Description: My version of how Joey and Pacey reconnect.
Disclaimer: I own nothing but the story and Peter.
Authors Note: If you read, I'll write.
Love Letters:
Chapter #1
(Pacey's letter)
Merry Christmas Joey Potter. Sorry that I missed your visit on Thanksgiving. I'm told congratulations are in order, heard you found yourself a good boyfriend. From what Jen tells me, he must be an alright guy. Apparently Dawson even likes the guy. That must have been an awkward introduction. Could you imagine if I hadn't gotten stuck at work? What a joy it would have been attempting to explain our sorted and complex relationship.
Look, about that…I'm sorry our friendship has drifted. I'm actually sorry about everything that went down between us senior year. A few years back, I wrote a letter apologizing for the hurtful words I said to you that night. When I never got any response from you? Well, I sort of assumed that you wanted nothing to do with me. Figured maybe you tore the letter up or burnt it. Honestly, I wouldn't have blamed you if that were the case Jo. Kind of explains why I have been keeping my distance.
Figured it would be easier for you to move on if I just kept away. Thing is, I miss you, Joey. You're one of my oldest friends besides Dawson. The three of us were always together growing up. Hell, remember how I spend my days relentlessly tormenting you? There was a time where I lived for our daily banter, Potter. We pretended to be sworn enemies, but when either one of us needed the other? We were always there for each other without fail.
You will never know how sorry I am that to know that I am the one who screwed all of that up. Seeing you walk away from me that night? Knowing I was the reason there were tears in your eyes? It killed me not to be able to go after you. Funny thing is, I never meant a single word that I said. My damn insecurities got the best of me and something just snapped that night. How were you to know how unhappy I was? Not once did I ever come to you about all the doubts I had been having. All I had to do was talk to you about what was going on with me and that night never would have happened.
Not sure why it is that I'm writing this letter to you. From what I'm being told you finally seem happy again. Last thing that I would ever want to do is ruin that for you, Joey. Guess I was hoping there was a chance you could ever truly forgive me for that night? I know that we've hung out and been civil with one another since, that's not what I want anymore though. If possible, I'd love to have my friend back again. Suppose that if I don't receive a letter back in return I'll have answer.
It's a little over two weeks before Christmas as I'm writing this letter. By the time you get it, we'll both be on our way to Capeside. I considered sending this to your dorm room, but it's my hope you'll read it before the Leery Christmas party. That said, I put your address in Capeside on the envelope. Wrote a short separate note for Bessie. I miss you, Potter and if you will let me…I'd like to be in your life again.
I'll understand if you're not ready to forgive me for that horrible night at prom quite yet, Joey. Either way, I hope you'll have an amazing Christmas.
Sincerely, Pacey J. Witter -
Sealing the letter in an envelope carefully, I write Joey's home address on it. On the front of the envelope, I address the letter to Potter and a second one to Bessie. It is a long shot to say the least but this is something I have been meaning to do for a while. I'm not expecting a simple letter to magically change things between Joey and I. Figured it was time for one of us to make the first move towards a friendship again. Somehow knew it wasn't going to be Joey, not anytime soon at least.
Guess all there is left to do now is wait and hope for the best. Placing a stamp on each envelope, I walk outside and put them in the mailbox. Flipping the tiny red flag up, I walk back inside. At the end of the day, I only want Potter to be happy…even if its not with me. This guy she is with these days, Peter, I think his name is? According to Jen, Joey likes him a lot. From what I have heard about him, he sounds like an alright guy. Definitely not the sort who would be dumb enough to risk losing her. What the hell was I thinking that night at Prom? Oh, that's right, I wasn't. When I saw Joey dancing with Dawson and smiling, I lost it.
Every single insecurity I bottled up came spewing out before I had a chance to think twice. It was never my intention to wreck Potter's heart that night. Worst part, I regretted every single word that came out of my mouth immediately after I'd said them. If friendship is all I ever have again with Joey? I'm alright with that, I only want to be apart of her life once more. Not being able to hangout and spend time with her is slowly killing me. The only person I have to blame is myself.