hello agine I know its been a while, like a long while, but I'm back! I worked particularly hard on this part of the story so I hope you like it.
(see the end of chapter for trigger warnings)
When Perry arrived down in his lair he sat down, took a deep breath and waited for Monogram to appear on the screen. "Good Morning Agent P, you're looking better today" said Monogram, Perry nodded stiffly and waited for Monogram to continue "well anyways Agent P, Dr. Doofenshmirtz has been quiet recently, find out what he's up to and put a stop to it." Perry saluted and hurriedly went over to his hover car and exited his lair.
Once he had exited his lair he dropped the smile and slouched back into his seat, he had to make a plan. He hoped Doofenshmirtz wasn't up to anything too big as he was exhausted after barely getting any sleep that night paired with the fact that he had to be careful not to re-injure his arm while fighting Doofenshmirtz. Perry decided to take the long way to D.E.I. that day to try and get a grip on himself, if he could just act normally things would go back to normal. Right?
Perry arrived at D.E.I. much sooner than he would have liked. He parked his hovercraft on the street outside the building hoping to give himself a little more time to pull himself together. He sighed, heaving himself to his feet and making his way into the building he stepped into the elevator. When he got to Doofenshmirtz apartment he stopped hesitating at the door. He felt anxiety threaten to overwhelm him but he shoved his feelings to the corner of his mind and did his best to ignore them. Finely gaining his composure he took a deep breath, stepped back and ran and kicked the door in.
He landed squarely in the middle of the room but before he could get his bearings ropes shot out tying him to a chair. Perry struggled against his bindings as Doofenshmirtz appeared "well well well, Perry the platypus what a surprise, and by that I mean not a surprise!"
"Behold the water collect Inator…" Doofenshmirtz began to ramble on about water and its many uses but Perry wasn't listening, he struggled in his bindings trying to loosen the ropes without re-injuring his arm and hoping to distract himself from the creeping anxiety that threatened to overwhelm him. Finally after what seemed like forever (but was probably only a few minutes) Perry managed to loosen the ropes enough to get one of his arms out, after he freed his arm it was pretty easy to untie the rope completely and escape.
Once Perry escaped he charged at Doofenshmirtz cutting him off mid monolog and knocking him the the floor, perry then ran as fast as he could towards the inator but was intercepted by Doofenshmirtz who sent him spinning across the room perry landed on his back but quickly recovered himself dodging an attack from Doofenshmirtz he ran at the inator. He was about to press the self-destruct button when his foot caught on a Doofenshmirtz's tool box and he was sent face first into the floor.
He got to his feet as quickly as he could trying to recover himself and ignore the pain in his head, doofenshmirtz was laughing hysterically but Perry wasn't really paying attention he pulled his fedora low over his eyes to hide the tears that threatened to spill over. When Doofenshmirtz noticed that Perry had not continued their fight; he stopped laughing and looked up. Perry had his back turned to him and his paws were noticeably shaking. Perry took a deep breath and clenched his paws into fists trying to stop them shaking.
Doofenshmirtz at this point was getting worried, was Perry the platypus hurt? "Perry the platypus?" Perry breathed in sharply as if just releasing that Doofenshmirtz was there and quickly sprung into action.
Doofinshmirts voice snapped Perry back into reality, he breathed in sharply before springing back into action, pushing the self-destruct button and careful not to let Doofenshmirtz see his face jumped, ran over to his hover car and jumped in "Perry the platypus wait! Are you-" Perry cut Doofenshmirtz off abruptly as Perry took off quickly speeding away from D.E.I. "ok…"
Perrys breathing was quick, coming in short shuddering gasps, he was gripping the steering wheel as tightly as he could with his shaking paws and trying to stop the tears that rolled down his cheeks. 'I cant believe you started crying you tripped on a fucking took box you stupid stupid platypus! What would Monogram think? His best agent, crying over a tool box!'
Perry drove to the outskirts of Danville and gilded the hover car into a secluded clearing in the woods. He just sat there staring at his paws trying to regulate his breathing, Perry loosened his grip on the steering wheel finally letting go and rapping his paws around himself tears slipped down his cheeks and his curled up into a ball in the seat, his shoulders shaking with sobs as he tried to stop the tears. He dug his claws into his arms so he could feel something, anything other than the overwhelming feelings of fear, grief and disappointment in himself. Why am I like this? Why can't I just be normal?
Perry eventually calmed down enough for his breathing to slow and the tears to stop, he squeezed his arms tighter around himself but pain struck him from his thoughts, he looked down at his arm noticing for the first time the slow trickle of blood dripping from his upper arm. He was somewhat shocked, he didn't realise he had scratched himself that badly. but at the same time he felt intrigued by the physical pain, it seemed to help, in a twisted sort of way, seeming to scatter the conflicting thoughts and feelings that threatened to overwhelm him. He knew this was bad, really bad, but… he shook his head around trying to shake the lingering desire to swipe his claws across his arm.
He knew he should take care of his arm but spent a little longer just sitting there trying to summon the motivation to take care of himself. Finally after a little while he forced himself to move,slowly and mechanically he got the medical kit out of the trunk, cleaning the blood off his arm and paws and wiping it up off the seat before wrapping his arm in a bandage and sitting back down with a defeated sigh.
Perry curled his paws around the steering wheel, closed his eyes and took a deep breath. Before he could change his mind he started the hover car and guided it out of the clearing and back to his lair. When he landed in his lair he took a shaky breath before stepping out of his hover car and hurriedly made his way over to the elevator. He stopped for a moment, hesitating right before he pushed the button his breath catching in his throat. He shook himself and hurriedly stepped into the elevator.
Hope you enjoyed this chapter! I had a-lot of fun writing it. If you are enjoying this story and want to see more leave a review, I'd love to see feedback for my work.
(trigger warnings for this chapter, mild self harm, mental heath issues, if you are sensitive to these kind of topics please click away)