Chapter 4: Revelation

AN:* I'm backkkk! Sorry for the long unexpected break, but life and I have been boxing it out;) Looking for a Beta, so PM me!* *I do not own the Twilight Characters*

Bella's POV:

My mind was still spinning with the thought of possibly joining the Marines. I know I told Charlie 'yes' but now I'm having major doubts. The mere thought of it was obscured! Poor Charlie must be at the end of his rope with my brooding.

It must've taken him a lot of liquor courage.

'I'm the worst daughter of all fucking daughters'

After that unpleasant conversation with Dad, I headed out the door to my big rusty truck. "Shit! I should've grabbed a jacket," I muttered.

It was just like me to forget a jacket on one of the coldest and rainiest days of the year.

Starting my truck up and cutting on the heat, I waited till my hands were warm before taking off.

My mind was racing with possible scenarios on how my confrontation with Jacob would go. We could have this conversation as adults and do this the easy way or...the not so easy way.

'Either way, I'm getting answers, dammit!'

It would normally take me 20 minutes to reach La Push, but I made it in 10 minutes.

'And you're the daughter of the Chief'

Spotting Jacob's weather-beaten house, I pulled into the driveway. I looked into the windows of the house from my truck and I could swear I saw Billy pull the curtains close.

"Fine, you old fool," I said to myself.

I was determined to talk to Jacob and nothing would stop me. Before Edward left, I was 120lbs soaking wet. Now I'm 100lbs, but I would put the paws on anyone if they dared stop me.

Lost in thought, I almost screamed when Jacob knocked on my window. It was freezing outside and raining so hard it was almost impossible for me to see him. So, I wondered where the hell was his shirt?

Jacob had an annoyed look on his face, and then I realized I still hadn't rolled down the window.

'Pshh, I'll do you one better'

I opened the door and hopped out, but it was typical of me to trip on the wet gravel.

Jacob's big and hot temperature hands reached out to steady me.

"Jezus, Jake you're burning up!," I exclaimed.

"What do you want Bella?," Jacob asked me coldly. His face remained stoic and unreadable. This was not my Jake. My Jake was sunny even on a dreary day like this and my Jake would've invited me into his house to get out of the rain.

No, this was Sam's Jake.

I could feel myself warming up with adrenaline despite the biting and frigid weather. I was livid.

"Wha-what do I want?" I asked incredulously, "I want a damn explanation, Jacob Ephraim Black!"

Jacob's stoic mask fell for a split second and shock registered on his face. It was understandable considering I've never spoken to him or anyone like that before. Well, obviously people change or I wouldn't be in this situation risking catching pneumonia.

"Who says I owe you anything? I don't owe anything to the girl who's been moping around for months after a cold-ass corpse, putting all of her bullshit burden on me!," Jacob nearly yelled.

It was my turn to wear the shocked expression, "You don't owe me anything, but you should want to tell me since I'm your best friend," I stated while trying to hold back tears.

'Do not shed your pathetic tears, you're on a mission Isabella!'

'Wait, did he say corpse? How would he-'

"Hellooo, Earth to fucking Bella," Jake said snapping me back into reality.

"This is only a fraction of the problems that's wrong with this friendship, you never listen to anyone, but want everyone to drop everything to help you get over that leech," Jake said angrily.

"Where is this coming? And I never, not once asked you to help me get over him," I stated, wrapping my arms around my abdomen.

Jacob knew it hurt to hear his name and yet he still said it.

"Nevermind, this is pointless, you shouldn't be here and I don't want you here." said a frustrated Jake.

"You...don't want me?"

Talk about heartbreaking deja vu. My mind went back to that disastrous evening…

'No! Focus!'

"But I need your oh-so wise opinion on something," I said jokingly. I was trying to prevent Jake from saying something he couldn't take back. I needed my best friend because while the world was moving fast-paced, we weren't.

'Maybe this is what this is all about…'

"Jake, I know you have feelings towards me, but I'm not ready," I said crying.

He probably couldn't tell because of the heavy rain, which was getting worser by the nanosecond. Once again, that stupid unreadable mask fell off his beautiful face and he looked almost sorry.

"Bells-," he said, looking like he wanted to reach out and hug me. He then turned his head towards the treeline in his backyard, and nodded. Like it was commanded, the 'mask' fell back into place.

Panicking and almost panting from emotion I said, "But, give me a little more time please and we can work on becoming more"

Jacob pursed his lips together, looking like he was struggling to find the right words to say. Finally, he said the most hurtful or rather the second to last hurtful thing to me.

'Congratulations, Edward. You're still the biggest douche'

"Go home Bella, and I don't mean to Charlie," he said and once again cocked his head towards the forest, "Lord knows he doesn't need your sorry ass to burden him anymore with your mellow drama"

'There it was'

"You don't mean th-"

"Yes, I do. The sun doesn't rise and fall on your ass Swan," Jacob laughed bitterly.

He then stepped up to my ear and whispered the last words I would hear fall from his hot lips, "You're nothing but dead space rotting over a dead lifeless corpse"

My stomach fell into my ass. It was like Jacob had a secret convention with him because they've both hurt me beyond belief.

'The hole in my heart just got indefinitely bigger'

Mustering up the last of my feeble strength, I opened my truck door and hopped inside.

I looked at Jacob through the truck's dirty window.

He now had short-cropped hair, he had grown even taller and muscular since I last saw him 2 weeks ago. His sunny warm-spirit, smile, and hair was gone.

I didn't roll down my window to say my last words, yet I somehow knew he would hear me.

"Good-bye, Black. You and Cullen are dead to me," I said in my most sincere voice.

I shed my last tears for him and Edward.