looking at him. He looked just as in need of a hug, if not more than me and as reluctant as I was. I didn't feel like I deserved it, but let him for his sake, not mine. As we hugged, we both began crying hard. I think it was with the emotions of coming to terms of what happened between both of us, but it also was good for us both to let out all out. How long it took, I don't know, but we parted eventually.
"Thanks and I'm never going to stop in trying to make it up and..." I began rambling. He had cut me off before I could finish.
"Teddy, you're still my little brother and always will be. No one should ever have to live with that much guilt. And maybe, just maybe...there is something more between us that I never considered that was there. It's obvious I'm attracted to you somehow and I feel something for you other then ... what I do. I don't know what it is yet, but I'd like to take some time so I can figure it out for myself. I'd be lying if I said I didn't enjoy our shower because I did, and wouldn't mind keep on doing that fun stuff in the shower. All I'm saying is Id like to take it slowly and I will do my best to make you happy in return. On top of this, I still like Brittany, but I don't know how or what I feel for her. I do like to date girls so I can be romantic with them and all that other stuff. I just want it to be perfect for my mate and I hope my mate will feel the same way in return for me. Ted, It takes a lot to admit when someone is in the wrong and I should know. So I thank you for admitting it."
I smiled bittersweetly. "Thanks. I understand what you are saying and I agree. We should take it slowly and I like the openness between us when we talk. So what do you say?" It hurt to know Alvin was still somewhat afraid of me, but also to hear that he has some feelings for me in return helped. Despite not knowing what they were yet and how it would end up. Still a small smile broke across my face.
"I say yes to the openness and give me time. If I don't wanna do something, please don't make me do it. I also expect you to tell me the same thing in return. And Teddy I do wanna talk more, but can we talk more latter tonight?" My smile grew, if only, just a little and I gave a simple nod for yes. He really was too good for me. That's when I saw him sniff the air. ...(Sigh)... "My nose is saying Dave has dessert just about ready and I'd like to say sorry to brainy boy for taking him down the rabbit hole. Teddy did you know there are miles and miles of tunnels down there with all sorts of different grinds and tricks that you can do or try?! It's way better than the skate park that we have here!"
Before Alvin could finish, I pulled him in to give him another hug, while rubbing cheeks. "Sorry, just...glad you had a good time today and maybe, no make that I want to go with you down the rabbit hole when its convenient for both of us. It could be tomorrow or the next." I said shyly.
'I was a little surprised when my little brother said about going down the rabbit hole with me.' Alvin stepped back shyly, then stuck out his hand for me to shake it. Like saying 'we have a deal.'
Things seemed ok as we got dressed into our pajamas, so I brought up a conversation starter. "I can't believe you took the 'geek' down the SEWERS!" I exclaimed. I broke down laughing at the same thought. "So that's why you stunk so bad when you came home. So, shall we go bug our brother a bit about his ride down the rabbit slide?" I asked with an edge.
"Oh please, lets do bug him," said Alvin half way joking.
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Simon was working on one of his experiments when we came knocking on his door. "Come in shark tooth and Piranha teeth, just watch where you step cuz I'm working on something right now." He sounded a little crabby when he said that.
"You know Simona," Alvin said. "Your checkup is tomorrow after school along with the rest of us. And if our dentist tells you that you need braces, you will get them the next day like Theo did when he found out that he needed them. So keep talking like that and karma will get you back some how! We are triplet brothers and I know you secretly worry that we share the same gene pool. So it could happen! Plus there's two strikes against you already." Alvin's had a mischievous grin on his face and given me wink in the eye, indicating just to go along with it.
"Alvin's right Simona," I then got that annoying glare look from my bespectacled brother like how he gives to Alvin most of the time. I know he hates being reminded of his real name from time to time. But this time I wanted Simon to get the message loud and clear. "Alvin and me have a growing list of what every body likes to calls us. But what's really is annoying is when everyone sends a email calling all those names instead of your name. Like for example how's it going train tracks or metal mouth or railroad crossing. So keep it up like I did and you to could be called all those names and more." I said with a half grin on my face.
Simon then looked a little worried at both of us brothers and of course we gave a simple nod indicating that is was true. He then just rolled his eyes. "Oh great! That makes me feel so much better now! Besides, both of you enjoy calling me geeky, nerdy and a few more that I'm not going to say out loud." 'Do my brothers really have to remind me of my real name and I swear they only do that just to...'
Alvin continued. "Well it's true Simon! You are obsessed with getting perfect 'A's, along with a perfect GPA. You even make sure that you always get a hundred percent in every thing that you turn in. The other thing, you even keep files of your past homework that you ever did. Like who in their right mind other than Jeannette keeps homework that they did last year, let alone first grade all the way through sixth grade?!"
Simon went to reply, but couldn't. "Ok fine, you win, you that round. And why are you even here in the first place."
"Well, I'm here cuz I want to say sorry for taking you down the rabbit hole and making you skate with me Simon. I know it's not your thing to do but I was a little desperate to have more fun today and..." Simon had cut him off before he could finish.
"... Oh it's alright Alvin. Besides, Dave gave me the ultimate punishment and I guess he was a little more then just a little frustrated at me for other reasons that I'm not saying. He decided that I have to help both of you until we graduate from college. And Alvin, I understand how you must feel when you get a Dave lecture and Dave's famous yell because I finally got them myself."
Simon continued. "You know I think mom is laughing at me right now cuz how Alvin convinced me to go down the rabbit hole in the first place. In fact, you said," who now had his hand and finger pointing at his oldest brother. " 'Oh come on Simon, it'll be fun and what could possibly go wrong?' Well we got lost, slid down in some sort of a muddy pit and got muddy covered from head to toe."
I laughed. How was Simon so easily convinced? "What?" Alvin complained with a look. I decided to change the subject. "Well, on another note, are you sure it's even safe for us to be here? You've got some weird looking stuff everywhere and what one earth did you do to your bed this time. It sorts looks like it could fly out the window do to its wings on the sides, with wires hanging and even a steering wheel at the footboard of your bed. I'm afraid to even sit down on it because it might take off with me on it." My big brother jumped in before Simon could even say something.
"Yeah Simon Ted's right. And I'm surprised you haven't tried some sort of a weird experiment with both of us using our braces that we have. It's bad enough that we set off all the metal detectors when we go flying. Why not just add more metal than what we already have on and have to wear day or night to us so we can start picking up radio waves and have some sort of music come out when we have our mouths open." I said with a bit of sarcasm in my voice.
"Alvin! Don't give him any more crazy ideas, cuz he might try and do that! Its bad enough that he tries his experiments or gadgets on us two first and... what's with the suddenly guilty look Simon?"
Looking at him, Theodore was right. Simon did have a guilty look. "Well um, Dave came in about ten minutes ago and just about said the same thing that Alvin said. He even took one of my plan ideas that I had on paper that did involve your guys's braces. He said, and I quote 'Simon I can't believe you'd even try this, this such a thing and I'm not giving this back to you.'". We all were quiet until I spoke. "Well what do you know, Simon finally got himself in trouble this time and Alvin wasn't involved" I laughed at both of their angry expressions and even Alvin joined me laughing with me as well. It was more Simon's embarrassed than Alvin's.
"Hay bros, it's not that funny. As far as my old bed is concerned, it really did fly out the window on its own and with out me. As it was flying away I yelled 'hay come back here you stupid bed,' but it kept on going and going and never came back. And now it keeps flying around in circles at the north pole while the government trying to make contact with the stupid thing." That only made my brothers laugh even more harder at my own expression with my own embarrassment of how the alien thing got started. "Latter I made me a new one that was better than before."
"Well, ignoring Theodore, thanks for helping me with my homework and all. I know I don't say it enough, so thanks again. Also desert is ready"
Simon looked shocked before smiling. "Actually, Id rather stay here and work on my experiments. Please tell Dave to save mine for later." 'And that Dave wasn't too happy with me when he saw my plans for my brothers braces.' Before we left Simon to do his stuff, the three of us did the trio-hug together before parting ways and saying good night. Mom was also mention and how much we missed her everyday. How she hoped for three girls, but instead she got three boys. And how she explain about our real name change to us much latter in life when we were much older to understand. As we went downstairs, the girls had already gotten a slice of pie before going back to their bedrooms and that left Dave, Alvin and me down in the kitchen.
"Dave, I'm sorry for getting mud on the carpet when I came home, and, uh, what else? Oh, and Simon wants his pie later."
"Its ok Alvin, the carpet needed to be cleaned anyways. I came up to let every one know and I sorta heard the two of you talking, so I left you guys be just like Brittany and Eleanor. I saw I let Jeanette and then I got to Simon's room. I saw a drawing of a plan... well I left with out even telling him and he's still in trouble," Dave said, handing us both pieces of pie.
"Thanks Dave," said I said.
"Same hear Dave," Alvin said.
Excited to see rhubarb pie, I didn't wait. "mmm,... this is...mmm...good,... mmmm". Before Dave could even say anything, Alvin jumped in.
"Theo, slow down! Or you'll get your fork stuck in your braces like the spoon and fork incident at school!" Before I could grab another bite, Alvin grabbed my plate and fork and took from me.
Now Dave had a confused look, looking at both us. "Um Theodore, what does your brother mean by that? Wait, is that why you had an emergency for the dentist last month?"
"Go on Ted," said Alvin. "And tell him what you did to you braces last month," crossing his arms looking at me.
I had a cheesy smile. "You know what Theodore, I ... I think I don't want to know, but I better hear it and it might explain a few things that did happened at school," Dave said.
"Well Miss Miller was watching over the six of us while you were gone for the week. We were at school and lunch had started. The girls were off doing their own thing, Simon was in the library reading, so it was just me and Alvin eating. Alvin had warned me to slow down when he got up to get another helping of the Fridays lunch special when I was eating my spaghetti. I wanted to have another helping so I was eating fast and I somehow I bit down wrong and the fork got stuck in my top braces. So I pulled on it to get it unstuck and I made it worse yet. Then I got the idea of using the spoon to get the fork unstuck so I could finish eating. So there I was using the spoon to try and pry the fork out and somehow the spoon got stuck in the bottom brace. When Alvin came back, he looked at me and said 'Theo you twit, now you have to go to the dentist.' So he called the dentist and Miss Miller using my phone cuz he was still grounded from his. The soonest I could go in was at 4:00pm that day and..."
"Wait, wait," said Dave in an unbelievable voice. "How in the world... um... nevermind! please continue Theo..." 'I gotta hear the rest of this.'
Theodore continued. "So after talking to Miss Miller, Alvin went to talk to Mr. Talbot about my predicament that I was in and he just shook his head at me. Mr. Talbot gave Alvin a note so he can give to all of my afternoon classes that I had. So I was stuck at school until Miss Miller came to get us at 3:30. Miss Miller, well she sometimes forgets and her memory isn't that good and her driving skills are... well lets just say it's always an adventure when we go with her. The same reason why you have your fingers stuck in her dashboard with you begging her let you drive. So I was going to class to class with Alvin and he had to translate for me. He had to come with me to my home economics class and that was interesting to say the most."
There Dave was shaking his head back and forth before he spoke. "So Alvin is that why you...' And boys you're right about Miss Miller driving skills because I was almost terrified as you guys could be when she came to pick me of from the airport. She yells 'move out of the way you old bats.' When she was driving down the sidewalk with people jumping right and left and going the wrong way on the street."
"Yes Dave," said Alvin. "It was and do you really think you would've believed me in the first place. And now I'm stuck in those classes because Mr. Talbot, the principal, thought it was best for me to stay in those classes with my little brother. Mostly to keep helping with the translation because some of the teachers still have a hard time understanding him when he talks fast. But all in all, I guess its not that bad any more and my home economics teach thinks I make excellent poker chips, just like Brittany."
"... No Alvin, your right," Dave said while rubbing his temples now. "I wouldn't of believed you at all and Theo,... please continue on."
"We made it to home economics and well... Alvin made a very... um entertaining and interesting cake that went every where and now I'm forevermore stuck with him as my partner. Cuz the teacher told me 'THEODORE, you are to keep an eye on your brother whenever he enters the kitchen for any reason!"
'Hay I didn't know it could do that ok,' thought Alvin.
"Let me guess," Dave said. "It got, an 'Alvin' mess that went everywhere and that explains what had happened at school. Keep going Theo..." said Dave in a disbelief voice.
Theodore continued. "After school we had a interesting adventure ride to dentist with Miss Miller. Yeah, it was embarrassing. In fact, I made it to his of fame of miss fortune wall. I was never so embarrassed and yet I was so glad to get... them out. The lunch lady won't give me silverware anymore, instead she gives me a stupid plastic sporks and she has instructed Alvin that he has to forevermore sit next to me until I'm done eating."
David just shook his head and said, "Alvin,... just make sure that your little brother never has to go through that again." He rubbed his nose.
Alvin nodded. "Here you go Teddy" Alvin started, giving me my slice of pie back. He jerked it back last second. "But, this time just remember to eat a little slower" I nodded and refocused on my food. Slower. "Oh! Idea alert! Hey Dave, can me and Teddy play a little trick on Simon and Jeanette tomorrow when he has his check up?!" Alvin exclaimed excitedly.
"Well I don't know Alvin, how about you tell me what it is and I will decide if I will let you," Dave replied humoring him.
"Ok that's fair enough! So I was thinking … and you can … until the next day when he and Jeanette have to go back. The main reason behind this, I think he and maybe Jeanette...are enjoying it too much, but mostly Simon when he calls me shark tooth and call Theo Piranha teeth because we have braces and he doesn't…. The chances of him needing braces are slim and I have the feeling he probably never will need then because of him having straight hair and we have curly hair." he explained.
I smiled at my brother, enjoying my brothers plan of action. 'I remember Alvin begging the dentist to not put braces on me, I guess wanted to spear me the trouble of having them in the first place and I now understand why.' I thought while I looked at my brother eating his slice of pie.
"Ok here's the deal boys, I will only go with it cuz I want Simon and Jeanette to tone it down some and I get the feeling that's all the both of you really want, isn't it?" Dave asked and we both nodded yes. "Ok then we have a deal and boys, I'm glad the two of you are getting along. And Alvin, thanks for keeping an eye on your little brother when he eats. I swear sometimes he thinks with his stomach and not his brain. And Theo don't you dare give me that look because you know it's true"
I dropped my look. 'I know Dave's right about me thinking with my stomach and all, but I don't like hearing it'.
When we both finished eating, we put our dishes away in the dishwasher. Then we bid good night to Dave before going to bed so we came talk some more.
=I=I=
"Teddy," I said nervously. "Um when did you start to, to see me differently. As in liking like me more and on second thought, forget what I just said. I..."
I cut my brother off before he could say anymore. "It' alright Alvin, we … I think we both have to much on our minds to try to sleep anyways." I got a nod yes from my brother indicating he too had stuff on his mind but probably wasn't sure how to really say it. "I'm not really sure myself when I started ... but I did notice you differently more and more at the end of summer, then there was the fall dance."
Theodore continued. "At the dance, I kept looking at your tail and the rest of you over, or I guess I was trying to compere you to all the other Chipettes that come to school. That's when I think I started to see you differently and I kept telling myself that it was just brotherly love that I had. After that, I kept fighting and fighting it, that's when I come to realize that I liked the same sex and not the other opposite sex." By now I was red as a tomato from embarrassment and I half expected my brother to start laughing at me, but he never did. His kept his blue eyes focused on me as I kept on talking. "Then I compered you to all the other chipmunks and well you kept taking the lead over everyone else including Chip and Ian, our friends."
"Theodore, I..." Alvin said while blushing red as a tomato. "You compered me to, to those two. 'Yin and yang,' the albino and black chipmunks that we have sleepovers with and have lots of fun. I k...k-know I like hanging around you and we do have fun. Heck, you even keep me out of trouble half the time as well and... I think something could really be there that was more than just brotherly love and I... Right now I have all sorts of mixed feelings and I need to find out what they all mean and what you are to me as well. Ted, please be patient with me and give me time for me and this is a lot to take in all at once. And you know, I have never kissed anyone on the lips before and I..."
"Alvin, I want you to take as long as you need, cuz I can wait. I'm glad we can talk with openness to each other about stuff. And Alvin, just remember. What we say in here stays in here. Like the saying goes, 'what happens in the doghouse stays in the doghouse.'"
"Oh for Pete's sake Teddy, just come here and give me a huge will yah. I know it'll make us both feel better and we better get to sleep cuz it's almost midnight."
"Oh sorry and you're right we should sleep." Realizing that my brother was right, we bid each other a good night before drifting to sleep and some how I got the feeling that my damn nightmare will finally stop. I felt more at piece again with my self. My brother helped me let go of my gilt in his own way. Tonight I even found out that my brother has been keeping a red diary. I wonder If I should tell him some of my secret desires and that I too keep a green diary that's hidden in my teddy bear that I sleep with and take every where I go.
Authors nots
Wow, I didn't know Vinny really wanted and was hoping for girls instead of boys. So that explains why she had to the changed her kids names after she gave birth to three boys. Theodore, you must really love your brother enough to let him go like that, now that takes real strong courage and love to do. Alvin, try to see things through his eyes and maybe do things that he really loves doing. I'm glad Alvin and Theodore are really talking to each other and I get the feeling that Brittany and Eleanor are talking about there problems. I wonder how Dave will react when he finds out what had happen, also who will be the first to tell Dave. 🐿 🐿 🐿 🐿 🐿 🐿 🐿 🐿 🐿🐿 🐿 🐿 🐿 🐿