Hey everyone. I have decided to make this a faberrittana story instead of a fapezberry story. This is just going to be a repost of the first chapter with a couple of edits as will the next chapter that I post. The first couple of chapters will be taken down. Hope you all are still interested. I am looking forward to hearing from you.
Santana's Pov
"I can't do this anymore,'' Rachel said as tears welled up in her eyes as she gestured between my body and hers.
I was flabbergasted. What did she mean? Did she mean she doesn't want to be with me, with us? Was she really breaking up with me right now when I was just coming to wish her good luck and to break a leg before her performance? God! I am about to go bad shit crazy. Say something Santana, say something.
"Are you saying you can't do this anymore between you and I? Right before you go on stage you are going to break up with me", I said the anger was getting to me, "Are you serious right now? Is it just me? Did I do something wrong?"
"No Santana, it is not just you. It is all of you. I cannot be with you, any of you!"
Rachel screamed at me! I honestly was trying not to cry. This cannot be happening after everything we had been through. I thought we were all closer now than ever.
"San, I am sorry. I just can't be with all of you anymore", Rachel started to cry.
"No, you don't get to do this. You cannot cry because you are the one being the total crazy bitch. What did we do wrong?"
"Nothing San it wasn't any of you. It was me!" She cried out.
"Classy Rachel, real classy", I said as I stormed out of the room, "Break a leg Rachel."
"San I am so sorry", I heard Rachel yell after me, "I am sorry".
How can she just do that to us? Is she even going to tell the others? I couldn't stop. I had to get out of this place. I couldn't breathe and I really did not want to cry in front of all these people.
"Santana", I hear Quinn yell out as I ran past her, "Santana what's wrong?"
Nothing. I couldn't speak to her. I couldn't let her know what just happened. It would break her heart and I can't even think what this would do to Brittany.
If anyone asks,
I'll tell them we both just moved on
Rachel starts singing and it stills me. I can hear the pain in her voice. This wasn't the song she was supposed to sing not tonight. Why is her voice so beautiful? Please stop singing. The tears have started, there is nothing going to stop them now.
When people all stare
I'll pretend that I don't hear them talk
Whenever I see you,
I'll swallow my pride
And bite my tongue
Pretend I'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong
Quinn caught up to me and her arms were around me in a second. I turn and cry on her shoulder. I hate crying in front of people. I feel so weak and vulnerable. Rachel's voice is mesmerizing, and I can tell she is crying.
Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really cry?
Cry
"I have you baby. I have you", Quinn whispered into my ear.
I held onto her tighter. I wanted to escape. I loved her so much. How could she just give up on us? That was totally un-Rachel-like. I am going to miss her so much.
If anyone asks
I'll tell them we just grew apart
And what do I care
If they believe me or not
Oh, how many times will it take for me to get it right?
Whenever I feel
Your memory is breaking my heart
I'll pretend I'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong
I could tell Quinn knew something happened between Rachel and me. It honestly was pretty obvious. I was sobbing in Quinn's arms and Rachel was crying on stage.
Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really cry?
Cry!
Was Rachel going to be alone or did she have someone else? Is that why she broke up with us? Was Finn back in her life? If he was and she chose him maybe it was for the best. They really deserved each other.
"San, baby, what happened? What is going on?" Quinn whispered into my ear hoping that she would get a response.
I tried to say something, but the only thing I could get out of my mouth was, "She doesn't want us anymore."Quinn hugged me tighter. I knew she understood. I could feel her tears on my neck. Were we ever going to get over this heartbreak? This was more than I can bear, and if I could not bear it I don't know how Quinn and Brittany were going to handle this.
I felt another hand on my back and I knew Brittany was with us. I didn't know if she had been there the whole time or if she knew what had happened. I hoped I could save her heart from this heartbreak.
I knew it was too late when I heard Quinn whisper, "I am going to figure this out. Okay, I love you two and I am going to go figure this out."
I'm talking in circles
I'm lying, they know it
Why won't this just all go...
...Away!
I grabbed Quinn's arm. I knew it was too late to fix this at least today. I just wanted to go home and get into bed with my three, no two girls tonight. I shook my head telling her not to leave.
"Brittany take Santana to our car. I will be there in a minute. I love you San more than anything", Quinn said as she pulled away from me.