Is it really over

(Hello everyone. Just wanted to let you know that this is a Jaggie Fanfic. This first chapter is difficult to read if you are hardcore Jaggie but, please give it a chance because it does get better. Comments are welcomed and please leave your feedback positive and constructive please. Thanks.)

She whispered softly into his ear "the longer we wait to eat, the hungrier you'll be," and as she pulled away he leaned into her grabbing her lips with his. It was so soft and sweet and he loved the feel of their lips pressed against each other. The connection was there. She was into him and he was into her. He wanted to stay in the moment with Maggie but he couldn't. He was so confused. All he could think about was what happened with April in the storage room. Even though he pushed her away he felt something. What was it?

That night he laid in bed, thinking about what happened with April. She looked so depressed and not the girl he once knew. It seemed like she was lost. Thoughts about their relationship went through his mind. Did he really give her a chance? Did he really think things through before filing for the divorce? Did he do it out of anger? What would life be like if we were able to work things out, now that we are in a better place? He thought about Harriet and the life she could have if they were able to work things out.

As he drifted off to sleep, he heard his phone ring. He wondered who would be calling him at this hour. He turned to check his phone and April Kepner popped up on the screen.

"Hello, are you okay?" in a panicked voice.

With a soft voice she said, "I am outside your door can you let me in. We need to talk."

When he opened the door, April was standing there with tears in her eyes looking defeated. He invited her in and went to the kitchen to grab her some water and tissue. He then sat across from her on the sofa. Wiping the tears away April explained...

"Jackson, I'm so sorry for what happened in the storage room. I am in such a bad place and I just don't know what to do. In the past when I felt this way I had you to talk to. Now I feel like I don't have you. I feel lost without you."

Jackson looked at April and said, "What do you mean you don't have me? I am here for you April."

"I don't think you understand Jackson. I don't have you. Game night was so difficult for me. Seeing you interact with Priya, holding her hand and her in your space. I miss that. I miss you."

Jackson moved closer to April and said, "I keep thinking about what happened today and a lot of things came up. One of the questions that keep coming up is did I really give our marriage a chance."

April expressed, "I love you Jackson and one of the hardest things for me was losing you and I want to try again." She moved closer to him and whispered, "Can we try again?" and kissed him. Jackson did not move away and leaned into the kiss. April then got up and said, "Think about it and I will see you at work tomorrow. We can have lunch and talk about it then." She said goodbye and left.

"Damn it." Jackson sat back and thought about Maggie. I had to fight with my mother to get her to understand how much I cared for her. I also got Richard's approval. I am so confused… "Damn it."

April did not know about Maggie. Yes she knew they had feelings for each other but didn't know they acted on them. "I need to talk to Maggie. Things are new with her so if I end things now, she will understand. At least I hope she will understand. I really need to think about Harriet and how happy she will be in a home with both her parents. Something I never had. I think that I should really try for Harriet.

He continued to think about it all night and did not get much sleep.

...

The next day he saw Maggie walking into the hospital.

"Hey." Jackson said walking toward her.

Maggie turned around and smiled and kissed him on the cheek.,"Hi, Jackson."

"Can we talk." He said as he put his arms around her shoulders.

"Sure, is everything okay."

As they walked into the attendings lounge, he shut the door behind them and walked toward Maggie. Pulling her into his embrace, he hugged her and buried his face into her hair. He then pulled away and kissed her softly on her lips. He asked her to have a seat. He sat down next to her. He grabbed her left hand ran his thumb against her knuckles and placed a kiss on the palm. With his head down, he told her what happened in the storage closet with April and how April was at his apartment last night, apologizing and professing her love to him.

"I am not sure how to handle this Maggie. I know what I want to do, but it's not going to be easy at all. I don't want to hurt anyone."

Confused, Maggie looked up at Jackson and said, "So what do you want to do? Do you want to be with her?"

He looked at her with soft eyes and said "I need to try for Harriet. I am so sorry Maggie but I need to try."

Maggie looked away and wiped the tears from her eyes. She turned back and looked at Jackson and said, "I mean you had feelings. You had huge feelings and I can't expect you to just turn those feelings off."

She went to get up to leave the room and before she could, Jackson stood up and took her by the hand pulling her into his chest for a hug. He whispered, "I am so sorry Maggie," as he dug his face into her hair. "Please don't hate me. You have become such an important person in my life. I want you to know that. Please tell me that we will be able to get past this." Maggie kissed him on the cheek pulled away and said "goodbye."

Jackson left the room to find April. She was in the ER sitting in the nurses' station. He walked up behind her placing his hands on her shoulder, "Hey you, can we do dinner tonight so we can talk about us."

With a huge smile on her face April said "yes!" She jumped up and gave him a kiss out of excitement.

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Maggie went home that night and opened up a bottle of wine and sat in the living room. She thought about the conversation she had with Jackson and if it was worth mentioning to her sisters. Meredith came storming through the door with a look of confusion on her face screaming, "Maggie? What is going on? I heard April talking to Arizona about her date with Jackson. What is going on?"

Maggie looked up and said, "They are working it out. He is working it out for Harriet. They have feelings!" Maggie got up, grabbed the bottle of wine and went to her bedroom. Meredith followed her upstairs, "Maggie are you okay? Are you going to be okay?"

Meredith, "I'm fine. It was a new relationship, right. Maybe we were meant to just be friends. They have history and I have to respect that. Besides, it is better that it happened now while there are no real feelings there right," as her eyes filled up with tears.

Amelia overhearing the conversation walked into the room, "I can't believe he did that."

"I am fine."

"Maggie please don't put on a brave face for us. We know you have strong feelings for him, please stop minimizing it."

Maggie looked at both her sisters, "please don't hate him. Even though this happened, he was there for me during one of the hardest times in my life. I have to respect the fact that he wants to try to make his family work. If my mom was still here and wanted to make it work with my dad, I would want that. As much as this hurts, I want him to be happy. Even if it is not with me."

Amelia and Meredith looked at each other and then looked at Maggie, "Are you sure. We can hate him if you want." Maggie nodded her head yes as she gulped down her wine.

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