Chapter 17
WHAT IF I AM ON FIRE?
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Ariana
ROSE
This morning was supposed to be different, like the ones we spent before. After last night's sex, I was sore and still tired. Adrian is hurriedly packing off his. I asked, "Will you tell me what's going on?"
Adrian looked at me for a sec and then he looked away while saying "There's some problem at the office in NY. I need to go back. I am sorry but I can't take you with me right now, but I'll be back in a few days and we'll celebrate New Year together." He sounds serious and urgent. He hurriedly zipped off his suitcase.
" But what will I do here?"
"Spend some time with Vika and Paul. You can borrow some books from Dimitri. Rose, I know you will do well and it's just a few days!"
" What about my phone?"
"Buy one here, babe or you can use Dimitri's or Vika's."
I turned away, upset with the way he's leaving me behind. I am not sure about what's going on right now, but I need a proper explanation once he comes back.
He carried his stuff to the door, I followed him. Just before he would open the door, he turned around and whispered in my ears "Are you sure you wanna go out like this?" What! I looked at myself and realised that I was Just wearing an unbuttoned oversize shirt. I took it off and pulled on a robe and straightened some of my messy hair.
Then I followed him outside. The living room was empty. He stood at the entrance, looking at me and said " I 'll be back before you know it"
"You need to tell me everything once you come back"
He pulled me closer and kissed me. I kissed him back, he whispered "I love you" and I replied "I love you" and kissed him again. And then he left.
It's been a while since Adrian left. He sent me a few messages through Dimitri's phone. But that's all. I spent most of the day with Paul. He tells me about his girlfriend and how amazing she is.
Vika has been busy these days. She is doing a part-time job at some bar. So I feel as if she's been out of reach these days. I try to avoid Dimitri as much as I can and I think he's doing the same. Olena has been hospitable and friendly.
Dimitri got a new phone. I thanked him.
"You should stay in the house for a few days. There's a snowstorm coming"
"Okay.."
"Is there anything else you need?"
"No thank you!"
He left the room. I sat down on my bed and turned it on. The phone worked fine but there was a connection error. Is it because of the storm? Gawd! There's no wifi here. I tried calling Adrian, but it couldn't go through. I wanted to know how's the situation there. I miss my friends. Lissa must have called me a hundred times.
I think they are hiding something from me. And I wanted to know more. After being in the bed all day, I felt like I just can't sit like this all day, it makes me restless. Hesitantly, I went to Dimitri, he opened the door and looked surprised to see me.
"Hey, can you get me a book I could read?"
He thought for a second. And then he nodded.
He took me to a semi-basement room. It was wooden floored and walls were converted into shelves. The room was small, with two chairs in the corner and the room gave a cosy feeling. I told out a book from the shelf, The Great Gatsby. I read it when I was in high school. I took a seat and delved into the book, and Dimitri left me alone to read.
DIMITRI
Watching Rose pick out The Great Gatsby from all the books on the shelves made me nostalgic. It made me reminisce about a past that she doesn't even remember. Even the thought of truth, the confession that I heard that night made my heartache. She doesn't even remember the recollections we made together. I was the only one who was only holding on to these memories.
I still have feelings for her and I want her to be mine, for her to be by my side. My body responds to her, I feel her like she is my own. I want to caress her, to explore every inch of her skin. I wánt her voice call my name.
I sat down on my bed, collecting my thoughts and feelings about our memories and myself. After everything, it leaves me no choice but to move on from the past. Rose isn't mine anymore and she is with Adrian. And the way he left me with responsibility. I don't deserve the trust he gave me, I feel guilty about feeling the way I do.