I Hate That I Love You

by Kez The Kid

TW: Spoilers, Slurs, Rape Disscussion, Self harm, Suicidal thoughts and actions , Depression, Internalized Homophobia, Dissociation, Swearing Kakashi hates emotions. Obito has no clue how to express them. Other peeps help. That's pretty much it. Kakashi might be a little OOC, but nyeh, I tried :P (Posted on Wattpad as well)

1. Mistakes

Mistakes

He must have heard wrong. He must have. There's no way Kakashi said that.

"W-What?" Obito stuttered out.

"I said 'I like you'. What are you, deaf?" Kakashi restated calmly, as if it were the most obvious thing in the world. Obito felt fluttery, and there were a thousand butterflies in his stomach.

'Impossible. I like Rin! I always have! What's changed?Why do I feel like this? I'm so confused!'

"What the Hell?! T-That's disgusting! You must be an imposter, or something! Bakakashi would never say something so- so- weird!" Hurt flashed in Kakashi's eyes, but it was gone as soon as it surfaced. It disappeared so quickly that Obito almost thought he imagined it. Almost.

"This must be some kind of idiotic prank! There's no way the Hatake Kakashi has feelings!"

"Well, I do kinda like you, so get over it. I don't know why though, you're and idiot." Kakashi grumbled under his breath. It was halfhearted, at best. Obito knew that much. What he didn't know was why ? Why would Kakashi suddenly like someone like him ? An idiot with no talent, or looks? Why was he worried about that? Why has Kakashi always acted like he hated Obito? Why, why, why ?

Obito suddenly felt angry. How could he just be so casual about it? You're supposed to be a nervous wreck when confessing your love to someone! Obito didn't know exactly why this bothered him so much, he was Kakashi after all, the emotionless bastard. All Obito did know, though, was that he angered him.

"You know what?! I hate you! I hate you so much! You always think you're better than me, looking down on me all the time! You're just a self righteous faggot that thinks it's okay to play with people's feelings! I hate you, I hate you, I hate you, I hate you!"

Obito regretted his words as soon as he spoke them. The look of utter betrayal and hurt on Kakashi's usually blank face was hard to look at. To know he caused it was even worse.

"Oh." Was all Kakashi said.

"H-Hey, I'm sor-" Obito cut his sentence short because Kakashi was already walking away. Obito stood there, unable to move. If he would've looked a little closer at Kakashi's face, he would have seen the tears brimming in his eyes. But he didn't. He didn't see.

END CHAPTER ONE

A/N Woah, I'm tired now. I'm currently writing this at 5 o'clock in the morning and I haven't even gotten to sleep yet. ~Kez