Without you, I feel broke
Like I'm half of a whole
Without you, I've got no hand to hold
Without you, I feel torn
Like a sail in a storm
Without you, I'm just a sad song
I'm just a sad song
-We The Kings
The snowy Colorado weather was playing its part outside her window. Meredith stood, dressed in a nightgown watching the blizzard that was happening while cradling her 9-month baby bump.
That's right, she was pregnant and was due to give birth any day. In fact, she was overdue by a week. She had moved to Colorado leaving everything she had known behind, her friends and what family she had left. She couldn't stand to be in the house where she and Derek made beautiful memories that would always be near and dear to her heart. The house that he had built for the two of them. She also couldn't stand to work in the same hospital he had died in, so she transferred to Colorado where she worked as a general surgeon.
She had bought a beautiful house that looked over the mountains, it was a 2 story with a fireplace and wrap-around balconies that she absolutely adored. She was still stood at the window, rubbing her hand back and forth over her bump wishing Derek was there with her. She thought the situation was completely screwed up. They had tried for years to have a baby and she had managed to get pregnant once just to lose the baby a few weeks later and just a month after he had died she found out she was carrying their daughter.
She wasn't sure she wanted to continue with the pregnancy, she was a mess. But she also couldn't imagine killing something that was both of them. Of the man, she loved with everything she was.
Turning around she started walking over to the rocking chair she had in front of the fireplace. She only stopped when she felt a pop and a gush of fluid exploded from her. She looked down to see the hardwood soaked.
Panic ran through her like ice in her veins. "No! No! No! This cant is happening now" she muttered. She was alone and snowed in. She had already gotten an alert saying that the city was basically shut down and nobody could get anywhere which for Meredith meant that there was no way paramedics could get to her.
She grabbed some towels out of the closet and a pair of scissors and headed up to her bedroom. She spread a blanket out onto the floor and a pillow before climbing into bed. Slowly she took her pants off and checked her dilation herself, it had been years since she had helped deliver a baby but she was sure she remembered how to.
"4" she muttered. "Ok, we have a while." Closing her eyes she blew out a breathe, scared out of her mind. She needed someone, anyone. She wasn't close with anyone at work, it was all business with her. Grabbing her phone, she went through her contacts trying to figure out who she could call.
"Kerev" she whispered. She clicked his name and pressed the video chat button. It rang and rang and she was getting nervous.
"Hey, Mer" Alex said when he answered. "How have you been?"
Meredith groaned. "Well, right now we are snowed in and I'm in labor. I'm scared Alex I don't think I can do this alone."
"You are pregnant?" Alex asked. They had kept in contact after she had left but she never mentioned the pregnancy.
"Yes, I found out after Derek died. It's why I left. I couldn't stay there--" she groaned as a contraction came on and held her breath until it passed. "I couldn't be around all the reminders and I sure as hell did not want to deliver this baby at the hospital where I've lost so many people."
Alex sighed. He understood. "I know, I get it, Meredith. Hey, if you want I'll stay on video chat with you during this."
"You Will?"
"Yeah, you shouldn't be alone." He paused for a minute. "Hey someone wants to say hi." He turned his phone screen and Izzy appeared on the screen.
"Hey Meredith!" Izzy smiled. Meredith gave her a small smile and waved. She could hear Alex explaining that she was in labor.
"Meredith, how dilated are you?" Alex asked.
"Only 4" she sighed.
"Well, why don't you try and get some sleep and call me back when you wake up, you will need the energy." Alex said.
"Yeah, good idea. I'll talk to you later" Meredith said before hitting the exit button. She placed her phone on the nightstand and laid down just in time for another contraction. She closed her eyes and rode it out caressing her stomach in the process. Her little girl was moving around, which was making her hurt worse.
"Calm down baby girl, we will meet each other soon." She whispered before succumbing to sleep.
She awoke a few hours later to a much more painful contraction. She gritted her teeth and buried her face in her pillow until it was over. When it was she rolled onto her back and checked her dilation again.
"7, that's progress" she breathed. She grabbed her phone and called Alex back.
"Hey Meredith, did you sleep?"
"Yeah but contraction woke me up. I'm at 7 right now so it shouldn't be much longer."
Her labor had stalled. Alex was a great birthing coach, trying to keep her calm whenever a contraction racked her body telling her to breathe and that she was doing a good job. She couldn't help but think that Derek should be here being her coach, watching as she brought their child into the world.