-Disclaimer: I do not own supernatural or it's characters

Dean Whinchester never felt fear like this other then the day their house caught on fire their mother stuck in a coma his father slowly becoming a drunk and his baby brother becoming his world.

Of course his mother did wake up his father because better at least when his mom was around and his baby brother had a childhood he never really had. But right now know of that mattered. Not when the boy with messy black hair and big blue eyes was sobbing to him on the phone saying he was sorry over and over again and that he didn't mean to cut too deep.

"Cas?! Cas you gotta listen to me I'll be there as soon as I can just keep talking to me alright? I'm not gonna let you die! You ca- I cant loose you. Just keep talking to me I'm on my way"

As Dean assured his bee loving boyfriend he was on his way he ran down the stairs apparently waking everyone up.

"Dean? What the hell are you doing?" John asked Mary and Sam right behind him.

"I need the keys dad! I can't explain I ju-"

Dean wasn't surprised at the slap he received but he was surprised that his father had enough alcohol in his system to do it in front of Sam and Mary

"John!"

"Dad!"

Dean didn't have time for this he needed to get to his angle. He ran to the garage and grabbed his old bike that hasn't been used since he was allowed to drive baby to school and back. But he needed to get to Cas and he didn't have time for them.

Dean didn't know if they followed him didn't know what they were doing now he just needed to get to Cas.

"Keep talking to me blue you gotta keep talking to me" Dean croaked

He couldn't see the rain was falling hard and it was too dark.

"I'm sorry Dean. I didn't mean to I just-"

"I know Cas I know I forgive ya but you gotta keep talking to me babe"

Dean saw the lights on at the Novak house. He knew most of the family was here at least all of Cas's siblings and maybe so cousins. According to Cas his mother wanted the whole family to be together for Christmas.

Dean knew Cas would have a hard time. He knew he should have at least snuck into his room but he was selfish and wanted to be alone because of his own family problems.

Dean fell off his bike getting a face full of mud. He felt sharp rocks cut at his legs. Dean found himself at the Novak's family front door and he knocked harder and harder.

Michael opened the door looking annoyed and confused.

"Winchester? What do yo- Hey! What are you doing!"

Dean didn't have time for this he ran up the stairs to Cas's room. He saw Gabriel on his way up there and yelled at him to call 911

"Cas! Cas get away from the door!"

As soon as Dean heard the almost silent shuffle he kicked the door down. By now the whole Novak family was up and yelling about how the cops would be called or why on earth was Castiel friends with him. Until they saw Cas in his room.

Cas was on the floor his hair stuck to his forehead blood slowly coming down his arm. He was more pale than Dean had ever seen him. He looked at Dean and gave out a small croak

"I'm here Cas it's gonna be ok I'm here. Gabriel called 911 don't worry Cas it'll be alright" Dean crooned brushing Cas's hair with his hand.

As if on cue paramedics came in and as soon as they saw Cas action was taken.

Before long Cas was on his way to the hospital or ER Dean didn't hear everything has been a blur.

Everyone seemed to be in shock and then Gabriel opened his mouth. Before the candy crack head could speak headlights blinded them all for a moment.

"Dean! What on earth are you doing! Get in the car right now young man!" Mary hissed at her oldest

She knew with what happened with John they all needed to talk but he shouldn't have left. Not when she didn't know if he was ok.

"Mrs. W Deano just saved my baby brother I don't know how much you know but right now I think all of us should go meet Mother and Father and wait for news about Cassie".

Mary looked at her son and what she saw made her heart stop. He was covered in mud but she could still see blood on his legs and his shirt looked drenched with blood but she knew that the blood the the shirt belonged to the boy she thought of as a son. But what made her heart stop was her baby's eyes. They held so much pain for someone so young.

"Come here Dean we'll go see Cas and get your legs checked. Gabriel your welcomed to sit in the back with Sam."

Mary knew that Gabriel was the other Novak child that wasn't close with his parents and had left for a reason. She just wished the boy would come and see the youngest Novak who seemed to look less and less happy and time passed unless he was with Dean.

Gabriel gave a stiff nod following them to the car. He knew he would have to explain what happened because Dean looked ready to break down at any moment but even he didn't understand it all. Gabriel knew as soon as everything has sunken in Dean and Castiel had a lot of explaining to do. Especially since Dean didn't look surprised at was he saw.