WEDNESDAY 6TH JANUARY
Carla:
Today's been hard, very hard, Johnny's deteriorating and it doesn't look good and aside from that Peter's gone to Scotland with Ken
For starters I arrived at the Rovers, to check on Si of course, he's not been himself since Peter left and I can't help but feel I'm to blame, walking into the backroom I spotted Johnny there, newspaper in hand
"Where's Simon?" I asked, secretly I was keeping on him, he was my father how could I not worry about him, his trail was upcoming and I needed to spend every last second with him
Johnny just shrugged at me, walking out, did I do something? Was he annoyed of what I'd done?
Jenny reassured me he was the same with her, a sense of relief in my stomach but also concern for Jenny, she wasn't her happy self
Sitting down I spoke to Jenny, I did my best to keep her mood up but it wasn't going well as the conversation turned to Johnny, I had to speak to him
Once he'd come back I snuck back in, seeing him sat on the sofa
"Oh it's you" he said to me with a soft smile
It was nice to know he wasn't mad at me, I can't deal with Peter being mad at me but Johnny too?
I sat down and told him I was adamant everything would be ok, he advised me not to worry and said he needed to serve justice
I can't be without him, he's the only rock in my life at the moment to lean on, if he goes down I'm gonna struggle, I needed to help Peter but I needed support from Johnny, my father
I told him I can help him and Peter, he needs to be strong but I don't think he's listening, I think he's giving up, just like Peter..
Thoughts ran through my head, I can't loose Peter either, if he dies and Johnny goes down who do I have?
Michelle's in Ireland and Kate's abroad, as for Rob well.. that's a long story, plus the Barlows aren't too happy with me and well Roy, he's already ageing he doesn't need my stress
Johnny informed me and Jenny his sight was deteriorating, great, just great, adding to all the problems
All the thoughts bubbling in my mind it's getting too much, I've just gotten off the anti psychotics I really don't need them back, Peter needed to be ok, Johnny needed to be ok, that's all I needed to be ok
I did my best to keep control of it and Jenny went to ask Imran if the trial could be postponed, sitting in the booth and watching Johnny clean the tables I thought some more
How long would Johnny be sent down for? Could he go to the same one as Rob? When's Peter getting back?
Jenny came in and informed us that Imran said there's nothing they can do..
Guess we're gonna have to wait for the trial aren't we
Carla Connor over and out..