I do not own Glee, this takes place in season 2, right before Nationals.
Warning: Kurt tries to take his life, triggers may be found.
Kurt is Done
Kurt's POV
What I wanted to do was take one pill for everybody who has ever hurt me, but then I relised that there are not enough pills in the world for that to work. Any person who has ever seen me hurt or get bullied and never help, or even ask if I was okay, any person who has ever let me buy pills, any person who has ever believed the fake smile that I kept plastered on my face when the pain is evident in my eyes, any person who has ever discarged me from therapy saying that I was now fine, any person who has even believed that I was okay, and any person who thought that glee was ever a good idea, any person at all, and not to mention the bullies, I wanted to take pills for every single one on them, but like I said there are not enough pills for that, so I settle for just swallowing three bottles of sleeping pills, as soon as I do, darkness surronds me and I am comforatble despite being on the cold hard floor of the bathroom, and I pass out, before a weird dream like mist covers my vision, even though I am asleep, and I see the glee club members and they are upset, I want to ask what is wrong, but they can't see me, could it be because I am dead? Is this death?
Rachel's POV
Kurt, he is dead, how could this be? He was so happy, Glee really was helping him, I thought. It really was selfish on him if you think of it. We needed him for Nationals, now it will fall on me, it always falls on me! Always! I should be more simpathtic for the dead, and show respect, but out of all the times he could have taken his life he picks now? That was my best friend so I guess I can say stuff like that.
Kurt's POV
I knew that people wouldn't care if I died. Rachel was my best friend, other than Mercedes.
Tina's POV
Kurt... he was amazing. I can't believe we were all so stupid, it was so obvious, the pain was so clear, we were all so very stupid, no stupid doesn't even come close. He had gotten the worst of it, and we all thought that we had it bad. He was amazing, and we didn't notice. I hate myself for it. I always was whining about never getting a solo or reconized, and now he is dead. I still can't believe it. When Mr. Shue told us Mercedes started laughing, I mean talk about denial, she thought that it was just a bad joke. That was so upseting. It really did hurt to see that. That was only the first time I cried when. Tears are always on my face. I hate it, I miss him. Kurt was Kurt, and nobody is quite like him. I remember the time that he slushied himself for Finn, he would take them for everybody to protect us, and they did gun for him for often then us, just because of something like his sexuality. It just wasn't fair, that is just like gunning for me because I am Asian. And I feel even worse, because he wouldn't have loved New York, and he just transfered back and started to date Blaine, and that just makes it worse, because Blaine was crushed.
Kurt's POV
I didn't know that Tina would feel that pasionally about my death. It seems like she just wouldn't care. I guess I was somewhat loved...
Burt's POV
That was my boy, my son! How did I not notice that something was off? HOW?! I can't believe it. I remember seening his cold, pale, dead body. It still hurts. It will hurt forever. How could he do that? Why did he see that as an option? He could have talked to me, or to the Glee club that he simply loves so much. I mean, why did he do that. I missed work for the last week. He was just so little, he had big dreams. It was the first time that I cried since his mom died. This just isn't fair, first my wife, then my son... WHY? It hurts more than he will ever know because he is gone. And I have never been one for words, so this is all that I have to say, about this. When the coutsler told me about the pamphlete that he was reading, "Ending it all, Pros and Cons," I should have done more.
Kurt's POV
Wow, he somehow made me feel worse than I already do, more guilty.
Artie's POV
Having to be there for Tina, my bestfriend, I haven't really felt anything about his death. I mean, it feels like yesterday, that I was dared along with Tina to join Glee, and then today, that I met Kurt. He was so kind, and he treated me like a person, something that I cannot say about most people. Kurt was Kurt, and that is all that I can say.
Kurt's POV
I made him feel like a person? I mattered? I never thought that I did.
Mercede's POV
Why would he do that? He was spending so much time with Blaine, I thought he was happy. I mean, no he isn't dead, this is just some bad joke, and even though deep down I know it isn't a joke, admitting it is like accepting it, and I can't do that so, this is just some sick joke, that is not funny. He was one of the girls, and my girls don't die, they live on forever, even if it just is in my heart.
Kurt's POV
Denial.
Karofsky's POV
Why did I bully him? For being confident, and proud of who he is? Why did I kiss him? I scared him off. Why? Why? Why? I was stupid, of course he didn't like me. I hate myself for it.
Kurt's POV
Yeah right, of course this is how he feels.
Mr. Shue
Why didn't I notice? That was my student. Today, everybody was fighting over his favorite ascot, and while nobody would notice, I took it. I stole it. Everybody was upset and fighting over who took it. At least nobody thought that it was me. I went home that night and cried, and talked to it as though it was Kurt. "Why did you do it," I found myself asking over and over again.
Kurt's POV
I broke his heart. I hate this. If only I could go back.
Emma's POV
When I caught him reading my pamphlete, "Ending it all, Pros and Cons," I should have called him in, and talked to him more, instead of just talking to his dad. I should have done both, and more. I should have called in an assembly and talk about taking ones life and how that is always a last resort if any, no, it isn't even an option. Why didn't I do more?
Kurt's POV
Yeah, why didn't she?