After their experience and Kaz's feelings with Bea's spirit hasn't been coming around as much anymore. And she was getting sad, Kaz didn't want to be Topdog anymore she was exhausted. It's going to be 4 years since Bea died and became Topdog. It's not fucking fair that Bea wasn't here to be with her, and thinking of hurting herself then maybe killing herself, and that what Kaz did. She started cutting herself on her leg for a while and not tell anyone about it, she wanted to be with the love of her life forever
Kaz had Bea's knife and got her crew went Ferguson's cell then grabbed her behind and got ready for murder. "What do you want?" Kaz wasn't having it that day and not having a great start with especially starting herself that morning. She knows that Ferguson can smell her weakness "Why did you do murder Bea?"
"You know what happened, Proctor" Kaz wasn't having it and needed the answers that she wanted "You didn't answer my question, Why did you kill my girlfriend?" Ferguson didn't want to answer her, Kaz got Bea's knife out and put it at her neck "Ferguson, I'm going to ask you one more time. If you don't have this knife going in" getting her to talk to Kaz was hard at first "Why did you do it?" It was long a sharr down between Ferguson and Kaz
"Because she made me do it, Bea wanted to die and she died because of you" Kaz was trying not to cry in front of her "That's not true, I don't believe you" and trying to get her shit together. She is doing this Bea and for her justice "Vera and Will knew about her death, go ask them. They will tell you" Kaz doesn't believe her for one bit
"Why did you finish the job? You could've dropped the screwdriver after she did it the second time. Why did you keep going?" Ferguson didn't have an answer to that and Kaz told her crew to wait outside the door then close it after them. After they close the door Kaz was ready to murder her and she did it, Kaz stabbed her until Ferguson took her last breath, she wore an extra sweater and wore plastic gloves. Kaz took off the sweater and washed the gloves, then she came out of the cell and as they were leaving Kaz pushed the button and went their units
It had been 2 months of being locked down and the women were getting crazy. Mr. Jackson went to see Kaz with updates "What's going on Mr. Jackson?" He told her everything about Ferguson being murdered "Did you anything about Ferguson's death by any chance" Kaz said she didn't know anything about her murder "Nobody is talking but I'm not stopping, you probably don't care about her because of Bea's death"
Kaz's heart melts for her "I miss her so much, I wish she was still here" he put his hand on her shoulder "Me too, I wish she was here. Just seeing you both so happy and in love with each other it made my heart melt. It's not the same without her" Mr. Jackson lifted, Kaz went into her cell and closed the door. She got into bed and had Bea's sketchbooks out and started looking at them
For hours and hours, she just wanted to see Bea's face again. And wanted to see her one last time but that last time was never enough. Kaz saw a drawing that she never saw before and she knew this sketchbook off by heart, then hearing that lockdown was over but she was just looking at this drawing that she had never seen before. The drawing was Bea and her, they were cuddling together on the couch and Bea was kissing her on the cheek
They both had their tattoos of the two seahorses holding tails on their left arms, it looked like Bea did it a week before their anniversary and she was crying so hard. Her heart was hurting so bad, Kaz hugged the book just crying and Allie came in to check on her and saw Kaz crying her eyes out. Allie gave her a hug and they talked about Bea for a while "Bea loved you so fucking much, she abore you. You were her world" after Allie went to bed, Kaz looked at the drawing for a long time with tears coming down her face. She put the sketchbooks away and laid down on the bed, and she stared into space
Went into this vision and it was like a memory, it was her and Bea lying on grass looking at clouds and having a great laugh. They would talk about their future together and Bea looked at Kaz with the love in her eyes and she was smiling at her "I love you so much baby, I wish we can be together again" Kaz looked at Bea and didn't know what she meant by that "What do you mean? We are together, my love"
They both stood up at the same time "No we're not together, I'm dead and you're not" then Bea went white like a ghost, her eyes were sunk in her head and she was covered in blood on her stomach. Where Bea got stabbed
Kaz screamed out her memory, she rubbed her eyes and looked at her tattoo then saw a big the Bruise on her left arm. Right on her tattoo and it was Bea's hand, it was hurting so bad and Kaz thought that Bea was trying to tell her something but doesn't know what. She needs to talk to her now, Kaz sat up and hoped that she would get an answer from Bea "Hello, my love I hope you can hear me. My love, I need you and some questions to be answered" and wait for her come
7 minutes went by and Bea spirit didn't come around, Kaz wanted to talk and see her. She went to bed and fell asleep really quick, 3 hours in and she started to have another dream of her and Bea. But this time they were in Bea's cell talking and getting their tattoos together and this is Kaz's last chance "My love, I need to talk to you about something" Bea stops and looks at her with fear in her eyes
"What is it?, my love" Kaz told Bea some things that needed to be fixed and personal matters. Bea was telling her truthful answers about everything that Kaz wanted answers through answers from her "What about the day you died, You have lifted your family and girlfriend that have been with you for a year and 2 weeks" Kaz started to cry
"And you think that I didn't try, I lived as long as possible to be with you but I was losing so much blood. I died right before help came and tried to save me but it was too late, the thing is that I was saving us because I fucking loved you around the earth and back" Bea was starting to faded away and Kaz woke up from her dream
Kaz got some of her answers knowing that Ferguson is now dead and Bea is not here to be with her and having 8 more years to go is going to be rough for her. And not knowing what the future might hold for Kaz for the women here