Autor's Note
English is not my mother tongue, so I appreciate your support for any corrections.
4x03 - We Are Family
Andy and Maya in the Captain's office...
– I don't know what happened to our friendship, but I know I never forgave you for taking the job, for Jack, for some many things that weren't entirely your fault, and my life kept rolling forward, blow after blow and I never processed it. I kept it inside. I fell back on my dad's bad habits. I walled up and isolated and shut down because that's how things were handled in my family, and you freak out over French toast because you never felt safe around the breakfast table as a kid. I miss having a friend that's just as messed up as me.
– Well, you have Jack.
– I'm so sorry it's taken me so long to say all this.
– No, I'm sorry. – Maya took a depth breath – But your apology means next to nothing to me, I told you about my girlfriend, Carina, she is, light, and she is helping me to be less broken, she is trying to make me see my light, she encourages me to do what I think is best for me, I'll probably never admitted to anyone, but she hold me, when I broke into tears, her arms enfold me and I had never cried before, then I decided to step down and give you my job, since everybody wants you to be captain, and you blame me because your father and your non-boyfriend decided you were too broken because of Ryan, but you didn't notice that I was heartbroken too, I always wear a mask but I thought that my best friend will see through it, but no, you didn't, he was my friend too, maybe not from childhood like you, but he was the only person I told about my brother, I told Ryan a couple of stories of us, I share a tear in front of him after one of the stories, you don't know those stories, he call me after arresting him, I went out in the middle of the shift, for my brother and Ryan, he confront me with some hard truths about Mason, he even offered to check on him from time to time, as a favor, Vik noticed I was barely holding it, where were you? Right, you were shagging Jack, so I couldn't tell you, the next day you ask me but I didn't tell, and when he died, I was broken, and instead of been my friend, you just yell at me for taking the job, for stealing what was promise to you, you incite all the others to insubordination, to question orders, to isolate me, but you never apologies for that, I'm not certain, but I'll be willing to bet my gold medal that you knew about Jack and Viggo's wife and you did nothing, if you have been the captain, you probably will have remove Viggo, because, we both know you can't let Jack go, that's why Ryan left in the first place, because he wasn't broken enough for you, and Jack is, when my mother came, you hear me say that she was been dramatic, but you knew she was right, and you say nothing, because you were still mad, my girlfriend did and I push her away, I broke her trust and I could tell my best friend about it, my father assault me on broad daylight, in front of other firefighters, and you didn't know, I beg the woman I love for forgiveness and she did, so I'm going to be as better as I can and that doesn't include let your brokenness to suck me back in the hole, your world collapse and you didn't tell me, I had to hear everything about it, from our ex-boyfriend, because suddenly, I'm not broken enough for you, you pressure me to support your husband, and maybe I did it a little for Mason, thinking that someday, he may need a hand from someone and I can pretend my action will influence the universe to get him one, but the support I provide was for your pressure, so, sorry, but your apology means nothing. – Maya sees through the window and sees that the committee is leaving. – Let's go, the audience is over, let's see what else I'll be a force to do in the name of a friendship that only exists when is convenient to you…