A/N: I had a nightmare last night after seeing the raws of the newest chapter so I decided to type it all out, It was Ren and Kyouko but it wasn't happy at all. Just a fair warning this one has a heaviness over the entire thing that makes it impossible to enjoy the sex scenes. It starts out sad, it goes into what should be happy times but it's all sad. Again it was a dream and i just need it out of my head. A lot of ooc-ness going on and it's just sad. I'm going to write it as the dream happened so it goes back and forth some to future and and past. I hope someone enjoys. I am going to go cry before typing the net chapter.

There once was a young woman who had it all. Fortune, fame, talent, and the most perfect family she could have ever wished for. Her in laws adorned her, and all her closest friends wanted a relationship like the one she had with her heavenly husband. He was sweet and romantic with the most handsome face and strong arms she could feel safe in. Most of all he loved her more than anything in the world.

He loved me and I loved him so how could everything go so wrong?

"Kuon, take the baby please, I need to go get some things from the store." The baby is mine. Her name is Ren. Little Ren, as my husband named her after himself. To be more accurate he gave her his former stage name. I guess that was so he could more easily pretend that she is his. He takes her from his mother now and I seethed with jealousy as he holds her close and affectionately kisses her nose.

"Are you planning on getting up anytime soon?" Kuu, my husband's father asks me and tries to take my giant quilt from me. It's been overused and needs to be washed but I can't bear to part with it. Kuon gave it to me on our first honeymoon. Custom made with all our favorite quotes and fairytale characters. I tug the blanket back hearing it tear slightly. "Your baby is hungry."

"Don't bother, dad, she doesn't care." Kuon snarls bitterly before he returns his attention to Ren and coos at her about how much he loves her.

My thoughts bitterly scream that I used to be her. It was me in his arms receiving adoration. I had everything I never dreamed could be mine. He loved me and I loved him. Why wasn't that enough? I used to think that I could handle anything with Kuon by my side. Life had taken my belief as a challenge and whittled away at our love until there was nothing left.

I wish we could go back to when our love was fresh and new. Before I knew his name. Before he made, he made a name for himself in America. Before I became Japan's top star. I want to go back to the time when my face wasn't on every billboard and nobody knew I existed. Except him. He always said he knew I would be a star. He named me gravity and told me he had no choice but to bend to my will. I want to go to that moment in the elevator. Back when I was innocent and good, and he was this perfect being I worshipped as my acting god.

"I love you, Mogami-san." I had stared up at him for the longest time unable to comprehend his words. How could this gorgeous man say such words to me?

"I…" I didn't know what to say to him, so I shut my mouth and looked down. There was no way I had heard him correctly.

"It's alright if you don't feel the same way. I just needed you to know." He looked like he meant to say more but the elevator doors opened then.

Tsuruga-san moved out of my way giving me the option to flee. I contemplated running; shoving my way passed the people loading themselves onto the elevator and never looking back and Tsuruga Ren again. My moment of escape passed, and I took a step back to allow more room for the people who had no clue how chaotic my brain was at that moment. My hand brushed his, but I did not pull away. His fingers tapped my palm and I took them twining our fingers together and inching ever so slightly closer to him.

That was it for us; I became his and he mine. We spent most of our free time together at his place. I took my time warming up to being in a relationship and he was the perfect patient gentleman. It was simple and sweet and everything I had ever wanted. I wish I could have it all back.

A/N: I hate this fic.