It's been now a month since Kim started taking care of Makayla, we haven't met since that point of time, I mean we talked at the district about the cases we got but really, we haven't talked in weeks like we did before. When she told me she wants it, the proposal, the wedding, kids and all that stuff. I want it to tell her I want it too; I want it with her but I want us to take the time we need, so when she told me she will take Makayla I have been shocked epically a day after she told me something about the trauma we had. I asked Kevin two times about Kim when we caught up but he tells me to talk with her and that we should get our shit together and be there for each other. So, I decided to do something big, very big and romantic, to show her that I want it with her and that I want to be there for Makayla too and that I am honest. I have planned a picnic in the parc with a big self-made breakfast, also I have bought something for Kim and Makayla and I am really nervous how they will react when I am standing in the front of their apartment. Now I am standing in front of a pancake mix at 7am in my kitchen and figure out how I do these pancakes with a robotic manual. Damn this are only pancakes and not rocket science.
Its 7am and our day off, it's been now a month since I have Makayla and we start getting a routine. She started talking more but still doesn't say a lot. For today we have nothing to do so we will spend the day at home maybe go to the parc. Makayla is sleeping next to me, she comes every morning at 4am in my bed and continue sleeping there. I look out of the window and think about me and Adam if there is an he and me. We haven't talked since weeks and I kind a miss him. I don't know where we stand or anything else, when I told him what I want and I imagined me having it with him, I don't want to put pressure on him and now where we are... I don't know anything. Is he afraid of having a family with me? Does he even want to be with me? My thoughts are a mess and Makayla put me out of them. "Kimmy, where is my platypus?" Makayla asked me full of tiredness. "It's here. Do you want breakfast or should we stay in bed longer?" I said and gave her the platypus. "Stay." Makayla said. "Did you sleep well?" I asked her. "Only one bad dream tonight." Makayla told me. "That's great and you know that you can come in my bed no matter if it's in the middle of the night." I said. "Every time?" Makayla said. "Yes, you can come to me no matter what because we are a family and I love you." I said and kissed her head. When we stand up to made breakfast there was a knock at the front door. "Do you want to try this pullover?" I asked her when there was a knock at the front door. "Ya!" Makayla said slightly. "Do you want to check out with me who is at the door?" I said she said nothing but followed me till the living room and kinda hide behind the food bench. I checked the peephole and found Adam with a basket in his hands he also has a bouquet of flowers and his hands. Why is he here? Why now? What is in the basket and why the flowers and what is he gonna do? I opened the door, he smiles, his typical smile which makes me always gonna fall for him and I smiled back at him. "Hello Kim." Adam said. "Hey Adam, Kayla looks who is here, do you remember Adam from that night once." I said and Makayla nodded and came behind the couch. "Kayla? Ugh?" Adam said and raised his eyebrows. "Yes, Kayla is my nickname for her." I explained him. Makayla came to us, she stood behind me, slightly hugging my leg. "You don't have to be scared it's just Adam and you have seen him at the district when we were there." I said and she came behind my leg. "Hey Makayla, you look great, I really like your pullover." Adam greeted her. "Hello, Kimmy I am hungry." Makayla softly answered. "Good because that's why I am actually here, I brought breakfast for the three of us and thought about we could make a picnic in the parc around the corner." Adam said. "You planed this and why the flowers?" I asked him. "The flowers are for you as a apologize for being a dick in the last few weeks." Adam said and handed me the flowers. "Thank you, but you don't have to do that and you are not a dick." I said, we walked inside my apartment and I put the flowers down. "So, what have you planned and what do we need?" I asked him. "I have all, I just need you two girls." Adam said and smiled at Makayla and me. "Okay just jackets." I said. We put our coats on and walked to the parc. The walk to the parc was spend in silence, Makayla always hold my hand and smiled just of the thought of going to the parc and having a picnic there. We still have no idea how her life looked like before the homicides or how she was before she suffered this trauma. Adam smiled too. I still don't have any idea what is going to happen. We found the perfect place for the picnic near by the playground but far away enough that we don't her the screams from the playing kids there. When we sat down Adam packed all out of the basket, he has made all, bacon, fruit, coffee, two kinds of juices, crumble egg and his famous blueberry chocolate chip pancakes, I saw something being on the ground of the basket but he didn't put it out so I ignored it. "Adam, that's a lot you have made for us, you don't have to do it." I told him. "I wanted to. Makayla what do you want to eat? My famous and Kim's favorite pancakes with blueberry's and chocolate chips or my self-made French toasts with my secret ingredients." Adam said, Makayla looked like she is thinking hard. "I am gonna take the pancakes because these are the best I ever ate." I told her. "Pancakes." She decided for. "Okay and then I am gonna pick the French toast." Adam said and made a plate for Makayla after he refused that I am gonna do it.
We ate together in silence, Kim was watching Makayla and I were watching her. We were playing with our forks when two kids around 6 years came to us and with a mom. "We wanted to ask if she want to play with us?" the girl said. "Okay, Makayla do you want to play with..." Kim asked Makayla. "I am Tommy and this is my sister Taylor." The boy said. "So, do you?" Kim asked. Makayla looked at us like she doesn't want to. "Maybe later but now we want to spend some time with her." I said. "Too bad but you look very nice." Taylor said. "Yeah, we sit down the playground if she wants to play with Tommy and Taylor." The mom said. "Okay bye." I said and they left.
When they left, we heard the boy ask his mother something. "Mommy why is their daughter black and doesn't look like her parents?" he said. "What do you mean Tommy?" The mom said. "Her parents are white and she is black and can she even talk because she said nothing?" Tommy said. "Maybe she is just a friend's kid and they take care of her." The mom said. "Yes, she is our daughter! I think it should be normal when parents spend their day with their daughter..." Adam said angrily. "Adam let them." I said and reached for his arm when he stands up. "No Kim! I think it shouldn't matter how the kid looks or if it has a different skin color! She gets' the love she needs, you are doing an amazing job and I see how you look at Makayla and other turn! You are an amazing mom to her and when I see you with her it melts my heart." Adam said. "I am sorry for the miss understanding Mister but I think we gonna go!" The woman said and left. Makayla stand up and hugged him. "Thanks." She whispers in Adam's waist. "No problem." Adam said and kissed her on her head. "Adam you don't have to do that." I told him. "No, I want to do that. You mean a lot to me and Makayla mean a lot to you and with that she means a lot to me too." Adam answered. "Okay. Can I ask you something?" Kim asked. "Before you start I want to tell you something." Adam said. "Okay but I think we should talk actually too because I want to know what about our relationship." I said. "Kim, when you told me that you want it all. I wanted to tell you I want it too and I want it with you! When you told me that you are fostering Makayla I was shocked and I needed a while to get my head around it. We lost our baby not even a year ago and seeing you with Makayla is so bittersweet because we could have it all with our own kid. I always wanted to be the dad of your kids and I know we have to talk a lot but I want it with you. I want to give you the proposal, a romantic one, I know that the first wasn't romantic or anything but I have grown a lot lately. I want to give you the wedding and not in a bad banquet hall because you deserve a better one. You know I would drive with you to the city hall but I want to give you the wedding of your dreams. I want to have so many babies like you want and we start with this little adorable and super sweet next girl to us. Hey, I even want to give you the chaos and the mess, hell I can give you the mess every day if you want. Kim I love you and I ant it all with you. I want to spend the rest of my life with you." Adam ended his little speech. "Adam ...I really appreciate it but I don't want to get heartbroken again. I love you too but I am scared if we get together and I will let you in, but after a few months decide that it's nothing for you and leave us. I have Makayla to take care of and then you can't walk in our life in and out whenever you want." Kim told. "Kim, it always had been us we went through so much and end of the day it had been us. I want us to try again and I am gonna prove you that I have change." I answered. "I want it with you too!" Kim said. I lend to her face and then my lips met hers, it was like the time stood still, it was a small and soft kiss but it had been full of love and promises. When we parted we looked each other deep in the eyes. Damn, I love this hazel brown eyes. "I know this will be a long way but we get through it." I whispered against her soft lips. "I know." Kim said.
The day at the parc had been amazing, after Adam and I talked we went with Makayla to the swings and played with her. She loves Adam, I can't blame her, Adam makes her smile so many times and lit her word up. I never have seen her so happy. I am had been very happy since a long time and the whole day had been great. After we went to the parc we went getting ice cream. Adam had ice cream on his nose and Makayla too but full of laugh Adam let his ice fell down and we laughed much more and I shared my ice cream with Adam which ended in a chaos, at least Makayla had her fun. After being the whole morning outside we went home, we all had been cold, I mean it's November and we had a picnic outside. We made a Disney movie marathon. Through the second movie Makayla asleep in Adams arms who was anyway sleeping since an hour. For diner we ordered Bartoli's after Jay recommended to Adam. It was the perfect day. Adam and I still have to talk a lot but this had been a good start.