Getting put in a holding cell didn't stop the agitation he could feel in his entire body, his hands and fingers twitching like something was crawling on his skin.
He had the opportune moment to strike, to do what he pleased to the bastard but all he'd done was cry on top of him like some bitch. Why hadn't he laid into him? Why didn't he do more when he had the chance?
The answers never came to him as he paced like a caged lion in his holding cell, arms twitching at his sides the entire time as the tears had halted in his still fired up eyes.
All along Johnny had known, all along he had been able to do something and he didn't and because of him Ming was gone and Kai wasn't sure what to do with the new information. But the want to beat something until his hand broke was strong.
Maybe he should be thankful for his self-restraint or lack of balls for not laying into Johnny when he had the chance otherwise he'd be having a lot longer stay than what they were giving him now.
Yet, that just made him twitch more with nervousness instead.
They had to call Ray, tell him what he'd gone and done and inevitably come bail him out like he was some criminal... Well, he was... But never in his life did he expect to be pacing in a holding cell again like he was now as he waited to be let go when Ray came to get him out; and that was even if he did.
Hours ticked by before a guard came to his door, letting it open as he hadn't once sat down and that look in his eyes had yet to die away. He was riled to all hell and he didn't know how to stop it.
"C'mon, out with ya." The guard shooed at him to get a move on.
Kai didn't spare him a word, stomping his way through the door and past the guard through the long hallways where his footsteps echoed off the cold tile under his boots.
It wasn't until he got to the end and the final door came into view did his heart start to kick up. The scene unfamiliar but familiar at the same time, taking him back eight years ago when he'd been released because of what Johnny had done for him.
Though instead of Voltaire's scowling face stood out there waiting for him behind that door, he was met with harsh gold staring up at him as he came to stop in front of where Ray stood and feeling all kinds of weird things twist and turn violently in his stomach.
His mouth opened to speak, not even sure himself what it was he was going to spew out at the moment, but it quickly snapped shut when Ray's hand came up to stop him.
Without a word between the two of them, Ray pivoted on his heel and headed for the main glass doors at the front. Kai having no choice but to follow after him, head slightly down like he was a teenager all over again.
Seeing the Jeep parked not too far from the doors, Kai's eyes followed as Ray continued to keep his back turned to him and slipped inside with the door slamming shut behind him making Kai flinch some as he wandered over to his own car sat waiting for him.
If he wanted to really piss Ray off he would have just sped off and left him behind, though instead followed the red Jeep all the way home in the silence of his own car and screaming thoughts.
The longer he was left to them, the small break after his walk of shame, only brought him back to his earlier rage that he didn't know what to do about.
He needed a release, a good one, he just prayed whatever got in his path wasn't valuable or irreplaceable.
Periodically Ray glared up at the rear view mirror to catch sight of the Corvette for once actually doing the speed limit.
Why behave now? Kai had already gone and fucked up so why he was sheepishly following behind him now he had no clue.
He was seething. In all honesty Ray didn't recall ever being so angry and after getting the call from the officer it was far too tempting in that moment to pack a bag and leave his ring on the damn counter.
If this is really what his life was going to be like he wasn't so sure he could go through with it. He wouldn't go through with it. Going to pick him up from a damn cell? Really?
He had no words yet a book full at the same time. His mind racing with colorful language, practicing and rehearsing what he was going to throw at him the second they got through that front door.
Before coming to get the asshole he'd dropped Thomas off at Tala and Julia's. Made up some tale of how he wanted to surprise him with wine and pizza all so they wouldn't ask too many questions. If they thought for one second this guy was back behind bars Kai would have a lot more than just him to deal with right now...
They pulled up into the drive. Ray almost violently applying the handbrake and flinging open his car door. The cold of the evening barely making him shiver with the heat his rage was providing.
Kai didn't even deserve his breath right now. He wasn't even going to look at him. He was heading straight upstairs and he fucking dared Kai to follow him.
Although Ray was seemingly hot footing it to the house and front door, Kai was hot on his heels behind him. The short pause in Ray having to fit the key in the lock giving him enough time to catch up to him, though in reality he really hadn't been trying.
He didn't know what was going to happen once he got inside, he just had a feeling something was since he was close to snapping altogether.
With the click of the lock and Ray heading in first, the keys jingling loudly as Ray slammed them in the bowl on the table next to the office door, Kai kicked the front door shut just as roughly behind.
Every sound. Every breath. Every thought riling him up more, hands and fingers twitching to latch onto something or go through something that when Ray's jacket was shaken off his shoulders in front of him, he was suddenly hit with a gut twisting feeling as that fire roared back to life in his eyes.
Not so much as sparing Kai a glance as he hung up his jacket by the door, Ray simply went to turn and walk for the stairs in his silent brooding when he jolted at a hand clamping down on the back of his neck, making his hair stand on end and his heart nearly jump out of his chest.
Now that he had him, that itching Kai felt in his twitchy fingers didn't subside any as he dragged Ray back, not caring that the other stumbled and tripped his way around as he forced him to turn with the tight grip he had on the back of his neck until Ray's body slammed into his.
His breath came out ragged, like he was struggling to breathe as those piercing gold eyes glared in a way that both thrilled him and told him to back the fuck off.
Instead, his head swooped down, catching Ray's lips with his as his other arm snuck around Ray's lower back to keep him pressed up against his chest.
On instinct the first thing Ray did was forcefully push against him, a noise of disgust sitting in his throat with an expression to match the second their lips touched. Had Kai lost his fucking mind? Well clearly considering the day's events thus far. The last thing he wanted right now was anything to do with him!
"Get the fuck off me!" He managed to yell once he'd shoved the others lips from his. "Are you serious right now? The hell is wrong with you?!"
Kai's chest heaved with a heavy breath, his grip on Ray only tightening as the other managed to pull himself away slightly. What was wrong with him?! He could laugh.
There was a lot, but Ray knew that from the get-go. He never hid who he was, what he was, or what he was capable of doing to him.
With his fingers digging in through the thin material of Ray's shirt, he locked eyes with him, that same dark haze sitting in there as he licked his teeth where the taste of Ray lingered. Riling him up more so than what he already was, though the anger twisted and melded with the urge in the pit of his stomach tightly to the point it almost hurt.
The evidence of it all pressing against his jeans and jerking Ray into him so he could feel it himself.
"S'matter baby, thought you liked it rough?" He cooed almost darkly down at him, hips grinding into Ray's a little teasingly as a smirk began to curl up his face and tugged him into his chest until there wasn't a sliver of space left between them and they could feel each other breathing.
He ducked his head closer, near Ray's ear, breath ghosting along his exposed neck since his hair was tied back in a ponytail.
"Tell me to stop, and I will." He purred out in a husky deep tone.
Tanned skin erupted in goosebumps as Kai's warm breath caressed his ear. The few words uttered reassuring him that the man he loved hadn't in fact gone completely savage in his obvious upset.
He didn't know what yet, but something major had gone on between him and Johnny today, that much was clear. Kai's own rage practically seeping through his pores and apparently for once he was choosing to unleash it in a different way other than trashing up his office.
Ray was glad for that at least but he would be lying if he said the look in his eyes wasn't currently unnerving him some. But then again he'd grown to get some twisted thrill for danger ever since the man opposite came into his life.
Feeling Kai rock hard against him caused his own gut to twist and with a swallow to ease his dried throat he caressed Kai's lips with a single digit. His eyes staring at the others wound up features though teasingly took his sweet time in responding to test his restraint.
"...Guess I always did have a thing for the bad boys..."
"You want bad?" Kai questioned in his low tone, eyes holding Ray's in challenge and very aware that if he gripped any tighter to his clothes he'd rip through the fabric or bruise his neck if he already hadn't.
"Criminal." He corrected in his own daring tone, sucking on the finger that had just danced along Kai's lips.
Something else came to join the twisting in Kai's gut at the single word that was passed between them, his hazed eyes glancing briefly at the finger before darting back up where the haze clouded over fully.
If that's what Ray wanted, then who was he to deny him?
Without a word the hand on Ray's neck slipped to grab at his ass, the other joining and gripping in a vice like hold before his arms tensed, muscles flexing, and he heaved the other up onto his waist with ease like he weighed nothing into his arms and held him firmly.
With a short and fast pivot, the back of Ray's head and body slammed against the front door where it shook and rattled with his and Kai's combined weight being thrown into it, a slight noise of pain escaping that was quickly cut out as Kai's mouth dived back and latched onto his in a frenzy, choking on his tongue the second Kai got it down his throat without warning.
With most of Ray's weight being supported by the door now, Kai still held and groped at the ass in the palms of his hands. The strain between his legs becoming more painful as the smell of the other hit over and over again, the taste of him assaulting his own tastebuds that the haze in his eyes began to cloud his head.
This was, undoubtedly, better than renovating the office with his fists till morning.
Ray's arms rest limply on Kai's shoulders with slender fingers raking through slate hair. He pulled at the strands periodically to match the rough groping of his ass and with every desperate grind against him soft moans started to pour into the others mouth.
He could feel himself harden and twitch in his own pants now, his heart rate pounding in his chest as he tried to keep up with the ferocious make out session.
He'd never been so glad for his decision to have Thomas stay elsewhere tonight. There were plenty of reasons why the boy shouldn't be around his Uncle Kai during his fits of rage. Usually he'd want to avoid him too, but if this was how the stoic male was going to handle such anger from now on then he'd definitely be wanting to stick around.
Popping their mouths away to breathe, saliva trailing and connecting their swollen and redden lips still, Kai's breath came out ragged again as he panted in Ray's face all the while his hips continued to buck up into him wildly, the sound of Ray's body bashing against the door only getting louder between their panting.
Keeping Ray's weight suspended with his own body against him, one hand left on his ass, his right trailed up to the tight space between Ray's head and door where he sought out the base of his ponytail and tugged the other's head to the side to get at his neck.
His teeth scraped against the flushing tanned skin, the taste of salt from the thin film of sweat meeting and blending on his tongue instantly as he latched in hard. Hips going in faster and rougher as the patch of precum got wetter on the outside of his jeans.
A more audible moan escaped Ray's throat as the skin currently being sucked on started to darken between Kai's teeth and bruise. The strands of hair currently intertwined in Ray's own grip tightening with every forceful grind against him though he was pretty sure Kai wasn't even focusing on what pain was going on from his waist up.
Even with them still fully clothed he could feel just how rock hard Kai was pressing against him and the thought alone had another pleasurable wave course through him.
Whilst he was getting some kind of friction from the fabric and relentless thrusts, it wasn't enough for him. He was horny as all hell now and he needed to get out of these jeans.
"K-Kai." He forced between the violent rocks against the door, "Lets- go upst-airs."
A growl of frustration came out of Kai's chest at the request, though the other had a point.
Although this was scratching the itch, the rest of his pent up emotions were still screaming at him to get out. And he needed to. Before he burst.
Letting Ray down from his arms, feeling the slight strain in his muscles for having held him up for so long, he made sure Ray was steady on his own two feet before he silently turned and headed for the stairs before him.
Back on solid ground Ray ignored his own desperate pant for breath and took off in a jog for the stairs, playfully shoving past Kai whilst precariously reaching for the hem of his shirt, whipping it off and throwing it at him once he made it to the top.
"Thought you were going to show me a good time?" He teased, wanting to intentionally wind Kai up more as he walked backwards along the landing and head for their bedroom.
Kai's hazed eyes glinted a little, catching the shirt and throwing it over his shoulder; might need it, as he followed at his own pace into the bedroom behind.
The second Ray was close enough to the bed, he walked up in front of him and gave him a simple shove on the chest to get him on his back while he fitted himself between Ray's now parted legs dangling off the side.
Slipping the shirt off his shoulder, eyes locked on Ray's, he twisted the material up where he made a makeshift restraint that he slipped Ray's wrists through and tightened the material before placing his arms above his head.
They had regular cuffs, but he couldn't be fucked to find them right now.
Now with Ray's arms above his head, his lean and half naked body on display below him, Kai trailed a single finger down his chest between his breasts, following the small dip in the center of his stomach as it lifted and fell with another ragged breath till he reached his belly button.
"Is this what you wanted?" He asked, finger trailing past his bellybutton now to the hem of Ray's jeans and the blatant bulge trapped against his thigh.
Ray hummed to him in confirmation as his teeth sunk into his lower lip, his own eyes glazed over in lust as they intently watched the others movements above him.
He pressed into the touch of the single digit as it caressed over his groin and a small sound sat in his throat.
Again a slight bout of nerves swirled within him in anticipation as he noted how Kai was eyeing him like a starving animal. His tongue even slithering over his lips as a whole range of scenarios more than likely played out in his mind.
Ray knew Kai wouldn't hurt him though. Even with whatever he was feeling right now, the insane level of seething anger coursing through him over what went down today, no harm would come to him, he wouldn't allow it.
"So are you going to give it to me, or what?"
A deep hum turned humorous 'hn' sounded from Kai's throat, eyes still raking over the perfect body below that he could do whatever he wanted to yet at the same time wasn't quite sure how to have him first either.
Thomas wasn't home, so it seemed, but they did have work in a few hours so couldn't drag this out as much as he would normally have liked.
Taking his hand away from Ray's body, he undid the first three buttons to his own shirt to release some of the heat that was trapped on his own skin and then raised a finger to signal Ray to lay still as he wandered around the bed for the side table.
Though he'd like to take his time, he heard and saw Ray shifting almost impatiently out the corner of his eye where he left him while he rummaged in the drawer for the lube and snatched the well-used bottle out before coming back around to stand between his legs still hanging off the side of the bed.
"Impatient much?" He chuckled lightly, setting the lube by Ray's side on the bed and moving his hands to the belt sat around his own hips.
While some of the haze had begun to fade in his eyes, the painful twists and violent churns in his stomach were still rolling to be let go.
"Seemed like you were downstairs..." Ray commented keeping his gaze up on him. "Surprised we still have a front door standing."
"Might not have a bed when I'm done with you either." Kai said as his belt came undone, slipping out and kicking his jeans away off to the side.
Stepping up closer where the front of his knees touched the bed, he leant over and hovered over Ray's body, supporting his weight on his elbow by his head to keep their bodies from touching any as he got close to his neck again.
"Then again, I could just leave you like this." He sent in whispered breath against his skin.
A shiver ran down Ray's spine but knew Kai's words held no substance. Even if it was what he'd have wanted, to have been left the hell alone they'd started this now and didn't want it to stop.
With that desperate display downstairs too Kai clearly didn't want it to either. He was ready to ram him into the door minutes ago but now thought he could make threats like that and have them believed?
"Go ahead then." He challenged, in the same hushed tone. "Leave."
"If that's what you want." Kai responded in his whispered tone, placing a gentle and almost barely noticeable peck to Ray's exposed neck before he pulled away to go off to the bathroom.
With a blink Ray just laid there and watched him turn to leave, perplexed completely as Kai seemed to take him seriously.
That, was not what he was expecting...
He cleared his throat after a moment and eased himself up from the bedsheets, wrists still tied by his shirt that he held in front of him as he stood up to go after him since Kai had only began to walk away from him for the bathroom.
"Kai? Are you okay?"
At hearing Ray stand, the bedsheets ruffling behind him, an almost maniacal smirk came over Kai's face though was hidden from view with his back to Ray.
Of course he'd follow. Just like he wanted him to.
His own feet stopped, not even close to the bathroom and when he could feel Ray step closer to him he turned so fast Ray hadn't had a chance to blink as he was grabbed by the arm and the back of the neck again, chest and face colliding to the wall beside his dresser as Kai pinned him up against it.
Again, he felt the other's hot breath right on the shell of his ear as Kai crowded him against the wall, full body pressed into his back and the swell of his cock pushing against his ass that he couldn't stop the shiver running down his spine even if he wanted to.
He'd barely even caught himself with the way his hands were bound together, having to use his forearms to keep himself from headbutting the wall in front.
"Thought you wanted me to go?" Kai purred against his neck before taking his tongue to it, hips grinding up against the ass in front to relieve some of the burning pressure between his legs.
A gasp of surprise had escaped him when he was flung practically like a rag doll and light pants continued to heave from him as his heart raced at the, once again, unexpected movements from the other.
His eyes rolled back to a close as he melted into him, Ray's bare back against Kai's own rising and falling chest whilst tilting his head to allow him more room to wander.
"Never..." He breathed, tingles coursing through him once more as fair hands started to roam.
The smirk Kai wore turned more into a genuine smile of sorts, pressing more delicate kisses into the side of Ray's neck and briefly checking the damage he had done earlier downstairs when he had gotten a hold of him.
The bruise, that sat right near the junction of his shoulder and neck, was already an angry purple almost black. Teeth marks embedded so deep in the skin he was surprised there wasn't any blood.
Giving it a gentle kiss, as if in apology, he carried on down Ray's back lapping at the skin in intervals with the tip of his tongue as his hands wandered to the jeans still sat in his way.
"Do you trust me?"
In any other moment and setting Ray would have hesitated at the question. Sneaking off in the night and now today getting arrested (for what, he still didn't know,) should all mount up to wondering if the trust he had for Kai was foolish.
But in this intimate setting he did trust him, with all of him, completely, and always had done.
There was zero hesitation.
"Yes..."
Taking that as his second go-ahead and greenlight, Kai's skillful hands and fingers did away with the button and zipper to Ray's jeans and eased them round his thighs quickly. Palms of his hands ghosting over his smooth skin as he sunk to his knees behind him, pressing more kisses in the exposed skin he'd uncovered.
After a few teasing kisses, licks, and nips to the plump tanned cheeks he spread them apart, lashing his tongue against him and circling it around Ray's entrance as his hands squeezed and fondled him like he had downstairs.
A soft sound sat in Ray's throat; his lips pressed together to stifle anything more escaping just yet as the warm wetness caressed him.
He felt himself twitch and parted his legs more for him, attempted to arch his back too though with how close he was pressed to the wall to begin with it didn't allow for much movement.
The gropes on him were greedy, and the motions from his tongue starving. He did love when Kai was like this as it left him feeling weak, and as the tongue teasingly pushed its way inside him his knees could have buckled there and then if it wasn't for the hands currently gripping a hold of him.
Feeling the body in front start to tremble and twitch, Kai amped up the thrusts of his tongue inside him, grunting into it from deep in his chest as the burning urge and itch came back to smack him hard in the gut.
Just as quickly as it had seemed to start it stopped without warning, taking his now free tongue up the dip in Ray's back as he stood, following his spine till he was up on his own two feet once more and towering over him.
With a brief glance at the body pressed against the wall, the burning urge to raise his hand and slap the ass before him to get out some of the pent up emotions still swirling inside him hit him just as hard, though he held back fearing he'd actually hurt him right now.
Instead, taking the slim hips in front he pulled Ray back and away from the wall, walking with him towards the bed till his own knees touched the edge and he was able to sit down yet kept Ray standing in front of him between his legs.
Snatching the lube from where he had left it on the bed he drowned his cock in it quickly, smearing it along his shaft and wiped the excess off on the sheets beside him before gripping Ray's hips again and guided him back carefully and down onto him.
Hissing through his teeth as Ray's body engulfed his swollen cock, his fingers dug in deeper into his hips till Ray was sat down completely on him. His own feet planted on the floor firmly.
With his face buried in the crook of Ray's neck again, he panted out hot breaths against him as just the feeling alone was enough to almost send him over the edge he was that riled up.
"Put yours arms around me." He commanded in a low groan, body trembling as he fought it to keep still.
Doing as he was told Ray prized open his heavy lids that had fluttered to a close at the intrusion and slipped his still restrained wrists over and around Kai's neck. The feeling of his warm breath against his skin sending tingles all down his back that rested against a toned chest.
Kai had had him in pretty much every direction going over the course of their relationship thus far but he didn't recall being tied up whilst in reverse cowgirl before...
The moment the arms were around him, Kai's hips began to move as his hands helped to guide Ray's body upward slightly only to bring him back down along his still swollen and now pulsing shaft.
The vice like grip making his own waves of pleasure radiate up and down his back that the trembling in his body began to shake him harder, and more sounds emit from his dried lips.
Peppering in some sloppy kisses to the neck before him, he moaned into it in a way neither had really ever heard before, the grip on Ray's hips as he brought him back down again bruising the skin under him.
He didn't want to hurt him, that was never the plan, though all along he really didn't have much of a plan either but to just get the coiled emotions to release him so he could think properly after everything that had went down earlier with Johnny.
Easing his grip a little on Ray, now that they had a somewhat decent stride going albeit sloppy given the position, his hands roamed up the chest covered in sweat in front of him.
"C'mon baby, keep moving. Just like that." He coaxed in a groan under Ray's jawline.
At the praise and hands possessively wandering over his flushed skin another bead of precum formed at Ray's tip. Whatever this was, and wherever it had come from was something Kai needed. He could tell by the tone in his voice.
It was desperate almost, which wasn't uncommon for either of them to beg the other for more but something was clearly different.
They'd really need to discuss what on earth went on at the prison earlier but for now he just wanted to be there for him. Give him whatever release he needed right now after his obviously shitty day that was far from over.
He rocked his hips against him, the arms around Kai's neck keeping him upright as more kisses were set upon his neck.
Breathing out his name in a soft moan Ray's muscles tightened some as did his thighs as waves of pleasure slowly started to course through him.
With his eyes screwing shut tight on him, mouth and teeth scraping against Ray's neck, Kai bit down to stifle the moan that shook out of him as his nails scratched at Ray's chest in a bid to get some of the twitching that was still present in his fingers to go away.
"Fuckkkk yes!" He hissed against the new mark that quickly blossomed under his mouth, not letting it go as he bit into it again the moment Ray's hips rolled down into him and his muscles squeezed tighter around him.
"Harder! Fuck, go harder!" He nearly cried in a beg with the coils in his stomach twisting into something almost painful.
Ray's own hisses of discomfort escaped him at the assault on his neck though it didn't falter the movements coming from him. His thighs now burning with every buck of his hips though pushed past it at the demanding cries pouring in his ear and sped up as fast as he could.
He wasn't looking forward to seeing the state his skin was going to be when they got done, he could only imagine the marks Kai was leaving, but thankfully the club was dark so hopefully no one would notice this evening...
With the pleasure amping up more cries fell out of Kai's mouth. The hands that had roamed freely and scratched down Ray's chest and stomach winding their way up closer and closer to the front of his neck as he teetered on the edge.
Blinded by the pleasure, the pain he could still feel in his chest, the rage he harbored for Johnny, he did what he should have done to him to Ray and gripped tight to the neck he'd already been assaulting throughout, feeling the other's erratic pulse under the palm of his hand and fingertips.
With Ray's strides fluidly still going against him, his own hips and ass rose off the bed to meet him harshly where their skin slapped loudly, his free hand holding Ray by the inner thigh to keep him from toppling off of him as he thrusted into him over and over until his eyes nearly rolled into the back of his head.
The second the grip on his throat tightened Ray's eyes shot open, his sounds of pleasure being silenced almost instantly and being replaced solely by panting breaths being forced out of him with every hard thrust.
He could still breathe, sorta. It was fine, but he was definitely unnerved by the clammy hand currently clutching him and if it wasn't for the recognizable moans from behind he'd question if it was Kai ramming into him at all.
He trusted him; he really did. But who was this right now he was supposed to be trusting? If his hands weren't restrained he'd be prying him off his throat, trust or not.
Spontaneity was one thing, but this impulsive rough hate fucking of him was another and something Ray surprisingly wasn't into all that much anymore.
Thankfully the grip on him didn't last for very long, after five and a half more sporadic thrusts the coil in Kai's stomach snapped, a guttural moan sounding from deep in his chest as his body spasmed and twitched, quickly falling limp where his forehead came to rest on Ray's shoulder with heavy breaths panting out of him.
The other however wasn't soaring in the same post coital bliss even though he did share the same heavy breaths as his airways reopened like a flood gate.
Whilst Ray enjoyed himself to a point, he hadn't been all that close to finishing if he was honest. He was too in his own head to really focus on what was actually happening, his attention on the racing thoughts still currently being thrown around his mind.
With a slightly pained groan he eased his arms up from behind Kai's neck and forced his wrists out of the tied material with a rough tug, the shirt falling to the floor once he was free.
Without looking back Ray then eased himself up from Kai's lap, and head straight for the bathroom.
"Excuse me." He meekly said before closing the door and flicking the lock.
The second Ray had left him, Kai's body had fallen back against the bed, still taking in ragged breaths and wiping the sweat and shame from his face.
"Ray..." He called, knowing he'd fucked up majorly this time.
At getting no response he heaved himself off the bed, stumbling to find his footing as he pulled his discarded jeans up his legs and kept stumbling until he was against the bathroom door, leaning his weight against just so he wouldn't collapse to the ground.
"Ray, baby, please I'm sorry. I'm so sorry." His voice choked like his own hands were around his neck.
And Ray's hands did currently caress around his own. Slender fingers lightly touching at the vast bruised skin on his neck with his head tilted to the side as far as he could go so he was able to see as much as he could.
There were still teeth marks embedded in his skin, on his shoulder, red and purplish marks and scratches too graced all down his chest.
His face didn't really show it as he blurrily looked at himself in the mirror above the sink but he was horrified.
"I'm just- getting in the shower. I won't be long." He assured with a slight crack to his voice as he turned on the water to hopefully drown out Kai's voice from the other side of the door.
Once the water kicked on, it was like Ray had opened his own valve and the tears trickled out regardless of how tight he'd gone and squeezed his eyes closed to stop them.
Despite the water running on the other side of the bathroom, he rose his voice best he could just so he could be heard. He had to tell him, as many times as it took, that he was sorry.
"Ray, p-please. I-I didn't... I didn't mean to."
With another tear rolling down his cheek Ray roughly wiped at it before grabbing a towel off the hook to cover himself. Wrapping it tightly around his waist he unlocked the bathroom door and flung it open to see Kai still stood just there opposite.
"But you did Kai! You did! Look at what you've done!" He cried, gesturing to his neck as another tear fell from his watering eyes.
"What the hell is wrong with you?"
Like he'd been punched in the gut, Kai's breath hitched in his throat. Watery eyes taking in the damage he'd caused and feeling a different kind of churning in his stomach from the one before.
He didn't mean to. He really didn't... Then again, at some point he had to have known what he was doing and there was no excuse good enough. Leaving behind loves bites was one thing. Small bruises, maybe acceptable. But this... Not this...
He reached up to touch him though quickly put it back down the moment he saw Ray flinch away, his throat closing up as his words got lost on the tip of his tongue.
He wanted to help. He wanted to do something, say something, that would make this better but there was nothing that could. And this time, he only had himself to blame.
The cyclone of emotions swirled, making his tears roll out harder regardless of how hard he fought them back. But they weren't for him, they were for the perfect being he'd gone and nearly destroyed standing before him.
"H-he was-was there! He was there, Ray! A-and he didn't do a damn thing to help her!" He spewed in an almighty gush, chest rattling as he tried to breathe and make sense of his own words and thoughts.
"She was alive and he left her there!"
It took Ray a moment to try and decipher the others choked out riddle but it wasn't longer before he'd put two and two together and figured out what Kai had meant.
Johnny had known and had been there when whatever god awful thing had happened to Ming was occurring and surprise, surprise, the spineless bastard hadn't done anything to stop it happening.
Regardless of what little sympathy he held for Kai's brother in this moment, his heart, regardless of how he was feeling right now, broke for the sight before him. His words however didn't reflect such.
"And yet you still snuck out to go and see him. Lied to me all because you wanted to know that he was okay! And for what? He is no good for you, Kai! Why won't you listen?!"
"I didn't know until today!" Kai cried back at him, taking in a gulp of air to refill his lungs.
"If I hadn't gone then I wouldn't have known at all!" But that then just brought them back to the now black and blue and much bigger issue standing right there in his face that he didn't know what to do about just yet.
All Ray did was nod to him, more silent tears rolling down his cheeks and it was only when the tightness in his chest subsided some that he was able to respond.
"Well.. I'm glad it was all worth it for you then. Glad everything you've done since the new year was worth you finding out yet something else that has only gone and hurt you more and destroyed us." At that he shoved past him. To hell with the shower. He needed to pack.
"What?" Kai barely got out in a breath, body following but having to keep it leaned into the door frame before he fell.
Ray just ignored him. Going straight to his drawers he pulled out some clothes and quickly dressed his lower half, the towel that had been keeping his modesty dropping to the floor before opening his wardrobe beside and grabbing the duffle bag that sat at the bottom.
At the sight of the bag, Kai came unglued from the wall.
"Ray! Please, stop. What're you doing?!" He panicked in another spew of word vomit.
Setting the bag on the bed Ray roughly unzipped it, another contort of his face causing more silent tears to trickle down his flushed face though a loud sniffle erupted from him as he turned from Kai once more to head back to his dresser.
He'd answer him but the burning tightness in his throat as more waves of upset coursed through him refrained him from mustering anything other than choked sobs. Wasn't it obvious what he was doing?
The moment Kai could, he squeezed his way between Ray and the bed, blocking the bag sat on it as his chest heaved and his heart slammed as it felt like it was fixing to shatter.
"I know I fucked up; I know. I'm so sorry, baby, I am. Please, please don't do this though!" He begged, more tears running down his pale cheeks.
With a handful of clothes in his arms Ray paused at the sight of the other though couldn't keep his gaze on him. It was too upsetting. He turned his head away from him, Kai unintentionally being shown the damage once more as he did.
"I can't- do this." Ray managed through his sniffles, "So just- move."
"Baby, please. It won't... It won't happen again. I swear. It shouldn't have to start with, I know that, but please don't leave me."
"I'm not going to just keep on dealing with your pent up frustrations, Kai!" He practically screamed at him throwing the clothes off to the side on the bed.
"So what is it? If you're not trashing up a room in the house you're gonna use me as some damn fuck toy to get it all out of your system? Is that what I am to you? Some living punch bag that has to just endure your anger in whatever form you decide to dish out this time?"
Kai recoiled back a little, head shaking quickly making his hair go all over the place.
"No, you're not. You've never been that to me! I didn't mean to hurt you like this, I didn't. Yes, I needed to release it, but I never... Never wanted to hurt you!" He cried back, gesturing wildly out at all the damage he'd done to him.
"I'd rather be shot than know I did this to you! And I am so fucking sorry!"
Ray's lower lip wobbled on him and whether he was blinded by love or just a damn fool he believed every word from him. This though, he just couldn't take the risk of this happening again, or worse.
"I know you are..." He weakly answered. "But it still doesn't change anything. I need to just- be away from you right now."
Kai's teeth scraped into his bottom lip, he hated that he'd done this at all to start with. Hated himself more for the fact Ray could hardly look at him and that he was still causing him pain.
"Okay... I can't... I won't stop you. But please, please know I never meant for this. That I love you."
He side stepped away, no longer blocking the bag from Ray and sat down on the side of the bed. Not knowing what else to do or even say at this point. Of course he'd rather Ray stay. Work through this somehow. But if Ray needed space then that was all he could offer him.
"Where're you going?"
"I don't know yet." He honestly answered, reaching for the clothes he'd slung on the sheets and shoved them into his bag.
He hadn't figured that part out yet. All he knew was where he most definitely wouldn't be going, and that was Lee's. Why the hell would he? So he could go on and hear him say 'I told you so?' He'd honestly rather slum it in an alley somewhere.
"Thomas is at Tala's too, by the way. Since you haven't even so much as cared to ask where he is since you got home."
"I..." Kai took in a breath, pushing his hair off his face. "I'll get him some extra clothes then." He sighed out, standing off the bed and wandering out of the room to pack Thomas a bag though paused in the doorway.
"You don't have to come to work tonight, or at all if you don't feel like it. Okay?"
Ray just gave a brief nod before silently going on and packing himself some more things, leaving Kai none the wiser on whether he'd be showing tonight though under the circumstances it was safe to assume it was a resounding no.
Someone would need to watch Thomas overnight anyways as Tala would need to go to work. Can't just rely on Julia even though she had said she'd babysit. He'd, figure something out...
After the long uncomfortable silence of packing bags and avoiding eye contact until they couldn't anymore, Kai was putting the bags in the back of the Jeep while Ray had made himself comfortable in the driver's seat with it already running.
He'd gone and put on a dark shirt, long sleeved. A turtle neck would have been better but he couldn't find one in his wardrobe at all. Wasn't like he wanted attention on the marks he knew were noticeable, but there wasn't much else he could do to hide them either. Least of all did he want Thomas to see them when he got to Tala's.
With the hatch being closed, it rattling the Jeep and jarring Ray where he sat slightly, Kai made his way around to the driver's door and leaned his shoulder into it with the most pathetic expression Ray had ever seen on him.
Clearing his throat a little Kai tried to say something, wanted to say something, but nothing managed to come out where the awkward silence was probably more damaging than any words could be at this point.
Like he had a twitch, he gave a jerky nod as if they'd been in conversation and peeled himself away from the door to let Ray leave. Backing from the Jeep with his hands stuffed in his jacket pockets and eyes on Ray's.
Hoping, praying, he could read and see that he truly was and forever would be sorry for this day.
"Be... Be careful..." He finally managed to muster up enough courage and words, yet they came out whispered and carried away with the breeze.
Ray had caught them though all the same and sent a small nod of his own his way in acknowledgement before starting up the Jeep and reversing out of the drive.
He couldn't say he exactly had a plan right now, but first things first, he had to go and get Thomas.
"Heyy c'mon I need that!" Tala called to the youngster who had just quickly swiped the tub of hair gel from the bathroom and was running off with it through the apartment.
It was almost six, he still wasn't ready for work, and he hadn't heard a thing from Ray or Kai yet.
He didn't mind having the little guy but damn, a text or something keeping him in the loop would've been nice!
"Am I getting to stay with Julia tonight?" Thomas asked innocently like they weren't in the middle of a game of keep-away, his answer getting cut off by the doorbell going and the tub of gel getting thrown in the air carelessly.
"I got it!" He shouted, bolting over the backs of the couch to get at the door before Tala could even wiggle himself out of the bathroom.
His lady beckoned him!
Though when he managed to unbolt all the locks and throw the door wide open, amber eyes clashed with amber instead of emerald green.
"Oh... Hi Uncle Ray." He seemed to pout, stepping aside to let him in since he was carrying bags and his backpack.
"Well nice to see you too." Ray scoffed at the little jerk.
Poking his head through the bathroom doorway Tala gave a sarcastic greeting before emerging fully in his unbuttoned shirt to go and retrieve his gel from wherever Thomas had dropped it.
"And here I thought I'd gone and gained a child for the new year. The hell have you been doing all day?... What's with the bags?" He then questioned noticing Ray was looking more like a pack horse right now and his expression was instantly washed with concern.
"Ray?"
Instantly Ray's throat tightened, unable to stop it feeling like Kai's hands were wrapped round his neck again until he shook it off and cleared his throat as he sat the bags down by the door.
"Can we talk?" He nodded towards Tala's bedroom door.
"Of course." He answered, quickly stepping over and pushing the door open for him.
Something bad had obviously happened which would explain why he hadn't so much as had a call from either of them. The bags only adding further to the assumption.
What though? Everything was fine now wasn't it? They'd just got engaged for fucks sake! What could have possibly have gone wrong now?
With the click of the door behind them, Ray's legs gave out and promptly sat down on the side of Tala's bed needing a minute to collect his thoughts and what he was going to say before he just balled like a bitch at him.
"We're um... We're taking a break, right now... With Johnny in court and everything I can't be around him and Thomas sure as shit can't be around him right now. I can get us a hotel, if it's too much to crash with you for now, but that's what's going on." He explained as vaguely as he could up to the other as the fresh sting of tears threatened to spill.
Tala stuttered some not really knowing what to address first. A break? They were happy in stupid love a week ago how could Johnny being in court have them go a complete 180?
Wait.
"Johnny's in court? They got him?! When the hell did this happen?"
"New Year's." Ray sighed out, running a hand through his bangs as he hunched on the bed a little.
"Came to the club apparently after everyone had left, him and Kai had a few words I guess while I was in the bathroom still and Kai called the cops while he had him there.
"Remember when he made us all go to the mall the next day, even though you and I were practically dying? Was his way to avoid it, left his phone home on purpose because he knew Johnny would be calling him and he had been. So next day, well morning actually, he snuck out to go see him in jail... Went back today..." Ray explained in a more tired sigh.
"And Thomas and I just can't be around him right now, not during this."
Tala just stood leaning against his dresser with his arms loosely folded over his bare chest as he listened. Well he'd be damned... He must have only just missed the slimy bastard when he staggered out the club that night...
"Well you can stay here no problem, you don't gotta worry about that. I'm at Julia's down the hall most of the time anyways." He offered, "But, I don't get it. If Kai was the one who called the cops then why is he- The fuck happened to your neck?" He then blurted out, quickly striding over to him once he caught sight of purple and turned Ray's head so he could get a closer look.
"Do not tell me that Kai did this to you." He spoke in warning though the bite wasn't aimed at his friend here.
Despite flinching back at Tala advancing on him, Ray remained still on the bed and stared at the window on the wall opposite of the bed.
"Then I won't..."
Tala stared at him in disbelief, lips parting slightly at the indirect confession and let his hand slip from Ray's jaw.
What the hell did Kai think he was doing? Nah. He wasn't having this shit.
He took another look at the vast bruising before straightening himself up, clearing his throat and making quick work on his shirt buttons.
"Stay as long as you need, k? Help yourself to whatever you want." He reeled off before hastily stepping from the room and going to grab his shoes out in the hall.
"Tala! Tala wait!" Ray called as he forgot to mention the one little detail he probably should have, rushing out after him.
Only problem was, was that Thomas was right there watching TV now and he couldn't very well blurt out when and how it had happened with young ears nearby, having to quickly shuffle his way up to Tala and stop him.
"Look, I know you're pissed. I am too. But it's not... It didn't happen just off on a whim. Just, got a bit too..." Shit, he didn't even know how to word it. Wasn't passionate at all, wasn't even remotely orgasmic. Was there even a word for what had happened.
"If I told him to stop he would have though, okay? So just... I dunno..." He huffed after too long of a pause came between them, letting his hand fall from Tala's shoulder and stepping back.
"The fact you're here with bags Ray and not just to collect Thomas is proof enough that you didn't want that." He coolly sent though kept his volume down as he snatched for his jacket off the hook and shoved his arms through.
"Isn't my business why you didn't stop him but he shouldn't be wanting to leave marks like that on you in the first place. That's messed up."
Looking over to Thomas over Ray's shoulder he roughly straightened up his collar before checking for his keys in his jacket pocket.
"Go have a bath or something. Order yourselves a pizza." He sent in the same low blunt tone Ray couldn't recall ever hearing him use.
"Spare door key is in the kitchen drawer and call me if you need anything."
At the final offer that sounded more like an order he turned on his heel and left without another word, the door coming to a close a little harder than what the redhead had probably intended.
"Well... Bye..." Ray mumbled at the closed door, painting on a fake smile and pulling his hair over his shoulders to try and hide his neck better from young eyes.
"Pizza sound good tonight Thomas?"
Although he was in no mood to eat, may as well make the most of his free time off now. He only hoped whatever Tala planned or didn't plan on doing wouldn't cause more trouble for any of them...