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Brothers for life right ?

I watched as the city below me passed the day off as another. Cars drove past, adults answered calls and children played.

Here I was at the edge of the building me and my brothers knew so well. Many times we had practiced here, kicked some serious butt here. However many times I had questioned jumping off here. My bandana blew in the wind , the ribbon pressed against my head tight. What would they do if they knew??What would they say?? Could they stop their brother or would they just encourage the demons inside me to jump?

Ah I threw my hands to my head. It was too much to think, if I thought I would delay and I didn't have the time for that. Soon my brothers would wake up to the notes I left in each room. They would either panic... or carry on like nothing ever happened. Deep down I knew what it would be... but the voices told me otherwise. They won't care... they didn't care when you cried every night. When the nightmares got too much. What did they do for you "brother"?

The breeze of New York blew against my chest. Tightening it. I stepped forward looking down on the ally I planned to escape from. Sunrise beamed over the buildings brightly and I took another step. I had a faint grin on my face knowing this would be it, I could end this all right now and finally be at peace. Peace never comes for the living , only the dead. And that's exactly what I wanted to be... Another step and my toes were at the edge, I closed my eyes and placed my weapons beside me for I shall leave a memory of me with my siblings. Just as I went to take my final step that peace I was going to know so well was ruined by a angry voice shouting.

"LEO! Don't ya fuckin dare!"

I turned to see my brother in red Raphael running towards me, was he crying? I've never seen that. I smiled at him though for this was it. I leant back and watched the city become the sky. Falling has never been a fear of mine...

I guess that's why they call me "fearless"...

That is part one complete! Please leave feedback and like etc it means so much to hear from you guys especially as this world is crazy right now! See you soon for part 2!!! Xx