A/N: This takes place at the end of season 1. Meredith already knows Lexie. This is a rewrite of a story I once wrote on wattpad. Flashbacks are written in cursive

Meredith groaned as she pushed the door of the bathroom stall closed. She dropped the second pregnancy test she did that day in the bin before walking towards the hallway. The beeping of her pager shook her out of her thoughts, she reached for her pager and read the message : 911 Room 212. ''Fuck, that's Anna'' muttered Meredith as she started running towards the stairway.

She reached her patients room just as a nurse was rushing in with a crash cart. '' Push one of epi and charge to 200'' yelled Meredith as she started cpr on the patient. '' Clear''. Meredith turned towards the heart monitor and sighed with relief ''We have a rhythm, can someone page Dr. Burke for a consult?''.

Meredith walked out of the room relieved and leaned on to the nurse's station to update the chart. '' Meredith? Please talk to me?''. Meredith turned her head slowly and panicked as she saw Derek, staring at her, his eyes pleading. ''No Derek, we are not going to talk about it. You are married. There is nothing to talk about here, except that you didn't tell me. I have no interest in talking to you anymore. Only talk to me if it is work related. Otherwise leave me the hell alone''.

Meredith hurried away, furious, she didn't realize Cristina was walking next to her until she reached the elevator. '' Are you okay Mer?''. ''No, but I don't want to talk about it now''. Cristina turned over to face Meredith '' Want to talk tonight? We can grab a drink at Joe's?'' . ''Sounds good''.

Meredith gently touched her stomach as she nervously walked towards the bathroom, she waited a few minutes before reaching out to grab the stick. Two pink stripes. Again. She had been testing it for a few weeks now, but she refused to believe it. She threw the positive test into the bin and walked towards the changing room to change out of her scrubs. Cristina entered as she was brushing her hair '' I just scrubbed in with Dr Burke for a heart valve repair, I am already a cardio goddess''. '' Cool'' smiled Meredith absently.

Once Cristina was dressed, both women made their way towards Joe's bar. They entered the bar and took a seat, Cristina ordered two shots of tequila and held her shot up towards Meredith. '' Cristina, I can't-...''. '' Come on, one shot won't hurt you''. '' It won't hurt me, but it will hurt the fucking baby'' muttered Meredith.

Cristina's shot glass slipped through her fingers to the ground and shattered into pieces. '' You're what? Is it... Derek's baby?'' exclaimed Cristina. Meredith nodded her head slowly. '' I need to tell you something else, you need to understand that I don't have a choice. You're my person, and I can't be without you but I have to go. I put a deposit on a house in Boston, I leave next week. My last day is tomorrow''.

''Chief, can I talk to you?'' Meredith asked, as she gently knocked on the door of Dr. Webber's office. ''Sure, Meredith. Come in''. Meredith took a seat opposite of Dr. Webber and looked up afraid. '' I would like to hand in my resignation effective immediately, I would like it if you could write me a letter of recommendation for Boston General''. Dr. Webber was quiet for a while ''Meredith why? Is it because of Addison?''. ''No it is not chief, I'm sorry. I prefer not to give my reasoning''.

'' Is there a way I could convince you to stay?'' he asked. Meredith slowly nodded her head '' No Chief, the only thing I'd like right now is a letter of recommendation from you''. Dr. Webber sighed '' I'll have it ready for you at the end of the day''.

''You're leaving?'' whispered Cristina, hurt written all over her face. '' I have to, I can't stay here, I can't work with him. I just can't. I want to raise this baby. But not with him''. Cristina looked up surprised '' Really? You're keeping it? You can't keep the thing without telling Derek about it''. '' It's my baby, and I'm not telling him, and neither are you'' hissed Meredith as she reached for her bag and her coat. '' Meredith come on'' yelled Cristina as she watched Meredith walk away.

Meredith woke up that next morning by the ringing of her alarm, she walked towards the kitchen where Alex and Izzie were eating their breakfast. '' Why is there no goddamn coffee'' sighed Meredith as she slammed the empty can on the counter. ''Someone's cranky'' muttered Izzie to Alex. '' Shut up'' hissed Meredith as she rushed back up towards her room, she looked through the boxes she had already packed and grabbed a sweater before going back down again.

Once she arrived at the hospital she made her way towards Dr. Bailey, she was on her service today. '' Grey, I see you're with me today''. Meredith nodded and followed Dr. Bailey into the patient room. '' Grey, present''. '' Miss Whittaker, admitted last night with severe abdominal pain. They ran a CT last night and found a mass near the liver. Miss Whittaker is scheduled to have the mass removed today''. '' Thank you Dr. Grey, Do you have any questions before the surgery? Dr. Bailey asked the patient. '' No, I don't''. ''Grey, prep the patient, you can scrub in with me. Miss Whittaker, I will see you in the OR''.

Meredith prepped the patient, and chatted with her until they reached the OR. ''Dr. Grey'' Miss Whittaker said, '' I'm scared''. Meredith sighed kindly '' I can imagine. But Dr. Bailey is a great surgeon and you are in the best hands''. Meredith watched them put Miss Whittaker under as she scrubbed in. Meredith assisted Dr. Bailey in the surgery and went to lunch after that. Meredith was about to take a bite of her food when she felt a gentle tap on her shoulder '' Meredith? Can we talk?'' asked Cristina. Meredith felt Izzie and George's eyes on her as she shrugged her shoulders '' I have nothing to say. I've said it all Cristina''. '' Yes, have you said it all Meredith? Have you told your friends that you are leaving after today?''.

George spit his food out surprised '' You're leaving? Why?''. '' Why didn't you say anything?'' chimed Izzie in. '' Thank you very much Cristina'' yelled Meredith before turning towards George and Izzie. '' Today is my last day and I'm not talking about it''.