I laid on the bed shivering for hours after that, he never bothered redressing me.

As I waited for him to come back I couldn't help but let what had just happened replay in my mind, the sun setting in the background.

Why, why why why why why.

I could feel the heat of my blush rushing through my face as I recalled my bodies betrayal to my mind. I didn't want this. Why wouldn't he listen? I can feel the tears flowing down my face as everything started to fully catch up with me. Why did my body have to enjoy it so much...

I whip my head towards the door when I hear it start to open, my eyes following him as he set down two steaming mugs on his desk. He turns to me, taking a moment to asses my limp form before grabbing the key to my handcuffs and climbing on top of me once more.

The room is silent and he disappears into the bathroom after releasing me. He comes back out a moment later, picks me up in bridal style with ease, and carries me to the bathroom. I decide not to struggle, I truly don't have the energy to. A shiver runs up my spine as he places me into the bathtub, my body relishing in its heat after being cold for so long. He steps out for a few seconds before returning with the two mugs he had brought into the room when he first stepped in, placing them by the bath as he started to strip.

I avert my gaze and keep it on the water as he undresses. I can hear the rustling of clothes and it's not long before I feel him enter the large tub behind me, wrapping his arms around my waist and pulling me against his front. A contented sigh leaves his lips, and he hands one of the mugs to me. The smell of chamomile tea wafts through my nose as I take a sip, and I could feel my muscles starting to relax slightly.

I let my mind wonder as we sat there together, imagining that everything was ok like it was in the beginning. We're still a happy couple, nothing is wrong or out of place. For the time being, we just are. And it made me happy.

He pressed his lips against the spot behind my ear, nuzzling into my neck after. I couldn't help but melt into his embrace, my fingers tracing light circles over the arm he had around me. It all just feels so... right. This is where I belong, no where else would feel as good.

He is my home, no matter how broken or sinister.

This is the part of him that I adore.

I jump as I feel his other hand trailing down my chest between my breasts, wrapping around my torso over his other arm.

"You're mine, aren't you? You only belong to me, right?"

His head dips to where my neck connects to my shoulder, nuzzling his face as he nips at the skin there.

"I'm only yours Sebastian, I'll never want anyone else as long as I live" I didn't have to try hard with telling him, this is the truth after all. My truth. No one else could fulfill me like he could when he's like this, no one would be able to fill the void of his absence.

Yeah, maybe I do have a few loose screws up there.

He dropped me off home after that, leaving me with the storm knows as my mind.

I walk into the house and call out to Luke while I kick off my shoes, when I hear no reply I make my way over to the kitchen to see a note placed on top of some Chinese takeout cartons.

Have some business in New York with a company that might want to merge with my bookstore, fingers crossed that it all works out!
I left you an envelope with some cash in your room for groceries and take out, not sure when I'll be back but I'll call you and let you know as soon as I find out.
Take care of yourself kiddo!

~Luke

Sighing, I place the note aside and begin to eat.

"So you're coming over tomorrow for dinner right? My parents and my little brother really want to meet you"

I shut my eyes as I listen Izzy's words over the phone.

I completely forgot about the dinner.

I never asked Sebastian.

He's gonna kill me.

"Shit Izzy I'm so sorry I forgot to ask Luke. How about I go ask him and I'll have a reply for you by tomorrow morning maximum?"

I hear her giggle over the line as I make my way down the stairs of my home, stuffing my house keys into my clutch and grabbing my heels before sitting at the bottom step to put them on.

"It's all good clary, just keep me updated so that my mom knows wether to make enough food to include you or not"

"Sure thing Izzy" As I stand I look out the window and see Sebastians car pull up in front of my house. Well, here goes nothing.

"Listen Izzy I've got to go but I promise that I'll have an answer by tomorrow morning"

"Alright sounds good, take care!"

I end the call and exit the house, making sure to lock the door behind me before walking towards the car. As always, Sebastian is standing by the passenger side with the door open. I give him a kiss on the cheek then slide into the seat, putting on my seatbelt as he closes my door and makes his away around to the drivers seat.

I fiddle with the radio station while he drives, not really wanting to talk. Too much had happened the other day and I was still trying to process it all. He had gone way too far with what he did. He broke his promise to me, although I'm not sure as to why I'm so surprised by this. He's been nothing but an asshole since he's revealed his true colors, I should've known he wouldn't stay away from me for long.

"I hope that you're well behaved with my parents tonight my little flame, or else the next time we have a little privacy it won't be as enjoyable"

His eyes bore into mine as he says this, leaving me shivering in fear as he turns his attention back to the road, turning right to our destination.

Quite fitting that his parents choose a restaurant called Demonium, isn't it?

I greet both of his parents with a light hug, his mother fawning over my dress as we all take our seats on the squared table, commenting on how well Sebastian did choosing it for me.

In my mind, I couldn't help but think of how I'm like his own life sized doll.

Definitely an impure one.

"Tell us Clarissa, how has school been for you?"

I blink hard as I turn my face towards his father. breaking out of my train of thoughts as I see him looking at me expectantly.

"it's been going well sir, we have some new students this semester and I became friends with one of them."

"That sounds wonderful, which one did you become friends with?"

"The girl of the three siblings, her name is Isabelle, and her brothers are Jace and Alec Lightwood"

I could feel Sebastians hold on my hand under the table grow tighter at the mention of the lightwood boys, my fingers starting to cramp from the pressure.

That has the possibility of leaving a. mark, I'll need to figure out how I'm going to cover it up...

"The lightwoods you say?"

His mother puts down her glass of wine as she asks this, her eyes sparking with recognition.

Sebastian quickly answers for me.

"Why yes, do you know then mother?"

He finally releases my hand in order to fold both of his over the table, and I carefully massage my numb limb as I silently thank for diverting his attention.

"Of course I do, Robert and Maryse used to live here back when we were in high school, they used to be close to your parents Clarissa"

My head snaps up at the mention of my parents, and I look towards Sebastians mother in disbelief.

"They knew them?"

My voice barley comes out as a whisper, my hand reaching up to clutch the part of my chest where my heart would be.

They knew my parents...

"Clary darling are you alright?"

I turn my head to Sebastian as he gently takes hold of his other hand, moving it to cradle his jaw.

I could feel tears building up in my eyes, the pressure becoming more painful by the second.

"I-I'm sorry, it's just shocking to hear that they knew my parents"

I duck my head as I sniffle, trying to gain control of my emotions.

They only knew them a long time ago, why is this affecting me so much?

I hear the sound of chair legs scraping against the floor, Sebastian rising from his seat to come behind me and pull mine out, taking my hand to help me rise from my own seat.

"I'm sorry Mother and Father, but I think it would be best if Clarissa and I leave. It seems as though this discovery is quite shocking to her"

They both give their blessings to our departure, Sebastians mother apologizing. I do my best to assure her that it isn't her fault and that I would be ok, then silently follow Sebastian out to his car. I never knew that my body could shake so much, not after how much it did when my parents died.

What is happening to me?

We remain silent as Sebastian parks his car in his garage, even as he leads me into his room with a change of clothes for me.

His soft shirt feels wonderful against my skin.

I pull the fabric over my legs as I sit on his bed, my knees pulled up to my chest.

Dinner tomorrow would be so awkward...

DINNER!

My head moves to face Sebastian as he sits next to me, his eyes cautiously looking over me.

"Can I ask for a favor?"

He nods his head as he takes hold of a lock oh my hair, twirling it between his thumb and forefinger.

"Isabelle and her parents invited me over for dinner tomorrow, would you mind if I went? I promise I'll only stick to her, I won't be alone with anyone but her and I'll keep a distance from Jace"

I grab hold of the front of his shirt as I plead with him, rolling to my side in order to properly face him.

He ponders my words for a minute, moving his had to cup my face as his thumb strokes my cheek.

"Seeing as you received quite a shock tonight I'll allow it, just be careful around the others. You know that I do not trust any other man."

I nod my head vigorously, wrapping my hands around his neck and throwing my leg over his waist as I hugged him.

It felt so intimate, and as I pulled away to look at his face I couldn't help but feel drawn to him.

Maybe, if I tried initiating it myself, it wouldn't be as bad.

I slowly leaned forward and pressed my lips to his.

It, it isn't as bad as I thought it would be after what happened recently.

I wanted more.

I grabbed fist fulls of his shirt as the kiss turned more heated and his hands began to roam, grabbing any part of my body he could reach. It felt, intense, and amazing.

He swiftly flips us over as our tongues dance together, his hands roughly grabbing my hips as he grinds his hard member onto my clothed center.

It was just the right amount of sensuality without being overwhelming to my senses.

I gasp as his lips leave mine to lock onto my neck, his thrusts becoming harder and harder with each suck. It started to hurt a little, but the slight pain only seemed to fuel my pleasure. I never knew that I would be able to enjoy it like this...

We remain that way for quite some time until we're both tired out, laying on top of his bed in a mess of limbs, panting as I feel my sore lips and neck.

"Thank you" I say this as I burrow further into the sheets, nuzzling my face into his pillows.

"What for my little flame?"

He flips me over to my other side and pulls me towards his chest, spooning me as he inhales the scent of my hair.

"For not taking it too far, I doubt I would've been able to handle anything more than what we just did."

I feel his chest shake as he chuckles, his arms grip around me becoming tighter. "It was not yet time my love. But don't you worry I will claim you soon"

One of his hands trailed up my chest, and I could feel myself start to shake. What is he doing?

I get my answer when I feel his hand tightly wrap itself around my neck, his other effectively holding both of my own arms down.

I can feel my panic rising as I struggle in his hold, trying to inhale any form of oxygen. He's going to kill me if he keeps this up. 'Please please don't, I've been a good girl. I've done everything right"

I begin to see dark spots in my vision as I hear hi continue to speak, his voice menacing.

"You are mine and only mine Clarissa. For now I shall be generous and hold back but when it's time you will not deny me. Do you understand?"

I frantically nod my head as My head starts to swim more intensely, my vision getting darker with every passing second.

"Good girl."

He releases my throat and I gasp as I am finally allowed to breathe again, my lungs screaming their gratitude for the oxygen.

He wouldn't have actually killed me, would he?

I never get an answer as I feel him start to snore not long after, his hold around still as tight as it would have been if he was awake.

No no, he never would've, never...

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