I admit, there are many things I don't understand. I'm not excellent at math, I won't grow up to be a scientist, and I certainly won't be a teacher, but one thing I really don't understand is friendship. Like how can some people make friends so easily? And, how come some people have no friends at all? Sometimes, I see people that are all the same, and they're best friends, and I think to myself that maybe similarity is key, but then I look and see people who are completely different, but also best friends, and I think maybe contrast is best. More recently, though, I've been thinking that maybe it's a combination. Maybe people find joy in other people who like the same things, but also different things as well. Or maybe it varies from person to person, but if my theory is correct than, why, tell me, why..can't Rin and Yuki become friends?
They're so similar it hurts. I can see it from afar and up close. They both need someone, so, why not each other? They are both so lonely. Rin is lonely, and it shows, in her actions and in her eyes, and Yuki, he does a better job of hiding it, and he has created an act of self-confidence, which for some reason, he can't make real, but he's the same. He's lonely, too.
Rin has a philosophy that prevents her from, in her words, "leeching", on the kind. Even though, nothing makes them happier than helping, and it is only bad if you begin to take advantage of them, and inconvenience them, just because you know they'll let you. In her mind, Tohru and I, are kind. I know Tohru is, but I, am just a person, doing what he can, because it's the right thing to do. I guess they see us as their individual caretakers, in a sense, and somehow, Rin believes that Yuki is inconveniencing me, but he's not. She always sat out when I went to visit, and I think perhaps she might have been trying to keep me safe, by playing the lookout, but perhaps, she was examining Yuki from a distance, either too proud, or too shy to admit she wanted to be his friend, and she claims to hate him.
Yuki has never expressed his opinion of Rin to me, but I suspect he does not feel mutual hatred toward her. He's too kind for that, and I believe that if I could get Rin to see that, they could become close, because they're exactly the same. It's in keeping with myth, though, that a Rat's worse match is the Horse, but, a myth is a myth because it's not confirmed, and maybe, there's actually hope.