Author: MoiraShipper

Summary: AU. Rowena, a woman who can only go out when the lights go down and Sam, a young man at law school who surfs fall in love and now they have to fight to enjoy every moment they still have.

While watching 2018 Midnight Sun, I decided to write this Samwena. Enjoy pleade.

The light of these moments

Chapter 1

Cause I only lose my mind

When I ain't got you

And how can I win

When I'm always bound to lose

Lose my mind-Dean Lewis

Rowena Macleod was ready to go to bed in her nightdress, her red hair falling in soft curls against her back while her green eyes shone as she opened the curtain from the window of the living room a little with er fingers, looking down.

In the light pink sky the first ray of lights were starting to show over the beach that was only meters from the building and there, in the third floor where was her apartment the redhead could see a handsome man, tall and with broad shoulders, brown hairs a little longer and she knew he had a calm smile on his face as he carried his surfboard with him.

"Hi, Samuel..."

Sam Winchester and her lived in the same building but they'd never met. Al last not him because as Rowena liked to think, she'd been stalking the man for two years, it was her guilty pleasure and drove her crazy.

She always watched him pass by from her window, she knew his routine. Sometimes at night when he'd be returning with his brother from some party and he used too much flannel returning from work and there'd been a time when she'd been very worried seeing with his shoulder bandaged and his anguished face and the she bought him some lavander bath salts and asked Charlie to deliver them because she knew it'd help him to relax.

She remembered seeing him laughing with his friends, seeing his handsome face everyday after the breaking dawn when he'd carry his surfboard and that calm face would always make her heart beat fast.

But she could never watch him surf because with the breaking dawn the sunlight could be fatal to her. Rowena then sighed with a small smile at seeing him entering the water and she closed the curtains.

Rowena was born with a rare decease nicknamed by XP, it meant she couldn't be exposed to the sun due a sensibility she had to the sunlight, which could bring her other complications and then, kill her.

But although she had never left her house at the day light, gone to school with everybody else or dance, something she loved so much, the redhead enjoyed her life. Since she'd been a child she'd a family that loved her very much, including her younger sister Charlie, who was 21 and, after graduating online the 22 years old woman now worked at home in her computer making designers to a sport magazine.

Even after the death of their parents two years ago, she hadn't been discouraged and now she and her sister loved together in that apartment in the Sussex Country and even if they argued and annoyed each other, Charlie was the best sister in the world, a little crazy with her plans of arranging her sister dates as much as Rowena didn't want and would kick them out with a dangerous look.

And every night after the sunset, it was the moment Rowena felt free and would leave the apartment and go to a small dance studio in downtown for an hour to practice. She loved to dance and always record her choreography but she didn't show to anyone beside her sisters and if anyone find out her cellphone where there was a playlist entitled 'Sam Winchester' with ass the songs that made her think about him, she knew she'd blush until she died from shame.

"Rowena did you stay awake waiting for Sam, you crazy?" Charlie left her bedroom, her short red hair a mess while she smirked to her older sister, who rolled her eyes at her.

"I didn't, Charlene." Charlie groaned at hearing her sister call her by her full name to provoke, she hated being called like that. "I was just..."

But Rowena couldn't think in a good lie to told her and at seeing her sister laughing, she grabbed a pillow and threw it against her chest before they two sat in the couch and Charlie out an arm around the other redhead.

Charlie, even being a years younger and acted like she didn't care about what people thought was very mature, even having a collection of Hermione Granger dolls, who she loved. Rowena and her sister Charlie although having red hair were very different.

Charlie was a geek and had been studying computer engineering while Rowena liked to dance and was more stylish but they two loved each other very much and all that Charlie wanted was Rowena to find someone to make her happy, even with the XP, which could evolve, but she refused to think about that, Rowena was everything to her.

"But serious, you should talk to the majestic and charming Sam Winchester, he lived in the same building as we, you two could bump in the corridor at night and go on a date."

"You know I can... Not having the XP." Rowena sighed and threw her had back against the couch. She wished so much she could talk to him but then, what would happen? Would she said she couldn't leave her place during the day because the sunlight could kill her? Sam was handsome and gentle, he could get himself a less complicated girl.

"You don't need to tell him about the decease in the first date." Charlie told her softly, caressing her shoulder and then, she smirked to provoke her: "If you don't talk to him I'll come up with an excuse just to make him come here be face to face with you, red."

"If you do that, I'll cast a spell to make all your Hermione dolls disappear." Rowena threatened her with an mystic look and then, they two laughed.

When they had been younger Rowena would watch the kids from her age cast scared looks toward her window and one day Charlie had revealed that it was because they thought Rowena was some kind of vampire that couldn't leave the house in the daylight.

Back there Twilight hadn't been written yet so the redhead wasn't very fond of vampires, but there was Harry Potter so in the Halloween she'd dressed herself as a witch and appeared in her window, wrinkling her nose the the girls down there on the street and raising a wand as if ti cast a spell on them, what had made another rumor start. That she was a witch and, although it had been lonely sometimes, Rowena would have fun always appearing carefully with the sunlight on the window and making some witch poses knowing that every day their would pass by there to see if Rowena would show up.

Rowena then went to bedroom because she had only three hours before having to start to work on the next edition of the 'Soul of the sport' magazine and she fell on her bed, grabbing her cellphone and staring at the song which had been in her mind all day while she'd been waiting for Sam and she smiled amused thinking in a new choreography, before she turned to the left side and fell asleep.

It was almost 8am and Sam Winchester was laying on the sand beside his surfboard after finishing surfing and now he was enjoying some sunlight before going to his internship. He loved being there closer to the sea and feeling in peace, while he was in the summer break.

The handsome 22 years old man studied in the Law School and used to participate in surf competitions, a sport he loved but since the accident where he'd hit his shoulder against a rock, he'd abandoned the competitions after hearing it'd be difficult for him to come back so now, he only surfed as a hobby, as much as he missed competing.

The strong man then brushed away his wet hair from his forehead when then a shadow appeared over him and Sam saw it was his older brother Dean, who was smiling.

"Hey Sammy..."

Dean was 26 years old and Sam had been living with him since he'd argued with their father and he loved his brother who had always protect him and they always got very well, even if his older brother was a womanizer and carefree. Dean was very faithful to his family and owned a bar along with his best friend, Castiel.

"Hi Dean." And Sam then sat on the sand and his brother sat over the surfboard with a huge smile:

"So tonight we're gonna do an open bar with a new DJ and guess who will be there?"

"Lisa?" Sam asked frowning and Dean rolled his eyes at the answer.

Lisa had been his most serious girlfriend, but she'd always been complaining because he was always with his brother or Castiel so she'd broken up with him. Sam had been very annoyed at her because as much as his brother had shown he was okay, he'd been devastated for weeks while Sam and Castiel tried to make him move on. But Sam knew his brother still thought about her, although in the past weeks he'd seen that slowly Castiel and his brother had started to get closer.

"No, Jessica. And she's still single." And Dean smiled to his brother who stared at him in surprise. Jessica Moore had been his girlfriend since college but after his accident the couple had started arguing a lot and the blond then broke up with him.

He hadn't seen her in almost a year and even if he wasn't in love with her anymore Sam felt a little nervous about seeing her again and imagined what would be waiting fro then that night.

"Are you going?" Dean insisted putting an arm around his shoulder, smiling. He just wanted to see Sam happy and if Jessica was his happiness, then it was okay.

"Okay, I'll go." Sam smiled to his brother and they two than got up, leaving the beach toward their building in front of the beach and when Sam stared distractedly to the third floor he saw for a brief moment a young woman with long red hair staring at him from a small gap in the curtain, before she closed it and he became curious for a moment. It wasn't the first time he'd felt like someone was watching him from the window.

Although they lived in the fifth floor, Sam had visited a fried from the third last month and he'd seen a redhead girl with short hair and she had thrown him a smirk, before entering her apartment. She didn't look like the same person he'd just seen now and he got intrigued with the mystery before Dean started talking about the new drinks he had created with Castiel and Sam forgot about the woman.

Rowena stretched herself in the desk in her bedroom while she stared at the computer. She'd finished the designer of the page of a interview about the local gymnasts and she was satisfied with its look she'd chosen and then she sent it to her boss to approve.

Her eyes then turned to her cellphone seeing it was 6pm and she deserved a break. She wanted to go to the studio to relax rehearsing the new choreography she'd been thinking about so she went to the bathroom to get ready.

Putting a light gray coat over her clothes the redhead grabbed her bag and the left the bedroom and found Charlie, who had returned from her internship and now was watching the marathon of Games of Thrones with a bucket of popcorn and when the younger saw her sister, she asked:

"Are you sure you don't want to give this tv show a chance?"

"They are barbarians." Rowena wrinkled her nose. The only TV show they seemed to agree to watch together were Grey's Anatomy as Charlie had a crush on Meredith Grey and Vampire Diaries as it had Bonnie who was a witch and Rowena thought she was fabulous.

"Says the woman who used to dress as a witch to scare some kids." Charlie provoked her while laughing and Rowena ignored her. "And then look at Kit, doesn't him look like Sam Winchester with all those muscles and size?"

"I hate you."

"Are you going to practice?" Charlie's eyes saw her bag and smiled to her sister, who nodded with a smile too.

"I thought about a new choreography."

"Really you should post your videos on the Youtube, they are incredible."

"But it's just a hobby." As much as Rowena loved dancing, she couldn't go to competitions or the presentations as the rehearsals were always during the day and, she wasn't ready to show her videos to anyone. Her face then became softer and she messed her sister's hair. "But thanks for the praise."

"You're welcome. Take care red."

And Rowena nodded leaving the apartment to walk into the night, toward the dance studio which was in the commercial area of the city.

Sam was sat in a bench a little far from the others with a bottle of beer on his hand while he watched Gabriel and Nikki chatting with some girls before the first kissed one of them. Sam felt a little tired to join his friends because the day had been exhaustive in his internship and his shoulder had been bothering him a little from the effort from that morning but he smiled when Gabriel approached him.

"Hey big Sam, why are you here alone?" Gabriel was like a younger version of Dean, but Gabriel and him had been best friends for years as they studied together at Law School.

"Just a little tired, Gab. And who is your new girlfriend?" Sam pointed the girl with curly hair who was smiling toward Gabriel while she talked to her friend.

"Let's not talk about me." He replied gesturing with his hand and smiling at his friend and then looking toward the bar. "Jessica's there, why don't you two talk a little?"

"We talked." He admitted shaking his head with a tired look on his face while remembering about his meeting with the blond early when he'd arrived there.

Things had been odd between them when they started talking and when he'd told her he was happy for seeing she seemed well Jessica had only smiled, shaking her shoulders and then she'd asked if he was thinking about returning to the surf competitions without even wanting to know how he'd been feeling or if he was ready for that.

"But she's changed too much, seemed more interested of I was going to start competing again."

"Maybe... Deep down she's always been like that, selfish but you were too much in love with her to realize that." His friend suggested carefully because although Jessica was beautiful Gabriel always thought she was selfish but as Sam loved her, he hadn't wanted to ruin their relationship.

"Maybe. I was blind." Sam agreed, finishing his beer then and he got up wanting to leave there and take a breath outside so he put a hand over Gabriel's shoulder. "Hey, I'm gonna take a walk, see you tomorrow."

Sam then started walking with his hands on his pockets through the streets that were still crowed with people as it was only 9pm and he was watching some showcases, distracted without looking for anything in special, just wanting to to think.

His eyes then found the showcase of a small dance studio which the dance room was faced to the street and his hazel eyes were surprise to see the most beautiful woman in the world.

She had her red hair tied in a ponytail, her fair skin contrasting with the pink lipstick she wore and her green eyes were very outlined. She was moving her arms delicately in the song's rhythm. She seemed oddly familiar to him and then when he saw that she was now looking back at him through the glass seeming shocked, frowning he decided to go inside. He needed to talk to her.

Rowena had been so concentrated in her dance while listening to the music and putting every feeling she had on it, spinning and moving her arms that it had taken her some time to realize that Sam Winchester, that Sam had been watching her from outside the showcase and her eyes widened in shock, almost slipping and then she saw him smile in surprise, going toward the entrance.

"Bullocks, I need to get out of here..." She murmured in panic, she couldn't meet with him but before she could reach her bag, the man was at the room's door.

"Hey..." The man seemed a little embarrassed as he waved to her from the door, trying to decide if he should take off his shoes or not to step on the floor of the dance room and he smiled at her nervous face, so beautiful and with her in front of him now he could see how smaller than him she was, although he had always been tall and strong.

"H-hi!" Rowena ran a hand though her ponytail trying to decide if she should free her hair or not when then she remembered she was still dressed in her black leotard and she felt her face burn. She hated when she lost control and then she heard his voice for the first time so hoarse and gently as he took of his shoes:

"Do we know each other? I got the impression that I've seen you before."

"No! That would be impossible!" She was so nervous now that she was finally closer to Sam, talking with her crush of two years and how handsome he was this closer and giant too and she giggled, more nervous.

"I'm Sam Winchester and I saw you dancing and wanted to tell you that you're beautiful. Dancing." Sam quickly added not wanting to make her more nervous and then he saw a beautiful expression on her face, smiling at his praise.

"Rowena Macleod. And thanks."

He extended his hand toward her and when the redhead touched his hand both felt an electric discharge run through their bodies and Rowena's eyes lowered to their hands watching hers disappearing under his, so huge but soft.

"So you study here?" Sam asked curiously but he couldn't take from his mind the though she seemed familiar and the redhead nodded, looking around before staring at him.

"I do. Not professionally of course, but I love to dance, it makes me feel so free."

"It was the same feeling I used to have when I was surfing, before..."

"The accident?" She asked and then she parted her lips in shock as Sam frowned, surprise and suspicious.

"How do you know?

"A... a friend of mine told me about someone called Sam who was a good surfer but suffered an accident." She quickly lied and he seemed to believe in that, giving her a small smile and then, wanting to talk more to her and get to know her, he asked:

"Do you wanna get some coffee?" As much as Rowena wanted to accept it and be with Sam, she couldn't because getting involved with him meant hurting him and she didn't want that,

"I need to be home soon, I promised my sister we would watch the new episode of Grey's Anatomy together." It wasn't completely a lie but she knew Charlie would kill her if she found out she'd ran from Sam.

"What about tomorrow? I don't have work so I was thinking of surfing, you could show up on the beach."

And seeing some strands of hair slipping from her ponytail and falling over her forehead Sam raised a hand toward her face and gently brushed away them while he watched her face flush and his heart leap in a way it had never happened with Jessica.

Rowena felt her face flush even more, her body melting under his touch as his hand brushed her hair so gently, his touch so warm and Rowena frowned while she opened a small smile. How she wanted to feel the sun on her face with the sea breeze, to be with Sam Winchester and it was in moments like that she hated her decease.

"I can't go out during the day."

"Why not?"

"Because I'm a witch." She smirked to provoke him and she saw him raise an eyebrow, amused at her answer and then Rowena grabbed her bag in a hurry, knowing if she didn't get out of there she wouldn't be able to resist Sam. "I need to go now."

And then she ran away with her heart beating fast as she threw her coat over her shoulders, with thousand of thoughts in her mind at that meeting and Sam turned around, running after her in confusion.

"Wait!"

But Rowena was already outside and he sighed in frustration because although she had ran, it seemed she'd enjoyed being with him just like him enjoyed their little moment together and then he entered the room again to grab his shoes when then he saw she had forgotten her cellphone over the table beside the speaker and he approached, holding the device and he smiled in surprise at seeing what there was there, his face flushing slight. Decidedly he needed to find that little witch who had messed with his head.

"I'll find you, Rowena..."

'Sam Winchester' Playlist

1-Lose my mind

2-Reasons

3-Without you

4-It's not about angels

5-Waves

6-Just a little bit of your heart

7-Stay with me

8-The night we met

9-Summertime sadness

10-Please don't say you love me

tbc